Chapter 45: I can't help myself
I dragged her up, and when I saw her tearful and sobbing appearance, I couldn't bear to talk about it anymore.
She is so obsessed with the third brother.
She is usually so sharp-toothed, and a domineering person actually cries like this.
"He is the concubine's life-saving benefactor, and in the concubine's heart, he is a hero who stands up to the sky. Niangniang, the concubine really likes General Fu. β
I thought to myself: "Maybe this is gratitude, you are just grateful that he saved your life, are you really in love with him?" β
She nodded desperately, as if desperately to prove that she had mistaken gratitude for gratitude.
"Niangniang, for him, I can be as guarded as jade, and I can wait for him for the rest of my life!"
My heart was shocked, and I asked tentatively, "The night you first entered the palace, you scratched Your Majesty because of this?" β
She sobbed with tears in her eyes: "Yes, I refused to serve at the beginning, so I marked Your Majesty, and then I begged Your Majesty to say that I already had a heart when I got married, since the most important thing is my identity as a Hun princess, it doesn't matter whether I am a waiter or not?" β
"Besides, it is impossible for me and the princess who married the Huns to have children, so it saves a lot of trouble, isn't this right?"
"Even if you don't go to bed, it's impossible for you to meet the third brother privately as a palace concubine?!"
"I know, but I really can't. As long as I can't see him, my heart seems to be cooked with boiling oil, and it is extremely tormented," she squeezed out a bitter smile: "Just look at him and say a few words to him, and all my troubles and emotions will be gone, and I will be happy." β
I shook my head: "In this situation, I can't let you meet again." β
Hearing this, she looked at me with a desperate face and sat there without speaking.
I got up and said ruthlessly, "This is your fate, as a Xiongnu princess, you are carrying this fate. Marrying into the deep palace, there is no choice but to be a good concubine of His Majesty. β
"You can't have love, you can't do what you want, your words and deeds, every move is related to your hometown, your people, your own emotions are a past that you can't trace."
I turned my head to look at her, and I don't know if I was saying it to her, or to myself.
"From the moment you entered the palace, you are no longer He Lin, you are Your Majesty's Ying Jieyu, you just need to live with Ying Jieyu's shell, and you have to forget everything related to He Lin."
This is your life.
This is the life of each and every one of us.
"Calm down for yourself."
Back in the dormitory, I immediately entered a daze mode, Zhiyu saw this, silently retreated, and I was left alone in the room.
I don't really know how to fix it.
He Lin seems to have true feelings for the third brother, presumably when he was in the mountains.
My instinct tells me that if we let it go, something big will happen in the future.
Alas, I rubbed my temples with a lot of headaches, and there was no good solution at the moment but to prevent the two of them from touching again. Perhaps, after not seeing each other for a long time, Herin will be able to forget about the third brother.
Do you want to transfer the third brother back to the north again? At the very least, these two will never see each other for the rest of their lives.
But my mother felt so sorry for the third brother and didn't want him to go, the most important thing was to let him have a family.
Third brother, is he also attracted to Herin? He finally fell in love with a girl, but it was impossible to be together.
Oops, sorrow! It's annoying!
No matter how unbearable I am, no matter how worried I am, they are also doomed to be impossible, long pain is better than short pain, it is better for me to be this wicked person.
I stood up with a bang, walked to the front of the case, and immediately gave my mother a letter of resignation, asking her to find a girl, be sure to put the three blind dates on the agenda, and quickly let him start a family, breaking the thoughts of the two people.
I really can't, I'm going to ask Your Majesty for marriage.
Than halfway through writing, my heart suddenly emptied, my hand was like this, a large piece of paper was leaked, I was depressed and pulled a new piece of paper, this time I hesitated.
What Herin said before was right, he is my own brother, how can the marriage be so hasty? Forcibly put a girl on him that he doesn't like, can he really have a good time?
My marriage is already unwilling, and it has been finalized directly, do I still have to forcibly determine the happiness of the third brother?
I rubbed the barrel of the pen and hesitated for a long time, but finally put down the pen:
Mother Wanfu Jin'an, daughter in the palace, life is very good, thanks to His Majesty's love, there is nothing to worry about, only the remaining four brothers, the third brother has not yet started a family, there are concerns, if the mother has a favorite girl of the right age, the family affairs are also matched, the daughter is willing to ask Your Majesty,
Wedding ......
The pen stopped in mid-air again, I bit my lip fiercely, crumpled the paper in front of me, threw it on the ground in anger, stayed in a decadent state for a while, got up and picked it up, passed it over the candle, threw it in the basin and burned it.
Pick up the pen and write again:
Recently, I heard His Majesty say that he was worried about the border garrison, General Li is old, and the third brother is the one who can take on this great task in the court.
Thinking that my Fu family is loyal to the king, I should share the worries for Your Majesty, and my daughter does not want Your Majesty to be bothered by this matter, so I specially ask my father to make a compromise to Your Majesty, and transfer General Shenwei back to Beiguan, guard the border, and guard our country.
Female, Yue'er kneeled.
I took out an envelope and neatly wrote a few words from my father. When he sealed the letter and was about to apply the fire paint, he hesitated.
The north is bitterly cold, how can I want the third brother to suffer, and it's not good to stay in the capital to be a son-in-law.
hesitated again and again, anyway, everything had to wait until after returning to the capital, and the palace would not change anything if they were blind, they would still meet and wait and see.
Thinking of this, I opened the cabinet, pressed the letter to the bottom, closed it, and locked it, ordering myself not to think about it again.
Still, I looked back at the bookshelf and pulled out the piece of paper between the books.
Unfolded it, looked at it, and gently stroked His Majesty's handwriting.
Spread out the paper, chose another piece of rice paper, and carefully copied His Majesty's words.
When I was about to write his words, time seemed to be quiet, and I thought deeply about all the dots he had on his dot paintings, and when I had a three-point portrait of him, it was like the moment when a lake merged into the ocean.
There is an entanglement and blending between the two words, and when you look at it from a distance, the words on both sides are close to each other in terms of breath, as if the people who write are also much closer to each other.
One after another, I suddenly looked up and it was already waning.
I came in with a different branch of rain and asked if there was any movement on Herin's side.
"Niangniang, there is still no reaction, Jieyu locked herself up all afternoon."
Alas, they are all miserable people.
"Order someone to pass the word, and I will go over tomorrow to eat oranges."
"Mother?"
I smiled bitterly, "I can only say that she is also a person who has a third brother in her heart, there are people in this world who like this stupid melon, there are really a few, with her heart, I will try to take care of her and be nice to her." β
I breathed a long sigh of relief, and I also thought about it, "What's more, in the eyes of others, I am on the same front as her, and I must not ask Concubine Li to bully her." β
"It's too hot, don't put dinner on the table, wait for the sun to go down and walk around with me!"
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In fact, I want to go out for a walk, not only to relax, but also for other reasons.
For example, at this moment, I was looking around, if there was one person like me who was idle and had nothing to do, what was the probability of running into the two of them?
I really can't help but look up to the sky and sigh, for this dead brother, this is exhaustion, and I still have to go on a field trip. I don't know if I'm so worried about my own business.
I didn't find this chance, but I met two old acquaintances.
Am I having some strange constitution? When you go out, there will be adventures.
I crept around behind a peach tree and listened intently to the conversation between the two in front of me.
"You rub it like this, it's not as good as this palace, sometimes this palace asks Your Majesty to go twice, do you think it's okay? lest thou go back and forth in front of the king, and thou shalt not have the Sacred Heart. β
"The concubine didn't understand what Niangniang meant."
Concubine Li walked towards Zhou Cai, and her tone became irritable: "Zhou Zhi, you really don't understand, or are you pretending to be with me here?!" There are not many people in the harem, so you have to think about it if you want a team! β
Zhou Cairen was not threatened by her, although his voice was trembling, but his tone did not fall: "The concubine doesn't know what to stand in line with, the concubine only thinks about serving His Majesty well, the other concubines can't do anything, and they don't want to care, as for Concubine Li's mother, she often brings Her Majesty here, so it's not necessary." β
"The concubine looks at His Majesty's thoughts on the queen's mother, but she doesn't need to take Her Majesty or not, right?"
Why did this get to me for no reason?
Concubine Li was angry: "You mean you're from the queen?!" β
"The concubine said, the concubine doesn't want to stand in any line, the concubine will only serve Your Majesty, Concubine Li, the concubine will retire."
Oh my God, why do you have such a big deal while walking?
It seems that Concubine Li is going to gang up against me, it's so naΓ―ve.
Concubine Li stomped her feet angrily, angrily scolding Zhou Cairen for not knowing how to lift, and the little palace maid behind her stepped forward: "Niangniang, this Zhou Cairen not only didn't listen to your kind advice, but also made sarcastic remarks about you, according to the slave maid, you don't have to give her a good face in the future." β
Concubine Li said fiercely: "She is already Your Majesty, she can play a flute, what else is good?" If you don't come to this palace, what way out can you have? But the palace can't see His Majesty now. β
She tore it fiercely: "What kind of method did you say the queen used to hook Her Majesty into a daze?" Is it the slut of the Huns, what kind of secret skills of the Huns taught her? β
I'm really going to be laughed at by her, Hun Secret Arts?
That's what you can think of.
I saw the angry expression of a hen guarding the cub in Zhiyu's expression again, and seeing that she was about to rush forward to theorize, I grabbed her and made a silent gesture.
I'd like to hear what else she can say.
"Mother, I don't know!"
"Let's go, this is a big court, go back to the palace."
I stayed behind the peach tree for a long time, and there was no sound at all behind it, and then I came out.
This person is really stupid when he is stupid, and he can actually get involved in any Hun secret arts, but Zhou Cairen is quite surprising to me, he looks like he is very easy to bully, but he is a soft character on the outside and strong on the inside.
Zhiyu said hatefully: "The slave maid should have rushed up to arrest her just now, and then see how Concubine Li is rampant?" Relying on his father being General Han, she slandered her mother like this! You said that Your Majesty doesn't care. β
I smiled self-deprecatingly, "How could he care?" What do you want him to punish Concubine Li? Concubine Li said that she was disrespectful to the dead Concubine De, and she was stripped of her title and grounded, and she was disrespectful to me, a living person, but she could only scold. β
I looked up at the sunset and sighed softly, "How can a living man fight a dead man?" β
"Mother's ......"
I smiled and shook my head, "This palace is joking with you, now that I am in the middle palace, if there are no high-ranking concubines in the palace, then the palace is my family." No matter how stupid Concubine Li is, no matter how bad her words and deeds are, Your Majesty will keep her to check and balance me. β
Zhiyu stopped talking.
Alas, in fact, I know in my heart that there is no simple thing in this harem? It's just a pawn that can't help itself.
It's all chess pieces.