Chapter 15: A Real Woman
Zhou Yuanzhi and Chang Yu went to see the Queen Mother.
This is the first time he has met Zhao Ji, as Chang Yu's personal bodyguard, this is his responsibility, his obligation, and his opportunity.
When I saw Zhao Ji for the first time, I didn't think she was beautiful, at least Zhao Ji's appearance was not a beauty in the modern sense, and even compared with Sasha, she had no advantage.
Many people think that only women will compare with men, but in fact, men are the same, and they also like to compare women in their hearts.
Although I didn't find her beauty when I saw Zhao Ji for the first time, when she smiled, her demeanor suddenly became vivid.
Many women don't smile or speak, which makes people feel beautiful, but when they speak, they are like a balloon that has leaked and loses its beauty.
And Zhao Ji is an exception, when she doesn't speak, there is not much difference from other beauties, but as soon as she moves, the palace maid in her body loses her color, he never thought that a woman's smile could be so beautiful, let alone that a woman's beauty can be so beautiful.
Behind this beauty, what kind of rich life experience and perception should there be?
Zhou Yuanzhi looked at her as if she had never seen a woman before.
He found that this woman had too much content to decipher, and he even thought of the ancient beauty Concubine Mi, and also thought of the Zhen family written by Cao Zhi.
The so-called beauty, many people mistakenly think that it is a beauty, in fact, the beauty is talking about appearance, but the beauty expresses an extra layer of connotation, as the so-called "when the waning moon goes out, beauty and tears", a beauty can only be called a beauty if she reaches such a realm, so the real beauty must have content, just like the queen mother.
He originally thought that classical beauty was just from people's imagination of the distant world, but when he first saw Zhao Ji, he could really feel that this beauty was not the imagination of the ancients, but real.
If there is still a kind of beauty in this world that can make people fall, then Zhao Ji's beauty is definitely one of them.
He looked at Zhao Ji in a trance, almost forgetting his identity.
Fortunately, Chang Yu quickly motioned for him to withdraw.
When he walked out the door, he suddenly felt like he had been relieved.
Although he is about the same age as the Queen Mother, in front of her, he is as simple as a child.
And this is perhaps the terrible thing about this beautiful woman.
The more beautiful a woman is, the more terrifying she is.
For women, beauty is a weapon, a weapon that transcends the sword.
Although Chang Yu's swordsmanship is unparalleled in the world and can defeat thousands of strong enemies, in front of her beauty, all swordsmanship is like a void, and it will break without attacking.
I saw the Queen Mother move slightly, and said to him with a smile: "Sister, why are you staying so far away, come forward and get closer"
"Yes, Queen Mother"
Chang Yu also felt the pressure of this beauty, but she had to follow her words and walk closer.
He first smelled an aroma that he had never smelled before.
Even though he almost stopped breathing, the aroma still hit him.
He knew that she was the woman of the Duke of Lü, and after the death of King Zhuangxiang, he had waited for them outside the door for countless nights.
He never imagined that he would have the opportunity to be with this beautiful woman in person, listening to her voice, smelling her breathing, and even making eye contact with her, and now, everything was so real.
The Queen Mother held his hand, as if holding her son's hand, making Chang Yu feel that she had some kind of home, no longer the terrifying killer, let alone a homeless wanderer.
At this time, Chang Yu suddenly felt that all the portraits between heaven and earth seemed to be static at this moment, no longer flowing.
As a man, he knows what she needs, and as a woman, she knows what she needs? And he is the one who has both of these characteristics.
He looked up at her, and suddenly understood her desires, and also her richness.
He understands her, even more than himself.
This kind of understanding can not be expressed in words and words, sometimes a look or a subtle movement can resonate or ripple in the other person's heart.
After many people understand each other, they are accustomed to it, and then it turns into plainness, and finally into family affection, and there is no longer the passion when they don't understand, and even alienate each other.
But such a situation does not exist between them, and the more they understand each other, the more they feel the richness of each other, as if they can never dig up a treasure.
Until today, the Queen Mother knows that the person who can really make herself happy is not King Zhuangxiang, because as the king of Qin, he has too many choices, although they have survived hardships together, however, hardships do not allow them to truly understand each other.
Of course, it was not Lü Buwei, because he preferred power, and his desire for power far exceeded his desire for her.
In Lü Buwei's eyes, she is just a plaything that can be given away, although she also firmly believes that the person she loves the most is Lü Buwei, but no matter how hard she tries, she can't change the fate of the plaything.
The person in front of her not only understands her own needs, but also explores the secrets in her heart.
It was he who made her understand herself better.
Only in front of him is she her true self.
It is only by his side that she feels extremely satisfied.
Because only he really knows what he needs.
It would be nice if time could stop completely at this moment.
It's just that happiness is fleeting, and the time of real happiness always passes quickly, which may be one of the reasons why people call it happy.
Although they still need time, it does not stop there.
If time can stop at this moment, she would rather be Zhao Ji herself than the queen mother.
It's just that what should go still has to go, and what should leave still needs to leave, and time has never stopped because of anyone.
When Chang Yu was about to leave, she told him, "I've never been so young."
Chang Yu looked at her, as if she was looking at another self in her eyes, and said with a smile: "I find that I have grown up"
Yes, since he was sixteen years old, when he discovered that he was able to make a female voice, he had not dared to face this trait of himself, and for countless long nights he would often blame himself deeply for the injustice of fate.
As a man, he has a reason to have low self-esteem, although this inferiority complex is only from the torture of the depths of his heart, and it is not usually manifested, but whenever he is alone in the dead of night, this inferiority complex will follow.
He once thought that he would not be able to get rid of this inferiority complex no matter what.
Although he is high, he prefers to live alone, although he has someone he likes, but he has never dared to try.
He was afraid that he would not be able to face the other party, but his heart could not face himself.
He knows that there are some things that can go on without breaking them, and once they are broken, they will either go to destruction or be out of control.
For so many years, he had been living in the shadow of this apprehension, and had never seen the real sun.
Until today, he has the opportunity to be with the Queen Mother, and she is like Yang Chun, illuminating the darkness in his heart and giving him a glimpse of his true self.
If he can only have one confidant in life, then he would like this person to be Zhao Ji, whether she is the queen mother or not.
Although Lu Gong arranged for him to come here initially just to balance the forces of all parties in the political arena, he was surprised to find that in this place, from this woman, he not only got the best woman, but also was able to find his true self.
He even fully understood why Yiren dared to risk his life to ask Lu Gong for Zhao Ji in the first place.
Thinking about it from another perspective, if he was in the position of Yiren at that time, would he have the courage to ask Zhao Ji?
Of course, if you have a confidant in life, why be afraid of death, let alone a beauty like Zhao Ji, even if she lets herself give everything she has, she will not hesitate, because there are too many people, even if they live for a hundred years, they may not be able to have such an opportunity.
And I unexpectedly encountered such an opportunity, is this just a kind of luck?
No, it's more of a fate.
He even thought that this was not just luck or fate, but love.
He walked out of the door, although he was a little reluctant, but he still had to leave when he should leave, not to mention that this kind of departure was for a better reunion.
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As a bodyguard, Zhou Yuanzhi was still on standby at the door, and when Chang Yu went out, he was looking into the distance, as if he was still thinking about something.
But Chang Yu didn't care, because now he is no longer the same as he was this morning, and it is hard to imagine that a person has completely become another person in half a day.
Although it may not be seen on the surface, in reality, his heart has changed dramatically.
He is no longer the original Chang Yu, but the real self.
They walked back along the road, without saying a word.
It's just that everyone's heart is completely different from the morning.
Chang Yu wanted to ask him what he thought of the Queen Mother, but in the end he didn't ask.
Because he already has the answer.
Women like Zhao Ji not only like themselves, but also all men, and Wang Yishi is no exception.