Although I am very confused, July is still calm, calm, and unfazed!

She reached out and took the envelope in the hand of the man in black, glanced at it lightly, put it into her sleeve and said, "I accepted the letter, you go back and restore your life!" ”

After the man in black left, July opened the envelope, but every word in it drove her crazy.

Far away in the cold twilight of Jin Guo, standing under the eaves and watching the pouring rain, his mind was full of the happy time of wandering the rivers and lakes a few years ago and July, but he didn't expect it all to pass so quickly, and it all became the dust in his memory.

She should have received the letter by now, I don't know what will happen to her, sad or happy, but his heart hurts like a pinprick.

And when July saw this letter at this time, her whole heart was cold, and she didn't expect that what she had waited for more than three years was just a dream.

She walked down the street in a daze, and saw a wine shop looming in the distance, and she wanted to have a drink now.

"Little Er, good wine, a few side dishes!" The free and easy voice cannot hide the sadness and pain.

Pot after pot of wine kept pouring into his mouth, and finally even the shopkeeper of the small wine shop came out to let him go quickly.

July who was kicked out took a jug of wine in one hand and poured it into her mouth, and when she found that there was no wine, she threw the bottle on the ground with a "whoosh" and cried and laughed, laughing unscrupulously.

After laughing for a while, he cried loudly, and stood alone on a deserted street and shouted: "Chi Mu, I hate you, I hate you!" ”

"Hahahaha, hehe, I really deserve it, I would believe him, I waited for him for three years, hehehe......"

The hoarse shouts made the lonely streets even more terrifying.

When Twilight finds her, she is already drunk and unconscious, and Twilight looks at July with slightly swollen eyes and tears on her face, and her heart is very distressed, as if her own child has been hurt.

Holding the weightless July in his hand, he quickly carried it back to the palace.

The hangover July woke up the next day feeling so dizzy and sore throat that he couldn't even speak.

That is, Yu saw that there was an abnormal flush on Qiyue's face, and she hurriedly went to the doctor.

When Twilight heard that July was sick and had already called for a doctor, his heart was flustered, but he was afraid that his actions would arouse the suspicion of those people, so he had to send Yuan Nao to take a look first.

"The princess is cold and depressed, it's no big deal, just prescribe a few patches of medicine and drink it!" The judge of the Tai Hospital didn't dare to say too much else, so he had to say so.

"Thank you for the verdict!"

She knew that it was a heart disease, and she knew where the root cause of the disease was, but she just didn't want to face it.

When Yuan Zhi entered, she was lying on the bed in a daze, reminiscing about the old days.

"The old slave was ordered by the emperor to take a look at the princess, and when he heard that the princess was sick, the emperor was about to be sad!"

Yuan Zhi's words interrupted July's memories, she looked at Yuan Zhi with empty eyes, and didn't speak for a long time, just looked at him.

"Let my father not worry, I will take good care of myself!" She feigned composure.

Yuan Zhi has been in the deep palace for so many years, and naturally he also heard the reluctance in July's words, and said with concern: "Princess, the old slave has retired, you take good care of yourself!" ”

After Yuan went straight, July returned to her sluggish appearance, her eyes were blank, and it seemed that everything in the outside world had nothing to do with her, and she was completely caught in the dead end of her memory.

She never thought that her concession three years ago and three years of waiting were exchanged for just a piece of paper, and there was no possibility of seeing each other again, could it be that infatuation would always be ruthlessly destroyed.

In my previous life, I saw too many divisions and unions, too many partings, too many grievances and hatreds, too many thin lovers, and I never thought that I would meet them today, it's ridiculous!

With tears streaming down her face, her eyes were red, and she couldn't see that Jiyu and Qiling who were guarding the bed were distressed, and they were anxious, and they were afraid that suddenly speaking without knowing what happened would make her even more sad and sad.

"Why? Why do this to me? ”

July's voice trembled and whispered, she had never experienced anything like this, the blow was like a knife that stabbed her heart, the tingling sensation made her unable to face anyone.

That is, Yu has seen too much human affection, and looking at July's expression and words, she probably knows that her princess is hurt.

"Princess, are you alright?" She stepped forward and gently patted July's quilt.

Like the feeling of the mother in July's impression, July was in a trance at that moment, thinking that it was really Ning Ning who was by her side to comfort her, she gently snuggled in Jiyu's arms and said: "He lied to me, I waited for him for three years, how could he just say goodbye and let me forget everything?" How can it be? How can it be? ”

When she spoke, there was deep jealousy in her eyes, she was very conflicted, both loved and hated, and she didn't know how she should face it.

Jiyu looked at July, who was as fragile as a child, and suddenly thought of the stubborn and painful little girl in the Mochang Palace more than ten years ago, and the string in her heart was plucked at once.

"Princess, he has his pursuits, you have your life, don't care, this may be the best choice, you are the best and only one in this world!"

That is, Yu is a person who has come over, so she naturally doesn't want to fall into it in July, she only has the blessings and life of July in her heart, just like the explanation of Emperor Ningjia and Concubine Ningjia back then.

July's mind was full of what Jiyu said was the best choice, but she just couldn't let it go, she just couldn't forget it, what could she do.

Perhaps it was too much obsession, that is, Jade's consolation only stayed in her mind for a short time, and in the blink of an eye, she was now left with "Why?" ”

Seeing that Qiyue's depression was too heavy and her heart knot was too dead, Yu decided to let her digest herself.

July spent a daze and grogginess in a palace that had been hiding in her own palace all along, refusing to go out for a single step, she always felt that she was a joke in their eyes, like a puppet who had lost her soul, and her every move had no soul.

"Princess, Princess Qing is here, do you see me?"

Twilight hadn't seen her since she returned from the palace a month ago, and every time she came to see her, she was ruthlessly rejected by July, but she still uncompromising and persevering to report every day.

"No, let her go back!" The clear voice came out of July's throat, not at all the decadence and discouragement of some time ago, slightly similar to before, but it was even more cold and lonely.

"Princess Qing, my princess has already slept, please go back!" That is, Yu respectfully conveyed the words of July without humility or arrogance.

Looking at Twilight's distant figure, she turned back.

When the night came, and there was not a drop of water in July, she sat alone on the swing in the yard and swayed slightly, like a single wild goose.

Twilight, who had been worried about July all this time, appeared behind July and gently pushed her, hoping that she could happily forget the past.

"Uncle Twilight, why are you here?"

Ever since she cried, July's voice has taken on a bit of sadness and loneliness.

"Princess, what does Uncle Twilight know you for?" Twilight's voice was flat and magnetic, as if it was just a superficial conversation, without any profound intentions of her own.

"Uncle Twilight, if you're here for this, then let's have a good chat about something else, okay?"

She was tempted to get away from the topic, even if Twilight didn't mean anything else.

"Princess, do you remember the first time I accompanied you out of the palace twelve years ago? At that time, you were lively, cute and innocent, we had a good look at all the fun things in the capital, but I was afraid, I was afraid that something would happen to you, so I urged you to go back to the palace, but you just want to go downstairs. Twilight reminisced about the past.

"Okay, don't say it, Uncle Dusk, please don't say it!"

July's exclamation didn't interrupt Twilight's words.

"That time, we met Leng Twilight upstairs in the world, Leng Twilight took the initiative to throw an olive branch to us, we took it, and had a good conversation with him, since then, he always appears in our sight like a shadow, and then there is no goodbye!"

July covered her ears, closed her eyes tightly, shook her head and choked up, "Uncle Dusk, let me go, why do you still mention these things I have gradually forgotten it. ”

Twilight sees that she is still unwilling to accept the reality, or unwilling to come out, or trying to escape.

His eyes were a little angry and he stared at July's eyes and said, "I'm not telling you these things to embarrass you or make you even more sad, you see what it looks like now?" Have you ever thought that the emperor would be worried, have you ever thought that the deceased imperial concubine would be heartbroken when she saw your walking corpse, but you exchanged your life for it, how much do you remember her deep hatred? ”

The more he talked, the more angry he became, and he almost smashed the stone tables and chairs in the courtyard into powder, so frightened that Jiyu and Qiling, who were in the room, quickly stepped forward to stop him.

Twilight's words slammed July's already scarred heart, and she suddenly remembered Ning Ning's bloody collapse when she gave birth to her and her inability to let go before she died, and then thought of what she had done in these days, and she felt deep guilt and pain.

But the failure of love is also a hurdle that she can't overcome.

Seeing July's vacillation and doubts, Twilight continued, "Princess, you have to look forward, your responsibilities and hatred are too big and too deep, and besides, you are sincere to him, he is not necessarily, he is not simple! ”

"Chi Mu, he ......"

"Princess, the love of children is too expensive, you can't afford it!"

Twilight's words hit July straight to her heart, she was too extreme after all.

"Go down, I'll think about it." She said a little tiredly.

After Twilight and Jiyu leave, July quietly sits on a chair next to the swing and recalls Twilight's every word.

She was sad when she thought of her misdeeds these days, although love was gone, but she was ruthless and unscrupulous squandering friendship and family affection, what is the difference between her and Chi Mu?

Now that he has given up, what reason do he have to remember and remember, he still lives without his own dignity.

July decided to say goodbye to the past, goodbye is a stranger, there is no love, only unwillingness and hatred.

After returning to the room, she relaxed and slept comfortably, and in her dream she saw Ning Ning smiling at her and seeing all the people who loved her.

The next morning, July, who had been freed from her demons, was in a better mood, and everything was nothing in her eyes.

"Twilight, princess, please punish!" Twilight looked at July, who was no longer in grief, and pleaded guilty.

Looking at Twilight, who had saved herself from her pain, July bent down slightly to help him up and said, "Uncle Twilight, thank you for July." ”

Then he bent over lightly to Jiyu and the others and said, "I've worked hard for you this time." ”

"This is what slaves and maids should do, princesses don't have to be careful!" That is, Yu took Qi Ling and the others and said immediately.

July felt that the person who was most sorry during this time was her father, and since it had been solved now, she decided to go to the Heart Cultivation Palace as soon as possible to reassure Twilight.

Pulling the gray hair on Twilight's head more, July said in a depressed mood, "Father, my daughter has worried you!" ”

Twilight's perseverance to live here is July, and when he sees that July is fine, he smiles and says, "Okay, it's okay, don't do this in the future!" ”

"Father, don't worry, I won't let you worry about it after July, this time it's just that my daughter didn't figure it out, my daughter still has a lot of big things to do, and she will never be slumped for these little things!"

July made her position clear, so that Twilight didn't worry about her.

A few months later, the queen hurriedly married Twilight, and hurriedly married her, and the whole speed made the whole capital feel that there was an ulterior secret in it.

Due to insufficient preparation and too short a time, Twilight's wedding is a little shabby compared to the princesses of the past.

"Queen Mother, I don't want to marry, I only like Yang Liuyu, why don't you agree, you want to marry me off in such a hurry, you see that this wedding dress doesn't look luxurious at all, it's not worthy of my princess status!" Twilight, who has been pampered since childhood, touched the wedding dress on her body and expressed her dissatisfaction endlessly.

She has felt that she is the most noble girl in Tang Duan since she was a child, and her husband will eventually be the best-looking and most talented man in Tang Dui, but she didn't expect her mother to choose a rough person who knows how to dance knives and guns all day long, and she is strongly dissatisfied with this.

"Zi'er, don't make trouble, today is your big day, your father finally agreed to this marriage, if something goes wrong with you, don't blame the queen mother for being ruthless, and the queen mother is for your good."

Empress Ning got the news from Concubine Ning Jing of Jin Guo that Jin Guo intended to marry and marry Tang Du, she was constantly preparing for Twilight's marriage, the first is for Twilight's future, if she marries into Jin State, her mother's family is so far away, it will be dangerous with her brain, of course, the most important thing is that Twilight went to Jin State, then the throne has nothing to do with Twilight, for Twilight, she must marry Twilight before the news comes, and she can also add a boost to Twilight.