Then came a long period of chaos, centuries long. Hospitals, emergency rooms, plasma, saline, operating rooms, doctors, nurses, ...... Ling Shan only felt dizzy, dazzling and frightened. And then it's waiting, waiting, waiting...... Endless waiting, never-ending waiting. She and Shao Zhuosheng sat in the waiting room outside the operating room. Lu Chao and Ah Qiu have been standing at the window, looking at the lights outside the window. There were four people in the room, but no one spoke. In the silence, only the shuttle of nurses and the push of plasma bottles were seen. Finally, a doctor came out. "Who are her family?" The doctor asked, glancing over the four people in the room. "Who's to blame for her?" You look at me, I look at you, but none of them answered.

"Aren't any of you her family?" The doctor asked curiously.

Ling Shan couldn't help but stand up.

"Doctor, how is she? Can it be saved? If you need to sign something, I'll sign it! "She's going to be hospitalized, you guys go through the hospitalization procedures!"

Ling Shan was so overjoyed that tears almost burst out of her eyes, she grabbed the doctor's wrist and screamed in a stack, "She's alive!" Isn't it? She'll live, won't she? She's not in danger anymore! Isn't it? "Wait!" The doctor broke free from her pull and looked at her seriously. "Who are you?" Ling Shan was stunned. "Friends." She said reluctantly.

"What about her parents?" "She—no parents." "What about siblings?" "She-" Shao Zhuosheng walked over. "There are no siblings either. Doctor, you can trust us, we take full responsibility for her. Medical expenses, security deposits, surgical expenses...... We've got it all! The doctor frowned, his face heavy.

"Very good, you go through the hospitalization procedures for her first and send her to the ward, we can only wait and see!" "We'll see?" Ling Shan stammered and said, "This...... What does that mean? She...... Isn't it out of danger? "Her condition is very special," the doctor said sincerely, "it stands to reason that this knife wound does not bleed too much and should not cause such serious consequences, but she has severe anemia, as well as heart breakdown, stomach ulcer, and liver dysfunction...... She must have smoked and drunk at the same time? ”

"Yes." Ling Shan said hurriedly.

"She was already sick, how could she afford to lose a lot of blood? We now gave her a blood transfusion, an injection of glucose, and she had trouble breathing at one point, and we used an oxygen tank,...... Now, she is not out of danger, we put her in the ward first, continue to give her blood transfusions, and treat her...... We'll just have to wait and see! Of course we hope to save her! The doctor turned and walked away, took a few steps, and suddenly turned back again:

"I am most afraid of treating this kind of patient," he said coldly, "other patients are trying to survive, he will cooperate with the doctor himself, this kind of patient is seeking death, he is hostile to the doctor." Even if it was hard to save her, who knew she wouldn't come again? You're good friends of hers, and you should prevent this from happening! ”

The doctor walked away. Ling Shan and Shao Zhuosheng looked at each other. Then, there was a sudden knock on the door of the operating room, and Pei was pushed out. Ling Shan instinctively ran over, looking at her, Ling Shan really wanted to cry. She had a needle in her wrist, a blood vial dangling, a thick bandage where she had been cut by a knife, and another tube in her nose that led to a bottle, and she was surrounded by a mess of tubes and bottle shelves...... Her face was as white as a sheet, her eyes were tightly closed, and the two rows of long, black eyelashes stood out against her pale cheeks. She lay helplessly like this, lying lifeless, but she still looked beautiful! Beautiful and pitiful, beautiful and desolate, beautiful and lonely! Shao Zhuosheng glanced at her quietly, his brows were tightly locked, and then he resolutely dropped his head and said, "Lingshan, you accompany her to the ward, and I will help her go through the formalities." ”

Only at this time did Lu Chao stride forward:

"Shao Zhuosheng, give her a first-class ward, and I will pay for all the medical expenses!"

"Yes," Ah Qiu said anxiously: "Don't save money, we'll give all the money!" ”

We, we! We? What kind of love game? A game that bets your life! Ling Shan looked directly at Lu Chao, and a wave of anger stirred in her cavity uncontrollably, and she couldn't control her tongue. "Do you pay for all your medical expenses?" She stared at Lu Chao: "Do you want to buy back her life?" Or do you want to buy the peace of your conscience? ”

Lu Chao straightened his back, he looked at Ling Shan for a moment, his face had neither remorse nor apology, his eyes were shining, his face was serious, his face was solemn, he said in a low, clear, and powerful voice:

"I don't have to buy peace of conscience, because my conscience is not unsafe! She seeks death, she is too stupid! There is nothing in life that is worth dying for! Seeking death for me, she can't help but take me too seriously! He turned around and said to Ah Qiu: "Let's go!" ”

They walked to the door, and Lu Chao turned around again:

"I just take it for granted because she's my friend!" He paused, then said, "I'll send the money!" ”

"Except for money," Ling Shan asked anxiously, "Aren't you sending anything else?" A bouquet of flowers? A little comfort? A card? Lu Chao glared at her as if she were a strange monster.

"Lingshan," he said in a deep voice, "don't you understand? She doesn't need flowers, she doesn't need comfort, she doesn't need cards...... What she needs is love! I can't give her love, what's the use of giving her anything else? ”

"You...... Can't you really give her love? "Ling Shan feels like she's fighting the trapped beasts." You used to love her, didn't you? ”

"Once, once upon a time was a thing of the past. Ling Shan, Ah Pei also loved a man in the past, and that man also loved her with all his heart. And now - where is this feeling? Why bother holding on to what is lost? He stared at Ling Shan: "You won't understand me, I have my outlook on life, I live and live a real life." I don't deceive myself, I don't deceive others, Ah Pei loved me when she loved me, and she fell in love with me, and I can't change myself because she is seeking death. In this way, even if I return to her, it is not love, but she coerced it out with her life, and I will hate her! If she was smart, she wouldn't want a man who hated her! Ling Shan was confused, confused by him, and confused by the events of this whole night. She watched Lu Chao holding Ah Qiu and leaving, she unconsciously said to herself:

"I hope that one day, Ah Qiu will abandon you!"

Lu Chao actually heard it, and when he turned around, he looked at Ling Shan:

"There may well come a time when everything in life is unpredictable! If that day comes, I will drift away and never involve Ah Qiu. ”

They're gone. Ling Shan stood there stupidly, looking at the backs of the two of them stupidly, and suddenly understood a little why Ah Pei was so crazy about him, and threw himself to the ground. Really, he lives so "real", lives well "freely", and lives so "ruthlessly"! Pei was admitted to the hospital room, where she lay unconscious. The bottle of blood paddle hung there, and the blood flowed into the tube and into her body, but it never stained her cheeks. Shao Zhuosheng and Ling Shan were both guarding the bedside, looking at her intently, just hoping that she would open her eyes, but the two rows of dense eyelashes were always closed. Time passes slowly. Shao Zhuosheng muttered:

"It's almost dawn!" Ling Shan jumped straight up, oops! I came out all night, and I didn't even call home, so it's no wonder that my parents didn't die in a hurry! And Wei Pengfei! She hurriedly said to Shao Zhuosheng: "I'll make a call!" A sentence also reminded Shao Zhuosheng, he looked at Ling Shan apologetically and said, "You go back and rest!" I'm here to watch over her! ”

"No!" Ling Shan is stubborn. "I'm going to wait for her to wake up, I'm going to wait for her to be out of danger!" Walking out of the ward, I found the payphone in the lobby downstairs. It was Mrs. Liu who answered the phone, and as soon as she heard Ling Shan's voice, she shouted anxiously:

"Lingshan, where have you been? The whole family is out looking for you, even your sister and brother-in-law! What happened to you? Where are you? ……”

"Mom, I'm ...... in the hospital"

"Hospital?" Mrs. Liu screamed, "What's wrong with you? ...... had a car accident."

"No, no, Mom, I'm fine, I'm fine......"

The telephone microphone seemed to have been snatched up, and Wei Pengfei's voice came from there, and the anxious concern filled the phone. It turned out that he was also in Liu's house:

"Lingshan, what's wrong with you? Where are you? I'll be right here......"

"No, no! No! Ling Shan hurriedly said, thinking to herself, this time, the situation may become more complicated, how can he not let him see Ah Pei again! She said anxiously: "I didn't have an accident, I'm fine, because I have a friend who is suddenly ill, and I was so busy taking her to the hospital that I forgot to call home......"

"Don't lie! Lingshan! Wei Pengfei roared: "I went to your school, and they told me that you went with that Shao Zhuosheng!" ”

She was stunned. "Yes," she said in confusion, "we went to a friend's house, and the friend was not at home, and we went to another friend's house, and it turned out that the friend was at another friend's house, and it turned out that the friend suddenly fell ill......"

"Lingshan!" Wei Pengfei said hurriedly: "What are you talking about? A friend's house on the left, a friend's house on the right? I was completely inexplicable when I heard it! Do you have a fever? Are you sick? ......"It's not that I'm sick! She cried out, "Why are you entangled, my friend is sick!" "Is it Shao Zhuosheng?" "It's not Shao Zhuosheng, it's him...... His friends! ”

"Is it your friend, or is it his friend?" Wei Pengfei was angry, anxious and confused. "Tell me where you are? I'll pick you up! ”

"Nope! No way! You can't come ......."

The telephone was snatched away again, and Liu Siqian's voice came from there:

"Ling Shan," Liu Siqian's voice was sure and resolute. "I don't care where you are, I don't care if one of your friends is sick, I'll limit you to go home within half an hour!"

"Okay!" Ling Shan sighed: "I'll be back soon!" ”

Hanging up, she returned to her hospital room. Ah Pei still hadn't woken up, and Shao Zhuosheng was sitting there, staring at her stupidly. Ling Shan walked over, pressed her hand on Shao Zhuosheng's shoulder, and whispered, "I have to go back first, if she wakes up, you call me!" ”

Shao Zhuosheng glanced at her silently and nodded.

"Don't be too tired," Ling Shan said, "Lean back on the sofa over there, you can sleep, just sleep for a while!" Shao Zhuosheng shook his head silently.

Ling Shan glanced at them again, confused, sad, sour, and dazed. She doesn't understand, Ah Pei cut his wrists for Lu Chao, but Shao Zhuosheng kept vigil for Ah Pei, what kind of account is this? Is life all a mess? She felt more and more dizzy and drowsy. A night of tiredness, nervousness, irritation...... It made her whole body limp.

When she returned home, as soon as she entered the door, she was surrounded by the whole family. Blame, concern, doubt, confusion...... All sorts of questions rushed at her like waves:

"Ling Shan, where did you go?"

"Ling Shan, why are you so pale?"

"Lingshan, is Broomstar sick?"

"Lingshan, are you feeling unwell?"

Ling Shan sat down on the sofa exhausted, hugged her head with both hands, and pleaded, "Can you please let me be quiet?" ”

Everyone was quiet, everyone looked at her in a daze, and she realized that she was screaming loudly and excitedly. Then, Wei Pengfei sat down beside her, put his arm around her shoulder, he patted her shoulder blade, soothing, gentle, and said in a low voice: "You are tired, you should go to sleep first, and then talk about everything when you wake up!" You're cold and pale! Ling Shan looked at Wei Pengfei, and then looked up at her parents.

"Daddy, Mom," she said clearly, "I have a girlfriend who committed suicide by cutting her wrists, and I have been guarding her all night!" "Oh!" Mrs. Liu was shocked, and asked with concern, "Have you been saved?" ”

"Not out of danger yet! She remained unconscious. ”

"For what?" Liu Siqian asked.

"Her boyfriend changed his mind and abandoned her." Ling Shan said, looking at Wei Pengfei squarely, all the way into the depths of his eyes. "Pengfei, will you abandon me and leave with another person?" "You're crazy!" Wei Pengfei said, picked her up from the sofa, and did not shy away from Liu Siqian and his wife, he carried her to the bedroom. "You're so tired and delirious, and besides, you're stimulated." He put her on the bed. "You give me a good night's sleep, I'm going to go to work, I'll come to see you after work!" He kissed her lips and then her eyelids. "Don't think too much, don't think about other people's things to yourself. If I fail you, I'm sorry for you, and I'll die without a place to bury......"

She reached out to cover his mouth, and he took her hand, and put his cheek against it, and his eyes did not look at her, and he whispered:

"I'm going to confess one thing to you, don't scold me!"

"What's the matter?" "I thought - you were with Broomstar, I thought I had lost you again! I thought you had changed your mind......" he gritted his teeth. "This night is like 10,000 centuries to me!" He looked up at her, and there was a mist in his eyes. "Promise me one thing, Lingshan." "What's the matter?" She asked again. "Never 'go missing', even if it's a few hours, never go missing!"

She hooked his head and neck with her hands, pulled him down, and kissed him actively. After Wei Pengfei left, she really fell asleep, but she slept very unsteadily. She's been having nightmares. All of a sudden, I dreamed that Ah Pei's two hands were cut, and he was covered in blood. He said to himself, "I've done everything wrong, I've done a hundred." All of a sudden, I dreamed that Lu Chao had a knife in his chest, his eyes rolled up, and he was still roaring in his mouth: "Am I guilty?" What do I owe you? Have I ever been sorry for you? All of a sudden, I dreamed that Shao Zhuosheng was holding Ah Pei's body, walked over with straight eyes, and muttered to himself: "She's dead!" She's dead! All of a sudden, it was Ah Qiu who was hugging Lu Chaoxiao again, and asked while laughing: "Why did she commit suicide, and if she couldn't get a man's heart, she committed suicide?" All of a sudden, it was Ah Pei who was dressed in white, standing in front of Wei Pengfei flutteringly, and said: "Manly man, you should be able to put down your feelings, even if you pester me, what are you doing?" All of a sudden, it became Wei Pengfei holding Ah Pei's hand and turned around to go, Wei Pengfei walked and said to her: "Lingshan, what I really love is not you, it's Ah Pei!" ”

Suddenly, the phone rang wildly, and Ling Shan jumped up from the bed like a spring, waking up in shock, covered in cold sweat. At the same time, the voice of Mrs. Liu answering the phone in the living room came into the house faintly: "Who are you?" Shao Zhuosheng? Ling Shan is sleeping......"

Ling Shan grabbed the extension at the head of the bed and immediately shouted into the earpiece:

"Shao Zhuosheng, how's it going? Is she awake? ”

"Yes, Ling Shan," Shao Zhuosheng's voice was choked and indistinct: "You'd better hurry up, she's probably not going to be able to do it......"

Ling Shan dropped the phone, jumped out of bed, rushed straight to the living room, and then rushed out of the door, Mrs. Liu chased after her and shouted: "Ling Shan! Which hospital do you go to? You can leave an address for you......"

Ling Shan had already rushed out of the gate and down the stairs, and was gone without a trace.

When she arrived at the hospital, Ling Shan just ran to the door of the ward, and saw Shao Zhuosheng sitting on a chair at the door of the ward, holding her head with both hands. And the nurses and doctors kept running in and out of the door of the ward, holding bottles, cans and sheets and pillowcases in their hands. Ling Shan's heart sank violently; I'm late! She thought. She's dead! Ah Pei is dead! She walked over, Shao Zhuosheng raised his head, his face was haggard, his chin was full of beard, and his eyes were full of red silk.

"Lingshan!" He shouted, his throat hoarse.

"Is she-dead?" She asked, shuddering. "No, not yet, the doctors just rescued her." Shao Zhuosheng said, looking at her. "Not long ago, she woke up and found herself in the hospital, and found that there were plasma bottles and oxygen cylinders, and she went crazy, yelling at her not to live, not to be rescued, so she ripped off the oxygen tubes, broke the plasma bottles, and many doctors and nurses went in to calm her down. They gave her new plasma and injections. The doctor said that if a person really does not want to live, there is no medicine that can cure her. Her pulse is very weak now, and I think all the doctor can do is stall for time. Ling Shan listened quietly to his account, then pushed open the door of the hospital room and walked in, where Pei was lying on the bed, both hands tied with gauze tied to the wooden shelves, and her legs tied to the mattress to prevent her from breaking the bottle and needle again. She was like a prisoner in a bind, so pitiful, so pitiful. Her eyes were wide open, and she was awake. A nurse is bending over to sweep away pieces of broken glass from the floor. Several nurses are dealing with blood stains from spilled plasma bottles. Ling Shan stood in front of the hospital bed, looking down at her. "Ah Pei." She whispered. Pei's eyelashes flashed, and he looked at her passively.

"Why bother? Ah Pei? She said, sitting on a chair next to the bed, reaching out and touching her immobilized hand. In one situation I will kill myself, I will grieve the person who loves me, I will make him regret it, and if I can't do that, I will not kill myself. ”

Pei's big eyes stared at her in black and white.

"Thank you for telling me this," she began, her voice clear and steady. "I knew he wouldn't care, and when I died, he would only hate me! Hate me for being unproductive, hate me for not being free and easy, hate me for leaving a shadow in his life. ”

"If you know that, why did you do it?" Ling Shan's eyes widened. "I'm not revenge, I'm not angry." She sighed faintly: "I'm just so tired and tired, I really, really don't want to live anymore." ”

"Why?" "Why?" She repeated Ling Shan's words, her eyes like two deep pools. "Why do people live? Do you know why people live? In order to love and be loved, to be valued, to be needed. Men are needed by women, husbands are needed by wives, parents are needed by their children, and politicians are needed by the masses...... People live because of the needs and love of others. I—why do I live? I've got nothing! No one needs me, and no one needs me! ”

"Did you know there's a guy who's taking care of you?"

"You're talking about Broomstar?" She sighed. "He'll have his happiness, I'm just his driftwood. He would have lived well without me, he wasn't the kind of person who had strong feelings! "You need someone with strong feelings?"

"Nope. I have no need, no love, no concern, no desire, nothing. There is no point in my life, not at all! ”

Ling Shan looked at her, her eyes straight and shot forward, through the wall, landing in an unknown place. Her face was expressionless, lifeless, joyless, and purposeless...... Ling Shan shuddered. Really, this is the face of death, this is a face that no longer has the desire to live! For a while, fear and anxiety grabbed her tightly, she really wanted to catch Ah Pei, give her a burst of shaking, wake up her consciousness, shake her desire for life, and wake up her feelings...... However, Ling Shan couldn't shake her, and she, with her eyes closed, seemed to have closed the last window of her life, and didn't want to see the world anymore, and she didn't want to touch the world anymore. "Ah Pei!" Ling Shan shouted. She ignored it. "Ah Pei!" Ling Shan shouted again. She still ignored it. "Ah Pei! Ah Pei! Ah Pei! Ling Shan shouted repeatedly.

She was unmoved. Shao Zhuosheng rushed in, thinking she was dead. A nurse came over and pressed her pulse, opened her eyelids and looked at her, and said to Ling Shan, "She's awake, but she ignores you!" It seems that she really doesn't want to live anymore! ”

Ling Shan looked up at Shao Zhuosheng, pondered for a moment, and she said to Shao Zhuosheng quickly: "You are here to accompany her, I will go back and come immediately!" She flew away. Half an hour later, Ling Shan was back in the hospital room. Quietly in the ward, Shao Zhuosheng fell asleep on the sofa, and a nurse sat by the window, monitoring Pei from afar. Ah Pei was still lying quietly, still with his eyes closed, still expressionless at all, still like a prey of death, still lifeless and lifeless.

Ling Shan sat down on the chair beside the bed, opened a booklet, and like a priest reading a prayer for a dying patient, she read it calmly:

"When I first met Xintong, I was always puzzled by her two eye waves, and I had never seen a girl with more charming eyes than her. Every time she smiled at me, I couldn't give up. The ancients had the so-called eye waves, and her eyes can be deserved, as for 'a smile to fall into the city, and then a smile to fall into the country' is not an exaggeration. ……”

She sat there, reading the "Aitong Miscellaneous" crisply and reverently, one after another. When she reads:

"What time is it? I'd love to be a fool again, as long as Xintong returns! In this life and this life, there will never be a second woman who makes me as tempted as Xintong, never! Because God only created one Xintong, the only one Xintong! ”

Ah Pei couldn't bear it anymore, her eyes opened widely, and she called out in a dumb voice and tears: "Lingshan, what are you reading?" ”

Ling Shan closed the booklet and put the words "Aitong Miscellaneous" on the cover in front of her. Pei's eyes lit up, her face glowed, and she was breathing quickly and excited. Ling Shan lowered her head, put her lips to her ear, and said in a low and clear voice: "Ah Pei, is there really no one in this world who loves you?" Is there really not a little bit of something worth your nostalgia for? Even your daughter - Chu Chu? ”

Ah Pei opened her mouth, and suddenly, she let out a "wow" and cried bitterly. Shao Zhuosheng and the nurse were shocked, they ran to the bedside, only to see Ah Pei crying, and Ling Shan was also teary-stained. Shao Zhuosheng was stunned and said:

"What's wrong! What's wrong! Ling Shan put the booklet in her hand on Ah Pei's chest and said:

"The rest, you can see for yourself!"

Raising her head, she looked at Shao Zhuosheng:

"You're a young man, and this story is too complicated for you. But, I think, she'll live. ”

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