Volume 1 Wind and Rain into Lin'an Chapter 159 Absurd
"Zi'an, I've been thinking about how to solve Ling'er's problem these days. I don't think the reason why Ling'er has an attachment to me is that she was born like this. I have a similar background to her, so I should know her better than others. I've been wondering why she's the way she is these days, and I think I've found the answer. Ling'er is actually extremely insecure in her heart, and she also lacks the care of others. Her mother left her when she was very young, and had to live with her father in the mountains. Later, her father also died in front of her eyes, think about it, how can a girl of a few years bear such a blow? Naturally, some elusive changes have taken place psychologically. Can you say that what she did today is all her fault? She's a poor person, too. ”
Facing the stunned Fang Zi'an, Qin Xiqing said softly.
Fang Zi'an said: "Isn't her mother dead?" Why did she abandon her again? ”
Qin Xiqing said softly: "That's because I didn't make it clear to you, her mother left home when she was four years old and never returned." Ling'er's father is not only a hunter, but also a general in the army named Shen Yuanliang. He was subordinate to Zhang Jun, the commander of the Huaixi Army. The imperial court decided to negotiate peace, Marshal Yue was killed, Zhang Jun was degraded by the seizure of military power, and a loyal minister was framed, which broke the hearts of many officers and soldiers in the army, and Shen Yuanliang and many generals resigned from their military posts and left the army. Shen Yuanliang took his wife to hunt in the mountains for a living. However, Ling'er's mother was born as a rich lady, and Shen Yuanliang was quite brave and famous in the army back then. Since ancient times, beauties love heroes, and after being matched, they married Ling'er's mother. But once the hero becomes a mountain village man, making a living by hunting, chopping wood, and farming, it's a different story. ”
Fang Zi'an was surprised, it turned out that Shen Ling'er's father was not an ordinary person, no wonder when he heard Shen Ling'er's life story that day, he was surprised that even the Orions in Taihang Mountain dared to fight to the death with the Jin people, which was somewhat incomprehensible. Even if the people of the Great Song Dynasty had the backbone and refused to be enslaved by the Jin, it was rare for ordinary people to have such bravery, after all, most of the people were timid and weak.
There are servants in the Great Song Dynasty Hook Column who make a joke and say: Jin Guo has Sticky Han, and I have Yue Shaobao; Jin has a willow leaf gun, and I have a phoenix bow; Gold has chisel arrows, I have chain mail; The Jin country has a mace, and I have the heavenly spirit cover. Although the last sentence is a joke, it shows that the people are actually in a state of fear and powerless to fight against the Jin people. This is actually the mentality of the vast majority of the people of the Song Dynasty.
But knowing that Shen Ling'er's father turned out to be a general in the army and a military general who had fought against the Jinren, then his resistance was logical. And Shen Ling'er's mother turned out to be a rich lady who Shen Yuanliang admired him when he was in the army, but later ended up as a hunter in the mountains, and the aura of a hero faded, and that kind of loss was unbearable for her.
Sure enough, I only heard Qin Xiqing continue: "Ling'er's mother can't stand this kind of hard days of coarse tea and light rice, and Shen Yuanliang is originally from the army, so the two have similar interests. Finally, two years after Ling'er was born, Ling'er's mother left them and disappeared. Although Ling'er was only three years old at the time, she vaguely remembered that her parents often quarreled. Hey, poor Ling'er, my mother is gone, my father is dead, how miserable. I asked myself about my life experience, but in fact, Ling'er was worse than me, at least my parents and brothers loved me before I was eight years old, and my memory was warm when I remembered them. But as for her, I'm afraid she doesn't have any warmth and sweetness. ”
When Fang Zi'an heard this, he also sighed in his heart. Shen Ling'er is indeed miserable enough, much worse than she imagined.
"Ling'er has always been reluctant to talk to me about her childhood, and she told me the truth when she got drunk last year. She said that she actually missed his father at all, and that since his mother left, his father was often drunk, and when he was drunk, he became moody, sometimes pointing at her and scolding her, and sometimes beating her hard. Her only friend is a family hound. But one day she couldn't find the hound, and at night she saw her father eating dog meat at home with some hunters. All her good friend had left was a skin. Her father said that the dog was injured and could no longer hunt, so he raised the food, so he simply slaughtered, skinned and cooked wine. Since then, Ling'er has hated her father very much. She said that when her father was broken by the golden man, she was even a little happy in her heart. The only thing she felt Shen Yuanliang had left her useful was that he had taught her kung fu since she was a child, so that she could not be bullied when she was wandering on the streets. I can grab something to eat. Other than that, she didn't have the slightest thought or gratitude for her father. Qin Xiqing continued.
Fang Zi'an felt his scalp tingle, according to Qin Xiqing's words, that Shen Yuanliang was actually a bastard. Maybe he does have some bravery, but he is vulgar, and he treats his daughter so roughly, and he is a bastard with no heart. Shen Ling'er lives with a father like Shen Yuanliang, I'm afraid that every second of every day is a torment. Maybe the reason why she has a deformed psychology may be related to this Shen Yuanliang, she may feel that all men in the world are bastards like her father, so they will gradually develop to the point where they are now.
"Why didn't you tell me these things before? You didn't tell me the truth the other day. Fang Zi'an frowned.
Qin Xiqing said softly: "Zi'an, it's not that I don't say it, but Ling'er actually wants to kill you, this matter is very serious." How could I allow her to do such a thing? I don't want you to misunderstand me and think I'm excusing Ling'er. So what? Can you change the fact that she's going to kill you? So I'm going to tell you a little bit about her origins, but I don't tell you everything. If you blame me, I will not argue that it is my fault, and I should not hide anything from you. ”
Fang Zi'an said: "Then why are you telling this now?" Does that change the fact that she almost killed me? ”
Qin Xiqing said softly: "Zi'an, I have been tormenting in this matter for the past few days, on the one hand, I am very angry with what Ling'er did, and she attacked you, even if there are ten thousand reasons for me to forgive her." But, on the other hand, I can't be unmoved in my heart, after all, Ling'er has been with me for so many years, and I have always treated her as my own sister. Even if you want to deal with her, you should make things clear. Zi'an, I'm actually very grateful to you, the reason why you haven't asked me to deal with Ling'er is actually because of my feelings. According to your temper, you will definitely get revenge. Didn't you also say that you wanted to give Ling'er a chance that day? Since you want to give her a chance, you should save Ling'er. She's walking on the edge of a cliff now, maybe we'll pull it and she'll turn back. If we push, she will fall into the abyss. She deserves to die, but wouldn't it be better to save someone than to kill her? ”
Fang Zi'an was silent, he was of course Shen Ling'er very annoyed before. If she wants to kill herself, then she can't be polite to her. It is true that he was not too radical because he was afraid of Qin Xiqing's feelings. And now, after hearing Shen Ling'er's more tragic experience, Fang Zi's peace of mind also gave birth to compassion for Shen Ling'er. It's easy to kill someone, and erasing a person's life is the easiest thing to do, but if you can save a person's soul, that's obviously a better way. Besides, Shen Ling'er is a living person, not a stranger she doesn't know, she also has a close relationship with Qin Xiqing, and she is a useful person with high martial skills. Do you really want to kill her at all costs? That doesn't seem to be the way I want it to be.
"Zi'an, I know that you are not the kind of ruthless and ruthless person, although Ling'er has done something wrong, I still hope that you can give her a chance to mend her ways. I want you to help me pull her out of the abyss. I can only ask you to help me with this. To be honest, I can't bear to deal with Ling'er hastily. Qin Xiqing pleaded softly.
Fang Zi'an said: "I still don't understand what you mean, you said that you want to take me a concubine, do you want me to ...... Want me to ......"
Qin Xiqing nodded and said, "Yes, I thought about it and thought that Ling'er lacked a sense of security and love." She wasn't really that perverted to me, she just guarded what she thought was precious, and she saw me as her dependence. When she found out that she liked you, she was afraid that you would snatch me away from her, so she was hostile to you. So, the only way to address her worries is to let her know that I will not leave her and that I am still there for her to protect her. Not only that, but you and I will protect her, which may ease her anxiety. I thought about it for a long time, why don't you accept her, so that she feels that we haven't abandoned her. She lacks love, and if we give her love and give her a sense of security, maybe we can turn her back and make her a normal person. You tell me? ”
Fang Zi'an didn't know what to say, and said with a wry smile: "Xiqing, Xiqing, your heart is too kind." But you're ridiculous. How did you come up with such a solution? Does this work? Do you think she's a kitten or a puppy? Say what you want? She hates me to the bone and wants to kill me, but I want to repay my grievances with virtue? Instead, you want to take her as a concubine? Not to mention that this matter is ridiculous, even if it is done according to what you say, what if she is still the same as me? Am I not luring the wolf into the house? What if she continues to harass you and hate me? ”
Qin Xiqing was stunned for a while, and said with a gloomy expression: "I know that this seems to be inappropriate, but I really can't think of any other way to get the best of both worlds." I really wanted to give her a hand, I didn't want to just give her up. Zi'an, you can help me once, can't you try? Ling'er is not ugly, if you ......"
"Shut up!" Fang Zi'an frowned and interrupted: "Ridiculous! This is absolutely not possible. What do you think of me? ”
Qin Xiqing's face turned pale, she stood up and knelt beside Fang Zi'an, and said in a low voice: "It's Xiqing's fault, I shouldn't talk nonsense." Don't be angry, I apologize to you. If you don't want to, I won't force you. That's it. Zi'an, don't be angry. ”
Fang Zi'an sighed, stretched out his hand to pull her up, and said, "What are you doing here?" I understand your feelings, and it's not like I don't want to take care of your feelings. In this way, you have a good talk with Shen Ling'er and open her heart knot. As long as she stops being hostile to me and doesn't think about killing me, I don't care about what she does to me. Shen Ling'er's life is indeed miserable, but it is not my fault, and I have no reason to do anything for her. This matter is no longer to be discussed. ”
Qin Xiqing was silent for a long time, speechless for a long time.
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