Feng Xiyan walked alone to Shangguan Candle and the courtyard where she lived, because she wanted to be alone and quiet, so the subordinates were sent away by her, and there was no one left.

She didn't know what was wrong with her, she might have been infected by Hu Mingzhi's sad emotions, and she couldn't be happy at all, and she was full of sorrow, which was very unpleasant.

The reason why she feels this way is not because of anything else at all, but because she finds that she has become a little different from before, and this subtle change does not know where to start.

And she was deeply immersed in it but didn't realize it, she still remembered that when she first came to this place, she was full of blood, with an ignorant and fearless spirit, she was not afraid of anything, and she dared to fight anything.

has a strong sense of empathy, let alone killing, even if you see someone injured, you are scared, and you have nightmares for a few days, but I don't know where to start, I am gradually assimilated here.

Slowly accepting the etiquette of dignity and humility here, I began to look down on all beings in the posture of a superior person, and gradually began to become selfish, no matter what happened, the first thing that came to mind was not to help others, but how much it would benefit oneself.

Even when Wan Nian Nian and Hong'er died in front of him, he didn't feel much, some were just indifferent, not to mention afraid, even his heartbeat had not accelerated, and he looked indifferent, and now that he thought about it, he didn't know himself a little.

Although Wan Nian Nian and Hong'er deserve to die for their crimes, but their wicked people have their own harvest and will have their own retribution, and they should not sympathize with them, but when the two living lives died in front of them, they didn't feel anything.

When did all these changes begin, she never realized that she was a modern person who admired modern life greater than heaven, and whether that person was a bad person or not, she should have a sense of reverence for life.

But these, she seems to have gradually discarded, and even slowly began to feel that it was just a life, and she was not afraid of anything.

"It's a horrible feeling, I don't want it! I don't want to be like that, that's not me, I'm not, I'm living in a society where everyone is equal, and my philosophy is that everyone is equal! I can't change! I can't become myself and I don't know myself anymore! ”

Feng Xiyan muttered in a low voice, and walked forward in a panic, not even seeing the person standing in front of her with his back to her in the shade of the tree, only immersed in his own changes and unable to extricate himself.

When she walked to the figure and was suddenly blocked in the way, she raised her head sharply to look at the obstacle in front of her, and her tears fell down with a frightened cry.

"Shangguan Candle, I'm so scared ......."

"What's wrong? What happened? Did Hu Mingzhi do something to you? ”

Shangguan Candle nervously hugged Feng Xiyan into his arms and asked worriedly.

"Not ......"

Feng Xiyan slowly shook his head and denied it, but the words that he wanted to explain just came to his lips stopped abruptly, his eyes instantly cleared, and he almost missed his mouth when he reacted.

Leaning on Shangguan Candle's arms, she lowered her eyes weakly, and secretly blamed herself in her heart.

Almost, almost leaked, although he said that sooner or later he would confess to Shangguan Candle, but now the time is not ripe, they have just reconciled, the emotional foundation is still unstable, and they can't stand the slightest bit of wind and rain.

"Yan'er, what happened?"

Shangguan Candle saw that Feng Xiyan's expression was wrong, and he looked like he wanted to speak and stopped, and he had no confidence in his heart, for fear that something would happen that would make their relationship stiff.

Seeing this, Feng Xiyan eased his nerves and let the tears continue to flow, but the topic turned to Hu Mingzhi.

"It's none of Hu Ming's business, he didn't do anything to me, I just ...... It's just that I feel uncomfortable when I see him grief-stricken, and then I think of some bad things, and I see fallen leaves all over the ground...... Some of the touches are ....... ”

Hearing this, Shangguan Candle hugged Feng Xiyan tightly again, unconsciously relieved, a little funny and a little helplessly reassured: "No, we won't be like them, I will never let such a thing happen." ”

Shangguan Candle's domineering and sincere voice sounded in Feng Xiyan's ears, her heart trembled unconsciously, and the panic in her heart disappeared instantly, leaving only the warmth of her heart.

It turns out that this is what it feels like to be truly loved by others!

"Shangguan Candle, you have to be responsible for what you say, so, a gentleman's word, the horse is difficult to chase, and I will spend my life waiting for you to practice."

Feng Xiyan raised his bright eyes in Shangguan Candle's arms, and said sincerely to Shangguan Candle's eyes that were so affectionate that they could drown people in them.

Hearing this, Shangguan Candle lowered his eyes slightly, it was not that he didn't understand the meaning of Fengxi's words, but his life was too ethereal for him, his heart was too big, and he wanted too many things, he was afraid that God would blame him for having a big heart, and he would tease him like Hu Mingzhi.

Therefore, he didn't dare to be too happy too obviously, he didn't dare to ask for more, every day with Feng Xiyan was stolen by him, so he cherished a state of mind that was so scared that he was terrified.

But now, looking at these eyes full of his figure, he realized that he was too cowardly, too cowardly, and if he dared to say such a promise, why did he dare not fulfill it?

"Yan'er, I swear with my life, in this life, no matter life or death, no matter where, I will be with you Feng Xiyan, wholeheartedly, grow old, and never separate."

Feng Xiyan's heart twitched, and the tears in the corners of his eyes flowed more wantonly, and he was so moved that he couldn't be more moved.

She has always treated others well, planned the future for others, and planned a way out, although no one else has the ability to repay her more.

But she is used to being kind to people, and she also needs some touching, and she also needs others to plan for her own future.

"What's wrong? What am I doing wrong? Did I say something wrong to upset you? ”

Seeing Feng Xiyan crying, Shangguan Candle was at a loss, so nervous that he didn't know what to do, thinking that he had said something wrong to make Feng Xiyan unhappy.

Feng Xiyan violently plunged his tearful face into Shangguan Candle's chest, slowly shook his head, and said in a thick nasal voice: "Shangguan Candle, since you promised to treat me well for the rest of your life, you must keep your promise and not go back." ”

"Because I'm a stingy person, if you can't give me a lifetime if you're kind to me, then, from the beginning, you don't give it to me, I'm more afraid of the pain of losing than the pain I've ever received."

It's not that she's worried, it's that the previous living environment has caused her to have no sense of security for many years, so the happier she is, the easier it is to be sentimental.