"Chief of Staff, do." Han Shuang directly picked up the second glass, and was about to drink directly.

"You wait." Fan Tianlei's hand speed was faster this time, he directly suppressed Han Shuang's wine glass, and asked directly in a serious tone: "Han Shuang, it's okay to drink with you, it's okay to get drunk today, but you can't just drink, no matter what problems you encounter, no matter what grievances you have suffered, or what you have said, you tell me, I will call the shots for you." ”

"But you drink like this, not to mention that it doesn't do any good to your body, and it won't solve any problems, I know you're not a person who likes to ask people, but if there's anything, you just say, it's really not good, I'll go find No. 1." Fan Tianlei's voice was very crisp.

Han Shuang immediately fell silent, she didn't fight for the wine glass, but sat silently on the chair, her eyes didn't know where to look, and her whole expression was a little confused.

Fan Tianlei, Chen Shanming, and Lei Zhan all glanced at each other, but none of them spoke, they all received some training and knowledge in psychological warfare, and knew that Han Shuang's current state was a state of self-inquiry and inner torment, as long as they didn't bother, Han Shuang would open his mouth for a while.

Han Shuang's whole person seemed to have fallen into a state of confusion, she didn't know what she was thinking, she waited like this for dozens of seconds, Chen Shanming next to her couldn't help but want to ask, Fan Tianlei, who was sitting on the side, immediately glared at him and gave him a look.

Chen Shanming immediately held back and didn't speak, just waited in place.

Han Shuang, who was sitting there, didn't know what was going on, thinking about her own body silently shrinking back, leaning on the back of the chair, and her feet were directly retracted from the ground, stepping on the chair, and then holding her knees in her arms with both hands.

Seeing this action, Fan Tianlei and the others were a little worried, because this kind of action is often made by some girls who are not very safe, or some instinctive actions that are subconsciously made by some girls who are confused.

It can be seen from this action that Han Shuang's heart actually has no sense of security, think about it, she is a girl whose parents have become martyrs since she was a child, and she is an orphan, she can grow to the point where she is now, she can already be said to be extremely good!

And how many difficulties they have endured in such a growth process, no one else knows at all.

Some actions made by people when they are unconscious will reflect her inner state, Han Shuang is obviously thinking about some things, and what they have seen in the past is Han Shuang's toughness, far beyond the strength of many men, at this time, the three of them understand that this kind of toughness is not a disguise for her?

Because only by being strong can she protect the weakness in her heart.

“…… Not so long ago, a mission was carried out in the special unit to which I belonged. Han Shuang's voice suddenly rang out.

The three people who had been waiting next to him finally breathed a sigh of relief, as long as Han Shuang was willing to say it, it would be a good thing, which meant that there would not be too much of a problem when she said it, and there would be no problem with her psychological state.

“…… I was the commander of a special operations team in this new unit, and it was during that mission that one of the members of the team died. ”

“…… I personally went to his house and told his wife, daughter, his parents the news. ”

"Then I took them to the military district and handed over his urn to his family."

"A complete family is shattered like this, the wife has no husband, the children have no father, and the parents have no son." Han Shuang's voice was very soft, as if in a dream, but it was very clear that the three of them could hear it.

Hearing this, Fan Tianlei and the three of them still didn't know what was going on.

Compared with the discomfort of destroying the enemy, the sacrifice of his comrades is even more unacceptable, guilt, self-blame, and all kinds of emotions will constantly torment in people's hearts, especially when Han Shuang is still the commander of the squad, this emotion will be even more magnified.

“…… He died because of my command, and his former comrades-in-arms didn't say it, and even his family didn't ask, but when I saw their eyes, I always felt as if they were asking, why did he die? "Han Shuang's question has no one to answer.

In other words, she didn't seem to be asking a question, but more like asking herself, and even at this moment, I am afraid that even Han Shuang herself didn't know if she wanted to ask something.

"Chief of Staff, I know that as a soldier, maybe dying on the battlefield is a good place to be, but what can we do when facing his family? That grief was left only for them and for his family in the end. ”

"And the grief that we others feel will never be so unforgettable."

Saying this, Han Shuang lowered his legs, sat down on the chair again, and picked up the wine glass in front of him.

This time, Fan Tianlei did not stop her, but also picked up the wine glass in front of him, and Chen Shanming and Lei Zhan on the other side picked up the water glass in front of him.

"Bang" The crisp toast sound, after touching Fan Tianlei, Han Shuang directly raised his head and drank the liquor in the wine glass in front of him.

Fan Tianlei also made the same move, this time without waiting for Han Shuang to make a move, Fan Tianlei picked up the wine bottle next to him, first poured the rest of the liquor into his own cup, and then picked up a bottle from the side and opened it, and then poured it full for the two people.

This time, without waiting for Han Shuang to speak, Fan Tianlei said directly: "...... Han Shuang, you are not very old, but your experience has made you far more mature than your peers, I can't answer these questions, because I can't even answer myself. ”

"I came from that era, although I am only more than 20 years older than you, but in the last century, the surroundings of our country were even more uneven."

"I'm not afraid of your jokes, when I was like you when I was young, I had the same problems as you, and even I was the one who was saved." Saying this, Fan Tianlei directly picked up the wine glass in front of him and drank it all again.

His face had turned very red, and even his eyes seemed to have some bloodshots, "Chen Shanming knows that even Lei Zhan has encountered something similar. ”

"We've all been through this, you ask them, do they have an answer in their hearts?"

"Nope! Whether you like it or not, this country, this nation, its security, stability and peace are not given by God, but by the blood and lives of these thousands of warriors. ”