And no matter how hard he worked, how serious he was, no matter how well he did or what he did badly, his father would never see him good, and he would never be severely reprimanded, never praised, even if it was a word of encouragement or half a praise.

There has never been, some of them are disappointed with a cold face, no matter what he does, what he gets is always an ugly and cold face, as if what he does has nothing to do with him.

Why? Is it because of that woman? Is it just because Wanyuehe is that woman's child?

Feng Xiyan was really speechless, she really didn't know where Wan Tianshu had the courage to ask her these questions, such an obvious question, didn't he have a little bit in his heart?

If it weren't for him, would Jiang Lianrong's life be like this? Will there be those painful things? Will he be saved by Wanyue River, and he will still be unable to withstand those blows and die?

"Haha," Feng Xiyan held back the headache that came, sneered, pale with a bloodless face, and continued to speak sarcastically, "Why do you still have the face to ask such a question, if it weren't for you, I would have encountered those things, I would have been unable to get out of it for so many years, and I would have been unable to survive many times and wanted to commit suicide?" ”

"After all these years, do you know how I got here? Where you can't see, suicide alone is countless times, dreaming back at midnight, and I can't sleep at night, because when I close my eyes, all that comes to mind is the scene of that day, the filth, the stench. ”

"Over the years, if it weren't for Xianggong's care, I wouldn't have been able to come out at all, every time I couldn't hold on, it was Xianggong who encouraged me with his love, enlightened me, and when I couldn't sleep at night, it was he who was by my side, and he drove away the filth, and it was he who helped me fight the stench."

So, how do you have the face to ask such a question? Why are you embarrassed to think that I should have you in my heart? ”

"Rong'er...... I don't know, I really don't know that...... I do not know...... That will hurt you so much...... I really don't know, if I knew......"

Wan Tianshu trembled, his face was as pale as a blank piece of paper, and the hand that grabbed Feng Xiyan's head trembled even more, remorse, self-blame, distress, pain, and the whole person was in pain.

Even so, Feng Xiyan had no intention of letting him go, she had a pair of cold eyes and a blank face to make up the pain that she thought had happened to Jiang Lianrong, doing this, in addition to torturing Wan Tianshu in her heart, she wanted to break his defense, and then give Shangguan Candle the opportunity to seize the opportunity to sneak attack.

Feng Xiyan continued to dismantle Wan Tianshu's mental defense, and at the same time kept giving Shangguan Candle a look in his eyes.

Anyway, they have been together for so long, Feng Xiyan believes that she and Shangguan Candle still have this tacit understanding.

Sure enough, Shangguan Candle, who had heard her grief and indignation accusing Wan Tianshu, had a very complicated face, but after seeing the gesture in her eyes, his expression was stunned, and some incomprehensible looks quickly flashed in his eyes, and he lowered his eyes, and only after hiding the complicated look did he raise his cold and waveless eyes.

After seeing that Shangguan Candle understood what he meant, Feng Xiyan didn't waste time, and continued to increase his firepower to disintegrate Wan Tianshu's mental defense.

"Do you know how brave it was for me to come back? Do you know how much pain and stress I'm carrying back to stand here? Do you know how it feels to face those of you who have brought me untold pain and suffering? Every step is like burning my heart on a blazing fire, and every step is like walking on the edge of a knife, not hurting the flesh and skin, but the heart that has been broken into shape. ”

"So, I can only pretend that I have amnesia, pretend that I don't know you, pretend that I'm just a bystander, pretend that I've never been injured, pretend that those things have never happened to me, pretend that Jiang Lianrong is dead, pretend that I'm not Jiang Lianrong...... I can only deceive myself and paralyze myself, so that I have the courage to face all this again, to face your ....... ”

Feng Xiyan's words are heartfelt, every word is like a heavy stone, pressing on Wan Tianshu's heart, making him breathless and not speaking, his breathing is even more unsmooth, I don't know whether it is regret or what, tears drop by drop fall on Feng Xiyan's neck.

Feng Xiyan slammed a spirit, and immediately showed a disgusting look, she didn't feel happy or secretly proud or anything, some were just full of disgust and disgust, only felt that the tears stained with Wan Tianshu's breath were the same as others, and they were just as disgusting and wanted to vomit.

"Rong'er ......."

After Wan Tianshu said this, he said everything, because there were too many words, they all looked very pale at this moment, and there were some scars, and it was not something that could be repaired by saying sorry, but even if it was painful and torturous, he didn't want the person he had lost and regained to disappear again.

That kind of pain is unbearable, over the years, he has tasted too much, and he doesn't want to taste it anymore.

"Rong'er, I know that nothing I say now will change anything, and I can't make up for anything, but despite this, I still don't want to let go of your hand, I don't want you to leave my side, I know I'm selfish...... Can you give me a chance? A chance I'll spend the rest of my life making it up, a chance for us to start over, a chance for me to protect you for the rest of my life........ ”

"Wan Tianshu, do your spring and autumn dreams, let alone stay by your side for the rest of your life, even at this moment, if there is a choice, I will not stay by your side, you make me disgusting, I want to vomit when I see your face, why do you wake up and regret it, I will follow your script to fulfill your repentance? To fulfill your regrets? ”

"Why do you think I'll come back to you as soon as you turn around? Why do you start again, and the injuries I have suffered can be written off, and I can not care about it, and just treat it as if nothing happened, I'm afraid there is no such good thing in the world, right? Isn't it a matter of course to kill people to pay for their lives and pay off debts? ”