Chapter 206: Willing to be with you
Xu Xianxian, who was physically and mentally fragile, finally woke up under the rescue of the doctor. When she opened her eyes and saw that the first person she saw was Wen Yijie, she felt as if she was still alive. However, the fact that she woke up was more painful than dead. Because, she will never forget his cruelty and ruthlessness to herself.
Seeing her open her eyes, Wen Yijie immediately clenched her hand, so tightly that she had no chance to break away. "Slim ...... It's great that you're awake, thank goodness! God has eyes and has woken you up. It scared me so much, how scared I was that you just left! What about your family? And what about your favorite brother? ”
Xu Xianxian turned his head and ignored him, for his current cold greetings, maybe it was just out of guilt. And didn't really care about her. All his heart was given to Jiang Jingluo, and even a trace of tenderness was given to her.
She's in his world, it's not important at all. It's good to be dead, but why did you wake up again? She was obviously ruthless and cut her arteries with a knife. It may be that the cut is not too deep.
His eyes suddenly darkened, and he had an apologetic and helpless expression, "Slim...... I'm really sorry! All of this is an indelible mark that I have left on you. I'm sorry for you! I know the sweetness and pain of loving someone. I also understand how you feel ignored and indifferent by me. You and I are in the same mood. It's like I love and love her. However, she will never get her love! But, even so, I feel very happy to do so. ”
She closed her eyes silently, and at this moment, why did he say these words that scarred her! She wanted to die so much that she didn't hear anything, and then she would be out of the sea of misery forever.
"I decided...... Decided to let go of everything, Slim, and I'll make it up to you. As long as your body recovers quickly. I will be with you every day. Wen Yijie held her hand tightly, his eyes flashing with sincerity. It also seems to represent a change in him.
She blinked and stared at him in disbelief, "Coaxing me again...... Is it? So what about Sister Jingluo? Make up for?! I really don't expect you to make up for me! I know that no matter how hard I try, I won't get a chance for you to look at it squarely, even for a second, your heart has been given to her wholeheartedly, and I ...... It's just a foil. You...... I really don't have to be wronged to be by my side because I'm sorry. Go find your Jingluo! I don't need you! While saying the last sentence, I also deeply hurt myself. She knew that every word he said was an opportunity to give her hope. However, she was afraid to accept all this, afraid that she had fallen into another trap and could not extricate herself.
He slapped his head and hammered it again. Xu Xianxian looked at him in a panic, the snapping sound kept ringing, and he punched himself.
"It's all me, damn it. Why would I ignore such a girl who loves me. I'm damned. Such a good girl, I should cherish it well, not hurt her so much. I was wrong, very wrong. ”
Seeing that he was constantly abusing himself, Xu Xianxian felt very unbearable when he saw it. Reaching out to stop him, his hands tightly pulled his arm: "Don't...... Why hit yourself like this. This...... It's not your fault, it's me...... I shouldn't have pestered you like this, you don't love me, I should have retreated knowingly! It's me who deserves to be beaten, it's me who belittles myself. I shouldn't have caught you. I want to open ...... I really want to open it...... I shouldn't be so irresponsible to myself, so irresponsible, to make my parents sad, love...... It really hurts. However, it made me know that love is not the only one, and that there are still my father, mother, and my most beloved brother at home, who all love me. I'm not alone, I'm not alone at all! I love you, however, I love my family even more! Losing one of you is nothing! I almost ...... I almost ruined myself and ruined my happy home. ”
After suddenly opening up, she felt that her heart was no longer so dull. It's just that there is still a faint pain in my heart. The feeling of resignation is like an ant crawling up, tickling and writhing.
Hearing this, Wen Yijie felt even more sorry for Xu Xianxian. Let her hurt herself again and again, abuse herself. His conscience really can't stand the condemnation, it's really unfair to her.
"Slim, I'm really sorry! If you believe me, please give me a chance to love you. I won't hurt you anymore. I don't hate you at all, it's just ...... Before, I was too obsessed with myself, thinking that if I tried a little harder, I could win her heart, but no matter how hard I tried to express myself in front of her, it was in vain. Tired, heart ...... Really tired. I love her so much...... However, the actions taken are not rewarded in return. I'm really tired...... I wanted to find a safe haven that I could rely on! And you...... It's my safe haven! Slim ...... Will you give me a chance? Believe me! I'm not going to let you get hurt in the slightest. He sincerely held her slender and soft hand, and the sincere emotion was his serious eyes.
There was some promise in her tenderness, and it was the first time she had heard him say that. She understood that he was a persistent person. Once something has been decided, it is difficult to persuade you to go back.
She smiled softly and withdrew her clenched hand, "Huh...... Yijie ...... You, you really don't have to be so wronged by yourself, I really don't care, I can live well alone! "Although my heart really hurts, it seems that the blood is flowing unstoppably, and the astringent pain of the blood slowly flowing out of the blood vessels is unbearable.
He grabbed her hand again, and she looked him in the eye, and he said to her solemnly, and asked her to look at him closely: "Listen to me!" Everything I just said is serious! Don't you believe me at all? I admit that I am responsible for you. But you've got to give me a chance to mend my ways. Would you like to start over with me? I'm willing to take care of you like this for the rest of my life. There was truth in his eyes. This is the first time Xu Xianxian has seen a different look. She knew that this time, he was serious. However, she really didn't want to accept her because of his sympathy. If you don't really love yourself in your heart, what's the point of being together. She didn't want a soulless shell to lie in the same bed as her. But the heart is with others.
"Maybe what you're saying is true. However, it was really hard for me to convince myself anymore. I'm really sorry...... Maybe I'm cowardly! I don't want to hurt myself anymore. If it had been before, I would have agreed to your request without hesitation. But...... This time, I really didn't have the slightest bit of confidence. I'm really scared...... I'm afraid that I will lose the man I love again. Once again, I hurt myself for the fall of love. It's better to be dead. She shook her head, feeling that she was really whimsical, thinking of something impossible.
Wen Yijie suddenly hugged her, "No...... Not like that! I'm sorry...... I've really hurt you too much...... It's too deep...... I know you're refusing to protect yourself. I swear I won't break you again! As soon as I was discharged from the hospital, I told my family...... Marry you! ”
These two words can never come out of Wen Yijie's mouth. Today, however, he said a lot of things that were exceptional to her. She hadn't heard of it. That's it...... Her actions changed his opinion of himself, and he decided to treat her well. Within half an hour of waking up, she felt that these things still made her a little hard to believe.
She hesitated, looked up at him and said, "What about your Jingluo?" Will you still be with her? Will you really be able to let her go? ”
He hesitated. His brows frowned tightly, he knew that it was really difficult to let go of Jiang Jingluo for a while! I've been in love with her for almost three years, and it's been four years since I had a crush on her. He knew that Jiang Jingluo was the only girl in the world who made him feel tempted at a glance. However, he will never be able to get her.
What you can't get will always be the best in your heart. Now, he just wants to keep Jiang Jingluo in a corner of his heart forever, reminiscing, and hiding it deeply.
He knew it couldn't be, but just remembering the happy times with her made him feel satisfied.
"I'm going to let go and slowly accept all the realities. How can I give up on you who love me so much! I knew that her heart would never be able to hold me. So, I had to give up on her. And...... I like you, I really do. Although it has not yet reached the point of love. However, I always think that feelings are cultivated slowly, and over time, I will definitely fall in love with you. ”
Hearing his heartfelt words, Xu Xianxian finally resurrected from the ashes and ignited another glimmer of hope, which was the most powerful words she heard when she woke up naturally. Is this God's compensation for her?! He...... Finally figured it all out. He finally had to accept himself and give up Jiang Jingluo. This is a boon to her.
She really loves him, she really loves him! He really couldn't bear to refuse him. Love him and really tolerate everything he has in the past. Only, now, he's good to himself! That's fine.
With tears in her eyes, she smiled and nodded, and threw herself into his arms. Wen Yijie hugged her body tightly. At this moment, he felt relieved of everything in his body and mind. I don't feel stressed anymore. It turned out that letting go of everything made my body and mind relaxed. It's a really good feeling...... Very good!