Chapter 185: Reason
Shi Ningyue slowly stood up and sighed lightly: "Young Master Fang, Ning Yue must apologize to you. Sister Ruomei's departure may have something to do with some of the things I said to her at the beginning. So far, I won't hide it from you. ”
Fang Zi'an said in a deep voice: "What did you tell her?" ”
Shi Ningyue held the canopy in her hand, looked at the red boat and green willows on the lake in the distance, and said softly: "Childe still remember what I asked you after I learned that Sister Ruomei left when you lived in my house in August last year?" ”
Fang Zi'an frowned and thought for a while: "You and I have talked a lot, how do I know which sentence it is." ”
Shi Ningyue said softly: "When you told me about Sister Ruomei's departure from Lin'an, I asked you if Sister Ruomei was annoyed with me, do you remember?" ”
Fang Zi'an suddenly remembered this, Shi Ningyue did say something that day, saying that Ruomei didn't come to say goodbye to her, did she annoy her. I also had some doubts in my heart at the time, Zhang Ruomei left without telling Shi Ningyue, which was indeed a little strange. And when she learned that Zhang Ruomei was leaving, Shi Ningyue was actually worried about whether Ruomei was annoying her, which was even more strange. Something seems to have happened between the two. It's just that this doubt was just a flash at that time, and I was admiring the moon with Shi Hao and his wife that day, so I didn't think much about it. Now it seems that there really is something else going on.
“…… When Sister Ruomei stayed at my house for a few days, we had nothing to talk about when we met again after a long absence. One day we talked about you. I didn't know you were close to her at the time, only that you saved her and left her to hide at home. You know, I love poetry, and I've admired your writings for a long time after reading them. I'm not afraid of being ashamed, after seeing your real person that day, especially after talking about it at the table, Ning Yue admired Childe in her heart. So after Childe left, I didn't hide my good feelings for you in front of Sister Ruomei. Whenever we talk about you, I'm afraid I'm going to be too obvious. But I swear to God, I really don't know what kind of relationship you have with Sister Ruomei. Shi Ningyue recounted the situation softly, her face flushed with the girl's health. I don't know if it's excitement or shyness.
Fang Zi'an didn't know what to say, so he just stood quietly at the bow of the boat and was silent. Listen to Shi Ningyue continue.
Shi Ningyue's thoughts flew to the few days when Zhang Ruomei and herself were reunited. To be honest, the two are few playmates, and the reunion is still joyful. But in just a few days, Shi Ningyue also felt the estrangement between the two. For example, she likes to read and write poetry, and likes things like piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, but Zhang Ruomei doesn't understand them at all, and she doesn't like them at all. When she tried to talk to her about these things, Zhang Ruomei was dumbfounded. This made the topic of the reunion of the two become very few, except for reminiscing about the events of their youth, the only topic that can be talked about together is Fang Zi'an.
I did say a lot about my feelings for Fang Zi'an, because I didn't connect Zhang Ruomei and Fang Zi'an at all, so I also expressed my admiration for Fang Zi'an a little unscrupulously. In his own opinion, Fang Zi'an is a reader, and a reader with such exquisite lyrics and writing will never have any entanglement with Zhang Ruomei, who has no interest in poetry. Those are people from two worlds, and they are not related to each other at all.
On the day when Zhang Ruomei was leaving, when the two were walking in the garden to say goodbye, the topic talked about Fang Zi'an again. Of course, Shi Ningyue clearly remembered the conversation that day.
"Ning Yue, do you think that Fang Gongzi will win the imperial examination this time?"
"Of course, Sister Ruomei, Fang Gongzi is a must, I have absolute confidence in him. He is so high, if he doesn't win, isn't the court blind? If nothing else, Fang Gongzi will definitely win, and the future is promising. ”
"Do you have so much faith in him? I don't know much about reading, but when you say that, I'm relieved. I also hope that he can go to high school, and after becoming an official, he will be able to fight with Qin Hui's old thief. I have avenged my father and Marshal Yue, who were killed by the old thief. ”
"Sister Ruomei, revenge is naturally avenged, but you must not use this matter to put pressure on Fang Gongzi. That would be extremely disadvantageous to the other son. If Fang Gongzi is against Qin Hui, he will definitely be dangerous every step of the way, and he must be careful everywhere. And it takes a lot of help. Even if he becomes an official, it will be very difficult if there is no one to support him in the court. If Qin Hui's old thief catches any tricks, he will end up miserable. So, Sister Ruomei, don't force him. ”
“…… You're right. ”
"Also, Sister Ruomei, you must not reveal your identity. It's actually very dangerous for you to hide in Fang Gongzi's house. If once your identity is revealed, Fang Gongzi will not talk about any future, and the criminal who harbored and assassinated the prime minister will be enough to ruin him. So Sister Ruomei, you might as well move to my house to live permanently, my home is safe, and Qin Hui doesn't dare to do anything with my father. The emperor respects my father very much. And in that case, you and I can be together every day. I can teach you to read and write, to write poems and lyrics. Wouldn't it be nice if you could teach me martial arts? ”
“……”
"Sister Ruomei, if you think about it, it will be good for you and the other son. I also plan to tell my father and ask him to take care of Fang Gongzi more. If my father could teach him from time to time, he would be more successful in the future. My dad admires him and I like him too, if...... If...... Ah...... Sister Ruomei, am I a little shameless, I think about some things, you won't laugh at me. ”
“…… You're not fooling...... You're right. ”
“…… In fact, Sister Ruomei, I just thought, Fang Gongzi and I are like-minded, and we will definitely get along. If you don't love poetry, you don't understand, if you don't like poetry, there is a sense of sympathy between people who like poetry. For example, Fang Gongzi wrote a poem, but no one could appreciate the meaning of his words, which was a very painful thing for him. It's like a person who plays music should have a soulmate, and he needs to have someone who understands himself to be together, how happy and happy it is. Otherwise, it will be a pain and suffering. In the future, when you come to live in my house, I will teach you to read, learn how to write, and write poetry, and you will understand. ”
“…… I...... Got it...... Ning Yue, if you can marry Fang Gongzi, you will be a happy fairy couple. Moreover, your father can also justifiably teach Fang Gongzi. Fang Gongzi's future needs this help...... Instead of...... Get him in trouble...... You will definitely take good care of Fang Gongzi, it can be seen that you really like him. ”
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On the bow of the canopy, Shi Ningyue retold the content of that day's conversation to Fang Zi'an, without missing a word. She turned her head, looked at Fang Zi'an, who was frowning, and said softly: "Young Master Fang, I thought back afterwards and realized that what I said at that time was a blow to Sister Ruomei. But at the time, I didn't understand it at all. The more I thought about it later, the more I felt that something was wrong, that I was too slow, and if there was no affection between you and Sister Ruomei, how could you live under the same roof. I'm so stupid. If I had known this, I would never have said it. I think Sister Ruomei must have misunderstood me. I always wanted to find a chance to explain it to her, but I didn't expect her to leave suddenly. When I got the news of her departure, my first reaction was that she was annoyed with me. I haven't had the courage to confess this to you, and I'm afraid you'll think I did it on purpose. Now that I have spoken out, I am at peace in my heart. If the son is annoyed with me, scold me and beat me. It's all my fault. ”
Fang Zi'an looked at Shi Ningyue's pretty face in a daze, and he didn't know what kind of taste he had in his heart. How could he beat and scold Shi Ningyue, Shi Ningyue didn't do anything wrong. Shi Ningyue's growth environment is completely different from Ruomei's, although she experienced some ups and downs in her childhood, she generally lived a comfortable life. Shi Hao is gentle and knowledgeable, and regards Shi Ningyue as the pearl of his palm. Mrs. Shi is also a gentle and kind person. Shi Ningyue, who grew up in this environment, is pure and simple, gentle and affectionate, and is a delicate flower that does not know the cruelty of the world.
Fang Zi'an believed that such a Shi Ningyue would not have any scheming to deliberately say those words. She just met her childhood sister, and she talked to her about everything, sharing the secrets in her heart. She also simply believes that the affection between men and women lies in the mutual appreciation. It is not ruled out that she really thinks that Ruomei is inappropriate with herself, and Ruomei's identity is also embarrassing, so she didn't connect Ruomei with herself at all. Those words were the words of her heart, and she said them when she thought of them, and nothing else. How could I blame her. Besides, she likes herself and confesses to herself with great courage, which is actually extremely difficult for her. How could he trample on her true feelings.
On the contrary, it was Zhang Ruomei, her decision to leave was actually a manifestation of some lack of firm love. Her starting point may be for her own sake, and in her opinion, it may be a generous withdrawal, but in fact, it is not a selfish decision. Of course, Fang Zi'an can't blame Zhang Ruomei, he can fully understand the entanglement in Zhang Ruomei's heart, and leaving him is not a difficult choice for her. Ask what the situation in the world is, who can explain it clearly, and understand the reason.
"Ning Yue, you're not wrong, and Ruomei is not wrong. You are all good to me, how can I let you do this to me. It's me who is wrong. The matter has come to this, since Ruomei has already gone to Taihang Mountain, it is also helpless. In the future, it will be explained when there is a chance. Thank you for telling me all of this today, I think that's the end of it, and none of us need to mention it again. Fang Zi'an sighed and said.
Shi Ningyue bowed and said softly: "Thank you, don't care about this matter." But do you still have to wait for Sister Ruomei to come back? Otherwise, I'll write a letter explaining the matter so that she can come back sooner? ”
Fang Zi'an smiled bitterly: "She is in the middle of the mountains, how can she receive the letter you wrote?" She can send someone to deliver a letter across the river and send it to Lin'an. We can't get in touch with her. Don't you understand? She didn't actually misunderstand you, she chose to leave me. She has always been self-assertive. If she wants to come back, she will come back one day. Don't bother her. ”
Shi Ningyue nodded lightly and said, "Okay, listen to you." ”
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