I didn't understand it before, but now I understand that in fact, the so-called happiness in my heart is getting farther and farther away from myself, and success in money and status is not necessarily the so-called happiness, but just satisfying vanity through material superiority.

Matter has scattered the world, dividing people into three, six, nine and so on, only ideological things and beliefs can bring people's spirits together, which is why I feel that the more I live, the more tired I become, but when I see others together, that kind of spiritual happiness, envy will drool.

Da Mao can see it, he should have seen life through, so he didn't help Ermao to change his current life, I think Ermao also knows this, so he gave up the channel to a higher society for love, he just wanted to live his own voice, because he knew what he wanted to succeed.

Coming here today, I understand a lot at once, and I feel that I understand a lot, those things I don't understand, gradually know the reason, looking at the side of the road outside with a wrench to work with a wrench, I think he is really happy, and Sanmao who handed things to Ermao, this little guy is estimated to be very promising in the future.

Because he knows that life is not easy, his mind will not be like Xu Jiao's others, he will turn everything into calculations and calculations, even if he betrays his relatives in the end, he will not hesitate to do anything.

My heart is very heavy, and at this time, I suddenly feel that there is not much difference between me and Zhang Baoqiang, even if he wants to kill me, I want to kill him, it is all sad, we should actually take care of each other like good brothers and rely on each other for our lives.

But the ancients are very right, you can be the same as the poor, it is difficult to be the same as the rich, when you are poor, everyone can tolerate each other, understand each other, it is not easy for each other, but when you become rich, the satisfaction of material conditions has become the only standard of pursuit.

So those so-called emotions are no longer so important, brothers who once lived and died together, will eventually become enemies, the most cruel thing is that I also personally sent him on the road, I didn't expect that I was willing to give my life for him, and in the end because I was afraid that he would take my things, I actually wanted his life, which is really ridiculous.

I smiled and lit a cigarette, looked at the big hair in the room with his head down and snorted melon seeds, and felt that he was actually the smartest and had no quarrel with the world, so I could see clearly, unlike me who has fought for so many years, gained a lot of things, money and power, and many people adored the eyes, I can play with the feelings of those who worship them, and wrap those women's sexy young and beautiful bodies.

But when I play with other people's feelings and bodies, I am also being played, and now I am lonely, and it is also very ridiculous, I went against the original intention of being a human being, and entered the cold-blooded upper class, and I can also ride on the altar of God, the material class.

It didn't take long for Wang Fang and Da Mao's wife to come back, the two of them were carrying a lot of things in their hands, the water on the stove was already boiling, the two of them began to get busy, tidying up the things in their hands and putting them in the pot, and Ermao asked Sanmao to go to the room to put it, and it was done immediately.

Sanmao shook his head and said that when it was good to eat in the past, the relationship between the two brothers returned to the past, as if when we first met them, they were infected with something, although now Ermao is still very sloppy, but he has become mature, at least more mature than me, better than I know what responsibility is.

I think I may be tens of thousands of times better than him materially, but in the spiritual world, I am not as good as him, and I am not worthy of lifting shoes for him, because what he can do, I will never be able to do it now, it is because I can't do it, so I can't become a person who values feelings like him.

I turned my head and glanced at Zhong Siyuan, if she can come together with me, I will definitely be happy, because although Zhao Yun has a good relationship with me, she can't bear such a life, I want her to live a life like Ermao with me, she may change her mind, of course, it is possible to persevere.

The only thing that makes me sure is that Zhong Siyuan and I live such a day, she will not change her mind, she has been waiting for me for several years, and she has been waiting for me, as if it was the last life-saving straw in my life.

Wang Fang is very virtuous, although she is an ordinary rural girl, but she still has a lot of research on cooking, especially she feels that her life is very good now, and she has spent money to buy things, so she has to make it delicious.

Da Mao's wife on the side was studying, no one would have thought that the actions of these two women made Zhong Siyuan on the side look at it, in fact, Zhong Siyuan can't cook, this has always been her weakness, so many times, she will blame herself.

After so many years, I don't know how her craftsmanship has been, and whether her attainments in this area have improved.

The soup in the pot is already very fragrant, it smells great, at this time, Ermao and Sanmao have also begun to withdraw their tools, the two of them packed up their things, Ermao also took off his gloves and slapped Sanmao's buttocks, and then made a fuss.

Although these two brothers are making trouble, and even look angry, they actually have a good relationship, and the relationship between the brothers reminds me of the old days, those days are gone, and I feel as if I have aged a lot all of a sudden.

After Ermao came to the room, he washed his hands, at this time the guests outside came, and Ermao went out to check the car, and the car seemed to have something wrong again, Ermao went down and repaired it for a while, and finally the guest nodded with satisfaction to pay Ermao.

Ermao took it and walked into the room and gave it directly to Wang Fang, who didn't keep a penny, and Wang Fang praised Ermao for being a good husband.

Zhong Siyuan, who was sitting next to me, said a word of envy, this should be her sincere words, she wanted to live like that with me before, although it was a little harder, but it was also very happy, we relied on our own efforts to struggle together, that should be my life, but when I didn't reach the end, I let go of her hand in advance, leaving her alone in the storm, letting her be sad and sad, but I felt that I was very great, in fact, I was very cowardly, very unresponsible, not a man.

Emotionally I am a failure, an absolute loser, the friendship between brothers, and now there is only one brother left, Ergou, from the time when Da Mao called me Mr. Yang, I knew that our relationship was not the same as before.

The taste of heartache made me feel that only spirits can soothe it.

Da Mao opened a bottle of liquor, this is a relatively high degree of two pot heads, it looks very strong, Chen Blind likes to drink this kind of wine the most, I just got right, in fact, I shouldn't drink anymore, but the current environment makes me feel very good, I should drink some wine to celebrate, at least the people who are doing it are very happy.

Ermao took a few cups and sat down and found that one cup was not clean, and then asked Sanmao to brush, Sanmao went very obediently, and after coming back, Wang Fang gave the speed candy and raised the corners of Sanmaole's mouth. When Da Mao was there, Ermao dared to raise his head, he picked up the wine on the table, raised it and took the initiative to apologize to me, and asked me not to forget my heart, I can see that he has really changed, and he can bow his head This is no longer Ermao who was against me at the beginning, but a completely transformed person, such a life will only make people envious. I picked up the wine glass and touched a glass with Ermao, after this glass of spirits, I thought of Zhang Baoqiang, and I was very emotional, if Baoqiang can be here now, the scene must be very lively, and he will be very happy.

Seeing Ermao like this, he should be the happiest, because he was very angry because of what happened to Ermao, especially when he felt sorry for me, because Ermao was introduced to me by him, but he did something to hurt me.

Although the liquor is strong, it is not enough to make me cry, and at this moment I think of a sentence, I have a story, do you have wine? It's the story that gets drunk, and the spirit is soothing.