It's about when I was a child.

“… At that time, my mother didn't like me very much because I was a girl. Looking at the sky, Su Tan'er opened her mouth softly after laughing, "She has always hoped for ......

In the future, I can give birth to a boy for my father, and my father thinks the same way, but my father is at least warm to me, he says that I am smart, and I will definitely be smarter if I have a younger brother in the future. My father always looked at my future brother from me, and my mother didn't even want to see it.

Sometimes when I do something wrong and annoy her, she doesn't beat me, but just waves her hand to let the "milk" mother take me away. Xianggong, this is the kind of biggest contempt in the world......

Later, I knew that my mother wanted a younger brother, and at first I even hated my younger brother a little, and I didn't understand what was the difference between the girl's baby............... "The wildflowers on the hillside were blooming spotted, and Su Tan'er rested her hand on her lower abdomen and watched the white clouds disperse in the evening." Ning Yi originally closed his eyes and smiled, but then opened his eyes: "It's okay, they don't like us, and we don't like her." "Heh, I don't like my mother, I can't do it, otherwise I will be poked in the spine and say that my son-in-law is not filial." Ning Yi turned his head, looked at her for a while, and said seriously: "They can't scold me." "Poof" Su Tan'er couldn't help but cover her mouth, and after carving, she looked at the sky and spoke again.

"I was a bit strange among girls, and then I read some books, and I didn't think it was human nature like those ladies, but I felt that my father and mother were not good to me, and it was not fair at all. I grew up with my grandmother in that big house, on the one hand, I felt that I had to be a boy who made my father and mother regret it, and I wanted to take over the family business, and on the other hand, I felt that I was a girl, and I must learn everything that girls should learn well, otherwise I would prove that I actually envied those boys, so wouldn't I lose? ”

Ning Yi stretched out his hand to pick up a grass stalk that was withering at the beginning for her, and Su Tan'er's voice was leisurely: "Growing up in such a family, the 'milk' mother was kind to me when she was a child, and she always said that we are a big family, I am everyone's lady, and everyone envies me." But when I was sensible, I felt that there was nothing to envy. Daddy doesn't like me, my mother doesn't like it, if it's a small family, there is no such distress, in fact, I also understand, if it wasn't for the family is too big, if I have a brother above me, my father and my mother don't have that much pressure, I won't be left out, I don't like my father and my mother's time, and later I found out that I have become the same person as them, that family...... No personal touch......"

"I ...... The concubine body is not a big girl, but she just learns from others, but it is not like it. The concubine likes poetry, but she doesn't do it well, and she doesn't know how to read it, so she told herself that there were too many things to learn and business at that time, and there was no time at all, but it wasn't actually true, and the concubine didn't like poetry at all, but she just liked the feeling of being sought after Sometimes I think of this, and when I see the appearance of my father and mother, I think, don't have children in the future, if I have a child, I can't raise it well, she is also like me, blame me for being a mother, but what can I do........."

"The standard is too high, no one will simply like poetry, you will be a good mother." Ning Yi "interjected".

Su Tan'er shook her head and smiled: "When I was fourteen or fifteen years old, I didn't want to get married, so I kept procrastinating, procrastinating, and then when I really couldn't drag it on, I chose Xianggong." She tilted her head and looked at Ning Yi who was lying next to her: "But it wasn't true at that time, let Xiao."

Chan went to take care of Xianggong, ran away on the day of marriage, and came back a few days later, although he lived together, he didn't have too much respect for Xianggong...... "Isn't it already good?" Su Tan'er shook her head on the grass, her expression had become calm, just a slight natural smile: "No" When she said this, her voice was already slightly choked, "It's not very good, it's just that the concubine is pretending, pretending to be like a lady, pretending to be very knowledgeable, just like pretending to like liking poetry." Concubinage...... I'm just thinking about myself, thinking about stabilizing Xianggong, making this family look like a home, and not being poked in the spine by others, it's enough, the concubine didn't think about Xianggong,........."

"Women are really troublesome......"

"..............., but now I think about it."

The voices of the two people rang out together, Ning Yi muttered boredly, and Su Tan'er whispered slightly choked.

After finishing speaking, he couldn't help but chuckle at this, Ning Yi closed his eyes and crossed his palm, his fingers almost hit Su Tan'er's cheek, Su Tan'er tilted his head, closed his eyes slightly, leaned his cheek on his hand, and felt the touch of his fingers.

The two have always been decisive people, they don't like hypocrisy, and when they are together, there are certainly romantic conversations such as Xiaolou's night talk. But in fact, Su Tan'er was very affectionate, and the heart-to-heart exchange on the small building was also speaking in a natural attitude as much as possible, and there were not many sweet words. Later, the Su family suffered a catastrophe, and the relationship between the two grew by leaps and bounds, and then Su Tan'er burned the building and the round house, although there were occasionally a few sweet words, but it was basically between the beds.

Su Tan'er's youngest daughter is not very common, they are all powerful people with each other, even if they are really flirting, they are all tacit. It's just that in the past two days, after learning that she was pregnant, and then knowing Ning Yi's injury, although she silently stayed by Ning Yi's side and didn't talk nonsense, but at this time, she really opened her mouth to vent these things that she didn't think she needed to care about.

"The concubine now knows that the Xianggong of the Dao has seen the things at that time in her heart, and the crooked path that the wife thinks about in her body and mind, it is estimated that she can't hide it from the Xianggong, and it is really embarrassing to think about it...... At that time, the concubine was a stupid scholar, reading a few bad books, not thinking about things, and not being able to deal with people, so she thought about it...... As long as you can control Xianggong, a stupid scholar like Xianggong, where will he be the opponent of the concubine?"

Ning Yi smiled: "Not now." ”

Xiang Gong is open-minded, and may feel that it is also human nature. But the concubine now thinks that it would be good if these could be done again, and the concubine must treat the princess well, and the concubine must be ...... If you want to learn to be a real lady, you want to teach your husband and children, and the concubine doesn't want to marry Xianggong at the age of eighteen, so let others say that Xianggong married a spicy old girl. It would have been nice if he had married Xianggong when he was fourteen or fifteen years old...... That's it...... Everything is different, and the concubine will not let her husband come to Hangzhou......"

Although Su Tan'er was a little choked up when she said the previous words, she was calm, but when she said the last sentence, she finally really cried, she clenched her fists with both hands and put them at her side, trembling slightly, crying hard. This woman has always been arrogant, although she is restrained under the gentle appearance, but the outlook on life cultivated by the ordinary vertical and horizontal shopping mall is almost as sharp as a knife like Ning Yi, once something happens, she only seeks a solution first, and the emotion of regret can only be called induction or reflection at most. But at this time, knowing that the road was difficult, and that her husband's injuries were likely to be implicated by the long journey, he felt guilty for such emotions.

Ning Yi sighed, moved and moved, leaned over to his wife, Su Tan'er grabbed his clothes and gritted her teeth and sobbed.

"Lou will go back, there is still a chance." Ning Yi said.

Su Tan'er has already cried: "I want to have a child for Xianggong now, I want to be a husband and a child, I don't want to be reckless anymore, I don't want to do business anymore, I don't want to be myself anymore, but I now want to be good without this child now, that is, if there is no now, it will be different in the future, I have seen Xianggong do those things in the past two days, desperately thinking about how to get out, I know that Xianggong is pressed by responsibility, although the responsibility of Xianggong without children will be like this, but I am really scared...... The doctor said that Xianggong's injuries need to be reassured, and he needs to recuperate, and then rely on his body to survive. Xianggong, you have worked so hard to escape, how can your body survive......

I have some persuasion, but I know that Lu Dao can't persuade me at all......" She cried and suppressed a lot beside Ning Yi, so her body trembled a lot: "In the past two days, Xianggong has been asking about those people, and I am planning those things, and I am by Xianggong's side... I endured not speaking by Xianggong's side, and there were always many people telling me in my heart that it was useless to say it, and it was useless to say it, it just made you more annoyed, and I couldn't let you worry about me while worrying about things.

But I thought again, if only I were like those ordinary women, I just cried and shouted that you were not allowed to do this, and then I didn't have to worry about anything......" Ning Yi patted her shoulder: "You also know that it is useless to say ......"

"When I can't help it...... Su Tan'er sniffed, "When I can't help it, I go to the tent to hide, sit for a while, and hold back from crying." Chan'er, they have all cried several times, they want to come over to persuade you, and I will stop them. I don't want you to have to go through the trouble of talking to them, and I want to persuade them, and I don't want you to say useless things to you, and I don't want you to use up your physical strength to speak...... I didn't want to tell you that......"

After she said this, she cried quietly, but it was better than Fang Cai. Ning Yi waited for a while and said, "I'll get better." ”

Su Tan'er touched her tears, but the tears kept falling, leaned on his chest, nodded and said, "You must get better, if you don't get better, I won't be able to meet such a husband, I don't want my children anymore, and I don't want my home...... I'm not a good mother in the first place, and I've done things that have ruined other people's families...... Xianggong, you remember to me, I have your child in my belly, you are very tired now, but you can't shout tired, you have to hold on. But it's okay if we can't make it, we'll go down to you......"

She stared at Ning Yi with her eyes open, and on her gentle melon seed face, Sakura Chun squeezed. She is a woman in the shopping mall, has always been a moisturizing and silent style, because of her exquisite appearance, and only a girl in her early twenties, not like the decisive businessman on the sofa, but at this time, only the big eyes that have cried reveal the stubborn atmosphere that has been cultivated in the shopping mall for a long time but has been restrained, mixed with the gentle face, to just send a more heartwarming message to the person in front of you: This is your woman.

Ning Yi smiled: "Don't underestimate your father-in-law, no matter what, I will survive." You have given birth to this child. ”

Su Tan'er touched her lower abdomen, then leaned towards Ning Yi, she grabbed Ning Yi's shirt with her other hand, closed her eyes, and seemed to be saying something in her mouth, as if she was praying for something, but the mountain wind blew over, and she couldn't hear the specific words.

The clouds swirled in the sky, the setting sun burned the sky and the mountains, and as night fell, the army began to bustle in the camp of the fugitives. The next day, the camp was pulled out again, and the pursuers in the rear were not far from this side, and when they were "approaching" at noon that day, they began to get a message from the lonely refugees, and just in front of them, the largest fleeing party began to fight among themselves......!