This night seems to be particularly long, the night of Luzhou has been so dark for a long time, and the stars and moon are dark.

Lin Wanjing felt that she was shuttling in a dream, those beautiful pictures of the past - the snowy wilderness of the manor, the carriage galloping from the distance of the country road, Li Lingrui walked down from the carriage and asked her with a smile: How was this week?

The fireplace in the living room was warm with a fireplace, they sat around the carpet, listening to the governess tell them stories, from Greek mythology to the Tudor dynasty, the butler rang the bell for afternoon tea, freshly baked desserts filled the table, the duchess kissed each of them on the forehead and gave them the best wishes, and every time it was Lin Wanjing's turn, she would always say: "My dear daughter, the original Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit gives you the best blessing and the most enviable happiness." ”

The next moment, she ran with the little princesses among the hedges in the garden, but slowly, the people walking beside her disappeared, the fog was thick, she felt as if she was in a labyrinth without walls, no matter which path she chose, through the scenes in the memory, she always had to stay in the thick fog, she saw Liu Jin's crisp figure coming from the thick fog, she was like seeing a moth in the firelight, and went towards him happily, but when he was close, she heard someone behind her calling her, she turned around, What I saw was Li Lingrui looking at her, with a lonely expression: "Wanjing, is this the happiness you want?" For his sake, is it worth it for you to leave me without hesitation and abandon our past? ”

So her hand paused at the moment when she was about to touch Liu Jin, and time seemed to stop at that moment, everything around her was swallowed up by the darkness, she stood helplessly in the boundless darkness, still swallowed by cold and fear, she didn't know who to ask for help, all the clips of her and Liu Jin from their acquaintance to the present are repeating, those joyful, sweet, painful, sad, all kinds of fragments, one after another.

In the face of great disappointment, their former joy has become small and weak, so his love for her seems so weak and so unavoidable.

In the darkness, a voice was laughing at her, and she was to blame for falling to this point.

"Wanjing, how long do you have to sleep? Do you still hate me and don't want to see me, so you don't want to wake up? She heard Liu Jin's voice ringing in the darkness, and since she had fallen into the labyrinth of the night, she could always hear his voice, like a rope, always pulling her back as she drifted away.

God knows how much she longed to hear his voice, but the stronger the longing, the more she couldn't ignore the resistance in her heart.

"It's okay, you must be really tired, since you want to sleep, just sleep enough, I'll wait for you, with the child, waiting for you......"

"Kid?" Lin Wanjing's heart moved, she raised her hand to touch her lower abdomen, and tried many times, but her hand was still stiffly attached to the mattress, as if it was out of control.

"If you wake up, can you forget all the bastards I did in the past?"

She felt the warm palm caress her cheek, brushing away the broken hair on her forehead, and he seemed to want to say something, but he choked up but didn't say anything more, and finally became a sigh.

After a long time, the piano sounded, the familiar melody was her favorite humming "Green Sleeves", her fingertips gradually regained consciousness, she raised her hand to apply it to her lower abdomen, the bulge in her memory had disappeared, replaced by a thick gauze wrapped around her waist.

"Little ...... Miss ......"

She heard Ah Ling's hesitant call, her eyes were foggy, and a shadow flickered in front of her eyes a few times, and she vaguely figured out that it was a palm.

"Ah Ling......?" With just two words, Lin Wanjing shut up, and her voice was hoarse and she didn't want to admit that she made it.

"Yes, it's me!" Ah Ling cried with joy, tears fell onto Lin Wanjing's face, she hurriedly reached out to help her wipe it off, and turned around and shouted out the door, "Miss is awake!" Go and tell the young marshal! Come on! ”

"Where's the kid?" She asked again.

"Little master is good! Afraid of arguing with you, let the nurse take it away. Ah Ling replied while feeding her water, "Miss, what delicious food did Gong Zhou make for you, you don't want to come back for nine and a half days, we are all in a hurry!" ”

The scenery in front of her gradually became clear, Lin Wanjing looked at the familiar room for a week, frowned and asked, "Where is this?" ”

Ah Ling looked stunned, avoided the conversation and did not answer positively, "Miss, are you sleeping peacefully?" If you are stable, you can rest here, and it is not too late to talk about anything else when you are well. ”

The sound of the piano stopped abruptly, there is no piano at home, to talk about the piano, there is a black Westin triangle in the living room of the Yukuntai, which is the one that Liu Jin taught her to play before, but since the wedding, the piano has never played again.

I'm still "tied" back. Lin Wanjing smiled weakly in her heart, struggled to sit up, and a heart-rending pain came from her left shoulder, and she couldn't help but make a sound.

"Miss! What are you sitting up for?! The doctor told you to recuperate! Ah Ling was shocked.

"Pack your bags and go home." Lin Wanjing didn't care about the pain, and was about to lift the quilt and get out of bed.

"I can't do it! Miss! You're empty now! Ah Ling hurriedly held her down and hurriedly persuaded, "Miss, you can recuperate here for a while, and then think about other things when you are well." ”

"I'm going home." Lin Wanjing didn't listen to persuasion, "If you don't leave, I'll go back by myself." ”

Ah Ling was in a dilemma, and when she turned around, she saw that Liu Jin was already standing by the door, and his chest that was violently heaving because of excitement stopped briefly at the moment she saw Lin Wanjing - she was really sitting there, not a dream that had recurred for so many days, she looked haggard, and with resentful eyes, she only glanced at him and turned her face away.

"Young marshal, you are here, as soon as the young lady wakes up, she is clamoring to go home, and no one will listen to her!"

She really didn't want to see him.

Liu Jin was silent for a few seconds before he answered: "Go get some hot water and come back." ”

Ah Ling answered and exited the room and closed the door.

After the door slammed, there was only a slight silence in the room. Liu Jin slowly walked to Lin Wanjing's bedside, and after thinking for a long time, she finally spoke to break the silence:

"You finally woke up, I thought you didn't want to see me, so I didn't plan to wake up again......" He sat on the edge of the bed, but Lin Wanjing dodged to the other side, but just made way for him, he raised his hand to touch her face, but she turned her face away, so his hand had to fall on the bed, "It's okay, just wake up." ”

Lin Wanjing didn't respond to him, and said coldly: "Send me home." ”

"Why do you lose your temper together? Let you stay here on my orders, don't embarrass your maid. He was helpless, with undisguised distress in his expression, "Do you know how scared I am these days......

"Scared?" Lin Wanjing snorted coldly, "What are you afraid of?" I'm afraid I won't wake up, so you're going to bother to find someone to keep your secret for you? ”

Liu Jin didn't expect Lin Wanjing to respond to him like this, her mind was empty for a long time, and then she shook her head:

"How could you think that? I'm afraid you won't wake up and won't give me a chance to apologize......"

"You don't need to apologize, what you made me choose was that I chose the wrong ......"

"You don't." Liu Jin interrupted her, "The wrong person is me, I shouldn't have hidden it from you in the first place, the matter of the goods, Pei Yue's matter, all things, especially ...... It's me who loves you. ”

"As I said, I won't betray you, and I won't break my promise, so there's no need for you to compromise in this way to protect yourself."

He thought that it would be too late to confess now, but it would still have some effect, but he never thought that it would be too late.

After being silent for a long time, he sighed leisurely: "Wanjing, you are really still angry with me......"

He didn't understand that Lin Wanjing was not angry, but just disappointed.

A knock on the door interrupted the conversation between the two, and Liu Jin's personal attendant pushed the door in and respectfully reported: "Young Marshal, Hu Maosheng is waiting for you in the study, saying that there is something important to report." ”

"Nope." Liu Jin replied without hesitation, now he has no intention of seeing other people at all.

"But young marshal, Hu Maosheng said that he wouldn't leave if he didn't see you." The squire said again.

"Then let him wait."

Liu Jin's words were full of anger, the attendant knew this matter well, did not dare to speak again, carefully closed the door and retreated, Ah Ling passed by him, entered the door and put the hot water on the wooden stool next to the bed, and then consciously left the room.

"You don't have to do that." Lin Wanjing said.

Liu Jin turned a deaf ear, and reached out to the wound on Lin Wanjing's shoulder, which was already bloody under the layered gauze: "Let me see if the wound has cracked again." ”

Lin Wanjing wanted to withdraw and dodge, but her left shoulder only moved slightly, and the pain led her to gasp, just at this moment, Liu Jin's five fingers had already clasped her arm, and the strength was just right, neither hurting her nor letting her escape.

The pajamas on her shoulders faded, and the gauze unraveled layer by layer, revealing the bullet holes covered under the cotton wool, Lin Wanjing didn't dare to look, turned her head to the side that was not injured, the tip of her nose swept in front of Liu Jin's face, Liu Jin's movements hesitated for a moment, her lips were so close to him, and the gentle breath touched his neck, each breath teased his sensitive nerves, and his hand moved to the ribbon on the front of her pajamas, and as soon as he unbuttoned it, his hand was pressed. Lin Wanjing's delicate fingertips were slightly cool, and the touch was like moist mutton fat jade. Liu Jin suddenly woke up, what's wrong? Lin Wanjing has injuries on her body, and she has just become a mother, what is he thinking!

"I just...... I want to help you take care of your wounds......" he said, and he barely had the confidence to say it.

Lin Wanjing hesitated for a moment, and her right hand hung down, which was no longer stopping him. Liu Jin adjusted his breathing and turned his attention back to the injuries under his hands, he had seen a lot of such gunshot wounds, and injuries more serious than this were already commonplace for him, but when this scarlet bullet hole appeared on Lin Wanjing's delicate and smooth skin, he still felt shocked. This is not the first time he has helped her change the dressing, maybe she is awake now, he is worried about hurting her, but his cautious movements are a little more rusty. He remembered the scene when he changed the dressing for her for the first time, at that time, Li Lingrui was in this room, since Lin Wanjing returned home from the hospital, he was desperate to guard her, like a lion protecting the cub, not giving him any chance to get close, so that time he took the initiative to ask for Ying, it was like a pleading, without confidence, Li Lingrui seemed to have some doubts about his request, but he didn't refuse him, just stood aside and watched, and then he heard him say:

"When she was by my side before, there wasn't even a little scratch, but if you look at her now, is that how you love her?"

He felt the gunshot wound in his own right, and the pain was magnified countless times when it was transmitted to his heart.

"Why do you want to block this shot for me?" He asked in a low voice, every time he changed her dressing, he would ask like this, even though he knew that Lin Wanjing would not answer him, so it seemed that he was asking her, but he was actually torturing himself.

Lin Wanjing still didn't answer him, and the decision to block the gun for him seemed to come from instinct, and even she couldn't tell why.

"Remember...... Was that the last thing you said to me that day? He asked her again.

After being shot that day, Lin Wanjing endured severe pain and asked him why his last sentence was.

Yes, she once loved him so firmly, entrusting him with all her persistence and trust, as well as endless expectations for the future, but how could he bear to use her like this, even if this use was not his original intention, let alone his original intention.

"Shall we start over?" His voice was low and pleading, "Can you forget all about the past?" Give me another chance? ”

Resume? Lin Wanjing's nasal passages were slightly sour, she didn't want to start over, she didn't want to forget those unpleasant things, she tried to forget countless times, but she would always see that stormy Midyear Festival night, Liu Jin stood face to face with her, and her fierce eyes seemed to be about to eat her alive:

"I really didn't expect you to be so femme fatale! Lin Wanjing, I really misjudged you! Don't think that if your father loves you, you can do whatever you want, if the child has any mistakes, I will make you pay! ”

"Liu Yunrou, husband and wife, that's how you look at me. I ask you, have you ever believed in me and loved me? ”

"Why do you still have the heart to ask such a boring question at this time?!"

……

Yes, thinking about such a question, she is really boring, not only boring, but also naïve.

The white palm of the knuckle grasped the sheet, she gritted her teeth to prevent herself from sobbing, but she couldn't restrain the churning tears, the tears dripped down, fainting a circle of water marks, each drop was like a red-hot soldering iron, burning in his heart in unbearable pain.

She didn't seem to want to be seen by him, so she reached out to block it, but he took her hand and took her into his arms:

"Can you tell me something? It's okay to blame me, it's okay to scold me, say it. ”

Lin Wanjing's throat moved slightly, choked a few times, but in the end she didn't speak, just leaned on his shoulder and sobbed, just like that breezy afternoon in the depths of her memory, she sat opposite him with a smile on the corner of her mouth, and asked him if he really wanted to marry her:

"You said you had someone you liked. If you marry me, have you considered her feelings? ”

She ...... I guess I'll feel happy. ”

But how did he forget to tell her that the person he liked was her!

"Will you forgive me?" He asked, just these few words choked up and couldn't speak anymore, just gently stroked her long hair, since they met, she had never cried so heartbroken in front of him, the low sobs were full of grievances and bitterness, his heart was like a knife, as if he heard Lin Wanjing asking him why, she loved him so much, why did she hurt her like this.

The knock on the door started again, and this time it was replaced by Ah Ling who reported weakly outside the door: "Young marshal, the guest must see you, and if you don't come out, he will go in by himself......"

Liu Jin cursed in a low voice, and Lin Wanjing pulled away from his arms: "Go see him." ”

"No, no."

"What can you make up for here?"

Liu Jin was dumbfounded, yes, what else could he do now? The words that have been said and the things that have been concealed have been overturned.

He got up suddenly: "You really should have let myself be shot this ......"

Lin Wanjing just lowered her head, and didn't say to herself until Liu Jin left the room: "I can't do it......"

She couldn't watch him die, just as she couldn't hate him.

When Ah Ling entered the door, she first collected the blood-stained gauze on the ground, and then stood on the side of the bed, silent with Lin Wanjing.

When they spoke, the two spoke in unison.

"Miss......"

"Ah Ling......"

Ah Ling was silent and waited for Lin Wanjing to speak first.

"Why did Master Hu come? Do you know why? ”

The Tiger Division is subordinate to Liu Ang's army establishment, and it has nothing to do with Liu Jin.

"I didn't ask much about the specifics, I only know that your prisoner has been found with a gunshot wound, and the mastermind has been verified, but the mastermind behind this scene is huge, and the marshal has characterized this matter as a rebellion and ordered the whole army to investigate this matter thoroughly."

"Do you know who's behind this?"

Ah Ling paused: "I haven't paid attention to it, I've been around Miss in the past few days, how can I care about other things." She paid close attention to Lin Wanjing's face, and when she saw that she didn't react, she said, "Miss, when you were asleep, did you really not hear a word of what the young marshal said in your ear?" ”

"What did he say?"

"The young marshal watched over you all day and night, saying sorry to you, talking about the past, and crying as he spoke...... Did you really not hear it? ”

How could you not hear it?

She heard it all, and if he hadn't been talking to her, she didn't know if she would have woken up today.

"Miss, Ah Ling can see your mind, I dare to ask you, since you have the courage to block bullets for the young marshal, don't you really have the courage to start over? If you don't forgive the young marshal because you don't love him anymore, then why should you bear this wound for him? ”

Lin Wanjing was silent for a long time, and then chuckled: "You girl is getting bolder and bolder, if I am really not there that day, you will follow the young marshal with Qiongge." ”

"Bah, Miss, you just woke up, what are you talking about!" Ah Ling chirped, and saw that Lin Wanjing lifted the quilt as if she was about to get out of bed, and exclaimed, "Miss! What are you doing here?! Do you want to go home?! ”

"Help me get dressed." Lin Wanjing pretended to be serious.

"Miss!"

"Enough of lying in bed, I want to see the kids."

The knock on the door sounded softly, the rosewood door leaf emitted a faint fragrance in the evening breeze, and the sound of answering the door came from the door, and the simple word "come in" showed exhaustion. Liu Jin sat behind the desk, with the back of his hand on his forehead, even if he knew that someone had come in, he didn't plan to raise his eyes.

"What's the matter?"

He probably never thought that the person standing by the door would be Lin Wanjing, so the question was full of absent-mindedness. But his words did not get a response, he couldn't help but have some doubts, looked up at the door, but saw Lin Wanjing standing against the door, the laceration was just healing, it was very reluctant to walk from the bedroom to the study, her eyes were like water with a smile, looking at him softly, the dark purple thick satin dress dragged on the ground, like a lonely rose blooming in the middle of the night. After a long silence, he got up and strode towards her, picked her up horizontally, and after scanning the study with his eyes, he finally landed on the chaise longue by the window. Lin Wanjing didn't resist either, and let him go to the window. He carefully placed her on a chair and covered her with a blanket of tiger skins:

"Why did you come here on your own? Something for them to call me over. He asked, his tone full of distress and reproach.

Lin Wanjing saw that he was just standing beside him, so she patted the vacant seat next to him and motioned for him to sit down. Liu Jin was stunned, but still sat down beside her, took her shoulder, and let her lean on herself.

Outside the window, the moon is nearly midsky, and the wood hibiscus in the yard is blooming just right, and the delicate pink is like a layer of silver frost sprinkled in the moonlight, and it is impossible to distinguish red and white at first glance.

"It's beautiful......," she whispered.

"Hmm."

Hearing Liu Jin's response, Lin Wanjing looked at him, but saw him looking at herself upright, his eyes burning, and she knew that he was not praising the night, her cheeks rose red, and her originally pale face was a little more radiant because of these two blush embellishments. Unconsciously, he raised his hand to caress her cheek, and finally, his kiss tentatively touched her lips, but she did not dodge, but closed her eyes and smiled at the corners of her mouth.

"Wanjing, this shouldn't be me dreaming, right?" He asked, in the days when she was asleep, he had dreamed of this countless times, and of course, the dream of being rejected by her countless times.

"What if it is?" She opened her eyes and asked rhetorically as she stared into his eyes, smiling deeper.

"Then let me keep dreaming and never wake up......"

He kissed her again, lingering like the murmuring water of a forest valley, this kiss was long, long, long as if it could make people forget the flow of time, long enough to last until the end of the years.

"Evening Jing ......"

"Huh?"

"I'm sorry, I almost lost your ......"