Chapter 155: Suppressed Emotions
If she broke in so rashly, maybe she would be driven out directly by Fu Qinglian, she thought like this, she didn't go now, and she didn't go if she didn't go.
She was always at ease in her heart, but she didn't know what to do.
Hua Shenyue thought of this, and then lay on the bed and rolled around, shouting while rolling, her heart was so chaotic that she couldn't calm down at all, when she thought of the thing she had just heard from Chen Shi, Hua Shenyue's mind would have Fu Qinglian's sad expression.
"I don't know what A-Qing is doing now." Hua Shenyue sat up from the bed, looked out the window and muttered to herself, very worried in her heart, wanting to see Fu Qinglian's condition.
Soon after returning from the palace, it was already dark, and the sound of insects outside the window was getting louder. The summer night that was about to end was still a little hot, although the room had been sprinkled with water in advance, it was still a little stuffy, but Hua Shenyue was thinking about Fu Qinglian's affairs, and the heat of the room made her heart even more boring.
When Hua Shenyue thought about this, she really couldn't sleep and sighed, walked out of bed, walked to the window and looked at the scenery outside the window, a breeze blew in her face, and then closed the window, and then pushed the door and walked out of the room.
There's also a bit of wind outside, which makes you feel relaxed, at least not as boring as in the room.
Hua Shenyue walked out of the room and walked wildly, pulling a weed in the east and chasing a firefly in the west, and before she knew it, she walked outside Fu Qinglian's door again. She didn't know what she wanted to do now, she didn't know if she was going to comfort Fu Qinglian? Or instead of comforting him, let him stay quietly by himself, licking his wounds.
Seeing that there was no candlelight in Fu Qinglian's room, Hua Shenyue was a little puzzled, could it be that Fu Qinglian had already slept at this time? Hua Shenyue stood outside Fu Qinglian's room for a while, heard no sound inside, and was about to leave, but when she turned her head, she saw Fu Qinglian standing under the big tree in the corner of the courtyard.
Fu Qinglian raised his head and looked at the flourishing branches and leaves on the tree, Hua Shenyue thought about it, raised his feet and walked over slowly, and gradually approached Fu Qinglian.
"A-Qing, what are you doing here?" Hua Shenyue walked up to Fu Qinglian and stood still, tilted her head sideways and asked softly.
"Come out and blow the wind." Fu Qinglian replied in his original posture, his tone was sullen, Hua Shenyue felt a little uncomfortable when she heard it, she now knew the reason why Fu Qinglian was unhappy, but she couldn't do anything now. There was no way to help Fu Qinglian, and he couldn't even relieve him.
"I'll accompany you." Hua Shenyue looked at Fu Qinglian's side face and said softly.
Fu Qinglian didn't speak, he didn't agree or refuse, Hua Shenyue only thought he agreed, and stood silently beside him to accompany him.
Fu Qinglian still looked up at the big tree in the yard, the branches and leaves could only faintly see the outline in the dark night, but it was only black and white, and there was no other color, but in his eyes, it also had a different flavor.
Hua Shenyue didn't speak, she silently stood with Fu Qinglian, watching the tree blowing the wind with him, as long as she could accompany Fu Qinglian and tell him that he was not alone, it was enough.
"Am I useless, the murderer of the mother concubine is right in front of me, but I can't kill her." Fu Qinglian lowered his head and said sullenly.
"That's not the case, Ah Qing, you didn't kill Empress Dowager Liu because you value brotherhood with the emperor, you are not incapable, but you value love and righteousness, love and hatred are clear, if Concubine Hui Niangniang knows under the spring, she will definitely not blame you."
"However, because of this brotherhood, I let the enemy live well, and I feel sorry for my mother. And my mother is dead, why did Empress Dowager Liu only lose a pair of legs, she is still alive and well, enjoying glory and wealth. Fu Qinglian's voice was low, with a hint of sadness.
Hua Shenyue heard Fu Qinglian's words, her heart ached, she walked behind Fu Qinglian, stretched out her hand to hug him, and said in a low voice: "It's okay, Ah Qing, it's not too late for a gentleman to take revenge for ten years, if you feel sorry for Concubine Hui and can't let go of this matter, then you can do what you think." ”
"As for the emperor's side, you can maintain brotherhood with him regardless of what Empress Dowager Liu did, if you really can't convince yourself, you still want to kill Empress Dowager Liu to avenge Concubine Hui, and your brotherhood with the emperor will not be broken. After all, you have been good brothers for many years, and the brotherhood has long been extraordinary. ”
"As long as you seriously want to maintain brotherhood with the emperor, you will definitely be able to do it."
Fu Qinglian lowered his head, he didn't speak, just felt the warmth of Hua Shenyue's embrace behind him. Since Concubine Hui's death, Fu Qinglian has never felt such a warm embrace.
Fu Qinglian had already made a choice in his heart, and the discomfort and guilt in his heart were slowly put away. Although this matter has always haunted him in his heart, he doesn't know what to choose.
Fortunately, Hua Shenyue was by his side to enlighten him and comfort him, otherwise, Fu Qinglian would probably be uncomfortable for several days. It's just that he won't show it in front of others, because in front of others, he has always been the indifferent Fu Qinglian, who doesn't seem to have any emotions on his face, and he won't feel sad because of other things.
But every time he met Empress Dowager Liu from the palace, he had to think that Empress Dowager Liu was the murderer of his mother. As a result, I felt uncomfortable and couldn't recover my mood for many days.
When he thought of this, Fu Qinglian's eyes had become clear. He raised his hand and took Hua Shenyue's hand around his waist, then turned around and hugged Hua Shenyue into his arms.
Hua Shenyue's breath stagnated, and her mind became blank. She had never done such an intimate act with Fu Qinglian, not to mention that it was Fu Qinglian who took the initiative to hold her in his arms at this moment. However, although Hua Shenyue was a little shy in his heart, he didn't want to push Fu Qinglian's embrace away at all. His arms were warm.
Fu Qinglian hugged Hua Shenyue very tightly, as if as soon as he let go, Hua Shenyue would disappear. Hua Shenyue didn't even dare to come out, just let Fu Qinglian hug her, and the two of them hugged each other so tightly, as if all the suppressed emotions for many days were vented, and there would be no one else in the palace at this time.
Fu Qinglian buried his head in Hua Shenyue's shoulder, the breath he breathed touched the skin of Hua Shenyue's shoulder, Hua Shenyue only felt a little itchy, but she didn't dare to move, she was afraid of making Fu Qingyue's noise, so she endured it silently.
After a long time, Fu Qinglian let go of her, and Hua Shenyue only felt that her arms were empty, and her breathing became smoother.
Hua Shenyue lowered her head, not daring to look at Fu Qinglian's face. This hug tonight was the most intimate gesture they had ever made, and Hua Shenyue blushed a little and felt a little shy in her heart. In fact, she didn't want to let go of Fu Qinglian's embrace at all, but Fu Qinglian had already let go of her embrace, and she had to let go.
After Fu Qinglian let go of his embrace, it was as if nothing had happened, his expression was natural, and he looked down at Hua Shenyue, who was standing in front of him shyly. Looking at Hua Shenyue's shy appearance in front of him, Fu Qinglian's depressed mood seemed to improve, and a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.
Fu Qinglian had almost regained his senses, thinking that although this matter made him sad. But there will always be a way to fix it.
"Okay, it's not early, let's go back and rest." After speaking, Fu Qinglian reached out and touched Hua Shenyue's head, and then walked to his room, he strode to his room, as if he would no longer feel sad because of these things.
"Okay, then I'll go to bed now." Hua Shenyue turned her head and said this weakly and silently, she was still a little embarrassed to raise her eyes to look at Fu Qinglian, so after hearing the sound of him turning away, she slowly raised her head.
watched Fu Qinglian enter the room and close the door. However, she has not yet relented. She was still immersed in the hug she had just given, but she didn't know for a moment whether what had just happened was true or false.
Hua Shenyue was stunned for a while, and then turned around and walked to her room. Back in the room, it was already completely dark, Hua Shenyue lit the candles in the room, sat at the table, and looked in the mirror.
Her face in the mirror was still a little red, and the touch at that time was so real, it shouldn't be fake.
Hua Shenyue touched her face, her face was a little hot, her heart was pounding so fast, as if she was bumping into a deer, Hua Shenyue patted her chest gently, hoping that her heartbeat could recover.
Hua Shenyue sat at the table for a while, her heartbeat finally returned to her previous normal frequency, and her face was not red or hot, so Hua Shenyue extinguished the candle and went to bed.
Hua Shenyue thought that it would be difficult to sleep tonight, tossing and turning. Who knew that she fell asleep soon after lying on the bed, and not only that, but she also slept very sweetly and peacefully.
Because Fu Beixing has not restored Fu Qinglian's power, he continued to give him a few days off. Now, everything has been completed, Fu Qinglian has no other tasks, and Hua Shenyue has nothing to do, so she has become idle.
Hua Shenyue was bored in her room, so she ran out of the room, ready to go to Fangfang to play.
When Hua Shenyue went out to play with Fangfang, she passed by Fu Qinglian's study, but saw that the door of the study was closed. Today, Hua Shenyue wanted to wait by Fu Qinglian's side, but Fu Qinglian said that there was nothing to do at the moment, so let Hua Shenyue rest for a few days.
When Hua Shenyue passed by the study, she glanced at Fu Qinglian's study, then withdrew her gaze and walked towards the courtyard where Fangfang lived.
Hua Shenyue walked to the courtyard of Fangfang's house, came to Fangfang's door, stretched out her hand and knocked on the door.
"Who?" Fangfang's voice came from the room.
"Fangfang, it's me, Shen Yue." Hua Shenyue replied.
As soon as he finished speaking, the door opened. Fang Fang saw Hua Shenyue smile and welcomed Hua Shenyue in, beckoned her to sit down at the table, and reached out to pour her a cup of tea.
Peanut Yue immediately picked up the cup of tea that Fang Fang had poured for her and took a sip.
"Shen Yue, why did you come here suddenly?" Fang Fang put one hand on the table, supported her face, looked at Hua Shenyue who was drinking tea and asked.