41. Soul Leaving Gu Ying self-pity
When Rao Anran woke up the next day, Luping had already woken up, she looked at the warm yellow tent roof, raised her hand and touched her face, and pinched it again. Sure it wasn't a dream, she smiled helplessly before getting up and washing.
Eating porridge for breakfast, or Luping reminded that today was Laba Festival, and she remembered that it was almost the New Year.
"We had breakfast, went to the streets, and bought some New Year's goods." Luping said with great interest.
Hearing this, Rao Anran couldn't help laughing, "Buy New Year's goods now, I'm afraid you'll finish everything before you reach the thirtieth night." ”
"Where?" Luping hurriedly denied, "It's clear that Caixia eats a lot ......"
At this point, she didn't say any more. The two of them are now in a broken house, and when they mention it again, they will only increase their sadness. And the others also tacitly did not mention this matter again, and the whole family happily packed up the house to prepare for the New Year.
Lu Ping was afraid that Rao Anran would be bored sitting in the house all day long, or that she would be sad and sad when she got into Mu Jingcheng's house, and when she went out to buy New Year's goods, she even tricked her out of the door.
New Year's goods, how much money can be purchased, Wu's mother told them along the way that there is a way for rich people, and there is a way for those who have no money. But there is a big difference between the south and the north, Luping looks at everything fresh and likes everything, and buys a lot of gadgets that are useless in Wu's mother's opinion. Rao Anran is also a person who has never been a homemaker, and when Luping said to buy it, she also said to buy it.
Wu's mother smiled: "It's a loss of two girls, if the two sons are like this, I definitely won't agree to buy it." ”
Rao Anran smiled and pushed the responsibility away, "This girl hasn't seen anything in the world, so you let her see it fresh." ”
Luping: "......"
You are the master, and you are right.
Other things can be bought or not, but the door god is a must-have for every family, Lu Ping looked at the various door gods painted on the stall, and said with a smile: "The first time I saw Qin Qiong, I was more ugly than Wei Chi Gong." As he spoke, he hurriedly showed it to Rao Anran.
Rao Anran was holding the portrait and was about to say something, but she caught a glimpse of a person, who was exactly the same as the Mu Jingcheng she saw in her dream. Her heart sank, and she couldn't care much for a while, so she put down the portrait and hurriedly looked for it in the crowd.
Luping and Wu's mother didn't know why, so they hurriedly chased after them.
However, there were too many people on the street, and before she could catch up, she was squeezed away by the crowd, and she could only watch the man go away.
Luping chased after her and hurriedly asked her what was wrong.
She glanced at Luping and Wu's mother, a little embarrassed, but she couldn't tell the truth, so she could only lie: "I saw a person like Chenhui just now." ”
Hearing this, the two couldn't help laughing, "I'm afraid the girl is confused, why don't you go home when the little general comes back, and you're still in the mood to go shopping?" ”
Rao Anran smiled wryly, and could only admit that he was dazzled.
……
It began to snow lightly at night, Rao Anran looked at the light snow, his mind was full of the person he met today, and he suspected that he had seen it wrong. But the man's face and smile were exactly the same as what she had seen in her dreams. Lu Ping took the cotton clothes and put them on for her, thinking that she was thinking about Mu Chenhui, so she comforted her softly: "There are many things to do during the New Year, and it is normal for him to not be able to get out, if you miss him, you can write to him and tell him that he should come to see you." ”
She looked back at Lu Ping, shook her head helplessly and smiled, how could she not know Mu Chenhui's difficulties? It's just that she was thinking about something else, was it Mu Jingcheng who entered her dream? If that dream was a coincidence, how can we explain today's events? For a moment, she wondered about the dream. Could it be that Mu Jingcheng is the reincarnation? But why did I dream of him again? After thinking about it, she couldn't explain anything, and she also felt upset. It's just that she can't tell others about her thoughts, she can only digest them by herself.
"He is going to come back to worship his ancestors, and he will be able to see him then." She laughed in harmony.
Luping smiled and nodded, "It's best for you to think like this, it's time to rest late at night." ”
She nodded and said yes, but when she closed her eyes, she was all like that person, thinking wildly, and she didn't know when she fell asleep.
……
The snow in the south fell lightly, but it was piled up three feet deep all night, Rao Anran rarely had a lot of fun, pulled Luping to build a snowman, and installed eyes for the snowman, but found that the snowman had no nose, and Luping said to go to the kitchen to get carrots.
Rao responded and bent down to continue grooming her snowman. When he looked up again, he saw Mu Jingcheng leaning in front of his courtyard gate from afar, looking at her with a smile on his face.
Her heart sank, but she immediately realized that she was dreaming again, and she didn't go over thinking like this.
Mu Jingcheng saw that her expression was indifferent, so he walked over and asked with a smile: "What's the matter, as soon as you see me, you pull your face." ”
"You're not real, I'm just dreaming." She lowered her head and said in a deep tone.
Hearing this, the expression on Mu Jingcheng's face darkened, and he smiled: "So that's the case, then you should wake up quickly." ”
She raised her eyes to look at him, her face was full of reluctance, and lowered her head again: "I ......"
"What are you?" Mu Jingcheng still asked with a smile.
She sighed in her heart, looked up at him and said, "Actually, everything you say is my imagination, you are me, I am you, right?" ”
Mu Jingcheng nodded, the smile on his face was still undiminished, he bent down, looked at her and said softly: "So, you can talk to me about anything, and you can talk to me about those things that can't be said during the day." I am you. ”
Hearing this, she only felt a slack in her heart, and her eyes were full of tears when she looked at him, but she stubbornly refused to fall.
Mu Jingcheng saw it in his eyes, full of distress, raised his hand on her shoulder, and said softly: "Now it's only you and me, no one will laugh at you, cry if you want to, don't bear it." ”
Listening to his words, she couldn't hold back the grievances in her stomach anymore, and hugged him all of a sudden. The pain of the destruction of the family, the bitterness of leaving home, and the sorrow of lovesickness that cannot be resolved all poured out for a while.
During the day, she had to restrain her emotions, afraid that Luping and Wu's mother would worry, and that Mu Chenhui would be embarrassed when she found out. Her current embarrassing identity, how to go on with Mu Chenhui, she has no bottom in her heart. Therefore, when she heard about Mu Jingcheng, she was envious and emotional, thinking whether she would be so firmly chosen by Mu Chenhui?
Her heart is full of Mu Chenhui!
She hugged Mu Jingcheng and cried, Mu Jingcheng also hugged her, patted her back gently, and said softly: "Okay, okay, I can't accompany you during the day, I'll accompany you at night." ”
Hearing this, the bitterness in her heart was even worse, her heart was like a knife, and she cried out of breath. Mu Jingcheng hugged her tightly, his chin resting on the top of her head, "I will accompany you, don't worry, I'm here." ”
She mumbled in a very nasal voice, and suddenly heard Luping calling out to her. She wiped away her tears, "I'm leaving again." ”
Mu Jingcheng raised his hand to wipe her tears, and said with a smile: "See you next time." As he spoke, he slowly faded out of her sight.
"Girl...... The girl ......" Luping looked at her anxiously, hoping to wake her up quickly.
And Rao Anran opened her eyes, looked at Luping, and before she could ask, she explained: "I miss home." ”
Hearing this, Lu Ping sighed helplessly, raised her hand to wipe away her tears, and said with a smile: "The snow is very thick outside, I'll take you to build a snowman." ”
Her heart sank, but suddenly she felt a sense of relief, and said yes with a smile.
And when building a snowman, it happened to be missing the snowman's nose, and Luping really wanted to get the carrots. When she was waiting for Luping, she looked up at the door of Mu Jingcheng's courtyard, thinking that he was looking at her like this in her dream yesterday. Thinking like this, she couldn't help laughing, remembering that there was a word called Gu Ying's self-pity.
However, she could clearly recall the faint scent of sandalwood on his body, the warmth of his embrace, and the tone of his voice. It's like Mu Chenhui's embrace when she left the capital.
But with that absurd but able to convince her own dream, when she dreamed of Mu Jingcheng again, she didn't have such a big psychological burden. no longer cares about him being Mu Chenhui's uncle, and no longer cares about what is true or false, but those words that are difficult to say during the day can be vented at will in dreams.
She but Mu Jingcheng is a friend, and she is also half an elder, and she talks about everything with him in her dreams, from the Three Emperors and Five Emperors to the Romance of the Script, and the bits and pieces of life are all babbling and listening to him. What she looks forward to most every day is to dream at night, and when she sleeps until dawn, she will be annoyed for a long time if she doesn't dream of Mu Jingcheng.
This time, after a few days, she finally dreamed of Mu Jingcheng again, she looked at him with a smile on her face and said, "Chenhui sent a letter today, saying that he came to spend the Lantern Festival with me." ”
Mu Jingcheng was peeling chestnuts at the time, and when he heard her words, his hands froze, but he also smiled: "This is a good thing, aren't you happy?" ”
She nodded nonchalantly and smiled, "I haven't seen him in months, and we haven't been apart for so long since I can remember." ”
He handed her the chestnut in his hand, and was about to say something, when he heard her say, "You haven't seen Chenhui yet, have you?" ”
"He saw it when he came back to worship his ancestors."
Hearing this, she looked at him with some doubts, and then laughed again, "Yes, I have seen it." ”
Since this Mu Jingcheng came from her consciousness, she naturally had seen Mu Chenhui, so she didn't notice what he said when Mu Chenhui came back to worship his ancestors.
But Mu Jingcheng just smiled and continued to peel chestnuts for her, without saying what he wanted to say.
……
In a blink of an eye, on the night of Chinese New Year's Eve, Mother Wu gave Rao Anran the money for the New Year, she felt that she should not ask for it, but Mother Wu smiled and said: "You are also half of my daughter-in-law, you should accept it." ”
Hearing this, her face was flushed, people who have never been able to keep the year old, they all accompanied everyone to keep the New Year, listening to Mother Wu's talk about Mu Chenhui's troubles when she was a child, she smiled so much that she didn't look like everyone was beautiful, and said that she would tell Mu Chenhui in the future to see what his reaction was.
The fireworks on Chinese New Year's Eve rose and fell, and Rao Anran looked at the bright sky and said with a smile: "May this year be safe and smooth, happy and worry-free." ”