Song Li will sit with Han Xiaomo when he has something to do, and if he has something to say, he will talk, and if he has nothing to say, he will just sit. But most of them are situations where there is something to say, because since Han Xiaomo went to graduate school, he has been happy to complain since then. complained that their tutors treated girls as boys and boys as beasts; complained that their senior sister was biological to their junior brother, and they were like being raised by their stepmother; complaining that the upper level oppresses the lower level for no reason; complained that the female doctor in their research group must have had a genetic mutation, so she would want to say a few words to people when she saw them······ And when he had nothing to say, Song Li knew that it was Han Xiaomo who wanted to bend. But for so many years, Han Xiaomo has never been to Qu Ran's cemetery, as if she always believes that Qu Ran has always been in a space that she thinks exists, growing infinitely. Song Li understood such a Han Xiaomo, just like until now, she still preferred to believe that the young man who had stopped growing locked in her memory was not dead, but just left.

So every year on Qu Ran's memorial day, Song Li will go alone, and this year is the same.

In the morning, the little stinky had a cough, and the child shouted to eat honey cake before going out, and the mother pulled Song Li and said that the child coughed and couldn't eat sweet, and he couldn't bring it to him when he came back, Song Li nodded and left.

There was a flower shop not far from the cemetery, and Song Li brought out seven white lilies, and then walked to the cemetery.

As soon as he arrived at the door, Song Li saw Qu Ran's car, Qu Ran's parents came out of the cemetery, and his mother looked a little haggard. I wanted to go up to say hello, but when I got to the front, I didn't know what to say, and I ran away with my desolate eyes, but I saw a bicycle in the shade of a tree. The car walked away, and Song Li walked towards the cemetery.

Really. Before he arrived, Song Li saw the expected person.

Han Xiaomo sat on the ground, took off the necklace around her neck, and hung it on her tombstone, the two rings hanging on the necklace jingled in the wind, Song Li lowered his head and smiled slightly, put the lily under the tree, this time, he changed it to "escape".

Song Li took out his mobile phone as he walked, opened WeChat, and sent a sentence, "You, are you okay?" ”

It didn't take long for a reply, "She's fine." ”

Song Li looked at the group name displayed on his phone, it was still the "you, me and her", there was her, Han Xiaomo, and Qu Ran, who had never left.

Song Li's parents have never mentioned the remarriage to Song Li, and the reason for the divorce was that his father raised a woman outside, and the other was that his father was in prison and did not want to implicate the mother and daughter. Now that my father has been free for a few years, my mother has chosen to forgive, and the family is complete. On his father's birthday that day, Song Li bought a small cake, drank two glasses with his father at night, a few glasses of belly, his father, who had always had a good amount of alcohol on weekdays, was a little drunk, after a "self-examination" and "self-criticism", he didn't say much about his mother's remarriage, Song Li looked at his mother, his mother bowed her head and didn't speak, Song Li suddenly felt sad, tears began to fall, and his father also cried, saying that he was sorry for their mother and daughter over the years, and it was time to repay them in the second half of his life. Later, my father talked about bringing Song Li back from Shanghai, he said that no matter whether you love or not, it's just Song Li, you shouldn't destroy other people's families after all, no matter what kind of brilliant future he promised you, but in the end, you are the person he talks about instead of his heart, when you are a father, I would rather be an old girl and rot at home, and my father will raise you, but such a third party, I am desperate, and I still want to bring you back, even if I know that you will hate me, hate me, hate me! Song Li, whose cheeks were slightly red because of alcohol, said, Dad, I don't hate you, it's because I'm sorry for you.

The days passed, Han Xiaomo finally got a master's diploma, on the day of the graduation ceremony, Song Li passed with a little stinky smell, and put on Han Xiaomo's master's uniform to take a photo, after the end Han Xiaomo invited a guest to the nearby Chang'an restaurant to have a good meal, on the way home at night, the child fell asleep in Song Li's arms, and Han Xiaomo drove silently.

"I've always dreamed of Chang'an lately," Song Li was the first to break the silence, "I dreamed that summer, he rode a bicycle, and I was holding his schoolbag and a big alocasia ······ he bought for me."

"Song Li, you often persuade me to face reality, I think you have to face reality too······" Han Xiaomo was a little unbearable and interrupted.

"I know," Song Li smiled bitterly at the corner of her mouth, she lowered her head and touched the child's hair, "But I have never dreamed of him so often before, it may be that he thinks that I am in love with someone else and betrays our feelings, so he never comes to my dreams to find me, but I really can always dream of him recently." I haven't been back to the county to see him this year, Xiao Mo, do you think I miss him, or does he miss me? Song Li turned his head to look at her, and there were some tears in his eyes.

Han Xiaomo stopped and waited for the red light, she lowered her head, pursed her lips, and then said to her, "Don't always think about it, everyone has had great joy and great sorrow, since you have come over, it means that we all still have a head start for the days to come, I know what you mean, but Song Li, there is no Ran Changan, there is no Xiao Pei, and now you don't have Chen Xi, the rest is yourself, pure yourself, do you understand?" You've got to live your life, you know? ”

Song Li never thought that these words came out of the mouth of Han Xiaomo, who she thought was as young and ignorant as her, looking at the people around her, she couldn't speak for a long time, and after a while, the car walked by the neon, she smiled lightly, "What you said seems to be my mother's tone, but she doesn't persuade me like this now." ”

The car stopped at the gate of the family courtyard, Song Li got out of the car with the child in his arms, Han Xiaomo sat here and lowered the co-pilot's window, and said, "Go back to rest early, when will you go back to the county seat to see him, call me." ”

Song Li just smiled, turned around and took the child home.