Dai Hongyu lost face in the academy, he could no longer be domineering, this guy was very painful, he said: "What is the meaning of my life!" ”

Tang Zhangwei said: "Could it be that you are a living person, you can only blackmail others, and you can only make a little difference?" ”

Dai Hongyu said, "You can find me some way out here!" Otherwise, there would be no point in my life. ∞Miscellaneous ∑ ∑ Insect ∞"

Tang Zhangwei said: "In fact, you can go to various places to collect some garbage, and you can act as a little prince of garbage!" ”

When Dai Hongyu thought of playing the role of the little prince of garbage, he was very depressed.

Luckily, she went to prick the snow and measure the height of the air intake. She poked holes with branches to let fresh air into the small cave. The fire needs air to burn, and she needs air too. Without this ventilation hole, she would quickly fall asleep groggily and will never wake up. However, she was unaware of the danger in front of her.

She found that she no longer needed to light a fire to warm the small cave. Snow is a good insulation material because it is made up of ice crystals holding tiny air pockets. The heat emitted by her body alone was almost enough to keep the small space warm. However, she needs to drink water. The greater use of a fire is to melt snow into water, rather than to heat it.

She crouched alone in the cave with a small fire beside her. She knew the difference between day and night only by the faint light leaking in from the air hole poked open with a tree branch. Whenever the light dimmed, she knew that night was coming, and carefully carved a dent in the stick.

She had nothing to do but meditate. She stared at the fire for a long time. The fire was warm, it moved, it was locked up with her in a small world like a tomb, and now it began to have a life of its own. She watched as it devoured sticks one by one, leaving only a small amount of ash behind. Does fire, she wonder, have a soul too? Where does its soul go when the fire is extinguished? Kleber said that when a person dies, his soul goes to another world. Am I in another world? I don't think there's a difference; I just felt lonely. Maybe my soul is somewhere else now, right? So how do I know? I always thought it wouldn't be. Yes, it could be. I think my soul is with Kleber, Iza and Yuba. I'm cursed. I'm dead.

My totem knows that I am going to be cursed, has it already signaled to me? Maybe it didn't give me a signal, but I thought it did! I think it's testing me. Maybe it's another test. Or has it abandoned me? Why, then, did it choose me and abandon me now? Maybe it hasn't abandoned me, maybe it's been in the world of gods and ghosts ready to take me, maybe it's fighting demons; It can do much better than I do. Maybe it sent me here to wait. Does it still protect me? If I am dead, who am I now? I'm alone, and that's who I am. I hope I don't feel so alone. 'The fire is hungry again, and it needs something to eat. I think I'm going to have something to eat too. Ella from So, 310

Another piece of wood was taken out of the small remaining pyre and fed. "Flames, and then, to check her air hole. She thought, "It's getting dark, and I'll have to add a notch to the stick." Is it a snowstorm that will fall all winter? She picked up the scoring stick and made a nick. Then she put her fingers over the nicks, first with one hand, then with a second hand, and then with a first hand, until she covered all the nicks with her fingers. Yesterday was my last day. I can go back now, but how can I leave under this blizzard? She checked her air hole a second time. It's getting dark, and the snow is still coming from the side, how can I get out? She shook her head, still returning to the fire.

The next day, when she woke up, the first thing she did was to check her air hole again, but the wind was blowing in it. Isn't it never stopping? Can it keep blowing like this? I want to go back. What if Burren says that the curse on me is permanent? What if the wind stops and I can't go back? If I hadn't died now, I'd have died if I had gone on like this. There's not much time left to spend now. I managed to stay here for a month, and I must not stay for a winter. I wonder why Bren pronounced a limited curse on me? This was something I didn't expect. If I had reached the world of gods and ghosts now and had no protection from the totem, would I be able to return to this world? How do I know that my soul is not going? Is it that my soul has gone and is now protected by my totem? I do not know. I really don't know. All I know is that if Bren doesn't declare the curse temporary, I won't have this chance.

A chance? Does Bren really want to give me a chance? This flash of her thoughts, remembering everything, made her mind gradually mature and reach new depths. I knew that was what Bren meant, and he said he thanked me for saving Braque's life. He had to curse me, because it was a family rule, and even if he didn't want to, he would give me a chance. I don't know if I'm dead now? Will other people be able to eat and breathe as usual when they die? She couldn't help but shiver a little when she thought about this, it wasn't due to the cold. I think most people don't want to die. I know why.

What motivated me to decide to live? When I run out of the cave, I will fall into the snow, and if I don't struggle to escape from the snowdrift, then I will die, it is very easy. If Bren hadn't told me I could go back, would I have picked myself up and lived?

If I don't know I still have a chance, do I have to make another effort? Burren said, 'Because of God's mercy...'Who is God?' I? My totemic god? It doesn't care? They all encouraged me to live. Maybe it's because my totem protects me, maybe it knows I have this opportunity. Or both. Yes, I think it's both.

After Ella woke up. After lying down for a while, I realized that I had woken up. She touched her eyes again, knowing that they were open. The suffocating darkness in the cave made her hold back her screams. I'm dead! Bryn cursed me, and now I am dead! I can never get out of here again, I can never go back to the tribal cave again, it's too late. The demons tricked me into thinking that I was alive and safe in the cave, when in fact I was dead. They are angry with me because I don't want to go with them like a stream, and they want to punish me. They make me think I'm alive, when in fact I'm dead. The girl trembled with fear, and shrunk into a ball under her fur cover, not daring to move.

(End of chapter)