When I woke up, the sun was already red.

Ling Shan was a little in a trance, looked up at the roof, reached out and touched the mattress, everything was familiar and kind, this is her own mattress, this is her own home! What's going on? She searched for her memory, last night, last night and Shao Zhuosheng ate steak and drank wine, and then, they went to the station and vaguely bought two tickets...... Why did you sleep at home? She sat up, her head still a little dizzy, but not great. Yes, it's just some red wine, and red wine shouldn't make you drunk, but if you don't wake up, it doesn't seem to be bad.

There was a knock on the door, and Mrs. Liu pushed the door in.

"What, are you awake?" Mrs. Liu asked. "You're getting drunk! Can you tell me, what's going on with you? ”

"I'm ......" As soon as she opened her mouth, she felt that her tongue and lips were scorched and her throat was dry, and Mrs. Liu handed her a glass of water, and she leaned up. Looking at her mother, she said confusedly, "How could I be at home?" "You came back on your own." "I came back on my own? Alone? ”

"Lao Zhao from the building management room, I sent you up. He said you got out of the taxi, and you were wobbly alone, and he helped you up! Mrs. Liu stared at her. Do you know what you're like when you come home? ”

"How?" She was startled, thinking to herself, she must have had enough foreign appearances, and looked down at her body, which had changed into clean pajamas.

"Rest assured, you're not disheveled." Mrs. Liu saw her thoughts and said immediately. "However, you are holding a ticket to Tainan in your hand, and you keep asking me if the Antarctic has arrived, and you asked me to call Shao Zhuosheng to report that I have arrived safely, what do you mean?"

Ling Shan was stunned for a while, and suddenly, she burst out laughing.

"Haha! Ridiculous ridiculous! Ridiculous! Haha, I bought a ticket to Tainan, and it's ridiculous enough to go to Antarctica, but it's even more ridiculous to get on the train and get on a taxi! The address of Antarctica in my mind is actually my home, which is especially ridiculous! When I returned home, I thought I had arrived at Antarctica, which was the culmination of absurdity! Haha, ridiculous! "You're still laughing!" Mrs. Liu frowned and scolded: "If you don't learn something good from Peng Fei, just learn from him to drink, and you don't have any alcohol, you will get drunk as soon as you drink!" ”

Pengfei, Pengfei, Wei Pengfei, the name is like a sharp knife, slashing through her heart. She took a breath, still smiling.

"My South Pole is not far away in the sky, but at home!" She laughed again, so laughing that she couldn't lift her head. "I will go to the edge of heaven, but I will come back to my house. I'm already a caged bird that only recognizes its own nest! Ha ha! Ridiculous, ridiculous, haha! Mrs. Liu looked at her in astonishment and said:

"Haven't you woken up yet?"

She held up Ling Shan's chin with her hand, this look, she couldn't help but be shocked, although Ling Shan was laughing, but her face was full of tears, she said in a panic: "What's wrong with you?" Lingshan? Didn't you go out with Peng Fei last night? You two had a fight, didn't you? Cuilian! Cuilian! She shouted, "Go next door and find Mr. Wei!" "Don't look for him!" Ling Shan shouted, and suddenly, buried her head in her mother's arms, she began to cry, crying and saying, "Mom, I'm going to Antarctica!" Mother! I'm going to Antarctica! Mom, I'm going to Antarctica! "You're sick!" Mrs. Liu hurriedly reached out and pushed her away, brushing her messy hair away, and went to inspect her face. "You better lie down, I'll ask Cuilian to help you ask for leave!" "Nope! No! She said that when she remembered the school, the children, and the day off yesterday, she rolled over and got out of bed, trying her best to cheer herself up. I'm fine, Mom, I'm going to class! ”

Cuilian came to the door of the room, with a strange expression on her face.

"Madam, Ah Xiang said that after Mr. Wei took Chu Chu and our second lady out yesterday, he hasn't come back yet! Even Chu Chu didn't come back! ”

Mrs. Liu glanced at Ling Shan tightly.

"What the hell is going on? Did you quarrel? Right? ”

"We didn't fight!" She looked at her mother. "Well, even if we quarrel!"

"What do you call it?" "I said even if it is!" Ling Shan's tears rushed into her eyes again, and she shouted loudly, "Why do you have to force me hard? I don't want to talk about it, I don't want to talk about it, okay? "Good, good, good, don't want to talk, don't want to talk." Mrs. Liu hurriedly said, and muttered in a low voice: "I just care about you, it's human nature for the little couple to make trouble, don't take it too seriously!" "Mom!" "Okay, I'll stop talking!" Ling Shan changed her clothes, rushed into the bathroom, washed her face, and rinsed her mouth. In the mirror, there is a haggard, godless, troubled, and melancholy face. Why be so bothered and so depressed? Everything is of your own volition, you go to direct it yourself, you reunite them with the whole family! And now, why are you acting like a victim? Why are you so heartbroken that you feel like you're going to die? You! You fool! You inexplicable bastard! She cursed in the mirror. You! You give away your happiness, you are so generous, you are so great, you are so hateful! You're a-

Brainless people! You don't have a brain, you don't even have a cerebellum! You have no thoughts, no reason, you are only worthy of going to the South Pole with an army, to the Far Antarctic, far away!

The phone in the bedroom rang, followed by Mrs. Liu's joyful, relieved call: "Lingshan! Your phone! She walked out of the bathroom and took the earpiece.

"Hey, Lingshan!" It was Wei Pengfei, and Ling Shan's heart suddenly rose to her throat. "I'll tell you good news......" his voice was excited and cheerful. Ah Pei is out of danger, she can eat, drink and sleep, and the doctor said that she can be discharged from the hospital after a few days of recuperation! Moreover, she is confident in the rest of her life! ”

"Oh," Ling Shan responded, feeling that her head was empty, of course, she didn't have a brain, and her head was naturally empty. She heard her own voice, and there she replied weakly, mechanically, "I had already guessed that she would be fine, so that everyone can rest assured." "Yes." Wei Pengfei said: "I'll tell you, Lingshan, I'm not going home now, I'll go straight to the factory." Chu Chu slept well in the ward, and I dropped her off to class. Everything is fine, you can rest assured. ”

"I—there's nothing to worry about." She whispered.

"What do you say? I can't hear clearly. He's calling.

"Nothing." "I'm on my way to work." Wei Pengfei's voice was full of energy, joy, and emotion. "Ling Shan, there are a lot of things I want to talk to you about, I'll come back from work and talk to you for a long time!" "Okay." She's simple. "Goodbye, Lingshan!" "Goodbye, Pengfei." Ling Shan slowly hung up the earpiece, and when she turned around, she saw Mrs. Liu looking at her with a smile. She understands that her mother must have thought that the young couple had already made peace. She sat down at the desk and sorted out the books and piano scores she needed for class, and Mrs. Liu asked suspiciously, "Didn't you teach the afternoon class today?" ”

"Oh yes." Suddenly, she patted her head with her hand. "I don't have a brain. I'm a little confused. She looked up at her mother: "Dad went to work?" Lingwu went to class? "Of course. I see, you're not awake yet! I'll go get you some breakfast, and after eating, you'll feel better. ”

Mrs. Liu went out. Ling Shan continued to sit at her desk in contemplation. After a long time, she stood up, opened the drawer, collected all the money around her, about 5,000 yuan, put it in her purse, and then put her ID card and teacher ID card into her purse. Then, after pondering for a moment, she resolutely took a piece of letterhead, on which she scribbled:

"Mom and Dad,

I was tired and wanted to go out for a walk, so at school, I troubled my sister to help me substitute for me.

I will contact you anytime, please rest assured that I can take care of myself despite my lack of brains.

Ling Shan"

When she had finished, she drew another piece of paper and wrote:

"Pengfei, Pei:

Congratulations on the family reunion! Don't break the happiness in your hands at will!

Tell Chu Chu: Monsters go on vacation in Antarctica! Brainless youkai leave a note

Separately put two pieces of envelope in two envelopes, one envelope with Liu Siqian's name written on it, and the other with Wei Pengfei's name written on it, and put the envelopes side by side in the drawer. She stood up and fell her head, and for a while, she felt so chic, so comfortable, and so free. I also feel that I am so beautiful, so generous, and so personable - a gentleman has the beauty of an adult! She almost wanted to scream a few times to praise herself! Turning around, she took her purse, walked to the living room, and very calmly, finished the breakfast prepared for her by her mother, and went out under the smiling gaze of Mrs. Liu. In my heart, I have the determination of "a strong man breaking his wrist", and even more "the wind is sluggish and the water is cold, and the strong man will never return once he is gone!" "Heroic, generous, and passionate! Go ahead! Go ahead! A gentleman has the beauty of an adult! Go ahead! Go ahead! Don't spoil someone else's happiness! Go ahead! Go ahead! Heaven and earth are long, is there no place for you?

Calling a taxi, she went straight to Taipei Railway Station.

When she arrived at the train station, she looked up at the names of the places: Keelung, Badu, Qidu, Wudu, Xizhi, Nangang...... Shulin, Shanjia, Yingge, Taoyuan, Neili, Zhongli, Puxin, Yangmei, Fugang, Hukou, Xinfeng...... Zhunan, bridge-building...... How can there be so many place names? How can there be a place called bridge-building? There must be a bridge built all day long! She looked at it again: what Jiuqutang, Liuyuancuo, Return, Linbian, Jiadong, Shangyuan, Zhudong, Jiuzantou...... She was dazzled. Nine praise heads? How can there be a place called Jiuzantou, and the serious point should be called Jiuzantou! She felt that she had nine stupid heads, and besides, the nine stupid heads were spinning around, and they had become nine heads!

She stood there, looking at the various place names, and vaguely understood one thing in her heart, the world is so big, she has nowhere to go!

But even if you have nowhere to go, you have to find a place to go! Or, just go to that nine stupid heads! After studying it again, the nine stupid heads still have to change cars, there is no car to go directly, and I don't know what desolate place it is. Although he is bent on going to a place where there is no one, he is afraid of the place where there is no one! Gritting her teeth, she remembered that just yesterday, Wei Pengfei also proposed to go to Alishan for a vacation, really, born in Taiwan, she has never even been to Alishan! Before you find the "South Pole" by yourself, it is better to go to Alishan to see the sea of clouds, the sunrise, the primeval forest and the sacred tree!

So, she bought a ticket to Chiayi, and that night, she stayed in a hostel in Chiayi, imagining the happiness of Wei Pengfei's family reunion, imagining the scene of the three hugging each other and crying and laughing, and repeatedly said to herself:

"Liu Lingshan, you didn't do anything wrong! Liu Lingshan, you do chic, beautiful, and generous! Liu Lingshan, you can afford to mention it, you can put it down, you are a heroine among women, and you deserve to sing generously for yourself! ”

Early the next morning, she boarded the mountain train and went straight to Alishan.

She looked at the sacred tree, she looked at the forest, she looked at the sister pool, she looked at the museum...... Everyone else is in pairs, talking and laughing, but she is alone, and she is depressed. That night, she lay in the Alishan Hotel, looking at the bright moon in a window and the shadows of the mountains. She is no longer chic, not pretty, not generous, not generous, not comfortable...... She can't lift it, she can't let it go, she doesn't want to be graceful, she doesn't want to sing generously, and she doesn't want to be a heroine among women...... She misses home, thinks about Pengfei, and thinks about the happiness she has thrown away...... She cried until her entire pillow was soaking wet, her eyes were red and swollen, and her liver and intestines were torn apart. She felt that she was not only a "brainless person", but also a "heartbreaker". She cried and cried, crying about her "stupidity", crying about her "smartness", crying about her "generosity", crying about her "small instrument", crying about her "free and easy", crying about her "not free", crying about her "leaving", and crying about her "haunting dreams". She was crying and crying, and all of a sudden, the phone rang at the bedside. She instinctively picked up the phone, still crying and her voice whimpered:

"Hello?" "Lingshan?" It's Wei Pengfei!

With a "click", the earpiece fell on the table. For a while, she couldn't think, and she didn't have consciousness. After a while, she sat up cautiously and stared at the earpiece, how could it be him? How can it be? How did he know she was here? Slowly, she reached over, carefully picked up the earpiece, put it to her ear, and then cautiously asked, "Hey?" The other party was silent, and the phone had hung up.

She gently and slowly put the receiver back on the telephone. She just sat there, staring at the phone motionless. I was half surprised, half delighted, half scared, half expectant, half suspicious...... I waited for the bell to ring again to confirm the sound, but the bell was no longer ringing. She closed her eyes in disappointment, and tears dripped down in strings, what's wrong? Aren't you trying to run away from him? Why are you so crazy and crazy looking forward to the phone ringing?

Someone was knocking on the door, presumably a waiter had come to make the bed. She hurriedly wiped the tears from her face, walked to the door, all her thoughts hung on the phone, and she opened the door absentmindedly. Suddenly, there was a bang in her head, and the blood in her whole body clotted. Outside the door, Wei Pengfei was standing upright, his eyes shining straight into her face. She groaned, her legs limped, and her body trembled. Wei Pengfei pushed the door in, holding a small red cotton jacket in his hand, he closed the door, put the cotton jacket on her shoulder, he was dumb, and said gently: "If you want to go to Alishan in the future, you must remember to bring clothes, the climate here is always like winter!" She fluttered her eyelashes and bit her lip desperately, trying to figure out if it was real. Then, all of a sudden, she felt herself being embraced into a wide, warm, familiar embrace. His voice sounded in her ears warm, painful, pitying, loving: "Fool! What do you want to do? Do you want to be a hero? Is it so easy to take your fiancé for favors? She buried her head in his shoulder, smelling the familiar smell of his coat, and she couldn't stop her tears. She wrapped her arms around his waist, no longer caring about being embarrassed, no longer caring about the North and South Poles, no longer caring about any free and generous, no longer caring about any beautiful and chic, she began to cry, crying like a little baby, crying like a little fool. He told her to cry and just hugged her tightly. It took a while for him to gently push her away, and wiped her eyes and her little red nose with a large handkerchief.

"Have you been crying all night?" He asked. "Your eyes are swollen like walnuts! Feed! He pretended to be brisk: "Brainless little monster, why do you have so many tears?" He was laughing, but his guttural voice was choked.

She rubbed her eyes with her hands, wanted to laugh, and wanted to cry, she looked weird.

He sat down on the couch, pulled her to his side and sat down, wrapped his arms around her, and he stopped laughing. Sincerely, sincerely, reproachfully, and solemnly, he said:

"You promised me never to 'go missing,' even if it was for hours! But you want to go to Antarctica! You're so untrustworthy, you're so cruel, you're scared to me, you—" He gasped heavily, glaring at her, his eyes moistened. "You inexplicable fool! You're really a brainless little monster! ”

"I ...... I ......" she sobbed and said, "Shall I reunite your family!" You...... You've always loved her, haven't you? ”

He shook his head, slowly and slowly.

"The relationship between me and her has long passed. I've told you thousands, hundreds of times, it's long gone. Why don't you believe me? ”

"In the hospital, the three of you hugged each other so affectionately...... she shrugged her nose and wanted to cry again...... Don't worry about me, I'm fine, I'll support the past, I won't be a stumbling block for you......"

"Silly thing!" He cursed, his face flushed. "Don't you know that I love you? Don't you understand that I only have feelings for Xintong and no love? Don't you know that she doesn't love me either? You don't know that our stumbling block is not you at all? Is it that we don't fit each other's personalities? He paused, staring deeply at her. Lingshan, let me tell you clearly, I will never be able to reconcile with her, and marriage cannot be built on sympathy and pity, but on love. When I knew that she was seriously ill and dying, I had to save her in human feelings, morally, emotionally, and in the past history, this feeling is complicated, but it is by no means love! Ling Shan," he frowned, feeling that his words were not enough, and after a while, he said, "I'll tell you in another way." When you told me she was critically ill, I was shocked and panicked. But when I heard that you had run away, I was so heartbroken that I was going to die. ”

"Oh!" She shouted, throwing herself into his arms. "Pengfei, aren't you lying to me, aren't you comforting me?" "Liared to you? Comfort you? He lowered his head, his voice choked and trembling. I don't know how to live without you. I don't think I'm going to kill myself, but I'm going crazy! She looked up at him and exclaimed:

"Pengfei, you can't cry, big men can't cry!" She hugged his head tightly with her hand, shocked and terrified: "I will never go out again, never!" Never! I promise you! Never run away! ”

He hid his face in her hair, tears drenching her strands.

For a while, the two of them snuggled tightly and hugged tightly, the room was so quiet and quiet, they listened to each other's breathing, each other's heartbeat, both of them had a feeling of being lost and regained, as if they were in another world. After a long time, Ling Shan gently pushed him away, stared into his eyes that looked embarrassed by tears, and asked:

"How did you find me?" "Oh." He pulled himself together and sat upright, staring at her. "Yesterday afternoon, I was at work when your mother called me and told me that you had run away. She read both letters to me, and to be honest, I really don't understand your weird words about that Antarctic vacation, brainless monster. However, I panicked at that time. I flew back to Taipei, and on the way, I thought, you might go to the hospital, so I rushed to the hospital first and met your Arctic man......"

"Arctics?" She was puzzled.

"That Shao Zhuosheng." "Why is Shao Zhuosheng in the hospital?"

"He went to the hospital the night before and went to the hospital after breaking up with you. I slept on a chair in the waiting room all the time. ”

"What?" Ling Shan was stunned, and suddenly couldn't help it, so she laughed out loud, and said while laughing: "My South Pole is going home, and his North Pole is going to the hospital!" Wonderful! Wonderful! He actually bought a train ticket to the hospital! Haha, that's great! ”

Seeing that her tears were not dry, she actually burst into tears, Wei Pengfei was moved and bitter, looking at her blankly, he actually came to his senses.

"And then?" "Later, he told me the story of the Antarctic and the North Pole and that brainless man......" He stopped and stared at her: "You refuse to form a sad family with him, and you want me to reunite with Xintong Broken Mirror?" Do you know? The result of the reunion of the broken mirror is also the organization of sad families! She was silent, looking at him with wide eyes.

"I've been talking to the Arctic people for a long time, but I haven't gotten the slightest clue that you're missing, and Xintong is also anxious......" "Ah Pei?" "When I left the hospital, Ah Pei asked me to pass on a few words to you."

"What?" She said, the happiness in your hands, don't pass it on to others! Because it's not necessarily appropriate for others. She said that she would not do stupid things again in this life, because if a person dies once, it is equivalent to being reborn as a human being, not only is it enlightened, but the promise she made in her previous life should be fulfilled in this life! ”

"A promise made in a previous life?" She was suspicious.

"She said you'd understand!" She pondered, and suddenly, a flash of inspiration flashed in her mind, and she remembered the last words that Ah Pei said before fainting after cutting her wrists: "Broom Star, I will marry you in the next life!" "Will it? Will it? Is that the promise? Is this possible? What's impossible? Shao Zhuosheng is excellent and honest, and he is worthy of any woman's life! What's more, God has eyes, and he should give the "Arctic man" a good marriage! She was happy and excited in her heart, her whole face lit up, and she looked at Wei Pengfei with a radiant face: "What happened later?" "Later, I went back to your house and talked about your ticket to Antarctica, I thought, you must go south, so I took Tainan as the center, to Chiayi as the radius to draw a circle, and investigated each hostel, so that at five o'clock this morning, I found out the name of the hostel you stayed in Chiayi last night, I immediately drove to Chiayi, you have moved out of the hostel, but the waiter of the hostel told me......"

"I bought a ticket to Alishan." She sighed lightly and muttered in a low voice, "Fortunately, I didn't go to the nine stupid heads!" "What did you say?" He couldn't hear clearly: "What are the nine heads?" ”

"Leave it alone!" Her eyes were as clear as water. "And then?"

"Later, you took the Zhongxing at 7:40 a.m. and I also went up the mountain on the Guangfu at 2:40 p.m." "So, you just called, you called directly from the hotel?"

"From the room next door to you, I booked the room next door to you."

"How do you always get the house next door to me!" She muttered. "Where did you buy the padded jacket?" "Chiayi, I know you didn't bring clothes!"

"If you know how to buy it for me, why don't you buy one for yourself? And lo and behold! You are dressed so thinly......" The phone rang again suddenly, and Ling Shan looked at Wei Pengfei in surprise.

"Who else is going to call?"

"Your parents' long-distance call!" Wei Pengfei went to answer the phone and added: "I found out your room number, so I called your parents and asked them to call later, and give us some time to talk first!" He picked up the phone and called into the receiver: "Aunt Liu, don't worry, everything is fine!" Uncle Liu, what? …… Impossible! Chromium vanadium steel is an alloy that cannot be separated at all...... Oh good! He handed the earpiece to Ling Shan: "Your dad wants to talk to you!" ”

Ling Shan blinked, raised her eyebrows, pursed her mouth, looked embarrassed, reluctantly picked up the phone, and she called out weakly:

"Dad?" "Ling Shan," Liu Siqian said annoyedly, "You brainless little monster has turned the whole family upside down and annoyed me!" I can't wait to marry you tonight! So as not to break your head! "Daddy!" She blushed and shouted.

"Haha!" Liu Siqian smiled. "You can rest assured that you can play in the mountains for two days, and your sister will go to help you substitute for the lesson. Ling Shan, you're really good at making stories. But, alas! I like you, little monster. "Daddy!" Tears welled up in her eyes again.

"Wait a minute!" Liu Siqian said: "Chu Chu wants to talk to you!" ”

"Chu Chu!" Her heart was pounding, and her eyes looked at Wei Pengfei for help. She's afraid of this child, she's really afraid of this child. Wei Pengfei walked over, put his hand around her shoulder, and put his ear on the earpiece.

"Auntie!" Chu Chu's delicate and delicate voice came: "Where have you been?" My mom said, I you off! Auntie-" She stretched out her voice and said softly, "Don't be angry, I don't know why I want to call you a monster, I ...... I...... I miss you! Aunt! You're gone, and I know how much I miss you! "Chu Chu!" She shouted in a hoarse voice, her nose was out of breath again, and tears rolled in her eyes. "I'll - come back as soon as possible!"

"Auntie, can I sing a song to you?"

"Okay." She said timidly, muttering in her heart again, remembering her "I am most afraid of my father, marry my stepmother!" Children's rhymes.

However, Chu Chu sang softly in that childish voice. It was a song from a long time ago, a wonderful song:

"The moon is hazy, the birds are hazy, and the fireflies are shining in the night sky.

The mountains are hazy, the trees are hazy, and the autumn insects are chirping.

The flowers are hazy, the leaves are hazy, and the evening breeze gently knocks on the curtains.

The lights are dim, the people are hazy, I wish to dream together tonight! ”

She finished singing, and then, in a soft voice, said:

"Auntie, look, I remember the song you sang!"

Ling Shan was speechless, she couldn't say a word. The song she sang when she was put to sleep so long ago, it was rare for her to remember it! She held the earpiece and froze. The other party didn't know when the line had been closed, and she was still holding the earpiece in a daze. Wei Pengfei gently removed the handset from her hand and gently put it back on the telephone. His hand gently wrapped around her from behind, gently embracing her. They were standing in front of the long floor-to-ceiling window. Outside the window, it is when the moon is hazy, the birds are hazy, the mountains are hazy, and the trees are hazy. Inside the window, the lights are dim, the people are hazy, you are hazy, and I am hazy.

They stood quietly, snuggled quietly, quietly hugged a window of moonlight, and quietly listened to the birds. At this point in life, words are already superfluous.

——End of the book——

The first draft was completed in the early morning of September 26, 1976

It was revised on the evening of October 1, 1976

It was amended again on October 21, 1976

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