But to cover it up, you have to weave lies, weave lies, and lies, and this kind of thing, from the first panic, you have to use countless lies to maintain, otherwise, it will be easy to be exposed.

In this regard, Feng Xiyan only felt so tired, this is all a bad thing, even more tired than being an emperor.

But despite this, she still had to choose to lie, because she didn't have a choice, did she? Shangguan Candle didn't give her the right to choose to be honest.

"I know what you mean, I used to abide by my duty, abide by the rules, and never take a step away, but now I am wanton, not as endured and humiliated as before, the means are fierce, and I will take revenge, not as cautious as before, do you want to know why?"

Feng Xiyan lowered his eyes, withdrew his hand from the bell, and made a deep gesture, deliberately lowering his voice, with a little bitter smile on his face, a little sad, a little hateful, and a little cold.

The emotions were shrouded, and after the atmosphere was just right, he raised his sad eyes and looked at the bell.

Hearing Feng Xiyan's question, the bell slowly shook his head.

Feng Xiyan smiled bitterly and said: "Although I keep saying that I can't remember anything before, I don't have any impression of what happened before, and I don't even know anyone anymore, this is a lie, this is a lie that even the prime minister doesn't know." ”

The bell was startled, looked at Shen Xianhe with wide eyes, and blurted out, "Young lady, you ...... Are you saying you don't have amnesia? You pretended to be everything? ”

"No, you think too much, I did lose my memory, and it's true that I can't remember a lot of things, and people don't know me, but in the middle of the night, those nightmarish experiences often appear in my dreams, reminding me that even if I go to memory, what happened will not disappear because of this."

"I don't dare to tell Xianggong, I'm afraid that he will worry, I already owe him a lot, I don't want him to be distracted by my affairs, and I don't want to embarrass him, I am an ominous person, I was born, my parents died, not to mention, soon, the only remaining grandfather also left, leaving me who is still ignorant and ignorant."

"I really want to forget those nightmare experiences, come back to life, stay by Xianggong's side with a new identity, have children for him, do the duty of a wife, respect him, love him...... But, no, those things won't let me go just because I'm going to remember. ”

"Every time I dream of those unbearable scenes, I don't even have the courage to live, but I don't dare to die...... I didn't want my husband to be sad and sad, so I told myself that I must find the murderer who hurt me, as long as I find the murderer and take revenge, I can completely let go of the past and have the courage to live. ”

"Thinking of my previous weakness and deception, I was careful to please others' character, and while I felt sorry for myself, I also silently swore in my heart that I must not let myself change back to the kind of character I used to be, I don't want to live like that when I have died once, in the future, how to be happy, anyway, there is nothing to lose, isn't it?"

Originally, I just wanted to make the atmosphere a little lower, so that I could seduce the bell's sympathy, so that the sympathetic bell would not notice when he listened to her weave a lie full of flaws.

It's just that what I didn't expect was that I was low and low, and I really brought myself into the mood, and unconsciously, my mood was really low.

Not to mention the bell, even Feng Xiyan was hurt by the revelation of her true feelings, as if Jiang Lianrong had experienced all the nightmares she had experienced, and the pain in her heart could not be stopped, resentment, grievance, and depression.

"Miss, the bell doesn't know that you are carrying so much, looking at your heartless and unadjusted appearance every day...... The slave still felt strange in her heart, thinking how did you become like this? How can it be different from before...... Whining...... The slave is so sad that you are carrying so much pain, but you cannot share the ...... for you. ”

The bell was in tears as early as when Feng Xiyan was really emotionally involved, and as soon as she finished speaking, she couldn't hold back at all, and the suppressed tears were like a flood, pouring down in an instant, and her eyes were full of distress and self-blame, and she choked up.

Even more because of the grief, he couldn't support it, squatted in front of Feng Xiyan and cried, not caring about the eyes of the people around him.

Feng Xiyan's eyes were red, and her heart was complicated, she seemed to understand why Jiang Lianrong couldn't survive, and she used the way of seeking death to free herself, empathizing with this kind of thing, no one could understand it.

But just by bringing herself into her world, she was already in unbearable pain, so how much pain and torture should Jiang Lianrong endure after experiencing this?

"Is there any difficulty in this girl? Why do you cry so sadly? Is it because of that scoundrel just now? Rest assured, he has escaped and will not disturb your ....... ”

"Yes! Don't be afraid, we won't let him hurt your ....... ”

"Get out! Get out of here! What do you know? What do you know? ”

The people who were watching around saw the bell squatting on the ground and crying, thinking that they were frightened to cry by the scoundrel old man just now, so you comforted me with a word.

It's just that before she finished speaking, she got up and scolded angrily.

"It's really kind and not rewarded, you deserve to be harassed just now, maybe what the old man said just now is true, you are ......."

The well-wishers who were angrily reprimanded by the bell suddenly lost their temper, and instantly turned against each other, and said evil words to them with malicious words.

Feng Xiyan narrowed his eyes, turned around and walked quickly to the person who pointed at the bell and scolded angrily, grabbed his collar, and warned viciously: "We understand your kindness, but don't point fingers at us under the pretext of being good for us, otherwise, I will make you pay." ”

Although he was half a head shorter than others, his aura was too strong, and his eyes were like eating people, so he was so shocked that he didn't dare to continue to speak, he looked at her blankly, and couldn't say anything.

After the warning, Feng Xiyan let go of the man, glared at him viciously, turned around and returned to the bell, and saw that she was looking at her blankly, with tears hanging from the corners of her eyes, because of her sluggish expression, the whole person looked very funny.