Chapter 138: For Yourself
Yun Shu couldn't believe that such a word would be used on his head, and he couldn't react to it. Is the person in Brother Hong's mouth really himself?
"Your father-in-law is ruthless in disciplining you, and he has handed you over to me. Therefore, if you dare to commit it again in the future, I will beat you until you change! ”
Yun Shu stared at Yu Hong's eyes, trying to find something out of them.
"Get up and eat."
"Don't eat it!"
Yunshu was still on the bar, but the next moment, she couldn't lie down, because Yu Hong grabbed her ears and pulled her out of the bed.
Yun Shu shouted, Yan Shizhen hurriedly ran in, "What's the matter?" ”
"Father-in-law," Yun Shu shuddered before he could finish speaking.
Yu Hong wrapped her in clothes, and said to Yan Shizhen without looking back: "You said let me take care of it." ”
Yan Shizhen smiled at Yun Shu and said, "Mei'er, get up and eat." ”
The stepfather and Brother Hong stood together, and the two of them had a strange attitude towards themselves. Yun Shu didn't know what it was like in his heart for a while.
Before Yun Shu could speak, Yu Hong spoke: "Mr. Yan go out first, I will take care of my eyebrows." ”
Then, Yun Shu watched her father-in-law, who usually loves her the most, go out step by step! It's out!
Yun Shu tried to figure out what was going on, but Yu Hong struggled to put on a set of autumn jackets for her, because she still had a fever and a rash, and couldn't see the wind, so he tied a cloak around her neck, and endured it without putting the hood on her.
What made Yun Shu strange was that he got dressed, and didn't let her get out of bed, but put a small table on the bed and beckoned Ying Niang to come in.
Ying Niang put several light foods on the small table, and then withdrew.
Yu Hong handed the chopsticks to Yun Shu: "Eat." ”
Yun Shu didn't answer, stared at Yu Hong, looked at the back of Ying Niang going out, and then looked at the house, "I'm dreaming, right?" As he spoke, he pinched his arm hard, and he just pinched it on the whiplash, and when he raised his hand in pain, he was about to overturn the table and was pressed down by Yu Hong.
Yun Shu remembered the slap on his face, he couldn't help but raise his hand to touch his face, his face was swollen and unconscious, and then touched the other side of his face, which was lowered, and there seemed to be many small bumps on it, only then did he realize the discomfort of his body, raised his other hand, and saw the red dots on the back of his hand, and was terrified.
"What's wrong with me?"
"Rash."
"Give me the mirror!"
"Now, eat first!"
Yun Shu saw the chopsticks handed to him again and Yu Hong's cold eyes, his chest rose and fell for a while, and finally bit his lip and took it.
Yun Shu buried her head in the food, feeling that she had known a fake Yu Hong before, or rather, she thought she knew the young man in front of her, and thought she understood him, but only today did she find out that she couldn't figure out what kind of person he was. It's as if everything before was an illusion.
Look up at Yu Hong again.
The eyebrows and eyes are still the familiar eyebrows, but there is no trace of familiar emotions, which is even more difficult to understand than when I saw his face clearly for the first time in Qingfeng Guan.
The feeling of frustration hit me again, and my heart couldn't help but feel a little sour, and I couldn't lift my head anymore, and I pulled the rice one bite at a time.
Suddenly there were more dishes in the bowl, "Eat well." ”
Yunshu silently ate the food in the bowl without saying a word. She tried to understand something, but her mind was in chaos.
After removing the meal, Yu Hong was still sitting on the edge of the bed, looking at Yunshu with deep eyes. Yun Shu leaned on the head of the bed in a daze, but his eyes were not as clever as before, and he looked at him a little vacantly.
"Trees?"
"Hmm."
"Do you know what you're doing wrong?"
"I can't even figure out why you're angry, how do you know what you're doing wrong?"
"Zhuo Qingyan is so important? Is it worth your door to be whipped? ”
"She was wronged because of what I did."
"You know that she will be wronged, why do you want to help Zhang Jing for the sake of the top."
"I promise him."
"Why did you promise him?"
"I'm for my father."
"Do you dare to say that it is for your father-in-law?"
"I," confusion appeared for the first time in Yunshu's hollow eyes. "Who does Brother Hong think I'm for?"
"For your own sake."
"For myself?"
"You think that all the things you do are for the good of others, and you want them to be good, but in fact, it is just to make yourself feel at ease."
Cloud Tree was silent.
That's right, she longs for peace of mind. From the time her father was taken away, from the news of her father's death, from the day her mother was seriously ill, from the morning when she was carried out of her mother's bedroom by her stepfather, her intact heart was like an invisible blade, poked again and again.
She tried hard to make herself strong, covering up her fear, helplessness and confusion, she thought that she should provoke everything she should bear, so that her father could rest assured, her mother could rest assured, and her father-in-law could rest assured, but in the cold war with Yu Hong, she repeatedly reflected that the heart that was hidden intentionally or unintentionally did not know when it became nowhere to place, it was painful, anxious, and depressed.
"Your father and mother left suddenly, you lost your dependence, and you had to go alone on the long road of life. You think that if someone is kind to your father, he will not die, and if your mother is kind to herself, if she is kind to you, she will not leave with your father. ”
Cloud Tree was silent.
She thought she could understand, she thought she wouldn't complain, she thought she could still be the Yun Shu who made her father proud and relieved. The stepfather treated her as well as her father, and even had more time to spend with her, but before she knew it, Yun Shu was no longer Yun Shu, her mood had changed, and her laughter was not as good as yesterday.
"You keep saying that for the sake of your father-in-law, he has tried his best to care for you and teach you, lest you be wronged or hurt a little, but you let irrelevant people whip you and practice yourself like this, are you worthy of him?"
The head of the cloud tree is lower.
"Because your father and mother gave you life, and carefully protected you for nine years, and now that they are gone, you can't live well alone, and you have to bury the rest of your life in the shadows for them, right?"
The stepfather wants her to get out of her own life path, it's not that she doesn't want to come out of the shadows, she works hard, she wants to be good to everyone to do redemption, but her heart can't help her.
"The Father-in-law said that you cannot live in hatred."
"Hate is hate, hate is hate! There is nothing to face. With Master and your stepfather teaching you, when you finish your studies, you can cut the bodies of those who are responsible for your father's death into pieces. What do the joys and sorrows of those who have nothing to do with you? Do you really know what you want when you do all this useless work all day? ”
On the issue of Yunshu blindly being kind to people, Yu Hong has also thought a lot about it these days. Yun Shu's first feeling was not wrong, she and Yu Hong did have similarities.
Yu Hong's early experience was even more cruel than what Yun Shu faced, he chose to resolutely resist for his own sake, and Yun Shu, in his own demons and the peace of mind of others, covered up and hesitated in every possible way, in order to reverse the most direct hatred, he added demons to himself.
Now Yu Hong forcibly helped her lift this curtain and let her face her heart, this heart tearing is very painful, but she is very happy. This is the first person to support her to face her heart!
Yun Shu suddenly grabbed Yu Hong's hand, his eyes full of hope, "Can I really break those people into ten thousand pieces?" ”
Yu Hong nodded affirmatively, "Of course you can." ”
"Including the Emperor?"
Yu Hong was stunned. "As long as you want."
Yan Shizhen, who was eavesdropping on the wall, saw that Yu Hong had led Yun Shu to the path that he had been avoiding Yun Shu to set foot on, and he hated it in his heart. And this Yu Hong is even more surprising, between his words, he didn't care about the killing of the king, is it really the blood of the real country in the blood, and he has always lacked a good impression of Zhao Guo? Or will the world be in chaos, and this child will become a hero in troubled times?
He didn't know what the kid had been thinking about all day. But if Xin Tanzhi knew that he had not only taught an apprentice who had a grudge against Zhao Guo, but also an apprentice who wanted to stain the court with blood, he would probably vomit several liters of blood and die of anger.
Thinking of this, Yan Shizhen couldn't stand anymore and turned into the house.
"Father-in-law?"
Yan Shizhen ignored Yun Shu, looked at Yu Hong, and said with a bad face: "Let you discipline Mei'er, look at what you said?" ”
Yu Hong didn't look up, and he had a dark anger in his heart: This old man was silent every time he haunted, and it was very bad for him to hear this.
"If you let your master know that both of you have a great rebellious heart, you will have to die of anger. He has an old bone, you two are afraid that the world will not be chaotic, can't you feel sorry for the old man? ”
"Father-in-law means that you do not reject this great rebellion?" Yun Shu said keenly.
Yan Shizhen stomped his feet. "Who said that?"
"Father-in-law, do you say that does Master care about the king or the people?" Yun Shu shook his wit.
Yan Shizhen glared at Yun Shu rarely, "Put away your careful thoughts." I am different from your master. Your master's family, the Xin family, more than 200 people all died at the hands of the Zhenguo people, and he was the only one who crawled out of the pile of dead people. His lifelong obsession is to be able to kill back, regain the lost territory, and comfort the Xin family. After cultivating the Tao for so many years, the hatred in his heart has not diminished in the slightest, but has become thicker and heavier. When the two countries confronted each other, you turned the Zhao State upside down, and your master was really going to die in this life. ”
Yu Hong, who had been silent since Yan Shizhen came in, said: "If we can help Master and break the corpses of the people who destroyed the Xin family back then, you say, Master, will you forgive us for our great rebellion?" ”
Yan Shizhen, who was angry, was stunned by Yu Hong's question, "This, this, the kid is so big!" What exactly have you been thinking about all day? ”
"It was the army of Zhao that fled without a fight, which caused the loss of the border land and the slaughter of the people, and the monarchs and ministers of Zhao did not regain the lost land for so many years, and the master was depressed for many years and could not get what he wanted. If Zhenguo is an enemy, is Zhao Guo really a family? ”
Yan Shizhen didn't expect Yu Hong to analyze the problem so thoroughly, and it seemed to make some sense. Are people of the same clan really close? The place where the Xin family is located was abandoned by the Zhao army, and the Zhao family was unwilling to become a dead country, so they supported the blood struggle alone, and were slaughtered by the Zhenguo army after not supporting it.
If it is wrong, is Zhao Guo really not wrong? It's just that Zhenguo is the most direct enemy, and Zhao Guo, to put it a little more ruthlessly, is the one who handed the knife.