My friends,

Zhan Xinjia.

It is the first time to write a thank you letter to you in such a formal way, and I hope you will not feel embarrassed.

I am actually a person who is not good at words, even if I write books that make everyone think that I am a cheerful and joyful person, but in reality I am really a gloomy and unsociable person, just as I can hardly open my mouth to ask for help, and it is absolutely difficult to say the word "thank you".

But what I didn't really expect yesterday was that I just asked for a ticket lightly, and the fans went straight from 80 to almost 8000, which was absolutely unexpected and made me difficult to calm down, and I would like to say thank you to all my friends who silently supported me.

From 08 to now, just a round of years, I believe that many people have grown up with me, maybe at that time was still a seventeen or eighteen-year-old, early twenties hairy boy and yellow-haired girl, but now they are probably the same as me, becoming a "middle-aged man" who is not confused or about to be confused.

At the age that our parents have experienced, I believe that the vast majority of us have compromised or have already compromised with the world. Of course, this is to say something nicely, and to say something bad is to give in. Just like me, many years of tepid have gradually become a norm, and even the mood of fighting is slowly disappearing, struggling with a little simple desire to survive.

But...... I always felt like something was missing, as if I had forgotten what a naughty child I used to be, and I forgot what I wanted to be. has become a greasy middle-aged man with a big belly and a smiling face and giggling all day long.

This is not the life I want, and I believe it is not the life you want. But there is no way, life itself is a punishment, whether it is work or life, life is unsatisfactory nine times out of ten.

When I was 18 years old, I went to have an operation because of an illness, and after coming off the operating table, I have been thinking about a question, whether I should continue to live this kind of life that I don't like or even despair, after a whole year of consideration, I chose to leave from a good iron rice bowl unit, I do what I want to do, to be the person I want to be.

If you want to ask me what kind of mood I feel, I am actually very happy, but no matter what choice adults make, they must bear the consequences of it, and I don't know and don't want to know.

After becoming a full-time writer, I asked myself more than once what I was for. Money? Of course, there is nothing to deny this, money is the last pair of leggings to maintain dignity in the adult world, and who would dislike this. And what about the money? I think it's probably because of an idea I've always had since I was a kid, just wanting to be like this.

I'm actually a stage singer, and I sing other people's stories to you, whether it's good or not, it's not my turn to say, but at least I like to sing this play, even if there is no audience at the bottom, I will sing this play, not to mention that you are still there.

In fact, if you want to ask if you want to leave, in fact, there are, but last year a reader came to me and said that his life was too difficult, so difficult that he wanted to leave this world, I didn't dare to say anything, I just told him that everyone is difficult, please live in difficulty. After that, he said that he was only in a slightly better mood when he read my book, and I couldn't say anything more than thanks, after all, I myself was a failure, a failure, a failure, so to speak, a failure of nothing.

I haven't seen him again, and I don't know if he's okay, but from then on, I knew that I wasn't good for nothing, or at least I could make people happy. So since that's the case, of course I want to try to see if I can make more people happy, this is already the best way for me to realize value, in addition to the basic life, this is probably my greatest pursuit.

Yesterday, when I saw everyone leave me messages and encouragement, I didn't pretentiously say that I had red eyes or anything, but the shock was real, the kind of shock that completely exceeded expectations several times and dozens of times, let me know that I am not alone.

You may think that it is a very simple thing for those great gods to support hundreds of thousands of people at every turn, but in fact, it is really not simple, because everyone may have experienced the hardship of asking people to do things, and it is really a difficult thing to let a person who has never met consume his resources.

I believe that you are willing to help me, in fact, you have already recognized me, and with so many people approving me, there is actually no reason for me to be hypocritical.

All right...... I won't say much about thanks, there was another alliance leader yesterday, and I have to go crazy to code words. Thank you for wasting your precious time reading this letter, which is shattered by mood swings.

Finally, I wish you well, and by the way, don't forget what kind of child you used to be and what kind of person you want to be.

Sincerely

salute

Reading with the little shepherd boy

Mar 2, 2020 17:24:40