Ah Ci has not been in a good mood in the past few months, looking at the lack of complexion, it seems that she can't lift her spirits by doing anything, Shen Nanyan is afraid that she will not be good for her health if she continues like this, and it is really inappropriate to go on like this.

When we fall asleep together at night, we can talk about our hearts and relieve her.

Shen Nanyan hardly touched others, let alone lay on a couch together. She said this sentence now enough to tell the importance of the word in her heart.

The night is dark

After bathing and freshening up, the two returned to the back room. The candlelight went out, the curtain printed with the blue plum blossom pattern was slowly lowered, and the two of them lay flat on the bed as if they were children, covered with the same quilt, and the distance between their hearts was also drawn into a lot.

There was silence between the curtains, and only the gentle and undulating breathing of the two could be heard.

"Ah Ci, are you happy?"

For a long time, a cold voice sounded in my ears, a very ordinary sentence.

"What about Miss?"

Ah Ci's whole person was unconsciously tense, and even his breathing became light and slow. Happy? If she could say that she was happy without hesitation before, now she is asking if she even knows that she is still happy.

Did the young lady notice something? I made a special mention of this sentence.

"I'm naturally unhappy, Ah Ci, I have almost no happy time in my life." Shen Nanyan's voice lowered, "Now even the few joys I have lost have lost. ”

Her voice was as cold as ever, with a low tone in her words, like a lost person who can't find the intersection and becomes at a loss.

Ah Ci couldn't help but shake her head, and her thoughts went back to when she was young, just like today, her young lady lay next to her, and she lost her mouth: "Ah Ci, what is happiness?" I don't know if I'm happy, I can't find the meaning of life. ”

Young and ignorant, she was also ignorant, she told Shen Nanyan with a smile: "Happiness is to get a new dress, new jewelry, and look good." ”

Now I understand that after going around and around for many years, her young lady is still at a loss as to what happiness is. After all, the happiness of youth is metaphorized by simple things, and I don't know its true meaning.

"Is it for Mu Gongzi?" Ah Ci spoke softly, she had also heard about Miss and Mu Gongzi, and she agreed with Shen's father and Shen's mother's views on this matter, as long as she liked it.

Thinking of Mu Zhao's gentle and gentle appearance, Shen Nanyan couldn't help but hook his lips: "Not bad." ”

When Mu Zhao was mentioned, even if he couldn't see Shen Nanyan's expression, he knew that she was smiling in her words, and Ah Ci couldn't help but sigh: "It seems that Miss really likes Mu Gongzi, and she talks with a smile when she mentions him." ”

"He's fine." She didn't talk at length about how good Mu Zhao was, because she knew that Ah Ci would support her no matter what, as long as she liked Mu Zhao, Ah Ci would naturally like it.

"Mu Gongzi is as gentle as jade, and he is an excellent person." Ah Ci said with a smile, she has always had a good impression of Mu Zhao, and she has been helping them since the day of the palace banquet.

Shen Nanyan snorted and didn't speak, Ah Ci was preoccupied and was not in the mood to talk about other things.

The two of them were silent for a while, and the sound of slow breathing came from their ears.

"You and your brother's business ......," Shen Nanyan still spoke. In any case, for the sake of Ah Ci, she can't let her be depressed and unhappy all the time.

"Miss, do you believe me?" Ah Zi didn't answer, but instead asked an extremely ordinary question.

"I believe in you." Although he didn't know the deep meaning of Ah Ci's question, Shen Nanyan still replied solemnly, "There has never been a mustard." ”

The answer was exactly the same as she expected, but Ah Ci still sighed: "Miss, let me deal with it myself, I know what to do." ”

"In that case, I will not advise you anymore." Shen Nanyan said: "Just protect yourself no matter what, don't let yourself get hurt." ”

Ah Ci nodded, his heart turned a thousand times, and his thoughts were thousands.

…………

The next day, the snow finally stopped, and the sky outside was a faint blue.

Maybe the person lying next to him is Ah Ci, she is very relieved to have her by her side, Shen Nanyan woke up very late, and only woke up when the sun was rising. When he got up, Ah Ci was gone.

Judging from the situation last night, she should know how to deal with this matter, she is about to go to her own business, Shen Nanyan put her mind at ease and began to freshen up.

After a while, Qingyin came in with a basin of hot water and waited for her to freshen up.

After staying at the border for a long time, she has never had the habit of letting people serve and groom, except for getting her hair, she does the rest by herself.

After picking up the handkerchief in the basin and wiping his face, Shen Nanyan's gaze fell on Qingyin.

A light purple dress, a delicate and delicate little face, and fair skin make her a little more luxurious, and a little more of the taste of Miss Shijia.

Qingyin's appearance is indeed not bad, don't say that among the maids of the Shen Mansion, even compared with other young ladies from small doors and small mansions, they can win a lot.

"Qingyin, what do you do at home? But are there still family members? Shen Nanyan said.

"The slave's mother has been gone for a long time, so long that the slave and the maid themselves can't remember what she looks like, only know that when she was eight years old, she was sold to the Qinglou by her father who likes to gamble, fortunately the young master rescued her, and the slave and maid were fortunate to be able to get out of the sea of suffering and live a few days of peace of mind." The light yin eyes are extremely beautiful, and the deep clear eyes are always smiling and smart, and people can't help but look directly into her eyes when they speak.

"It's good to live with peace and happiness, and you don't have to worry about young things." Shen Nanyan comforted gently, she was sympathetic to Qingyin's experience, because she spoke out with relief.

But only she knows that the scars of her youth will not easily dissipate, let alone let go of her feelings.

Once the hurt is left in the heart, it will not dissipate no matter what. Since she experienced that incident, she has struggled with pain and misfortune all her life, and now every time she thinks of that incident, her heart still hurts, and she still haunts her heart, how can she send it? Don't mind if it's just a comforting word.

"The slave has long been mindful, that incident is just a dream, that person is just a passerby, he doesn't deserve to let me hate him and hate him." Light clouds and light breezes.

This may seem ruthless and cold-hearted when mentioned in front of the world, but it is the father who has raised himself for so many years, and now he is so ruthless that he does not recognize him, in this pillar where the people's filial piety comes first, this idea is a bit too extreme.

Daddy can treat you badly, you can beat and scold you at will, if you abandon your parents, this is unfilial piety, don't treat your parents how you are, the spitting stars of the neighbors are enough to scold you to death, and the world will despise you.

Shen Nanyan just smiled after hearing this: "This is not false. "She has not experienced the disharmony of her family, she does not understand the feelings of light yin, and it is difficult for her to make statements.

There is nothing wrong with thinking about light yin from another angle, her father treats her unkindly, she just chooses to forget and never see her father again, which is fundamentally different from what the world says about unfilial piety.

"Mademoiselle agrees with me?" I was slightly surprised and couldn't believe it. Her words are deviant and contrary to the ethics of the world, and in today's world, the way is not accepted by the world, but I didn't expect Shen Nanyan to not reprimand her, but agreed with her words.

Even people like Hong Sakura, who are thoughtful and unfazed, have to persuade her for a long time when they hear her remarks, let alone her young lady.

Too talented, cold and indifferent, stunning beauty This is her impression of Shen Nanyan, but she didn't expect that she didn't agree with the norms stipulated by this world, and she was also deviant in her bones.

"Why don't you agree?" Shen Nanyan asked rhetorically, I don't know whether to ask Qingyin or ask this world again: "A person I know, he is the most gentle and kind good person in the world, it is because of the grievances of the previous generation, the world is angry with him, he is angry with the world, he pours out his heart and lungs to the world, but this world treats him unfairly, you are not wrong, it is this world that is wrong." ”

Qingyin didn't stay in Nanyuan for a long time, and she didn't know anything about Mu Zhao, so she naturally didn't know that Shen Nanyan was talking about Mu Zhao, and after listening to this story, she sighed a little: "Did Miss's friend hate it?" Have you ever complained about the injustice of this world? ”

Have you ever hated? Have you ever complained? She didn't know, but she complained and hated.

Hating this world is too unfair, a thing that could not have happened to her at all happened to her, making her suffer torture, humiliation, and suffering, suffering from it every day, and making it difficult to sleep.

complained about why her family didn't protect her, and complained about why she had to go out, otherwise that wouldn't have happened.

The conversation ended in Shen Nanyan's silence, and Qingyin walked out of the house with the already cold water.

Red Sakura had been waiting outside for a long time, and when she saw her come out, she hurriedly stepped forward and asked, "How is it?" Are you still used to serving the young lady? Did it go well? ”

Qingyin is now serving Shen Nanyan with them, Hongying has the heart to create more opportunities for Qingyin, so that she can serve Shen Nanyan more, and everyone will not dare to despise her in the future, and she can show her face in front of Shen Nanyan, so that Shen Nanyan likes her.

But she was worried about Qingyin's great rebellion, and Shen Nanyan's deviant words made Shen Nanyan dislike.

Fang Qingyin went in for so long and didn't come out, Hong Sakura's heart went up and down, and she sweated a few handfuls for her, and now she was relieved to see her come out.

"Sister, don't worry, I'm going well with Miss." Light Yin replied with a smile, responding to Sakura's kindness to her.

"That's good, that's good." Sakura couldn't help but pat her chest and let out a sigh of relief.

"I'm just bringing water into the house, my sister doesn't have to worry so much." Light gloomy and extremely depressed, is she so unreliable, like she is going to be beheaded on the guillotine.

"Can you not be worried?" Hong Sakura said earnestly: "Good sister, you listen to me, you just have to serve Miss well in the future, don't say those deviant remarks, save everyone from disliking you, let me worry about you." ”

Hongying is too well-behaved, but this is really for her sake, although she doesn't agree with her words in her heart, she still responds: "I know, sister, let's go in and comb Miss's hair"

"Okay."