Chapter Forty-Four: Who knows?
Shen Qiyuan saw that Shen Anyan was not in high spirits, thinking that Shen Anyan was embarrassed and unhappy because of Shen Anni's words, so he thought that he could quickly end this breakfast and talk to Shen Anyan in private.
Therefore, he only talked about the fact that he had not rested after he came back, and he was in a hurry to ask the old lady for peace, and he was quite tired at the moment.
The old lady naturally had no intention of not allowing him to go back to rest, not to mention that when Shen Qiyuan came, everyone had already finished breakfast and was about to disperse, but because he came, the old lady looked at him and became interested, so she talked for a while.
At present, seeing that because of Shen Anni's wild words, everyone at the table was unhappy, and the old lady didn't stay, waving her hand to let the children go back to receive the punishment, and to go back to rest.
After Shen Anyan retired to the old lady, she didn't look at Shen Qiyuan, but just let Bian Niang put on a brocade and fur cloak, and the hood of the cloak was wrapped around a circle of white velvet rabbit hair, which lined Shen Anyan's picturesque eyebrows and eyes even more unstained with dust.
She also sighed a little for a while, Shen Qiyuan was still eating smoothies in the middle of summer when he went, and when he came back, even the snow was covered in snow.
Qingling had already held an umbrella for Shen Anyan under the corridor, and Shen Anyan walked into the snow without looking back at Shen Qiyuan.
She knew that it was actually very unusual for her to be like this, logically speaking, she hadn't seen her for half a year, and she should have gone to Shen Qiyuan to say hello alone anyway. But at this moment, Shen Anyan is irrepressibly willful.
Since she was reborn, she has been working step by step. has been working hard for his marriage and the cause of his father's death, because he knows that the crisis is still hidden in the shadows and has not surfaced, so whether it is facing the old lady or Shen Qiyuan, he is somewhat rational.
She knew that the old lady was treated very well, and she also knew that Shen Qiyuan protected her everywhere and was trustworthy. But after going through her previous life, it was difficult for her to have a deep trust in anyone. It's not that she doesn't want to believe it, but once the relationship reaches the most intimate time, to the time when everything needs to be entrusted, she will unconsciously retreat.
Shen Anyan would think that she was also such a trusted person back then, full of expectations, happily marrying him, and giving everything to him without reservation. But in the end, she only got endless disappointment and pain, her child was thrown into the mountains, and even she herself broke down and despaired so much that she ended her life with a swing of her sword.
No one knows how much courage she mustered when she said the "I will" sentence in front of the old lady that day. At that time, of course, there were some gods and ghosts, but after thinking about it, she didn't regret it. Although she was still uncontrollable and worried, she was so relieved when she saw Shen Qiyuan.
Trust is rare for those who have been betrayed.
Once she delivered, she was always on the lookout, and whenever she saw signs of another injury, she quickly pulled out. Shen Anyan didn't complain about Shen Qiyuan's marriage with Princess Guishuang, nor did she feel that she had really been let down, she just felt that she had fallen too deeply.
She is so awkward, in fact, she just can't get over herself.
She was afraid that she would continue to talk to Shen Qiyuan, and when Shen Qiyuan and Guishuang really got married, she would not be able to honor her uncle and aunt with a glass of wine.
I can't continue to get closer, Shen Anyan thought, I can't hurt others and myself in emotional matters.
Shen Qiyuan originally wanted to say a few words to the third girl, but saw that the girl didn't know what to do and hurried away. He had no choice but to look at the birds on Shen Anyan's cloak for a while, and then returned to Wuning Pavilion first.
Shen Qiyuan was tired of what he said at the old lady's place, although he hoped that he would disperse the morning banquet earlier, but it was not a lie, he was indeed galloping in the starry night to return to the capital early.
He came back early this time because he wanted to report to His Majesty to discuss the situation at the border before the Da Yue Clan's peace team came to Beijing, because it was His Majesty's secret edict, so it was very low-key.
It was early in the morning when he returned, and he was about to change into court clothes and go to report to His Majesty.
But before he got out of the door of the Shen Mansion, he saw someone report it, saying that His Majesty was not in good health today, and he would take a day off for a day, and his debriefing would also be moved to a later date.
Shen Qiyuan then went to Hanqing Courtyard to have breakfast, but unfortunately the good atmosphere was cleaned up by Shen Anni. When he thought about it like this, he felt that only half a year of fines was too little.
He was in too much of a hurry to return to Beijing, and he didn't have a good rest for a while, and the flesh wounds he suffered on the battlefield seemed to him to be an ordinary thing.
But because he doesn't care, now there is a faint meaning of worsening inflammation. So he didn't rush to ask Shen Anyan what was going on for a while, but went back to Wuning Pavilion to rest.
It's not that Shen Qiyuan doesn't care about Shen Anyan, but in his heart, Shen Anyan is always calm and calm, and he doesn't worry about some trivial matters.
He had just returned to Kyoto, and he didn't know how much the matter between Guishan and his relatives was spreading, so he didn't think about it. I just thought that Shen Anyan also had something important to do, and he was inconvenient to disturb, so he simply went back to recuperate first and then talked about it.
And at the same time, in the Bibo Courtyard.
Shen Anyan did not get the peace she imagined because she avoided Shen Qiyuan. In recent days, she obviously prefers to stay alone, and often from afternoon to night, she will not call Bian Niang and Qingling in to serve, but she sits alone from dawn to dark, and then everyone sees that the dark room has been lit up for a long time.
She was more distracted than before, but it was hard for her to notice and control it. Usually just thinking about things and thinking about things, I can't help but think about Shen Qiyuan's matter, and then it takes a long time to react.
Bian Niang always worried about whether she hadn't rested well recently, so she replaced her with soothing spices and qi-invigorating dishes. Although Shen Anyan did not have a good night's sleep today, she also knew that her trance had little to do with these. I was afraid that Bian Niang would be worried, so I simply sent them out to be alone.
And after she saw Shen Qiyuan on this day, she stayed alone in the room for a day, reading books in the name of beauty, but when Bian Niang came in, she found that her book still only saw the previous thickness.
Bian Niang felt uncomfortable, but she was helpless, so she only whispered to her sister: "Sister, don't think about it too much, I've read books for a day, let's rest first." ”
And Shen Anyan only nodded tamely when she heard this, obviously there was no difference between sitting next to the small desk in a daze and lying on the bed and not falling asleep and continuing to be in a daze.
She was just very sad, because the distraction of the past few days made her feel that it was not so simple to really let go of Shen Qiyuan.