Seeing the innocent expression on her gentle and jade-like face, she suddenly didn't know the handsome man in front of her who was Yushu Laneige, where did the gentle Ruyu go on weekdays?

Fortunately, Mu Zhao's gentle voice sounded in the next moment, and she was pulled back from her fugue: "I'm walking on a dark and remote path, and no one can see it." ”

Xu is usually left her with a gentle image like jade, and after listening to his words, she nodded, reassuring.

The trail is remote and dark, and no one will pass through it.

She had to walk a little to the path, she was thin-skinned, and he carried her for a while, and her face was slightly red, afraid that passers-by would recognize her when they saw her face, so she buried her face in his arms.

As her husband, will she walk in the Shen Mansion without any scruples with other women in her arms? Who else would he have in his arms but her?

Mu Zhao stared at Shen Nanyan's actions, and the corners of his mouth moved slightly and chuckled. Afraid of throwing her down, he quickly stopped laughing.

She didn't hear Mu Zhao's chuckle, as early as the moment Mu Zhao picked her up, she heard her heartbeat, "plop" and "plop", trembling again and again, under this quiet and cold moonlight, clear and powerful, powerless to parry. It was the same as when she had just heard his heartbeat.

She said that she couldn't be held in Mu Zhao's arms, she was in tune with him, there were more than a hundred letters just by sending letters, and she had experienced all kinds of things in the middle, how could the affection and redemption in it be said in a few words, and the sense of trust and companionship he gave her was irreplaceable.

Over the years, she has built a wall with coldness, isolating all outside care. Because she has no heart, no ability to empathize, and the family and friends around her will also suffer from it, although they don't say anything, somehow deep in her subconscious, she seems to be able to detect a thing or two.

The scar in the depths of her heart made her even more afraid to get close to others in the future, and Mu Zhao's appearance messed up her heart and even more messed up her love. Because of him, she wants to be a normal person, wants to experience the feelings of ordinary people, and wants to live well.

Buddhism cloud: "The eight sufferings of life, said: the suffering of birth, the suffering of old age, the suffering of illness, the suffering of death, the suffering of love and parting, the bitterness of resentment, the suffering of not begging, and the suffering of the five yin." Whether she loves or hates or is stupid, she can't ask for it, she has him in her life, and she is willing to suffer this.

He is the one who really redeemed her, the one who broke her heart, and he is the only existence for her.

Thinking of this, Shen Nanyan's heart felt a lot less worried, "I want to tell you something." ”

"Huh?" The person in his arms suddenly spoke, and Mu Zhao raised his eyebrows, slightly surprised.

"During the months you were away, I was at the palace." She spoke slowly, holding Mu Zhao's hand a little looser, afraid that he would mind this matter.

They have the same heart to mind, there will be no barrier, but the more things they get, the more afraid they are of losing, she has no bottom in her heart after she says this, she is afraid that he will mind this matter, and she will mind that she and Song Heng will stay together.

The air froze instantly, and no one spoke for a long time. Even the sound of breathing was so light that a needle dropped on the ground could be heard.

Her heart sank, and the hand holding Mu Zhao let go and hung down, he minded. This can't be blamed on him, it's her fault, even if she has nothing to do with Song Heng, after all, after staying together for so long, it is impossible for anyone to let go of this matter.

Just when she was cold, Mu Zhao freed up a hand and put her hand on his shoulder, and the voice came from a hazy place, with an unreal feeling.

He lightly opened his lips, and his voice was muffled: "Yanyan, I've been waiting for you to mention this." After a pause, he spoke with some annoyance: "But you don't believe me, you haven't told me for so many days." ”

These days, he often wonders if he didn't give her enough security to keep everything in her heart and face it alone. didn't even tell him about such a big thing, and didn't want him to face and share it with her.

"I'm afraid you mind!" Mu Zhao's depressed expression deeply pierced her heart, and she couldn't help but wonder in her heart, could it really be that she did something wrong? He didn't say anything because she didn't enter the palace, but because she didn't tell him about it? Should she have told him sooner?

After going around in such a big circle, they have experienced so many things, and the woman he loves still doesn't know his intentions, and he is still worried that he will be angry about these things, Mu Zhao stopped and carefully put down the person in his arms. Afraid that she would fall, he let go of his hand only after she was firmly on her feet.

He hadn't put himself down when she said that, but now that she had suddenly put her down, she looked up at him with some puzzlement.

He met her eyes and looked at her affectionately, the autumn water rippled faintly, and the gentleness was not like words.

He said: "I never minded if you entered the palace to beg Song Heng, fool, it's not like I won't come back, you shouldn't have wronged yourself for me." ”

Shen Nanyan said: "I am not wronged. ”

Mu Zhao sighed, gently stroked the scar on her neck, her heart ached, and she reproached softly: "Next time, you must not hurt yourself again, even if I die in front of you one day, you must promise me to live well and not hurt yourself." ”

She lives this life all because of him, he is the whole meaning of her life, if he leaves, then what meaning and courage does she have to continue to live?

"I can't promise you that." She looked at Mu Zhao and decisively refused: "If you leave me, I will accompany you, and I will also be with you when you go up and down the Yellow Spring." ”

The upper and lower yellow springs are poor, and the two places are gone. Sometimes dying together may not be forever together, but never seeing each other.

Mu Zhao smiled helplessly, and Ren astringent swelled up in his heart: "Yan Yan, not being able to stay with you doesn't make me afraid, what I'm afraid of is that one day you tell me in person that you don't love me anymore." ”

If one day she told him that she didn't love her, he might be crazy.

"In this life, in the next life, in the next life, all I love is you, it can only be you, it will only be you, besides you, who else do you want me to love?" Shen Nanyan answered Mu Zhao's question very seriously, wanting to reassure him.

Shen Nanyan's words were like a reassuring pill, and the last trace of worry disappeared after she said this.

"That way, I can get a good night's sleep today."

Where the sky was dark and dull, the moonlight was cold and hazy, shining on the two closely clinging figures under the trees.

…………

When Ah Ci went to the back kitchen to get chopsticks to the front hall, there was no one else at the dinner table except Shen Jin, Ah Ci looked at the empty position blankly, and secretly calculated the time, she left for a while, even if she stopped for a while, it was impossible for everyone to go back as soon as she came back.

Shen Jin, who was still sitting in his position thinking about things, heard the movement, looked up and saw that it was Ah Ci, and beckoned to her: Ah Ci, come here with me. ”

Fang Cai went out to cry for a long time, and the bitterness, despair, and even sadness that he had finally suppressed were suddenly shattered by his short words at this moment, and all kinds of emotions came to his heart again.

Judging from his usual actions, it is not difficult to guess that he has someone else in his heart, and that person is even a thousand times and ten thousand times better than her, and he is not even qualified to compare. The huge drop weighed heavily on her shoulders, making her almost breathless.

It was obvious that she was the one who was let down, but she didn't have the courage to run in front of him and ask him loudly, since there was someone in her heart, why did she come to provoke her? After provoking her, why can't you let go of other people in your heart? What did you think of her? Someone who comes and goes when he is called?

It's she who wants to like him, it's what she wants to move, it's she who covets his warmth and wants to get more.

Now what face did she have to question him about it?

"Miss, Madame, what about them? How are they all gone. Ah Ci walked up to Shen Jin, stood still not far from him and asked.

Seeing that Ah Ci was suddenly so far away from him, he panicked somewhere in his heart, Shen Jin stretched out his hand and pulled Ah Ci to his side, a little afraid to look directly into her eyes: "Why are you so far away from me?" I'm not going to eat you again. ”

"Aren't you going to eat? I'm afraid I'm too close to you and block your light. Ah Ci replied softly.

Shen Jin took his eyes to observe Ah Ci carefully, and saw that she was as usual, with no superfluous expression on her face, and put her mind at ease: "Silly girl, what else can I eat when it's so late." ”

Ah Ci said: "Have you eaten enough? I don't think you're much use tonight? ”

Shen Jin stood up and pulled Ah Ci as he walked outside, and said, "Didn't you eat too?" The food in the house is cold, I'll take you out to eat. Although everyone in the Shen Mansion knew about him and Ah Ci, Ah Ci did not marry him after all, so it was impossible for her to sit down and eat with them now.

Although the Shen Mansion has always had no master to eat after the master runs out first, the general situation is to prepare the food of the master in the mansion first, and they will prepare their own after they have used it up.

Before Ah Ci could react, Shen Jin had already pulled him out of the Shen Mansion.

"Boss, two bowls of ravioli." Finally squeezing out of the crowd, Shen Jin pulled Ah Ci to find a clean stall and sit down, and shouted at the boss inside.

The owner of the wonton stall was a white middle-aged man, and when he saw someone shouting, he hurriedly pushed the proprietress standing next to him: "You go and get them two bowls of wontons." ”

The proprietress who was pushed out shaved the boss fiercely, and her face was full of smiles again: "Hey, it's here!" Here it comes! The two guest officers waited a moment, and the wontons would come soon. ”

There was a large cauldron in the stall, and the steaming hot water was steaming. The water vapor was hazy in the small space, and the proprietress couldn't help but sweat on her forehead.

She took out the handkerchief in her arms, wiped the sweat on her forehead, and shouted to the boss who was pretending to be asleep: "Come out and bring out the wontons." ”

Having said that, the white wontons in the pot were still boiling in the hot water, and the small bowl next to it was shining.

After hearing the words, the boss did not move at all, and did not make the slightest movement to get up.

The man's behavior completely blew up the hair sprayed by the proprietress . She put down her veil and walked angrily towards the man in the corner.