Chapter 31: What is Happiness?
There is something special in the orphanage today, it is the fifth anniversary of the establishment of the orphanage, and Lin Nanyi, as the old owner of the orphanage, must be present.
Chen Xin has been in the orphanage for almost a month, and although the people here have some of the philistine atmosphere of the ordinary people, they are very enthusiastic. Occasional gossip, noisy, and very lively.
Chen Xin had never experienced such a living atmosphere before, but now that he has encountered it, he also feels novel and kind.
"Aunt Xinxin, they are all playing over there, and I want to go over with them too." Chen Xin and the workers at the orphanage cook for the anniversary. It's all ordinary people, and they don't pay so much attention to it.
They lit a fire and cooked directly in the open dam of the orphanage, and the group of people was lively and chatting, although the words were a little vulgar, but they also sounded very funny.
Such a large group of people cooking together made Chen Xin feel some of the atmosphere of a somewhat distant family.
Xiaoxiao is also a rare excitement today, Chen Xin rarely saw her so energetic, and took the initiative to play with the children, of course she would not stop her.
"Go ahead, stay safe."
Xiaoxiao got permission, and jumped up and down to play with the children on the side of the stairs.
Although this meal was tiring, Chen Xin was very happy and satisfied.
She doesn't really know how to cook, so she can only help the women who can cook. In this way, she learned a lot.
At dusk, they could finally begin to enjoy the fruits of the afternoon.
Lin Nanyi, as the most distinguished guest here, of course, has to sit on the main seat.
He originally wanted to pull Chen Xinye to sit beside him, but Chen Xin has been busy, and he is popular, and the position next to him was occupied by others in less than ten minutes.
At the end of the feast, Chen Xin was finally free and could sit down to eat.
Lin Nanyi kept an eye on her, and as soon as he saw her stop, he walked over with the dish he had specially reserved for Chen Xin.
"Xinxin, you've worked hard." Lin Nanyi walked over, first smiled at Chen Xinwen, and then put the seaweed egg drop soup in his hand next to Chen Xinde's rice bowl.
Chen Xin's favorite soup is seaweed egg drop soup. Before she went to prison, she would have a bowl of soup next to every meal, no matter what she ate. I really didn't expect that Lin Nanyi still remembered her hobby.
"Unfortunately, I didn't do anything, Aunt Lin and them were doing it." Chen Xin didn't say anything polite to Lin Nan, took a sip of seaweed egg drop soup, and smiled at Lin Nan.
Now that the feast had almost dispersed, the table was almost empty. Lin Nanyi sat directly opposite Chen Xin and watched Chen Xin eat seriously.
Chen Xin didn't think it was anything at first, but gradually, Lin Nanyi kept staring at her, she coughed, raised her head helplessly, and asked: "Brother Nanyi, if you look at me like this again, no matter how thick my skin is, I can't hold it anymore." ”
Lin Nan smiled, he himself didn't realize how long he had been looking at Chen Xin. Just look at it, and look in. Such a scene gave him a feeling of quiet years.
"Heart." As soon as Lin Nan heard Chen Xin's words, not only did he not immediately withdraw his gaze, but he also looked at Chen Xin with more fiery eyes, and he asked, "I want to take care of you, is it okay?" ”
Although Lin Nanyi's tone was light, the affection in it could not be hidden.
Chen Xin was slightly stunned, and after coming back to his senses, he was a little afraid to look at Lin Nanyi's eyes.
"Brother Nanyi, I, I'm not good. I'm not that good, I've been in jail, I, I've had kids with other men. I...... I don't even dare to let my child know that I am her mother, and I ......"
Chen Xin was a little incoherent, Lin Nanyi's feelings for her, she could still feel it more or less.
It's just that she has always regarded Lin Nanyi as her brother. Now that her father is gone, Lin Nanyi is one of her relatives. Hearing Lin Nanyi say this, she was actually quite embarrassed, and she really felt that she was not worthy of Lin Nanyi.
Lin Nanyi is a new advanced person who has stayed abroad, and her family is scholarly, and she really doesn't want to touch it. What's more, Chen Xin knew that Old Madam Lin had always disliked her.
"Xinxin, you don't have to answer me in a hurry, you can think about it first." Lin Nan had thought of Chen Xin's reaction early on, and although he was a little sad, he still gave Chen Xin a step first.
"No, Brother Nanyi. I know you're good to me, but I'm ......," Chen Xin paused, "I'm not clean anymore, and I still have someone in my heart." ”
Chen Xin didn't want Lin Nan to spend time on her again and again, so he simply said it today.
"Xinxin, I don't care about these things, what I care about is just whether you are happy or not, and whether you have a hard time." Chen Xin directly rejected him like this, and Lin Nanyi was still a little unwilling.
He knew that Chen Xin had someone in his heart, and he also knew that Chen Xin had a child. However, he believed that sooner or later, Chen Xin could forget Shen Yiwen under his love, and he was willing to treat Xiaoxiao as his own daughter.
Marrying Chen Xin is something he has hoped for since he was a child.
Seeing that Lin Nanyi's face had changed a little, Chen Xin was a little anxious. Lin Nanyi had never shown such a lost look in front of it.
"Brother Nanyi, you listen to me first." Chen Xin put the chopsticks on the edge of the bowl in an orderly manner, and stubbornly met Lin Nanyi's gaze.
"I know, I'm so selfish. But Brother Nanyi, we grew up together, you know me. I'm a stubborn person with an awkward temperament.
Now, I am no longer the proud heavenly Chen Xin of the past, and now I feel inferior many times, such a me, really not suitable for you. ”
Lin Nanyi frowned, he didn't like to hear Chen Xin say this about himself. But he can't refute it, this humble Chen Xin now is indeed different from the Chen Xin when he went abroad three years ago.
"Brother Nanyi, I don't say this to gain your mercy or to laugh at myself." Lin Nan didn't say a word, Chen Xin's courage grew a little, and he said everything he wanted to say in his heart.
"I am very calm when I say this. Brother Nanyi, I like you too, but it's the kind of love I like for my brother. ”
"You can also think about it and ask yourself, do you really like this Chen Xin who is now in order to save money, buy a little side dishes, and even get used to being a coolie for the sake of life, and has been contaminated with the atmosphere of a philistine?"
Chen Xin said as he spoke, and tears fell uncontrollably. She didn't want to cry, but she couldn't help it.
As he spoke, he thought of when he was the daughter of the Chen family before. At that time, I really didn't know the warmth and coldness of the world.
"Anyway, I hate myself like this now, and the way I live now is the kind of person I looked down on the most."
Lin Nanyi was silent all the time, he didn't know how to comfort Chen Xin. Say it's okay, is there him in everything? But obviously, Chen Xin didn't need him at all.
Seeing Chen Xin crying, he was still uncomfortable. In fact, when he saw Chen Xin again this time, he also asked himself, is this Chen Xin really the same person as the Chen Xin in his memory?
Now that he heard Chen Xin's self-description, he realized that the Chen Xin in his memory had long since disappeared.
The current Chen Xin is the Chen Xin who has experienced hardships and has been re-polished by time, and it is a Chen Xin that he is no longer familiar with.
"Xinxin, I understand what you're saying. Either way, we grew up together. No matter how you change, I always like you. Lin Nanyi finally made a compromise, he didn't want to push Chen Xin so hard.
He also made a temporary decision today, and Chen Xin told him so many worries when he heard it, he couldn't do anything else except feel distressed.
"Brother Nanyi......" Chen Xin stopped his tears, a little embarrassed, and a little helpless.
"Xinxin, even if we can't be husband and wife, I want to take care of you. I'm really distressed that you're like this. Even if you don't think about it, you should think about it. She is still so young, and she will grow up in the future, and there will be a lot of expenses to spend. ”
Lin Nanyi knew that Chen Xin was unwilling to take the benefits of others for no reason, so he thought of a way and said, "Xinxin, you also graduated from a women's university. I remember that your grades were not bad at that time, and there was a watch shop under our house, which happened to be recruiting managers, and you could do it, so that the work would be easier, and you would earn more, and you would have time to spend with Xiaoxiao. ”
Lin Nanyi threw out this olive branch, Chen Xin was still very moved. It's just that there is such a coincidence in this world, she just needs it, and Lin Nan's family's shop needs people?
Seeing that Chen Xin was still hesitating, Lin Nanyi struck while the iron was hot and said, "Don't worry, it's not my help for you." There is a performance appraisal every month, and if you don't have that ability, sooner or later you will be replaced by someone else. ”
Chen Xin was actually very excited, and he was a little excited. Although she had always relied on her family, her father was a very successful businessman, and she had lived with him since she was a child, and she knew something about it.
Now that she has such an opportunity to make money on her own, she is actually happy to give it a try.
At this time, tired of playing, he trotted over and hugged Chen Xin's legs. As soon as Chen Xin saw her, his heart softened, and the expression on his face unconsciously softened.
"Xiaoxiao, remember me?" Lin Nanyi also likes to be small, although the little person is small, she is very clever.
has a pair of big watery eyes, and now he is white and chubby by Chen Xin, no longer as yellow and thin as before, and his little face is crystal clear, anyone who sees it will like it.
Xiaoxiao raised her head and muttered, "Remember, Uncle Nanyi, Aunt Xin's friend." ”
Lin Nanyi was tickled by her soft words, and he wished that he would give birth to a daughter soon. He picked up Xiaoxiao and giggled.
Chen Xin then ate the meal she hadn't finished just now, and the two stopped the previous topic in time.
After Chen Xin finished eating, he had to help clean up the dishes and chopsticks again. Lin Nanyi had other things to do, so he left after playing with Xiaoxiao for a while.
Before leaving, he specially called Chen Xin aside and said that Chen Xin should think about his proposal, and he waited for her to reply.