Chapter 129: I'm No Stand-In for Nobody
"Let me go, I want to take Adozhu's ashes back to the north to receive the country, she doesn't belong here, I want to take her back to her hometown, she left her hometown and followed me here, and died in a foreign land, I want to take her back and ask the Lord to be fulfilled."
"No, it can't, you can't leave, I can find someone to transport her ashes back, but you can't go."
"Didn't you say that as long as I can say it, you can do it, you go back on your word."
"I can promise you anything other than that, but you can't leave the Lord's Mansion, I can't let you go back, I can't let you leave me."
"Heh, Yun Manna sneered, are you still refusing to let me go, you still refuse to let me go, why, why."
"Yunmanna, you should know that I can't lose you, I will do everything I can to make it up to you, don't leave me, okay."
"Then do you love me, is it just a marriage between two countries, when did you start to love me, how did we ever have love between us, or do you see me as someone's stand-in, who is the person you can't let go of in your heart, why don't you let go of me, who am I in your eyes, is that person you can't let go, are you looking at her through me, I'm not her, I can't bear your love, please let me go."
"You, what are you talking about, when did I think you were someone's stand-in, how I couldn't understand what you were saying."
"Isn't it, if you don't think of me as someone's stand-in, then what do you think of me, who is the person in your dream, who is the person in your dream, there is a political marriage between us, how can we ever have love, why don't you want to let me go."
"How do you know, how do you know the person in my dream, who you really are, how do you know that person, you say, who are you, I have never mentioned to anyone the existence of the person in my dream, how do you know."
"You finally admit it, you finally admit that I am the substitute for that person, is it because you owe her too much, you just want redemption and forgiveness from me, isn't it?"
"I asked you how you know, how do you know this, who are you, is it~."
"Don't you often have that nightmare, every time you are in your dreams you are shouting don't go, don't leave me, don't disappear, I guessed, do you think I am her, I just guessed from your dreams, I solemnly tell you, I am not her, let alone her stand-in, so please let me go."
(It seems that Yun Mana is really not her, otherwise how would she have heard my dream words and be indifferent, but why would she feel so familiar and heartache to me?) )
"Yun Manna, I know it's useless for me to say anything, it's useless for me to apologize, time will tell, I will use my life to make up for you, I won't treat you as her anymore, you are you, she is her, I just ask you to forgive me, let's start again, okay."
"Impossible, I can't be with you anymore, I also know that you won't let me go easily, it's my wishful thinking to let you let me go, since you don't agree to let me go, then I can't be your young lady anymore, I'd better go back to be my miscellaneous servant, it's more suitable for me to be a miscellaneous servant, I don't want to be your young lady anymore, you just let me be a miscellaneous servant and live back in the North Side Garden."
"Your body is just right, you just came out of that ghost gate, I can't let you go back to that cold and damp place, even if you don't want to be Mrs. Shaocheng for a while, you don't have to go back to be a handyman, don't fight with me, make fun of your body."
"No, I'm going back to be a handyman, I'm going back to the North Garden, Adozhu said, as long as she gets better, she will help me finish all the work, I don't need to do any more rough work, she will finish it for me, I will wait for her to fulfill her promise."
"But Adoju is dead, and she can't keep that promise anymore."
"I know, I know that she will never be able to fulfill this promise, but only when I return to Beibian Yuan, only by going back to continue to be a handyman, can I make my heart better, can I kill her, can I continue to be a noble and high-ranking young lady, my heart can't pass this level."
"Adoju was not killed by you, so why should you blame yourself and take it on yourself."
"But she died because of me, I can only make myself better if I go back and continue to punish myself, otherwise how will I face her tragic death, how can I be worthy of her."
"If you insist on being a handyman, then I can arrange another room for you, and you don't want to go back to the North Side Garden."
"I want to go back, what if Adozhu's soul comes to me and can't find me, I want to go back, you either let me go, or let me go back to Beibianyuan, or, I die."
"Since you want to narrow me with death, do you really want to be a rough servant than be my young lady again, and you really insist on going back to that damp and cold place and refuse to forgive me?"
"Pray that the Lord will be fulfilled."
"Okay, since you have made up your mind, then I won't force you, you can do whatever you like, whatever you want." After saying that, the lord left angrily.
After Yun Manna moved back to Beiyuan, in order to numb herself, she kept carrying water, chopping wood, washing clothes, and kept working, she still remembered that Adozhu said that she would come to help me finish all the work, and not let me work hard anymore.
Although Manager Yuan did not send any more rough work to Yun Manna, Yun Manna still rushed with the other maids, and the lord also ordered to go with her, and the other subordinates no longer paid attention to her, and let her do it if she wanted to do it.
"Ah Duozhu, although I won't do this Mrs. Shaocheng, but don't worry, I will not violate your wishes, this fake Lord Gong, the identity of the fake Mrs. Shaocheng I will rot in my stomach, I won't say it, you can rest assured."
That night, Yun Manna was sad about Adozhu's affairs again, couldn't sleep, and was secretly sobbing when the door was suddenly kicked open, Yun Mana was startled, it turned out to be the drunk Yan Cheng Lord, he rarely drinks, how did he drink like this and broke into me this time, Yun Manna immediately raised her vigilance.
"Lord, why are you still here, this is where the next person lives, I can't accommodate your big Buddha, please go out immediately."
"Don't forget, the entire Lord's Mansion is mine, I can go wherever I like, can you control it."
"But I'm not welcome here, I don't want to see you again, please go out, you go."
The lord suddenly stepped forward and hugged Yun Mana and kissed her.
"What are you going to do, I'm not your young lady anymore, you have no right to touch me."
"Hmph, if you say no, it's not, we have performed national ceremonies, held big weddings, worshiped heaven and earth, and are recognized husband and wife, how can it be that if you say no, you won't."
"So what, now whether you want to divorce your wife or not, I just want to divorce your husband, as long as I don't want to be your young lady anymore, we can also break the marriage contract."
"Dissolution of the marriage? Will your father Gema agree, will the people of your northern country agree, even our head will not agree, is our marriage contract just a matter of the two of us, that is a major matter between the two countries, it's not that you don't want to do it, you don't want to do it, you don't want to do it, you are still my young lady, you have to fulfill your obligations as a young lady. After saying that, he picked up Yun Mana and threw her on the bed.
"Don't touch me, don't touch me, I hate you to death, don't touch me."
"Adozhu's matter is that I am wrong, I have repeatedly bowed my head to you and admitted that I was wrong, why do you still refuse to forgive me, you would rather be a rough servant all the time than forgive me, what do I have to do to forgive me."
"Not only did you order the rod to hit Adoju many times, but you also pushed her to the stone barge and caused her to die with a violent blow to the head, how could I forgive you for her death so miserably."
"Why did you appear in my world, why did you come to disturb my life, you disturbed my life and then wanted to leave, always wanted to leave, why did you have to be so ruthless, in this case, you shouldn't have broken into my world in the first place."
"Yes, I really shouldn't have appeared, I shouldn't have come to kiss, so that Adozhu doesn't have to die, if you let go and let me go, everything for us can be restored, you are still the same as before, you take your Yangguan Road, I take my single-plank bridge, we have nothing to do with each other, you forget me."
"No, I won't let you leave me, since God has let us meet and brought you to me, I won't let go, you belong to me, why should I let go, you are so ruthless, you must leave me, do you want to punish me like this, you treat me like this for a humble maid, no matter how I admit my mistakes to you, even kneel, you won't forgive me, why should I be treated like this by you, why am I so uncomfortable, you know how sad I am these days, how depressed, I don't know how to eat, I can't sleep at night, why do you want me to be so miserable, so tormented. ”
"Some things are not forgiven if you say forgive, it is a human life, although Adoju is nothing to you, but for me, she is more precious than my own life, you go, I don't want to see you again."
"You're so ruthless, well, since you're so indifferent to me and don't care, then I don't have to care about your feelings anymore." After saying that, he pressed Yun Manna to the bed and began to kiss her forcibly.
"You go away, I'm no longer your young lady, you can't do this to me, you go away, don't touch me."
Ignoring Yun Manna's resistance, the lord was bent on kissing her, but the lord pressed her to the bed, did not let her move, and then covered her lips, and then forcibly kissed her neck and shoulder.
"You let go of me, if you do this again, I will never forgive you, I hate you, I hate you." And then there was a constant struggle and thrashing.
"Anyway, even if I don't do anything, you won't forgive me, will you, right, in that case, if you want to hate, you can hate, and I don't care if you hate more or less." With that, he began to tear her clothes.