"It's a pity, if Bodao can devote himself to studying, I am afraid that his achievements in this life will be ten times better than mine."

This is the third time Cai Yong has said this, maybe when he is dying, his memory is confused, or he means something, Chen Mo listened patiently, and occasionally talked to Cai Yong about some academic things.

The old man has been up and down all his life, but he has never been slack off in his heart of learning, Cai Yong took Chen Mo's hand and asked: "Bo Dao, you say, what do you learn from my generation?" ”

Many people have thought about this question, and Chen Mo is naturally too, and more than once.

"Before, a disciple told me that he studied for the sake of the princes, for the sake of showing what he had learned, and for the sake of high-ranking officials." Cai Yong said astringently with a somewhat reminiscent look: "I was very angry at the time, but now that I think about it, if you are a corporal, although they all say that they have no intention of being a high-ranking official, how many can they not be moved by fame and fortune?" But self-deception. ”

Erudite like Cai Yong, they have been in officialdom for a long time, not to mention others? It's just that telling the truth so bluntly is indeed contrary to today's concept, the Han people pay attention to a subtlety, in fact, I don't say it, but you have to give, and I have to refuse, and finally make a look that is moved by your sincerity.

It's very tiring, but don't talk about scholars, how can ordinary people not be like this, like the kind of people who really regard fame and fortune as floating clouds, but there are too few, just like You Heng, erudite and talented, why do you ridicule people when you see them? I don't want to say everything, but most of them also have the desire to seek fame in it.

"It's a pity that I couldn't face my heart at the beginning, but instead punished him, and the master-apprentice relationship naturally faded." Cai Yong said with some regret.

"Guo Jia?" Chen Mo suddenly watched Cai Yong fall.

"Hmm." Cai Yong sighed: "This son's talent is not under Bodao, it's a pity that he is a little flamboyant, and he can't be as free and easy as him when he was a teacher, and he doesn't see it as thoroughly as he ......."

Cai Yong trembled and took out a bamboo slip from under the bed and said: "Now that he has defected to Cao Cao, he doesn't want to see me, if he can see it one day, he will give this book to Fengxiao." ”

Chen Mo took the bamboo slip, nodded and smiled: "If there is a chance, Mo will arrest him and listen to his father-in-law's teachings in person." ”

Cai Yong looked at Chen Mo, shook his head and said, "I'm afraid the old man won't be able to wait for that day." ”

"What did my father-in-law say? You're just tired, and you'll be fine after a while. Chen Mo hurriedly shook his head and said.

"I'm really tired." Cai Yong sighed, looked at Chen Mo and said: "Bo Dao, the old man has never been worthy of the Han family in his life, this loyalty has never wavered, born as a Han minister, if the emperor does not give up after death, I am willing to be a Han ghost again!" ”

"How can my father-in-law say all these depressing words today?" Chen Mo said helplessly.

"Time is running out, so listen to some old people's chatter." Cai Yong said with a smile: "It's just that this is the old man's wish in his life, but everyone has their own way to go, as for how Bodao will go in the future, sometimes, life in the world, after all, it is difficult to be by himself, the old man is dead, and the body is dead, Bodao only needs to be worthy of his heart." ”

Chen Mo nodded, Cai Yong was very interested in talking today, and he kept pulling his daughter and son-in-law until the evening, before he fell asleep.

The next day, Chen Mo was still in the government office, but he saw Xu Shu come in with an ugly face.

"Why is Yuan Zhi like this?" Li Ru looked at Xu Shu and said suspiciously.

Xu Shu silently handed a bamboo slip to Chen Mo and said: "Lord, the last volume of Han history is not yet complete, and before the teacher leaves, I hope that the lord can complete the Han history." ”

"Father-in-law, he ......" Chen Mo got up, looked at Xu Shu and frowned.

Cai Yong left, walked very peacefully, Chen Mo ordered people to send an order to Sanfu, Bingzhou, Xiliang, and Sanzhou to stop all celebrations and sacrifices, and the government office hung up Susu for a month to mourn Cai Yong.

Seven days later, Cai Yong was buried, Chen Mo stood in front of the grave, looking at the last volume of Han Shu left by Cai Yong, which recorded what happened from Zhongping to the present.

Maybe the old man had expected something, but this result was definitely not what he wanted to see for this old man who had been loyal to the Han all his life.

The old man's achievements in officialdom in his life are not very high, and most of his later years are writing and teaching in the academy, and he has faded out of his official career, even if Chen Mo holds the court and is the overlord of one side, but if he wants to come to such a court, it is not what the old man wants to see.

He was naturally dissatisfied, but there was nothing he could do, so he could only continue to be loyal to Dahan in his own way until the moment when his life ended.

At the beginning, Wang Yun said that Cai Yong's writing of Han Shu would slander the imperial court, but in Chen Mo's view, Cai Yong's Han writing was very fair, including Dong Zhuo's later life merits, Chen Mo's merits, and there was no bias or too many personal feelings in it.

After the funeral, Chen Mo came back, Cai Yan had red eyes, but he still served Chen Mo as usual.

"Madame, rest and rest." Chen Mo stretched out his hand to stop Cai Yan, shook his head, and didn't say too much, at this time, any comfort would seem very pale.

If a man wants to die, why should he live? Chen Mo seems to have an answer to this childhood question.

Cai Yan didn't refuse, but he didn't accept it, and continued to do his own thing, Yun Si wanted to step forward to help, but was stopped by Chen Mo: "Let people look at Mrs., at this time, do something, maybe you can disperse some pain." ”

Yun Si nodded obediently, and accompanied Cai Yan with Juan'er and Diao Chan, Chen Mo returned to the room with the last scroll of bamboo slips, silently reading the last half of his father-in-law's work, but he couldn't help but think of the last dialogue in his mind.

Do you have a clear conscience?

Chen silently reviewed the half of his life, I am afraid that I can't reach these four words, even a hegemon, to say how bright and upright, it is impossible, every time I plan, how many innocent people are implicated, I am afraid that even Chen Mo himself does not know, but he knows that the misery of many people is caused by himself, some of these people know by themselves, and some may just be the intersection of government decrees.

said that he couldn't always be filial in front of his mother, nor could he accompany his wife, and as a son, husband and even father, he was also not responsible.

Why did you take this path in the first place?

Chen Mo suddenly found that he had forgotten his original intention, and just felt that Yuan Shao and them were not good enough, and he could do better? Or do you really don't want your fate to be controlled by others? Or is it both?

Forgot!

He only knows that this is a road of no return, he gives up now, and countless people's livelihoods will be affected because of this, he can't turn back, he can't even stop, he can't give up, he has unconsciously accumulated the expectations of many people.

Even if you succeed in the end, is that success what you want?

Chen Mo didn't know, and no one could give him an answer.

Cai Yan's mood gradually calmed down, Chen Mo spent most of his time at home these days, either with his mother or with his wife, and would do something to make her happy.

Looking at the gradually recovering smile on his wife's face, Chen Mo suddenly felt very fulfilled in his heart, which gave people a sense of accomplishment more than winning a battle.

And Cai Yan, who recovered from the pain of bereavement, also began to push Chen Mo out: "My husband is a person who does great things, how can he stay in the gentle countryside?" ”

For his wife's persuasion, Chen Mo is sometimes quite tired, isn't he doing all this for his wife? This is just right, so I will push my husband out, and the people's hearts are not ancient.

In front of the government office, a large group of people gathered at this moment for some reason, and before Chen Mo could pass, he heard You Heng's voice, and suddenly had a headache.

"Lord, come and see!" Yang Xiu's eyes were sharp, and he was the first to see Chen Mo, and hurriedly pulled Chen Mo over.

"I have a headache today...... What happened? Chen Mo touched his head and said.

"Zhengping quarreled with General Dian." Yang Xiu said with a smile.

"Oh?" Chen Mo suddenly felt that his head didn't hurt, and he followed Yang Xiu into the crowd, and saw You Heng suppressing his voice and scolding, quoting scriptures and scolding Dian Wei's nose without a dirty word.

Dian Wei yawned, looked at You Heng and said impatiently: "What are you talking about for a long time?" Can you speak human words? ”

You Heng Balabala talked for a long time, his mouth was dry, but in exchange for such a sentence, he stared at Dian Wei and was a little speechless, and only after a while did he scold: "Rough man! ”

When Dian Wei heard this, he glanced at You Heng's lower body with bad intentions, patted him on the shoulder and said, "It turned out that he was jealous of me, and he said earlier, I will give you a headhunter another day, this tiger whip is very supplemental." ”

"Hahaha~" A group of county guards around them immediately burst into laughter when they heard this.

"Cheap!"

"I said, they all say that you can speak well, why do you either say something that people can't understand, or just these two sentences back and forth......" Dian Wei was a little impatient, looked at You Heng and said: "No wonder you have to be naked and drumming to scold people, hey, you don't have to take it off here, it's embarrassing to take it off, and the courage is extraordinary!" ”

You Heng's face turned red, pointed at Dian Wei, and searched his stomach to find some happy words that Dian Wei could understand and scold, but unfortunately he didn't think of it for a long time, so he could only look at Dian Wei and stare dryly.

"If you still have to beat the drum to scold, can you also boost the momentum of swearing?" Dian Wei looked at You Heng curiously and said: "It's really strange that you guys are so addicted to literati, then Cao Cao can be angry with you like this, it seems that his strength is not good, and the lord often praises him." ”

"Bad man!"

"Thin~Short~"

"You...... I don't speak to you! You Heng pointed at Dian Wei, and after a while, he couldn't think of any words to relieve his anger, and looked at the people around him: "Where is the Marquis of Changling, I have something important to come to discuss today." ”

With Dian Wei, a big boss, he doesn't have any common language, and he can't understand it at all, what can he do? You Heng is also tired now, he wants to see Chen Mo at the moment, he needs money and food over there, Zhong Yun has not approved it several times before, and this time he came directly to Chen Mo.

"Uh......" Chen Mo saw Dian Wei's gaze looking at him, and his face suddenly turned dark......