Most memories in my life have been painful! Especially my childhood, and that era involved people and things, I don't want to reminisce and mention it to others!

However, my birth and childhood were the starting point of my life, and my first dream in life was born in my childhood! Subsequently, I started my boundless life because of this first dream, which triggered endless struggle, struggle and touching!

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I was born on March 26, 1962, in a provincial town in the southwestern part of the mainland.

My parents are cultural people who have returned from abroad, I don't know what professions and jobs they are engaged in, since I was sensible, I saw my parents working in the unit of the provincial capital, and our family lived a very rich and happy life!

However, when I was just three or four years old, my father didn't have to go to work, and I heard from my mother that my father had a quarrel with his superiors, so our family was about to move back to my father's hometown, a small town in the southwest mountains.

Soon, our family really moved from the provincial capital to my father's hometown!

I have two older brothers, two older sisters, a younger brother and a younger sister, in fact, our family doesn't really care about where life is, it is the same everywhere I feel, eating, playing, sleeping and dreaming!

However, I feel that fate will not always allow a person or a family to live a stable life for a long time! Fate always pushes us into the disasters and pains of life without any notice, so that the peaceful life begins to become magnificent, ups and downs, and full of emotion!

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January 28, 1968, Chinese New Year's Eve, that night was deep, especially cold and quiet!

As I sat in the house, I could hear the cries of turtledoves and owls in the mountains and forests outside!

The cold wind of early spring blew in through the dilapidated windows of the house, and the house looked very cold.

This Spring Festival, our family did not celebrate the New Year, nor did we eat Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, nor did we set off firecrackers!

Because, after my father lost his job, in the winter of 1967, the provincial unit called my father to a meeting again!

After my father went to the provincial capital for a meeting, he lost contact with my mother and us.

We all had a hunch that something might have happened to Dad, but through many acquaintances in the provincial capital, Mom didn't hear any news from Dad.

Therefore, our family is anxiously waiting for news from Dad, and of course, we very much hope that you can return safely!

At this time, our family was sitting around the fire, the house was very quiet, only the sound of the fire crackling was heard, we gathered face to face, but no one spoke!

Our family situation is like this, my father's name is Qin Tianhao, born in the autumn of 1922, from the spring of 1941 to the fall of 1945, he studied social economics in Paris, France, and after the end of World War II in 1946, he was engaged in economic management in the southwest region after returning to China after graduation.

My mother's name is Bai Yulan, and she was born in the spring of 1926 in the countryside of Guicheng in southwest China. From the spring of 1941 to the fall of 1945, studying socioeconomics in Paris, France, my mom and dad met at this university and cultivated affection!

At the end of World War II in 1946, my mother followed my father back to China and worked in the same unit, because my mother was also an agent!

After the southwest settled down in 1952, my parents got married.

The eldest brother, Qin Jingtian, was born in the spring of 1955. At this time, he was 13 years old and was in the second year of junior high school.

The second brother, Qin Wenchang, was 12 years old at this time and was in the first grade of junior high school. Brother Wen Chang is not the child of his parents, he is fostered in our family, the child of his parents' comrades-in-arms on the Vietnamese side.

The eldest sister, Qin Lifen, was 12 years old at this time. It was born to both parents. I am in the first year of junior high school.

The second sister, Qin Wenjuan, was 10 years old at this time. She and Wenchang are brother and sister. She is in the fourth grade of elementary school.

I was 6 years old at this time, I was already very sensible, and I knew what was about to happen!

My younger brother Qin Jingdi, who was 3 years old at this time, was already sensible.

My little sister Qin Lilan is more than 1 year old at this time and is not fully sensible.

We also have a nanny at home, and everyone calls her Mama Wei.

Wei Ma is my mother's hometown, before we were born, Wei Ma followed her mother, Wei Ma is a few years older than my mother, and we have not met Wei Ma any relatives.

At this time, I was holding my little sister Lilan, and everyone was quietly staring at my eldest brother and mother.

The eldest brother held his mother's hand and said, "Mom! This afternoon, when I was playing with Brother Zu Xing at Uncle Cen's house, Uncle Cen said to me that my father had been killed in the provincial capital! ”

After my mother heard the words of her eldest brother, she burst into tears!

The sisters hugged their mother and cried bitterly!

At that time, my mind was blank, I felt that the heavens were moving, and I hoped that my father was still in the world!

All I know is that my little sister struggled in my arms and shouted, "I want Daddy!" I want Daddy! ”

In silent tears, I realized that my father would never go back!

He's dead, he's gone from us, and we'll never see each other again!

I don't know how long everyone was crying, but all of a sudden I heard my mom talking!

Mom said, "Children, don't be sad, you still have Mom, your dad is a great man!" He won't die in vain! Later, you will find out the cause of his death! Avenge him! Everyone's grief turned into strength! The mourning army will win! ”

The eldest brother wiped away his tears and said, "Mom! You can rest assured! We've grown up! Daddy is in a hurry though! However, we can shoulder the burden of the family and share the worries of our mother! ”

The eldest sister said with tears in her eyes: "Mom! In the future, Wen Juan and I helped Wei's mother work! Let's take care of Jingcai, Jingdi and Lilan! ”

Brother Wen Chang burst into tears and said, "Mom! In the future, we must practice our skills, I want to kill the murderer with my own hands! ”

Holding back tears, the mother said, "Children! Now, you don't need to do anything! It's good that you guys are doing as usual! Read a book, you can't do anything without scientific knowledge! Remember, in the future, the road of life in our family will definitely be more difficult! Therefore, you must be more sensible, love and unite with each other! We can't have any more trouble! ”

Everyone nodded silently to their mother!

We are all obedient and sensible children!

But, that night, I planted the seeds of hatred and revenge in the depths of my heart! I'm determined to find my enemy, and I'm going to get rid of him! I'm not afraid of this trouble, I can fight with my life, blood for blood!

I think the night was so long that I can't remember how we went back to our room in the end!

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