Chapter 575: Guilt
On the one hand, it was his promise to Su Mian that he would never hide it from her in the future, but on the other hand, he was worried about her, and he hesitated not to tell her.
Beiyuan tried its best to block such a big news, and Su Mian, as a princess, had no news about the death of her father.
Obviously, he was guarding against her, so he didn't want her to go over, there must be a lot of danger over there now, anything could happen, and he didn't want Su Mian to take risks in the past.
Shen Ningjie didn't open his mouth to urge, and waited silently for Gu Zhixing's reply.
After waiting for a long time and not hearing Gu Zhixing's reply, Shen Ningjie said softly: "Your Majesty means whether you want to tell the princess about this matter, and you will be the master." ”
"Let's keep it a secret." Gu Zhixing finally spoke, his face was a little serious, although he knew that he couldn't hide it for long, but now that the situation on the Beiyuan side was unknown, it was impossible for him to let Su Mian go over to take risks.
It stands to reason that this is Gu Zhixing's own housework, and Shen Ningjie shouldn't talk too much.
But he hesitated, but still said: "Lord, if the princess knows about it in the future, it will affect your feelings very much." ”
Gu Zhixing had already made up his mind, so he wouldn't let Su Mian know easily, he came back to his senses, glanced at Shen Ningjie coldly, and said with a determined expression: "Then just assume that I don't know anything yet." ”
When they arrived in Xisheng, it was a good time to go out, the flowers were blooming, the road was full of pedestrians, everything recovered, and people's mood was also happy.
Su Mian looked outside in the carriage, her mood finally improved, and she said to Gu Zhixing happily: "When we go back, let's pack up and go out, okay?" I haven't had a good tour of the suburbs of Xisheng, there are quite a lot of people, and it's quite lively. ”
For a long time, he didn't hear Gu Zhixing's answer.
Su Mian slowly retracted her gaze, looked in the direction of Gu Zhixing, frowned suspiciously, and shouted again: "Gu Zhixing? ”
The other party still didn't react.
Su Mian was faintly worried, and she didn't care about looking at the scenery outside, so she slowly approached Gu Zhixing, stretched out her hand to hold his hand, and her face was full of worry: "Gu Zhixing, what are you thinking, you have been so preoccupied since you came out of the post station, is something wrong?" ”
Su Mian didn't have any doubts about him, but Gu Zhixing's state was really wrong, which made her worried.
But Gu Zhixing's heart was so weak that he didn't even have the courage to face Su Mian, and he was very unconfident: "It's nothing, it must be that I'm too tired Ah Mian, I'm about to go to the capital, everyone must be very worried about you, when I see them, if you want to go there, I'll accompany you." ”
It seems that he heard what Su Mian said just now, but he didn't know what the reason was, so he didn't respond.
Su Mian felt more and more weird.
Maybe he had been deceived by Gu Zhixing, so Su Mian subconsciously felt that he was clearly hiding something from her, so he was absent-minded and didn't dare to look into her eyes when he spoke.
Su Mian didn't speak for a moment, just stared at Gu Zhixing so deeply.
Gu Zhixing was more and more heartbroken by her, and his smile was a little unnatural: "What are you doing looking at me like this?" ”
"Are you hiding something from me again?" Su Mian's voice was soft and low, her face was also very heavy, and her unhappiness was almost written in her eyes.
Gu Zhixing felt that his heart ached sourly, as if tens of thousands of ants were gnawing at his heart.
But he couldn't let Su Mian see anything, so he pretended to be calm and casual on his face, and said lightly: "Ah Mian, I promised you that I wouldn't hide it from you anymore, and when I said it, I was a little distracted just now, and I won't in the future." ”
Got his promise.
Obviously, he should be relieved, but Su Mian just felt uneasy.
She didn't know how to get rid of the vague anxiety and uneasiness in her heart, so she could only hold Gu Zhixing's hand tightly and said sharply: "Gu Zhixing, if you lie to me again, I won't forgive you in the future." ”
Her face was so pale, but her tone was resolute and firm.
Gu Zhixing was a little flustered for no reason, but he still didn't change his face and said, "Well, it won't be." ”
In the afternoon, the carriage entered the city and went all the way back to the palace.
Lin Qingqing and Sheng Suqin, who had been waiting in the palace for a long time, greeted them all the way. Love Me eBook
Su Mian looked at Lin Qingqing, she hadn't seen her friends meet for a long time, and she naturally couldn't restrain her excitement, but she didn't expect Lin Qingqing's face to look even haggard and pale than her.
So much so that Su Mian was full of worry when she saw Lin Qingqing, and asked, "Qingqing, has something happened recently, why are you so bad and unwell?" ”
Lin Qingqing is not uncomfortable, she is unable to sleep and eat day and night, so she blames herself for Su Mian's accident, as long as Su Mian does not come back for a day, she will not be stable for a day.
At this moment, I still have to listen to Su Mian turned her head and worried about her, how could Lin Qingqing stand it, tears fell at once, and she cried breathlessly.
Su Mian suddenly became even more worried, and glanced at Sheng Suqin blankly, wanting the other party to tell him what was going on.
Sheng Suqin just smiled softly and looked at Lin Qingqing, this matter is more appropriate for Lin Qingqing himself.
Lin Qingqing cried, and then took Su Mian's hand and said with guilt on his face: "Ah Mian, I'm sorry for you, I'm sorry for causing you like this." ”
At this time, Su Mian was completely confused.
She frowned and looked at Lin Qingqing very suspiciously, not knowing where the other party's sorry came from.
She glanced back at Fu Shutong and Gong Yuyi, and ordered her subordinates first: "Qiu Lin, you take the two guests down to rest first, the prince and Qinglan have entered the palace, and they will come back in the evening, you tell the kitchen to prepare well tonight, and set up a banquet in the palace at night, and the banquet is all friends, so there is no need to make a big show." ”
Fu Shutong also knew that Su Mian's current situation was not suitable for them here, and soon left with the people in the house.
After they left, Su Miancai helped Lin Qingqing and said gently: "Qingqing, you sit down first, let's sit down and talk slowly about anything." ”
Although Fu Shutong and the others left first, Su Mian didn't want to avoid Sheng Suqin, and Sheng Suqin was still there, but Lin Qingqing hadn't opened his mouth yet, but Sheng Suqin said: "I've always come to see you, just make sure you really come back safely, I still have to go to the restaurant to check this month's account books, so I won't bother, you can talk first." ”
Anyway, how can Lin Qingqing be sorry for Su Mian's matter, these days. She'd heard it many times.
"Okay, thank you for coming to see me." Su Mian nodded to Sheng Suqin, her eyes full of gratitude.
After everyone left, Lin Qingqing slowly recovered from his desperate crying, stretched out his hand to cover his eyes, and blamed himself guiltily: "Ah Mian, I don't have the luxury of asking you to forgive me, I've thought a lot these days, if I had the courage to expose them later, maybe you wouldn't have encountered this danger." ”
Lin Qing cleared his throat and choked: "It's all because I'm too cowardly, we've known each other for so long, it seems that you have always protected me again, and I, when something happened, my first reaction was to protect myself, and I abandoned you, I am no longer qualified to be your friend." ”
The more Su Mian listened, the more confused she became, seeing that Lin Qingqing's face was very solemn and sad, she wrinkled, and said softly: "Qingqing, don't say that first, tell me what happened, okay?" ”
Lin Qingqing calmed down for a while, and then slowly recalled: "Actually...... I have long known that the prince of Nanzhou is lurking in Nanzhou, and I bumped into the conspiracy between Gong Qianxue and the prince of Nanzhou before, and they threatened me with my family and asked me to spy on you......"
Speaking of this, Lin Qingqing's eyes were red again, and his voice was choked: "Ah Mian, I'm really sorry, I worried too much, so I really provided them with your itinerary and actions several times, I know that I am now saying that I have a hard time, especially like I am excusing myself, but I really don't know what else to do at that time, he is the prince of Nanzhou, and he is involved with Liu Ce, I don't dare to act rashly at all." ”
At this time, Su Mian was really shocked, because she didn't know that there were these things behind her.
She vaguely remembered that for a while, Lin Qingqing seemed to be deliberately keeping a distance from herself.
At that time, she was all focused on Gu Zhixing, worried about Gu Zhixing's safety, so she cared too little about the people around her, so that she didn't know that Lin Qingqing had experienced this.
Lin Qingqing sniffed, tried to suppress his own path, and continued to feel guilty: "If I had explained to you the ambition of the Prince of Nanzhou earlier, and explained that Liu Ce had already intended to rebel, maybe you would not have been arrested, I'm sorry Ah Mian, I was too selfish." ”
"Qingqing." Su Mian stretched out his hand to hold her shoulder, stared into her eyes and said seriously, "This has nothing to do with you, you just want to protect your family, we should blame those who threaten you with your family, you are not wrong." ”
"No, it's not." Lin Qingqing couldn't listen to Su Mian's words, the more Su Mian was so understanding, the more sad she became, crying and saying, "It's all because I'm too weak, I shouldn't just be for myself, I don't care about your safety, if I hadn't been hiding it, you wouldn't have been hijacked." ”
Su Mian knew that these days, Lin Qingqing was probably living in guilt and self-blame, so now, no matter what Su Mian said, she would not easily recover from these guilts.
Su Mian was a little helpless, so she could only say to Lin Qingqing: "Qingqing, in fact, the prince of Nanzhou is also Gong Yuming, he has long been lurking beside me, do you remember the incident when I went to Jing'an Temple to offer incense and was kidnapped before?" ”
Lin Qingqing naturally remembered that incident, but he didn't understand why Su Mian mentioned it now, and looked at her blankly.
Su Mian said softly: "That incident was planned by him, he directed and acted to kidnap me, and released me to make me grateful to him, and then he has been lurking by my side, and he has also helped me in the Song family, so even if you don't pass on those news, he will do it to me sooner or later." ”
All this was predestined for a long time.