Chapter 42: Love is the most difficult

Mu Qing didn't expect that Xiang Xuemei in front of her had already discovered herself, and when she asked, she immediately stopped and stood still, but she didn't know how to answer for a while, and after a pause, she stammered, "Miss Xiang, what a coincidence, you are also taking a walk here!" ”

"What a coincidence! I happened to meet you in the suburbs, and I happened to fall off the horse, and then I happened to run into a mimosa, what a lot of coincidencesβ€”β€”? The latter, as always, was as refreshing, and used several good tricks in a row, and teased with a smile on his eyebrows.

"Actually, I, I have something to talk to Miss Xiang." Mu Qing was oppressed by the former's many tricks, gritted his teeth, and finally opened his mouth to express his intentions.

"Hehe, let's talk about it earlier! Just to wait for you to take the initiative to say this, I walked and walked, and my feet hurt when I walked, so I waited. "Xiang Xuemei under the moonlight, even if she is sharp-toothed, is extraordinarily gentle and moving.

Mu Qing smiled bitterly, and glanced at the pavilion next to the water pavilion, "Miss Xiang, why don't you go and sit in the pavilion!" ”

The two entered the pavilion one after the other, sat down silently, looking at the sparkling pool water, the weeping willows gently blown by the breeze, this spring night, really with its own magical brilliance, incomparably quiet and beautiful.

So, she looked at the pool of soft water, and he looked at her cut-and-cut face, I really hope that with her, the years are quiet, and the earth is barren.

Xiang Xuemei turned her head and collided with Mu Qing's eyes again, but she didn't dodge anything, "You are looking for me, do you have something to tell me?" ”

Xiang Xuemei broke the tranquility and asked Mu Qing directly, because she wanted to know why he was trying his best to get close to her.

Mu Qing had actually seen the former's doubts a long time ago, and he also wanted to explain everything and everything, and also showed his intentions with him, but when he opened his mouth, he couldn't say a word.

After hesitating for a long time, he whispered: "Miss Xiang, your horse is really good riding, but you have been able to do it since you were a child?" ”

opened his mouth, did not directly indicate his identity, but praised her horse for riding well, not that Mu Qing was heartless, but that he wanted to be tactful and tactful, to show her identity, so as not to scare her at once.

Also, Mu Qing privately hoped that even if Xiang Xuemei pretended to be sick and ran away from marriage, it was because of other reasons, not because she had no existence of herself in her heart at all.

Therefore, I wanted to test the other party and ask her if she had been riding horses since she was a child, hoping that she could remember learning to ride horses in the palace when she was a child, so that she would remember herself?

To put it bluntly, Mu Qing still has the arrogant mentality of his little prince, and he hopes that this affection is not just his wishful thinking.

"Hmm." Not hearing the answer and explanation she wanted, Xiang Xuemei was obviously a little disappointed, just nodded slightly, and said "um" before saying no more.

Mu Qing saw that she was silent again, and did not think about anything in the palace, but he was full of disappointment in his heart, but he was still unwilling and stupid and said: "You say, are there any small crabs in this pond?" ”

As soon as the three words "little crab" came out, Xiang Xuemei immediately turned around and stared at Mu Qing tightly.

And what about the people he stared at? It can be said that he was ecstatic, his heart was beating wildly, and his hand tightly grasped the cold round stone bench.

At this moment, Mu Qing not only hoped that she would think of herself, but also feared that she would think of herself, so under her hot gaze, he actually lowered his head.

"You followed me all night, didn't you just discuss with me whether there were any small crabs in this pool?" After Xiang Xuemei lowered her head at the former, she said leisurely.

It's no wonder that her tone is not good, and she is slightly angry and sarcastic.

Originally, she thought that Mu Qing would explain to herself that if it was reasonable, then she would still treat him as a good friend, and she would not blame him in the past.

However, not only did Mu Qing not explain sincerely, but also always talked about him left and right, saying something boring, so at this moment she was also full of satisfied disappointment and anger.

And at this moment, not only was she full of disappointment, but Mu Qing was also full of disappointment.

It turned out that in her memory, she never existed of herself, nor did she hide the things she cherished when she was a child in her heart like herself, and never forgot it for a moment.

That also shows that whether it is in memory or now, there is no place for herself in her heart.

If that's the case, then even if you identify yourself to her, and then tell her about the pain of lovesickness for her for many years, it doesn't seem to make any sense!

Because, in her heart, she has never had a place for herself, and after all, it is just her own wishful thinking!

Thinking of this, Mu Qing closed her eyes painfully and helplessly, only hoping that as soon as she opened it, she smiled softly and told herself under the bright moon and breeze that she remembered, she remembered everything, remembered everything in the palace, and remembered herself, it was his-Fujin who had not passed the door.

However, when Mu Qing opened his eyes again, he only heard the sound of the breeze blowing the willows in the pavilion, and he was a pair of shadows alone under the moonlight.

Although the spring night was drunk and the moonlight was boundless, Mu Qing's heart was empty and helpless, he still sat blankly, and he couldn't even smile bitterly if he wanted to.

"Master, are you alright? It's cold, your feet are still hurting, go back to the house! You Dong didn't know when he came, Gong stood behind Mu Qing, looking at him worriedly.

Mu Qing didn't say anything, he stood up straight, and walked as soon as he took a step, but he stumbled and was about to fall.

Youdong quickly helped him, and after helping him up and settling him down, his face was full of concern and worry, "Master, why are you here, the wind and cold in the first month, it was not easy to get better, and you hurt your foot like this, if Fujin knows, and I don't know what it will be like to be distressed?" ”

"Youdong, you already recognized her, didn't you?" Although Mu Qing was asking Youdong, his eyes were looking at the pale black starry sky.

"Yes, she looks like Mrs. Wen, but her subordinates are not sure, and it was not until she brought Qin Huaiyu back to Tong'an Hall directly that her subordinates dared to be sure that she was Miss Wen's."

The reason why Youdong was determined at this time was because Tong'an Hall was the property of the Shen Mansion, and the Shen Mansion was Wen Xuerong's maternal grandfather's house.

Mu Qing wanted to struggle to stand up again, but somehow, his feet were numb and weak, he supported the table with his hands, and gritted his teeth before standing up.

Seeing him like this, Youdong was so frightened that he knelt down and begged: "Master, Youdong beg, don't get along with yourself anymore, tell Miss Wen everything!" She is a sensible person, and if she knew what you had done for her, she would never have avoided you again. ”

"Alas, Youdong, you don't understand, if she doesn't have me in her heart, even if she tells her everything, it will be useless, this relationship must be happy with each other to be beautiful for a long time." Mu Qing's atrium ached faintly, and his head also ached violently.

"Master, no, my subordinates see that although Miss Wen has a lively temperament, she has a very good heart, if she knows that in order to wait for him, she even refused to say that the elders arranged several side blessings, and also made an oath in front of the ancestral tablet that she will only marry one wife in this life, and never marry another side blessing, she will definitely be moved." Youdong pulled Mu Qing's shirt, and was so impulsive that he really wanted to tell Miss Wen about these things in person.

"No need, I want more than just her touch." Mu Qing said softly, he just wanted to lift his feet, but he couldn't move half a step, so he had to help Youdong and said: "I really can't move this foot, you can help me go back!" ”

Youdong protected Mu Qing and limped away behind the courtyard gate, and Xiang Xuemei walked out from behind the pavilion, and a green leaf picked up in her hand was crushed by her fingers.

Just now, she was very disappointed when she saw that Mu Qing was unwilling to tell the truth, but she understood that he was injured, and she couldn't bear to criticize him, so she wanted to leave quietly.

But at this moment, she saw a figure flying in on the wall, and she vaguely recognized it under the moonlight, as if it was Mu Qing's guard, so she turned back curiously and quietly, wanting to see what he was doing here?

Unexpectedly, I never expected that listening to their conversation casually, I heard a concussive sound that kept flashing overhead like thunder and lightning.

Mu Qing turned out to be the little prince of Mianfeng, his future husband, which was shocking enough, and I heard that he directly rejected several side Fujin for himself, not to mention, and swore in front of the ancestral tablet that he would only marry one wife in this life.

Before, I knew that he had been waiting for him, and he had been doing many touching things intimately.

However, she really didn't expect that Mu Qing would be so persistent in her feelings for herself, and silently pay too much for herself.

And he was really ashamed and ashamed to avoid it for many years for his ridiculous, non-existent side blessing.

Also, at present, it seems that he has long recognized himself, and he has long known that he pretended to be sick and escaped from marriage, but he did not complain and blame a word, but just tried carefully, hoping to get a sincere response from himself.

"Alas......"

Xiang Xuemei sighed, thinking about Mu Qing's dejected appearance just now, and thinking of his foot injury, she couldn't help but feel distressed for him in her heart.

It turned out that my grandfather was right, he was indeed a noble character, he was a good gentleman, and he really shouldn't bear him anymore.

After making up his mind, he went back to his room alone and slept half the night half-asleep.

Following.

Mu got up early in the morning, and after packing up, he went to say goodbye to Old Lady Shen.

Seeing Mu Qing's lonely face, Old Lady Shen also sighed lightly, "Don't be discouraged, that girl is very confused in emotional matters, and when she thinks about it for two more days, she will definitely figure it out." ”

"Old man, since I don't belong to her heart, please tell her, I will not embarrass her, after you go back, you can propose to withdraw from the marriage, and the palace will agree."

Mu Qing was originally the pride of the sky, and his heart was high. In the past, I have been waiting for the love of my heart, because I think that the other party also has myself in my heart, so I wait silently with hope and hope.

It wasn't until last night that it finally became clear that the person he had always loved and waited for had no self in his heart.

Therefore, for so many years, she has been pretending to be sick to avoid marriage, just because she has no self in her heart, and she made a decision.

Therefore, everything is inconvenient and reluctant, especially one thing.

So, after he was disappointed and sad, he silently made a decision - to let go.

Not to let go out of anger, but to let go in order to fulfill her heart.