Before, when he was clear about his mind, he thought that Shangguan Candle was that person, but now, everything is just a joke, how can a person like him who will not give up as long as he does not achieve his goal in his eyes understand? How could it be a waste of time to get to know the real her? The so-called liking is nothing more than a whim.

"At the end of the day, you're always concerned about how I influence your plans, not what I really think and what that means to me?"

Although he silently warned himself in his heart not to cry, not to cry, not to coward, not to show his fragile side in front of him, but after all, he still couldn't resist the grievances and shed tears of grievances.

Shangguan Candle was stunned, looked at the tearful Feng Xiyan, and suddenly became at a loss, I don't know what to do, but I have been used to having a cold face for many years, so I am at a loss, but I still look confident on my face.

Feng Xiyan's change was too fast, so that the others present couldn't react, Xiao Dezi was the first person to react, and the moment he reacted, he quickly pulled the stunned eunuch down, and drank all the melon-eating crowd around him.

Feng Xiyan, who was full of grievances, didn't know what was wrong with him, and he didn't want to say this, but for some reason, what was originally a question turned into an aggrieved accusation.

"I don't know what you think, you never tell me, and you don't treat me as your own, although I usually look big and don't put anything in my heart, but I actually care in my heart, and I still care to death."

"Wang Rong said you like me. And it was precisely because he found that you became less rational than before, and began to be timid in doing things, and began to consider my feelings, and he was afraid that you would delay your plans, so he disregarded your status and humbled you, and said a lot of rude words. ”

"I thought the truth was as he said, I thought you really had me in your heart, I thought you really changed for me, and when I heard him say that, I was really happy, because I seemed to feel the same way about you."

These words, she won't say anything if she kills Feng Xiyan, because it's too embarrassing, not to mention, it is without determining Shangguan Candle's intentions, but since she has opened her mouth, she doesn't want to continue to pretend to be stupid in these words.

Because this is not her style as a modern person, she can't be ashamed of modern people who advocate freedom and strive to pursue their own happiness, so there is nothing to say this.

"At the beginning, I was very afraid of you, I was afraid that you were so scared, I felt that how could there be a person like you who didn't know how to pity the fragrance and cherish the jade, how could there be a terrifying person like you, but slowly, after experiencing more and more things, I found myself more and more dependent on you, and even thought about your every move for a long time, and my emotions changed all the time because of your actions."

"When I found this change, I was resistant in my heart, I felt that how could this be, I felt terrible, so I tried my best to get out of this state, and tried to convince myself that these were just illusions, but on the night you carried me back to the palace from Zhao Gezhuang, it was ...... time for you to promise me to let it go."

Feng Xiyan said as she spoke, her body squatted on the ground unconsciously, and her tears fell to the ground one by one, soaking the ground in front of her.

"I'm really happy, but the next day, you poured a basin of cold water on me, which made me sober up in an instant, and understood that I was self-inflicted, and later, from Wang Rong's mouth, I knew why you were so moody."

"But even so, not only am I not angry, but I feel more sorry for you, and I am not angry with you anymore, thinking that I want to help you well, but today I know that everything is just a misunderstanding, and Wang Rong does not have to worry about it at all."

"Because in your heart, I won't affect you in the slightest, you always rank me last in your heart, even Wang Rong is in front of me in your heart, I really hate this feeling, I really ......."

Feng Xiyan dared to really face the most real mirror in her heart at this moment, she was too proud and complacent, she regarded herself too important, and felt that everyone should revolve around her...... Even she couldn't help but laugh at herself, how narcissistic she was to have such thoughts.

"I told you, I am a person who values feelings, but anyone who is good to me, I will return it tenfold and hundredfold, and this is the case with Mo Lan, because of my pride and arrogance, she has suffered so much damage, in this case, can't I take revenge? Am I going to let her hurt in vain? ”

"You have your own persistence and purpose, I also have it, I also have my own persistence and guardian people, now we are an equal cooperative relationship, I am no longer the puppet you want to control, this time, because of my personal impulse to make you lose, next time, I will definitely help you get it back, but this does not mean that you can control my actions."

Shangguan Candle's pupils shrank, and he looked at Feng Xiyan who was squatting in front of him with a complicated mood, listening to what she said, his heart boiled and explained frantically, "It's not like this, it's not like this, he doesn't think like this." ”

But these are all the cries in his heart, and in reality, because of too many factors, he can't say anything, and he can't even hug her.

I could only watch her squat there crying in grief, but she couldn't get anything.

After waiting for a long time, but still couldn't wait for the answers and actions he wanted, Feng Xiyan gradually calmed down, wiped the tears off his face, and looked up at Shangguan Candle with a pair of red rabbit-like eyes.

Seeing that he still had a cold and emotionless face, and his expression hadn't even changed by half a minute, Feng Xiyan's heart soaked in ice water didn't move at all.

And Feng Xiyan's emotions also calmed down unusually well, as if the person who had just made a compromise and expressed her heart in a low voice was not her, but someone else.

Also, after all, he is self-inflicted, although it is very embarrassing, but it doesn't matter, it can be regarded as determining Shangguan Candle's intentions, and in the future, he will not be unpredictable because of his erratic, sometimes good and sometimes bad attitude.

Because, it has nothing to do with her.

Feng Xiyan stood up slowly, with a flower in front of her, her body shook involuntarily, and in a trance, she saw Shangguan Candle on the opposite side as if she had raised her hand to support her.

When she stood up straight and looked, he was still standing in his previous position, not moving.