Chapter 47: Difficult to choose
In the long corridor, the sky was full of snow, and the snow beads hurriedly rolled down to the ground, making bursts of sound. Shen Nanyan walked slowly on the palace corridor, physically and mentally exhausted.
Answering Song Yuan's look with a deep meaning when she asked her to leave, her heart became more and more irritable.
The snow was getting heavier and heavier, and it gradually became a heavy snowfall, Xiao Xiazi followed her with an oil-paper umbrella, and Shen Nanyan walked forward in the snow.
She really didn't want to stay in this pickled palace wall for a moment, everything here weighed her breathlessly.
A long figure flashed in his mind, his face was calm and warm and standing in the sun, like an ink painting with appropriate shades, under the reflection of the setting sun, as if crossing a layer of gold edge, handsome and dazzling. He smiled faintly at her and said softly, "Miss Shen." ”
When I came back to my senses, where was Mu Zhao's figure, I saw a white snowfield.
………
Shen Jin went out of the city early in the morning in the direction of Xiaozhu on the outskirts of Beijing, in addition to sending something to Mu Zhao, he went to 'visit' him by the way.
Speaking of 'visiting', in fact, he had already agreed to the matter of his sister and Mu Zhao, and it was impossible to really beat Mu Zhao, so he bought a pot of wine when he went out of the city this morning, and was ready to drink with him.
When Shen Jin came, Mu Zhao was painting, maybe he was too serious, and he didn't hear Shen Jin entering the door.
For Shen Jin, he didn't deliberately lower his footsteps, Mu Zhao didn't notice his arrival, Shen Jin was really a little admired, and when he came behind him and was about to see what he was doing, he casually glanced at the red plum picture in the snow with clear lines on the paper, was slightly stunned, and then raised his eyebrows: "Brother Guishi now wants to abandon this fame and fortune, and become this literati and ink artist with peace of mind?" ”
Shen Jin's temperament is not as gentle and melancholy as Mu Zhao, nor is it as deep and dark as Song Heng, he is decisive and uninhibited. I don't like adults grinding and chirping, sad and sentimental, I saw Mu Zhao draw a room of portraits of his sister, but I didn't expect to come here to see him now, he still has to pick up a pen to paint here, and he made a few jokes.
Hearing the sound behind him, he turned around and saw that it was Shen Jin, Mu Zhao was slightly surprised: "Why is Ah Jin here?" ”
Coming early in the morning in the wind and snow, Shen Jin had already froze too much, and seeing that there was neither a burning dragon nor a gold wire and steel charcoal in the house, he went straight to the back room and consciously sat on the couch, picked up a blanket and covered himself. After everything was played, he said, "You came back and didn't tell me, so I had to come by myself." ”
Mu Zhao was a little embarrassed for a while, he didn't plan to stay long when he returned to Kyoto, he just thought about Shen Nanyan when he came back, and now he was a little ashamed when he heard Shen Jin's words: "Brother Shen......"
Although Shen Nanyan had already told him yesterday that Shen Jin had no objection to the two of them, but now that Shen Jin came to the door, he always felt like he had abducted and sold his sister.
"Well, don't talk about that, you can forget all the things I said in the past. Be with him well, if you dare to fail her in the future, I will not spare you. Shen Jin didn't bother to talk to him about the useful and useless here, and went straight to the point.
Mu Zhao solemnly promised Shen Jin: "If I lose Miss Shen in the future, then I will let Ah Jin deal with it, and I dare not have any complaints." ”
Although he knew that Mu Zhao had always been steady, seeing that he had solemnly promised in front of him today that he would be good to his sister, Shen Jinle said: "What's the use of you promising me here?" You should go to the Shen Mansion and talk to my father. ”
Since ancient times, it has been the order of parents and the words of matchmakers. Now that Mu Zhao directly skipped his father and mother to promise him, didn't he regard him as a parent? It's either that Mu Zhao is crazy, or he hasn't woken up yet.
An embarrassment flashed on Mu Zhao's face, he has always been steady, and he rarely does such an outrageous thing, he opened his mouth for a long time, but he had to say: "It's me who did something inappropriate." ”
Shen Jin couldn't see Mu Zhao like this, everything was done step by step, following the laws of the world, no matter what the occasion, he always had to pay attention to whether his words were inappropriate. He didn't care about it: "What's wrong with my brother when he returns?" Now it's just you and me, so you don't have to be so polite. ”
In addition to laughing at what he said, he actually asked him to find a time to go to the Shen Mansion in person to ask his father and mother to marry.
I didn't think that Mu Zhao didn't understand what he meant at all, and for a while he didn't know whether he should cry or laugh.
Shen Jin remembered the portrait he saw here that day, got up and walked to the bookcase and searched for a long time but did not find the portrait full of houses he saw that day.
Seeing that Shen Jin suddenly stayed and came to his desk as if he was looking for something, Mu Zhao said, "What is Ah Jin looking for?" ”
After not seeing those portraits for a long time, Shen Jin gave up looking for them, and glanced at Mu Zhao meaningfully with his eyes, and the meaning in his eyes was self-evident.
Mu Zhao was originally wondering what Shen Jin was looking for, but now he saw that Shen Jin was looking at him meaningfully, thinking of the portraits he had made all over the room, and his face was red and white.
Every time he saw Shen Nanyan, he had to make a painting, or every time he noticed a subtle change in her mood, he had to paint it, and in the long run, the room was full of paintings, and when he painted that painting yesterday, he sorted out the paintings and put them in the box on a whim. Shen Jin asked now, he must have seen those paintings. His thoughts were spied on, and Mu Zhao felt uncomfortable for a while.
Shen Jin saw Mu Zhao's hot and red ears, and coughed: "Okay, let's get down to business." He changed the subject: "You are now returning to Beijing without permission, if you are discovered by the emperor, you will suffer, you find a chance to say goodbye to my sister and return to the border earlier." I'm looking for an opportunity to ask the emperor to let you go back to Beijing. After all, they are brothers for many years, and the emperor will not be so ruthless. ”
Suddenly, hearing Shen Jin mention Song Heng, Mu Zhao moved his mouth, "You know everything." ”
"Really broken?" Shen Jin looked at Mu Zhao's lonely expression with a slight surprise.
Mu Zhao pursed his lips and did not speak.
The atmosphere in the room suddenly became gloomy, and there was no harmony or laughter at all.
Shen Jin patted Mu Zhao's shoulder, and said helplessly: "The knot will be untied sooner or later, it's just a matter of time, and now the top priority is to return to the border." Song Heng's strength should not be underestimated, you can leave after saying goodbye to my sister tonight. Thinking of Song Heng's expression that day, he still remembers it vividly. If Song Heng knew that Mu Zhao and his sister were already together, I don't know what would happen.
After saying goodbye to Mu Zhao, it was almost noon, and he didn't bother to stay outside, so he hurried back to the house.
Shen's father and Shen's mother were going to stay at their grandfather's house for a few days, and they would not come back for the time being, so Shen Jin went back to his house to change his clothes and go to the front hall.
The front hall is separated from the Nanyuan where Shen Nanyan lives, and now in the first year of the new year, Ah Ci is not in Nanyuan, so Shen Jin is lazy and makes a special trip to invite Shen Nanyan to come to the front hall for dinner.
When I called someone to ask, I found out that Shen Nanyan was summoned into the palace by Song Hengxuan, or Zheng Fuhai personally came to Shen Mansion to spread the word.
Shen Jinru was struck by lightning, his sister was finally with the time of return, and now Song Heng called his sister on the first day of the new year. only looked forward to the thing that was not what he thought in his heart, but he had no choice but to sit in the Shen Mansion and be anxious.
It didn't take long for Shen Nanyan to come back, and Shen Jin's hanging heart was put down. Seeing Shen Nanyan's tired face, he didn't care about her body and hurriedly asked, "What happened?" Why did the emperor summon you to the palace? ”
She didn't know why Song Heng summoned her to the palace, and the meaning of his last words, but she remembered that those deep and sharp eyes were like breaking lightning, making her smile fade away.
"Brother, did you already know about Mu Zhao's break with the emperor?" Shen Nanyan didn't answer his question, and directly threw out another question for him to answer.
"Not bad." Shen Jin looked at Shen Nanyan deeply, if what he expected was right, Song Heng had already told her everything.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Shen Nanyan opened his mouth hoarsely, and the corners of his eyes were red.
She should have discovered all this earlier, if she had discovered that Mu Zhao and Song Heng would not have come to the point of breaking up, she was not worthy of them.
"Is there a difference between saying and not saying? Don't you like Muguishi after telling you? Or don't want to be with him? Shen Jin asked softly. In fact, there is another important reason that has not been spoken, if she is told that Mu Zhao broke with Song Heng, she will definitely know Song Heng's affection for her.
Whether it was for Mu Zhao, for her, or even for Song Heng, she shouldn't know about it.
If she knew that Song Heng liked her, she would definitely reject Song Heng ruthlessly, Song Heng was not a person who was willing to give up, if she was rejected by Shen Nanyan, she might not hurt Mu Zhao and used her to hold her hostage.
In any case, the three of them will be hurt, and his own sister will be in a situation where she will not be able to choose, and what will happen to her when the time comes. It's better to choose not to say it from the beginning, if you don't say it, you won't know, if you don't know, you won't be sad, and you won't be hurt.
Shen Nanyan was dumbfounded, even if she knew about it, she really wouldn't give up on him, it was impossible to give up on him, and it was impossible not to be with him.
Shen Jin has a sentence that is right, whether you say it or not, there is actually no difference.
"Brother, what should I do now? I really can't do it, I don't want to hurt him, I don't want him to break with my brother because of me. As she spoke, Shen Nanyan couldn't stop leaning on Shen Jin and weeping.
She is not a fragile person, she really can't hold back her heart, and finally can't help crying.
Seeing that his sister, who had always been cold and self-assured, rarely saw pain in front of him, Shen Jin couldn't help but raise his eyebrows, rubbed her hair and said angrily: "What are you crying about?" Hasn't it fallen yet? Now that your mind is full of Mu Zhao, why don't you see you crying for me once? ”
It's just a matter of seeing his own sister like his brother, and it's just a matter of watching his sister like his brother more than he likes, but his sister, who has never cried in front of him, asks him to cry in front of him, and asks him what to do.
After going through so many things today, all of them were backlogged together, and when I returned to the Shen Mansion, I couldn't help but burst out and cry well.
Now listening to Shen Jin's words, Shen Nanyan couldn't smile bitterly, wiped away his tears with a handkerchief, and smiled lightly.