Chapter 332: Cao'er's life experience is revealed

"He was the first person I had ever killed, and the candlestick struck him the back of the head, and he didn't bleed, but he fell, and he never got up again.

He never imagined that he would die at the hands of a woman he thought would die, and who was powerless.

I've never been so calm, and I seem to feel that killing him is a matter of course, maybe I have a bloodthirsty heart hidden in my bones.

He was wrong, he was wrong from the beginning, if a woman is ruthless, a man can't compare.

I was ready to escape from Han Ying, God played a joke on me again, as soon as I got out of the house, I ran into his personal palace maid, I can only say that he fainted.

When the imperial doctor arrived, the diagnosis turned out to be that he was drunk and died, and I don't know who was helping me, or if I didn't deserve to die.

The whole palace was white, but no one knew that his death was due to me, and all his favorite concubines were buried alive for him.

Only I survived, I was pregnant with his child, his last lifeline, sometimes it's so funny, everyone died, only I was alive.

I ask to go back to the tribe to give birth, I don't want to be in that palace anymore, that city, that country.

The year I came to Han Ying, it was like spending most of my life so long, I thought that my whole life would be nested in the Qingge tribe, with children, and it was not bad to have no worries about food and clothing.

I became a widow, an outcast, a former princess that no one dared to touch again, and even though everyone treated me much better than before I got married, the contempt in those eyes could not be ignored.

At the age of eighteen, I am still very young, but I no longer dare to expect a lover or a sincere relationship.

When I met Shan Gu, I had a big belly, looked at each other, just one glance, and I could never forget it, at that moment, I finally understood what it means to create and make people.

Traveling to the Qingge tribe alone, he exudes a mysterious aura all over his body, he will be in a daze all night in the night sky, and he will mercilessly speculate on a person's fate.

I was hopelessly infatuated with him, complaining for the first time about fate, if he had appeared a year earlier, if I had met him before I got married.

I will never obey my father's arrangement, even if I die, I will be his ghost, but everything is impossible, I am still pregnant with a child, why should I tell him my true heart, I know that I am not worthy of him.

He never thought of it that way, he seemed to be able to see my heart at a glance, and I had nothing to hide in front of him.

Except for Poria, he is the best person in the world who treats me like this, so that I think I can always be like that.

He took me out of the palace to watch the sunrise and sunset, and told me about the symbols of all things, the relationship between celestial phenomena and fate.

Tell me about the four seasons of the Xia Kingdom, until now I have never seen the winter of the Xia Kingdom, and the scene of the snow in the sky he said has been fantasized countless times in my dreams.

No one wants my child to be born, and no one will agree to be together, and he saved me when I was born in the snow.

Even Tayuki's name was given by him, and he treats Tayuki as his own, and I even thought that if I could really marry him, he wouldn't treat Tayuki badly in the slightest.

I love him very much, and he loves me very much, but my identity is destined for us not to end well.

Half a year after giving birth to Tayuki, I had his child, and my whole heart was full of joy when I watched him put his palm on my stomach with a happy face.

The sweetness for no reason, it turns out that it is such a happy thing to be pregnant with the child of the beloved.

We named the child Gu Chu early, Nangong Gu Chu, he said that the child was born by me, and it is so hard to give birth to a child, so you must have my surname.

It's a pity that the good times didn't last long, and our affairs were soon discovered by my father.

He was jealous of Han Ying's strength, how could he be willing to let us be together, how could he care about my life or death, he wished I died, and he wouldn't care about my happiness.

He sent a lot of people to kill Shan Gu, and he had no choice but to flee in all directions, and we were separated in this way.

I handed over the news of my pregnancy to Poria Cocos, hid her, and threatened my father that if he dared to touch my child, the news of my pregnancy would spread to Han Yu and to the ears of King Han Yu.

At that time, the Nangong tribe will die, and my father has no choice but to let me give birth to the child.

What if the child was born, they still wouldn't allow her to live well, and after weighing it, I decided to send her away.

Sent to a place where his father can't intervene, the most suitable one is Xia Guo, who has a little luck in his heart, thinking that maybe he can find her alone.

In fact, after so many years, Shan Gu and Gu Chu have not heard from each other, and I don't know if they are alive or not.

Gu Chu has a cross birthmark on her body that is exactly the same as mine, in order to be sure, I ruthlessly burned her birthmark and ruthlessly broke off our mother-son friendship.

Give all the belongings I brought back from Han Ying to Poria, and ask her to find a good family for Gu Chu to foster her, as long as she lives well.

After they left, I became nothing, it turned out that the taste of loss was far more uncomfortable than never getting it, I hated, hated my own incompetence, I hated, hated my father's ruthlessness!

I don't want to live like that anymore, my fate is always in the hands of others, and I'm really fed up with the taste of dying with it.

At that time, the Qingge tribe was in troubled times, and it was difficult and easy to rise from the troubled times, as long as you had a ruthless heart.

I co-opted the outsiders everywhere, used them, turned my back on my family, and turned myself into a ruthless and unrighteous person.

Soon, I will have my own power, and I will have the qualifications to compete with my father, I only have hatred in my eyes, I just want to take away what he thinks is important, everything he values, I will take away and destroy.

The second person I killed was Mrs. Nangong, my father's original wife, the one who killed my mother, and the woman who tortured me enough.

The third is my elder brother, my father's only son, a person he has carefully cultivated, who is ready to inherit the Nangong tribe.

The fourth is my sister, the one my father couldn't give up, the one I married for her, and who enjoyed everything I would never get.

Then, there was my father, and I looked at him condescendingly, and he was curled up at my feet, dying, and at that time, I did not feel a trace of unbearable, only a heart full of sorrow.

There is no father-son friendship between us, he is a demon who has harmed my mother's life and my life, and the sword pierced my father's heart accurately.

From that day on, the Nangong tribe was mine, eliminating dissidents, cultivating personal guards, and being busy every day.

But I never felt that I was freed, and after everything was laid, I was empty, confused and didn't know what to do.

I completed all this thanks to Xing'er helping me, when she first arrived in the Qingge tribe, she had a cold temperament, and when she left, she only recognized me as a friend.

At that time, she was helping Helian Rui to compete for the position of tribal chief, she needed the support of the Nangong tribe, and I needed her help, so we used each other and became each other's best friends.

Although Xing'er has a cold temperament, she treats people very seriously, much more reliable than those who are full of lies, she is sincere to Helian Rui, but I can't see Helian Rui clearly.

No one can control my fate anymore, but in the end I have nothing, my former love, our children, are gone.

I have changed, I am no longer the one he loves, and the day I rebelled, it was doomed to the end of us, and my own strength became a joke.

Now, do you understand, you are the child I sent away, me and the child who is alone.

Gu Chu, after so many years, you finally came back to me. ”

After saying this, several people in the house, including Mu Youchen who was waiting outside the house, seemed to have gone through her life with Nangong Mo's narration.

Nangong Mo was already in tears, these words, all these years, she can finally say them, no longer hold them in her heart and forcibly suppress them.

Cao'er's tears couldn't stop flowing, her mind was blank, and she didn't know how to accept it, this person who suddenly popped out and claimed to be her mother.

Nangong Mo may have experienced a lot in her life, but these are not enough to cover up Nangong Mo's abandonment of her newborn in the Xia Kingdom, ignoring her, and leaving her to fend for herself.

"You said you found me a good family, but what I do know is that I have been wandering since I was a child, and I have never entered any of the good people you said.

You can't eat, you can't dress warmly, you are bullied and beaten, where were you at that time?

It was my mother who saved me, and I am the only one in my life, she is dead, and I have no more mothers.

It was the pavilion master who kindly took me in, taught me all the skills, gave me a home, and let me live the same life as everyone else.

I have lived for more than twenty years, without a mother, and now that I have survived, I don't need a mother, I never thought about what the person who abandoned me looked like, now I know and am satisfied.

I'm very tired now, and I hope that the leader of Nangong can let me have a good rest. ”

Cao'er closed her eyes, her tone was resolute, but she closed her eyes, and it was difficult to stop the continuous tears.

Nangong Mo wanted to say something, but was interrupted by the jade-faced mother-in-law, pulled her arm, dragged her out, and instructed softly:

"You go first, give her a little time, no one can accept so many things at once. ”

Mu Qianxun finally understood that the decorations in the palace, those strange things, were all a way for Nangong Mo to miss alone.

Nangong Mo is also a hard-working woman, but at this moment, Mu Qianxun can't sympathize with her, when she learned her identity, the feeling of collapse is still fresh in her memory.

What's more, Cao'er was still uncovered by Nangong Mo himself, and it is conceivable that Cao'er must be having a hard time now.

Walked to the grass bed with heavy steps, leaned over and hugged her, she didn't know what to do, I hope this can comfort her more or less.

Looking at the scab on Cao'er's shoulder, Mu Qianxun's nose was sore, and the tears in his eyes fell into Cao'er's hair.