Tang Zhangwei said: "Sometimes, you are too self-pitying, in fact, life is like this, sometimes **, sometimes trough, not everyone will have that wonderful good time, but we can try our best to make our lives more comfortable." ”

"I try to do the same as you, but sometimes I have obsessive-compulsive disorder, and this obsessive-compulsive disorder prevents me from choosing to get by like those people," Fisher said. ”

Tang Zhangwei said: "It is precisely because you have this obsessive-compulsive disorder that you can do things differently from others. If everything in this world is the same as everyone else's, it doesn't make any sense. ”

I remembered you when they set off fireworks.

I remember seeing the fireworks on the night we first met and we said goodbye.

The fireworks were even more brilliant than they were tonight, but as soon as you showed up, all the fireworks were darkened.

You are dancing in the water pavilion in the middle of the pool, and the water pavilion is so clear by the lights that it reminds me of the so-called Yuyu or Qionglou.

You danced there, across a rippling stream of water from me.

You're dancing a neon dress and feather dance, and your name is a cloud.

I remember that night was brighter than all the day, because I saw the fireworks, the water, the lights, and you. You're wearing a neon dance costume.

That night I got drunk for the first time in my life, and I realized that it was not the wine that made people drunk, but the heart of the person himself.

That night I painted a picture of you on white silk and gave it to you while I was drinking.

I still remember the smile you had at that time, and the cloudy clothes you wore when you turned away.

Then, you became my bride.

Your father agreed to give you to me. My father gave us a marriage.

In order to marry you, I built the Ning Bi Pond and the Weeping Rainbow Pavilion in my palace, as well as the Weeping Rainbow Water Pavilion.

I'm going to move everything we had when we first met into my house, and that's my gift to you.

When you came, bring me a screen.

On the night of the candles, I lifted the red silk covering the screen, and saw that the painting I gave you that night had already been embroidered by you.

I will always remember when we looked at the painting side by side, and the woman in the painting was next to me, she was my wife.

You have been my wife for four years.

It was the happiest four years of my life.

Then you brought me the deepest pain and hatred of my life.

That night was my birthday, my birthday ten years ago.

I should have seen that something was wrong with you, but I didn't.

That night you suddenly asked to dance for me at the Water Pavilion. You're begging me to set off fireworks for you.

Your dance that night was unprecedented, and you knew it would be your last.

We also had a banquet at the Wind Tunnel that night, and there were more guests than today.

But the wine and food have not yet been served, and the fourth brother has already brought someone to break in.

He read out the holy decree: Xiao Cai, the seventh son of the emperor, formed a party for personal gain and plotted against him. Immediately put into prison, the two divisions of the Criminal Department of Dali Temple will be tried. All family property was confiscated. Chin this.

My eyes were about to bleed, but I refused to answer, and I asked sharply: What is the evidence for such a crime?

He threw down a pile of papers.

I crouched down and picked up one envelope, some of which I had written, some of which I had not.

The letters I exchanged with the old ministry were just ordinary, and the forged letters were a seamless confirmation of my grave sin.

How did he get my old letters?

And who, who is that, who is imitating my handwriting? It's so subtle that I can't tell the difference.

My hands trembled, and I didn't dare to think.

I was looking at the fourth brother while he was looking behind me.

I didn't dare turn around for a long time.

When I finally turned around, I saw you.

You trembled even more than I did, and you trembled so much that even the rings on your body were clanging.

I look at you, and I want to ask why you're shaking, but I can't. I think of the letters you put together for me, the poems you copied when you had nothing to do.

I look at you, I look at you with a sad heart, I look at you with pleading and supplication, I look at you with my heart hanging by a thread. I want you to say, "It's not me. "I want you to say that, and I'll believe you.

I've waited for you so long, and I feel like my breath and life and death are between your trembling lips.

Finally you spoke, but you said, you said:

"Kill me, please."

It was at that moment that I was completely calm.

I looked at you and smiled coldly: "Are you worthy?" ”

When you hear me, you suddenly stop trembling.

You don't look at me anymore, you look at the fourth brother.

You told him coldly and calmly, "I would like to be a witness, you wait for me, and I will go and change my clothes." ”

The fourth brother was unexpectedly surprised and nodded happily.

You turned and walked out of the hall, and at the door, but suddenly you stopped and looked back at me.

You look at me as if your heart is broken, and it seems like you have no heart at all.

Then you left, and we didn't wait for you to come back.

They scooped you up in the pool. And my fourth brother and I were sitting in the Weeping Rainbow Pavilion at that time.

They put you in that boat, and your hair glistened with the blue water. You're wearing the full princess's outfit, but inside is the same dance dress you wore when we first met.

Even then, you still have an enduring face, as beautiful as we first met, as beautiful as our newlywed.

I used to love you so much. But all I had left to hate you that night.

I hate you with all my love.

I hated you as much as I loved you.

The fourth brother seemed to be crazy, he rushed to kill me, and he said that I killed you.

Of course you are their people. But is he so crazy because he loves you? Or does he want it because you're mine? It's like the fright he used to want from me.

I overturned him easily, and it was clear that he was no match for me. However, his men rushed over, and a dozen of them restrained me.

I gave up struggling because I had thrown in the towel. I didn't understand conspiracy, so I lost to him.

I don't think you understand conspiracy either. You just don't have a choice.

In fact, you are just a woman controlled by your father and brother, and you cannot choose your father and brother.

You have been my wife for four years.

I remember you like a lamp.

The night I first saw you, there was no brighter light in the world than you. The night I last saw you, there was no light in the world.

And in between those two nights, you were my light.

But your light has been extinguished for ten years, and I have not come to see you for ten years.

They told me that you are often seen in this area of Ningbi Pond.

Are you still here? Ten years later?

Don't you feel cold and lonely, feel desolate?

You don't like winter because it's cold. You are to hug me tightly in the winter, and be hugged by me tightly.

You used to be such a lively and enthusiastic woman, how can you survive ten years of cold moon solitude by yourself?

If it's because of me, I hope you can be free.

We just put a boat lamp for you. I hope you find your way through its light.

I loved you and hated you like that.

(End of chapter)