Some things are fearful to recall and painful to say. But if you don't remember or tell, it doesn't mean that those things will disappear.

They will only make you think about it over and over again on ordinary days, sometimes in some verses, sometimes in some people, sometimes in dreams, and when you wake up, you will find that you are just reminiscing again.

Of course, I know that I am not an orphan, and I know that from birth to the age of four, I was in my mother's arms, and my father made me giggle, and no one will punish me for doing something wrong, only those who are inferior. It's just that such good days have forever stopped when I was four years old.

Dad is not a good official, he is corrupt and bribery, helps the evil, does things that the people hate, and guards the family's precious daughter. The mother has the protection of her father, and she has also become fond of vanity. She would go out on the street with a few ladies, buy the most expensive bracelets and hairpins, use the best fat powder and incense powder, and from time to time spoil other people's good deeds. But even though my father and mother are bad people in front of the people, they are very kind in front of me.

But paper can't contain the fire after all, my father's matter was reported to the emperor, and the emperor set fire to the mansion and beheaded my father and mother on the spot, but he didn't kill me. I don't know if it's pity or what, but I should still be thankful to him.

After wandering for a while, I heard all the insults that the people had told me, and I also remembered the reasons why I was not welcomed. Later, Xu Wuxian saw me while walking on the street and picked up the Qinglian Society. Although Xu Wuxian is a treacherous slippery head, he will always get the fastest news. He told me about my origins, even though I had heard about them. He said that I had a great talent for using the enemy's weakness to defeat him, but I also had a fatal flaw - I refused to kill any innocent people.

But I don't think that's a disadvantage, on the contrary, it should be a good thing. But in Xu Wuxian's eyes, I will only be unable to start because of this "shortcoming", which will make me take more detours, and even lead to some orders that cannot be accepted, so that the employer will be unhappy and will reduce the income of Qinglian Club. In his eyes, money is above all else, the employer is heaven, he is human, and we killers are as humble as the dust under his feet, not to mention those who were killed.

He said, "No one is innocent, the so-called innocent, it's just that you don't see the evil deeds in them." They are innocent in your eyes, and they may burn and loot behind their backs, and you don't know anything. You only see that they have no ill will towards you. ”

I admit that what Xu Wuxian said is not unreasonable. I've always killed people who didn't pose a threat to me, but one of the reasons I can't ignore is that I don't want to kill them because I'm afraid of trouble. After all, I never knew what else would happen after killing that person, so I'd rather be more troublesome before than more trouble later.

Old man Zheng didn't look like a miracle doctor at all, he asked me a lot of questions along the way, I relied on lying to do things perfunctory, he saw that I really didn't want to say anything, so he didn't ask again. Finally arrived in the capital, and when the midwife saw the old man Zheng, she seemed to be uncomfortable, and quietly retreated to the side, waiting for the old man to take the pulse.

"The pulse is disordered, the liver is split, and there is no cure."

The old man didn't speak tactfully at all, the anxious Ah Yan cried on the side, the aunt seemed to see it, and said: "I have long thought about what to do if I die, since you are all here, I have nothing to explain, I only hope that Ah Yan can marry a good family and someone will take care of her ......in the future."

"Sister, I can arrange all these things for Ah Yan, but you are sick ......" Mrs. sighed, and Ah Yan said again: "Thank you, madam, the slave will do her best to serve Madame!" ”

I couldn't see this meeting, I just felt panicked in my heart, so I walked out quickly and took a deep breath.

"What's that sad about you again?"

The old man's voice sounded from behind me, and I said impatiently, "Why are you coming out if you don't see a doctor?" ”

"Yufu is such a descendant of you, I'm afraid you will have an accident."

"How many times have I said it, I'm not from Yufu, don't say it again."

"You always lie to me, can I not say it?"

"How do you know I'm lying to you?"

"Huh! If I don't know, how have I walked the rivers and lakes for so many years? ”

"You are a doctor, what are you walking in?"

"You think you're strong because you're strong in martial arts? What's wrong with the doctor, do you look down on the doctor, you say, do you heal yourself every time you are injured? ”

"I'm not hurt much by Mrs. Chang's side."

"You said that you are young, why don't you tell the truth, I don't believe that Mrs. Chang has dragged you from childhood to adulthood."

I didn't say anything more, what the hell is this old man going to do?

"Forget it, let me tell you, the poison in this girl is not a split liver, but another poison."

"Isn't this a symptom of split liver dispersion? What else is there to argue? ”

"Hey, on the surface, it looks like a split liver, but it's actually a soul snatcher."

I was stunned, I hadn't heard this name for a long time.

"Heard of it, right? Let me tell you, the reason why I don't stay in the capital is not because I can't do medical skills, I just don't want to be called to be a doctor. The emperor looked for me once before, and I escaped, if you ask now, who knows Doctor Zheng, everyone will tell you that Doctor Zheng has died a long time ago. ”

"But the midwife still told me to go to you, by that name."

"That's because there are a few people in the Daimyo Mansion who know about me. Don't talk about this, how powerful the Soul Snatcher is scattered, it is more powerful than splitting the liver, let people eat it, you can temporarily manipulate that person, this is how many crooked ways want to do. ”

"What can I do? Now she can only let her daughter stay by her side, there are rules in Master Chang's mansion that outsiders cannot live, and it is impossible for Mrs. Chang to take her aunt back. ”

"You can also stay by her side, you have high internal strength, at least you can protect them when you are in danger."

I knew what the old man was thinking, and I was a little amazed at his delicacy. This is an imperceptible Soul Snatcher, and it is rumored that as long as someone eats Soul Snatcher, they can control that person's actions in order to achieve their own goals. The old man thought that the person who had fed the Soul Snatcher would still come back, so he asked me to accompany Ah Yan and her mother.

Old man Zheng and the midwife seem to have something going on, neither of them is looking at each other very seriously, but the old man was called by the midwife.

"I'm back, and there's nothing to do with me here." After the old man finished speaking, he was about to get on the horse.

"Wait, I've got something for you."

The midwife took the jade bracelet off her wrist, handed it to the old man, and said, "Give it back to you." ”

"What do you mean?"

"I don't need it anymore."

The old man was stunned for a moment, put away the bracelet as usual, grabbed the reins, and said, "There will be a period later." ”

The midwife also quickly left, leaving only a few of us women in the small room with my aunt, and the aunt also looked much more serious than I thought, as if there was only breath coming out and no breath coming in.

"I know...... My time is running out...... But I can't rest assured that Ah Yan ......" the aunt gasped for a while, and then continued, "What can I do...... Only ......"

The aunt didn't seem to be out of breath anymore, Ah Yan was almost crying on the side, and the lady was anxious when she saw it, but she was helpless for a moment.

"When you meet the stars, is there really no way at all?" Madame asked. I was embarrassed and said, "It's been a long time since I lived to this day......

Before she finished speaking, the aunt spurted out a mouthful of blood, I hurriedly pulled Mrs. and Ah Yan to dodge, Ah Yan couldn't care so much, and directly lifted a basin from the side and put it in front of the aunt, the aunt vomited blood, I saw it in my eyes, but there was no sympathy.

"Meet the stars! What should I do, you know medical skills, please save my mother! Ah Yan cried and hugged my legs. I bit my lip and said, "This one for me...... Powerless. ”

The three of them watched the aunt swallow slowly, I wanted to cut open the aunt's stomach to see what kind of medicine was applied, but unfortunately I didn't have this opportunity.

Ah Yan gradually cried silently, but my heart did not fluctuate, only thinking about who would manipulate my aunt. When I thought about it, I was distracted, it was already evening when I arrived with Old Man Zheng, and now that it was time, Ah Yan couldn't be willing to go back with us, so Madam had to let me go back and call a few more people to guard.