It was a strange night for Ling Shan, it couldn't have been more bizarre, unbelievably bizarre. She, Ah Pei, and Shao Zhuosheng would talk all night in a small apartment.

At first, she helped Pei in the kitchen, she washed the vegetables, cut the vegetables, and Pei put the pot. Shaw Zhuosheng listens to records in the living room, Olivia, Simon and Kafinco, Grey Camber, Tony and Mary Osmond...... It's no wonder he's getting more and more familiar with music and singers. While Pei was cooking, he said:

"I didn't go to the kitchen before, but since I was with Lu Chao, he didn't like to eat restaurants, so I learned to cook, and I could cook a few dishes. In the past, Lu Chao often used to be with his friends, and there was a large group of them, everyone was crazy and noisy, singing, eating and drinking, and I could also make the whole table of dishes by myself. ”

Ling Shan looked at her. Don't know what to say. A paragraph from "Aitong Miscellaneous Notes" came to mind - later, Wei Pengfei handed her the entire Aitong Miscellaneous Notes, and she was also familiar with the bits and pieces of it. That paragraph reads:

Xintong doesn't like to go to the kitchen, she is most afraid of the smell of oil smoke and has a habit of cleanliness. Every time she wore a fluttering dress, turned around slightly in the kitchen, and when she came out, there was always a face full of grievances, she would snuggle up to me and ask repeatedly:

"Do I smell of oil? Do I have a fishy smell? ”

"You are as fragrant as jasmine, chic as a reed flower, and as elegant as a white cloud!"

She smiled. Say, "Don't compliment me, I'll take it all!" ”

I look at her dusty generality, look at her delicate fingers, look at her blowing skin, really like a fairy who does not eat fireworks in the world! From then on, I didn't allow her to go out of the kitchen, for fear that the smell of oil smoke would desecrate her.

"What are you thinking?" Ah Pei asked.

She came to her senses and found that she had pulled a small cabbage into a mess. She looked at Ah Pei, Ah Pei didn't know that there was a "Ai Tong Miscellaneous", if Ah Pei read the "Ai Tong Miscellaneous", I don't know how he would feel?

"You must be weird that I'm going to look for you today, right?" Ah Pei asked, putting the dish out of the pot, the sound of "snorting" almost obscured her words, and her face was half hidden in the smoke from the rush. Ling Shan was surprised to find that even her movements in the kitchen were calm, elegant and wonderful.

"Yes, very unexpectedly." She replied.

"To put it bluntly, it's simple." She skillfully stir-frying, her eyes fixed on the steam in the pot. "On Christmas night, you repeatedly questioned my name, my age. Later, when you were drunk, you said to me: Pei, you can't be the mother of a six-year-old child! "Did I say that?" Ling Shan was stunned.

"Yes, you said it. At that time, you were so drunk that you fell crookedly, but I knew very well in my heart that you and Chu Chu must have something to do with it. I left Shao Zhuosheng's phone number, and I asked Shao Zhuosheng out the next day. ”

Ling Shan looked at the vegetable leaves in her hand and was stunned.

"I haven't seen her in all these years since I left Chuchu. Her father said that unless I went back, I would never be allowed to see Chu Chu. I can't leave Lu Chao, I can only sacrifice Chu Chu, I know that her father will take her well, and I don't have anything to worry about. What's more, she also has grandparents. I was patient not to ask her all about it, and over the years, I had managed to ignore her. I don't even know where they live. I understood that the child must have thought I was dead. My grandparents must have told her that I was dead. She smiled, a mockery in her eyes. They are the kind of people who would rather accept death than betrayal. ”

Ling Shan didn't speak, and in the living room, the interlude "I don't know how to love him" came from the record player.

"I thought that I could easily get rid of my feelings for Chu Chu, and I really did, over the years, I rarely thought of her, I lived a very happy and contented life. Until Christmas Eve, when you said that, I was still indifferent at the time, but later, I became more and more worried and uneasy. The next day, I met Shao Zhuosheng, and I learned that you and the Wei family were neighbors, and I also knew that you were Chu Chu's teacher. ”

Ling Shan thought deeply, quietly looked up at Ah Pei, and thought, do you know anything else? Do you still know my relationship with Wei Pengfei? Did you know that I am not only a neighbor and a teacher, but also a stepmother to my children? Pei served the dishes on a plate, and her misty eyes were thoughtful and unfathomable. She couldn't read her thoughts. "Actually," Pei continued, "now that I know Chu Chu's address and school, I can also go to see her secretly without leaving a trace." However, I feel that it is very unbright and inconvenient to do so. I convinced myself again and again, forget it, just because I didn't have this child, just because I was dead! Because, meeting is not good for me or her. I suppressed and suppressed, and I have been fighting against myself for months. But, today, I can't stay up anymore, I think she's going crazy. She looked directly at Ling Shan. I promise you, I won't give you any trouble, tomorrow at noon, you take her out, we have lunch together, you can tell her, I'm just a friend of yours. I'm not going to expose myself, absolutely not. ”

"You want me to hide this from her father?"

"Yes." "How do you know Chu Chu won't tell her father?"

"Chu Chu said at most, Aunt Liu took me to eat with an Aunt Zhang, just say that my surname is Zhang! Wei Pengfei wouldn't know who this Aunt Zhang was. Chu Chu won't know either. Ling Shan looked at her deeply. Why should I help you? ”

Pei raised his head and looked at her. Apei's dreamy eyes were misty, like two starlight hidden in the fog, flickering but hazy. The curvature of the corners of her mouth is beautiful, and there is a faint smile on her lips, and that smile is like the sunshine hidden in the fog, although beautiful, but desolate. She whispered:

"There's no reason for you to do me a favor, and I can't force you. If I say I'll be grateful to you, I'm afraid—you won't care if I'm grateful or not. But—

Lingshan," she gritted her teeth, tears glistening in her eyes. "My sixth sense tells me that you'll help me." Ling Shan was silent for a moment, just staring at her blankly.

"Good!" She finally made up her mind. "I don't know if I'm doing it right or wrong, or what the consequences will be. I don't know why I promised you, but I promised you. ”

Pei's face shone brightly, and her eyes lit up.

"Then, it's decided, I'll wait for you at the gate of the kindergarten at noon tomorrow!"

"It's better to say a good restaurant, I'll bring her."

"Fule, okay? Or maybe she loves ice cream. ”

"Okay, half-past twelve." Ah Pei looked at her for a long, long time. Finally, with a long exhale, she burst into tears and laughed again. "You are a kind girl, Ling Shan, God will definitely take care of you!"

"Not necessarily!" She whispered. "I haven't figured out yet, I'm a human or a monster!" "What did you say?" Pei was puzzled.

"Nothing." Ling Shan said in disguise, her eyes still resting on Pei's face. "Ah Pei," she couldn't help but speak. "You sacrificed a family and your daughter for Lu Chao, and now, you miss Chu Chu like this, don't you regret it?"

"Regret what? Do you regret choosing Lu Chao? ”

"Yes." She tilted her head sideways and thought for a moment. "When I followed Lu Chao at the beginning, many people said to me that Lu Chao would not be dedicated, Lu Chao is changeable, Lu Chao will leave me one day, and I said: Lu Chao loves me for three days, I am with him for three days, Lu Chao loves me for a year, I have been with him for a year, and now, he has loved me for four years." "But you're not satisfied, are you? You want it to last forever, don't you? Just now you said that if he changed his mind, you would kill him! ”

"Yes, I did." She was distracted in thought. "I've gone mad."

"How?" She was puzzled. "I'm not supposed to be so selfish, am I? However, love is selfish. I'm supposed to be free-flowing, isn't it? Why am I getting less and less free? I guess I did get a little crazy! Lately, I've been having a lot of trouble controlling my thoughts and desires. Or, I'm about to perish. If God wants a man to perish, he must first make him mad! She shook her head, suddenly aware. Let's not talk about this! Tonight, I'm so excited. Let's go, let's eat! Bringing the dishes and chopsticks to the dining room, they had a simple, but "harmonious" dinner. During the dinner, Shao Zhuosheng was very happy, he talked about music, about the choir, and about the breakup of Simon and Kafunco...... Ling Shan never knew that he would be so talkative and understand so many things, and she looked at Shao Zhuosheng with novel eyes. Ah Pei was always patient, listening to Shao Zhuosheng with a smile, and occasionally, adding a sentence or two of exclamation:

"Oh, really?" "Oh, how do you know?" "Wonderful!" With her exclamation, Shao Zhuosheng became more and more energetic the more he spoke.

After the meal, they sat on the floor. Pei hugged a guitar and slowly and absentmindedly plucked the strings. Her long hair half-covered her cheeks, and her clothes fluttered. The wind blows the wind chimes between the windows, and the bells and guitars sound each other, one after another, which has a touching charm. Pei's fingers went up and down flexibly on the strings, and the sound of the piano gradually became obvious, gradually suppressing the sound of the wind chimes. She was playing the song "I don't know how to love him". Ling Shan looked at her fingers and listened to the sound of the guitar, unconsciously excited, and listened to it stupidly. Suddenly, someone was opening the door with a key, and Pei dropped her guitar like an electric shock, and she jumped straight up, her cheeks suddenly lost their blood, and she said in a dumb voice:

"Lu Chao is back!"

Sure enough, the door opened, and Lu walked in with great strides. Seeing Ling Shan and Shao Zhuosheng, he didn't seem to be surprised at all, he nodded casually, and was about to say something, Ah Pei had already pounced on him, wrapped her arms around his neck, and she snuggled her cheeks into his face like crazy. Her eyes were shining, her cheeks were full of brilliance, excitement and joy covered her at once, she laughed and cried, and shouted incoherently: "Lu Chao! Lu Chao! Lu Chao! I know you'll be back! I know! I know! Good luck always follows me! Lu Chao, have you eaten? No, no, you must not have eaten! I'll get something for you! I'll get it right away! You see, you don't shave...... Your shirt is dirty! Are you going to take a bath? Your shirts, trousers, underwear...... I've ironed it all for you, ironed it flat, I know you love to be pretty, you have to be neat and ......"

"Don't mess with me! Don't get stuck with me like that! Lu Chao pulled her arm down, pushed her body away again, and said irritably, "What's wrong with you?" Would you like to be quiet? "Good! Good! Good! Ah Pei said in a loud voice, took a step back, and looked at Lu Chao warmly, as if he was restraining himself with all his strength and not rushing forward again. However, her burning eyes stubbornly stopped on his face with such an irrepressible fanaticism. "What do you want me to do for you?" She trembled with excitement: "Do you want to eat ravioli?" Spring rolls? Oh, I'll give you a glass of wine first! She ran to the wine cabinet. You don't have to bother, I'm leaving soon! Lu Chao said.

Ah Pei stood still, and suddenly turned around, his face as white as paper.

"Y-you're going back tomorrow, okay?" She asked softly, so gently, as soft as wine—full of sweet, thick, mellow intoxication. "Tomorrow. I'll only keep you for one night, okay? Whatever you want to eat, what you want to play, you say, I'll accompany you! Anyway, I'll get you a drink first! She walked back to the wine cabinet.

"I don't want alcohol!" Lu Chao said irritablely.

"Coffee, then?" She raised her eyelashes, her voice full of timidity. "Or—make a cup of tea?" "Don't, don't, don't!" Lu Chao is simple and bright. "I'll get something, take it and go!" Ah Pei's face changed miserably, she was like an arrow, shooting straight to the side of the drum, covering her body in front of the drum, her hand pressed on the drum, her eyes stared at Lu Chao, there was an almost desperate expression on her face, she said in a dumb voice:

"You don't want to take the drum away! Don't you think! If you're going to take the drums, unless you kill me first! Lu Chao looked at her coldly, as if he was measuring the truth of her words. Pei stood there straight, her back straight, the watery tenderness of her body was gone, and her face was filled with a wild, crazy look, like a wounded beast. There was a tense atmosphere in the air, and for a moment, there were four people in the room, and none of them spoke. Only the wind chimes in front of the window are still tinkling, delicate and delicate, ringing in small pieces: like a soft song, like a whisper, like a whisper, like a whisper.

After a while, Lu Chao suddenly laughed.

"Silly thing!" He laughed and scolded: "Did I say I want to take the drum?" ”

The air in the room suddenly relaxed. Pei's eyes lit up, and a smile immediately spread from her lips, and at the same time, tears wet her eyelashes, she rushed over, and threw herself into his arms again, hugging his waist with her arms, her tears wetting his jacket. "Oh, you're so bad! Good or bad! Good or bad! She whispered, enthusiastically, "You're just going to scare me, you're so bad!" You're so scared that I'm fainting, can you believe it? I'm really fainting! Ling Shan looked at her pale marble face and thought to herself, she was not lying, she was really about to faint. Lu Chao's eyes flashed with a look of patience, and he touched Pei's hair perfunctorily with his hand, and said:

"Alright, don't be stupid! You have friends tonight, I'll come back another day, I'm just ......" Ling Shan hurriedly jumped up from the carpet.

"Lu Chao!" Ling Shan said: "You stay, Shao Zhuosheng and I are preparing to leave, we still have something to do!" She threw a look at Shao Zhuosheng: "Let's go!" Calamity! ”

"Don't! No! Lu Chao pushed Ah Pei away and stopped in front of them at once. You talk to Pei, I'm really going to leave soon! He looked back at Ah Pei. I need a little ......" "I got it! Pei said quickly and went into the bedroom.

Lu Chao hesitated for a moment, and then followed up in the bedroom. Ling Shan instinctively looked into the bedroom and saw Lu Chao leaning over and kissing Ah Pei, and Ah Pei was drunk and snuggled in his arms. Ling Shan thought, if you don't leave in this situation, when will you stay? As soon as she walked towards the gate, Lu Chao had already come out. While stuffing a stack of banknotes into his pocket without hesitation, he walked towards the gate.

"Ah Pei, count me as borrowing it from you!" He said, "I'm gone!" ”

Pei Yi reluctantly followed to the door, leaning against the door frame, her eyes looking at him wet. "When will you come again?" She asked, her voice so weak.

"I'll always come back, won't I?" Lu Chao said in a rough voice: "My drum is still here!" Opening the door, he walked away.

Pei leaned against the door and watched him climb the stairs. It was a long time before she closed the door and returned to the living room. Ling Shan looked at her and said:

"I'm gone, too." "No!" Ah Pei stretched out his hand to hold her as if asking for help: "You sit again, sometimes, I'm so afraid of being lonely!" Her tone and her expression made Ling Shan unbearable. She folded back and sat down again in the pile of cushions. Ah Pei poured three glasses of wine, Ling Shan shook her head, she didn't want to get drunk again, especially in Ah Pei's face. Pei was not reluctant, she sat on the floor and picked up her guitar again. She placed her glass on the carpet, took a sip and played the guitar twice, took another sip and played the guitar twice. Tears slowly rolled down her cheeks. "Ah Pei," Shao Zhuosheng suddenly spoke. "Why do you admit death like that? Lu Chao is not the only man in the world. What's so good about Lu Chao? He is willful, he is selfish, he is inattentive to ......" "Broom Star," Pei Zhengse said: "If you want to say bad things about Lu Chao in front of me, then, you better leave my house!" ”

Shao Zhuosheng stopped talking, picked up the wine glass, and he took a big sip silently. looked at Ah Pei silently. Pei lit a cigarette, and she smoked, drank, and played the guitar. The smoke slowly came out of her mouth, and wisps of smoke rose up and spread slowly through the room. Her eyes looked at Ling Shan, shining with a faint light. The wine never stained her cheeks, which were as pale as marble since Lu Chao entered the door. Her fingers tapped the strings, and she said softly:

"Lingshan, what kind of songs do you like to listen to?"

"Lyrical." "Lyrical?" She tilted her head slightly in contemplation, her hair hanging down to her chest. "Lingshan, the word 'love' is not shallow, and China has had too many definitions of love since ancient times. What I appreciate the most is the sentence 'I don't think about it for a day, but I also save my eyebrows'! Ling Shan was stunned, this is Wei Pengfei's sentence on Ah Pei's photo! Is life really a debt owed by a person to a person? Ah Pei stopped talking, she just drank, smoked, and played the guitar. Drinking, smoking, and playing the guitar non-stop. Then, in the middle of the night, Pei played a string of notes and began to sing in a low voice, and when she sang, she was already half drunk. Ling Shan and Shao Zhuosheng left, she hardly knew. She's singing "I don't know how to love him." She sang in a low voice, her voice soft and delicate and sad: "I don't know how to love him,

How can you move him! I've changed, I've really changed, I've changed in the last few days, I've become less like myself, I don't know why I love him,

He's just a man, not my first man......"

As she sang, tears rolled down her cheeks and onto the guitar. Shao Zhuosheng pulled Ling Shan away and whispered:

"She'll drink like this until dawn, let's go!"

Ling Shan slammed into the apartment, and the cool breeze came to her face, cold, rustling, and squeezing. She still has Pei singing in tears in front of her, and Pei's singing voice is still rippling in her ears: "I don't know how to love him,

How can you move him! ”

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