"What happened to me was very simple, I didn't jump into the river at all." She looked back from the window and said quietly, there was a fog floating in front of her, everything that night was as it was now, the rain, the wind, the waterlogged road, the whistling pine forest, the rushing rapids, the crumbling bridge...... She leaned against the window and stared intently at the wall lamp. Reminiscing about the past pains her and makes her sad.

"How?" Gao Lide asked. "The broken bridge, and that trench coat, you don't seem to have a second possibility! And, didn't you go jumping into the river? ”

"Yes, I'm going to jump into the river." She said contemplatively: "I didn't have any consciousness at that time, I just wanted to die, I just wanted to end myself, the sooner the better." At that time, death was not at all terrible to me, but it was a breeding ground, and I waited for it to greet me and take me to a permanent, obsessive, ignorant realm. In this way, I walked from the waterlogged road to the Songzhu Bridge, and when I reached the bridge, I froze. I've never heard such a loud sound of water, and I say listen, because it was so dark that I could only see a dark surface of the water, reflecting a little light. And the bridge, moaning and struggling in the water, with the sound of branches and trees breaking, I thought, the bridge is going to break, it's about to break, or it's already broken. Because I can't see what the bridge is really like? ”

She took a sip of tea and walked back to the couch, where Gao Lide looked at her deeply. Bai Peiwen listened to her with a little nervousness, and thick smoke kept coming out of his nostrils.

"I stood by the bridge for a while." She sat down and continued. "I didn't do anything, just listened to the sound of the running water, and I thought vaguely that I was going to walk up the bridge and jump off it, but I heard the bridge breaking again. So, I thought, the bridge is broken. Sure enough, there was a loud cracking sound, mixed with the sound of toppling, and I walked up the bridge in the midst of these sounds. I was going to walk step by step, until I reached the break of the bridge, and then I would fall into the water. And so, I walked, step by step, and the bridge shook under my feet, and every piece of wood rattled, and with each step, I thought, the next step must be empty, but the bottom is still real. Then, when a gust of wind came, I could not stand, I threw myself on the railing, and immediately there was a great cracking sound of the bridge, and I got up, and found that my clothes were hooked, and I abandoned the clothes, and went on, and I was anxious to fall into the water, but, after a few steps, I found that the place where my feet touched was no longer planks, but dirt, and I had crossed the bridge safely, and had not fallen into the water. I was so stunned, so surprised, and so disappointed, at this moment, a loud bang made me jump up, and the bridge was really broken. She moistened her lips, her thoughts sinking deep into the bottom of her memory.

"I must have been there for a few minutes, I thought, and then I turned back and walked back onto the bridge, and this time, I thought, even if the bridge was still broken, I would jump in the middle of it. I strode and stepped onto the plank, but I was suddenly stunned. Faintly, I seemed to hear a voice, out of nowhere, subtle, clear, and powerful ringing in my ears:

"'Don't go again! Don't go again! You have crossed that bridge of suffering, don't look back! Go ahead, you are still young, and you still have a lot of good life! Don't end up with yourself! Think again! Think again! ’

"I really stood still and really started thinking! Ever since I walked out of Smoky Heights, I couldn't think, but now, the gears of my thoughts were spinning fast. I actually crossed this bridge, is this God's will? Who can say that there is not a supreme power in this mysterious, vast and boundless universe? I raised my head to the sky, and the rain was pouring down on my face, cold and cold. So, suddenly, I felt that my heart was empty, my troubles were gone, and a new me, a new me, a new me, had metamorphosed! I have crossed this bridge of death, so I have also been reincarnated, reborn, I am no longer the weak, obedient, forever succumbed to fate Zhang Hanyan! I listened to the rushing of the river, I listened to the cry of the rapids, I clenched my fists and said to the flowing water:

"'Chapter with smoke! Chapter smoke! From now on, you are drowned! You die under this bridge! As for me? I'm someone else! I still have to live well! Go and create a new world! Turning around, I strode towards Taipei.

She paused, letting out a long breath softly. Bai Peiwen sat motionless. A large amount of cigarette ash fell on his clothes, and he forgot to smoke it for a long time. At this moment, he raised his head, his face facing upward, his godless eyes staring blankly, but his whole face shone with a grateful, pious brilliance. "Two hours later, I arrived in Taipei, a lone woman, I didn't dare to go to the hostel, at that time, it was not far from dawn. I arrived at the train station and waited until dawn in the waiting room. At this time, I realized that I was lucky, because I brought out a handbag with more than 1,000 yuan in cash and my documents. So, at about eight o'clock in the morning, I took the first morning train south, all the way to Kaohsiung. At that time, I didn't know what I was going to do in Kaohsiung, but I thought it would be better to run farther away lest you find me, and I hope that you will all think that I am drowning, because I never want to go back to Smoky Heights. "The first thing I did when I arrived in Kaohsiung was to buy a new set of clothes, then I found a small hostel, took a good shower, and slept a lot. When I woke up, I re-evaluated the situation in front of me, more than 1,000 yuan was not enough for me to last a few days, I had to find a job, and at the same time, rent a humble house. So, I immediately rented a house, and since I couldn't find a good job for a while, I went to work as a clerk in a haberdashery store in Qianjin District. Bai Peiwen sighed. His countenance was distorted by pity, by guilt, by compassion. "I had only been working as a clerk for three days when an accident came to an end. One day, a young girl came to buy something, and I was surprised to find that she was my best friend from high school, and we haven't heard from each other since we graduated from high school. We were both excited about that reunion, her home was near the store, and I stayed with her that night, and we talked all night. I didn't tell her my story, I just said that I had a new accident, a very sad thing. I was still pale and emaciated. She sympathized with me, so she urged me not to be a clerk and to stay at her house for the time being. I also said yes in a sense of necessity. "At that time, she was going through the procedures for going abroad, and she asked me if I would like to try it together, and at that time, I could go abroad after graduating from high school. I said that there was no travel expense, and it would be useless to do it, but she persuaded me to apply to the school first, and the result, to my surprise, I did. My classmate also applied, and strongly persuaded me to find a way to go abroad, first, to change the environment, so that I can forget all the vicissitudes of the past, and second, to learn some new things and enrich myself. Thirdly, this is a new beginning, and you can be a new person from now on! I was also eager to try, but I didn't have the money to travel, and I didn't have a security deposit, but, like a flash of inspiration, I saw the ring on my hand...... Ahem," she muttered, looking at Perrivan. "A three-carat diamond ring! This diamond ring actually helped me cross the sea and fly straight to another world! So, when you look for me in the ballroom, I'm already in the U.S. university in the Department of Education. ”

Bai Peiwen sat up straight, a touched look made his face shine, and his voice was low and gentle: "God has its arrangement, everything is fair." He sighed. You start another life, and I, but I'm stuck in a dark hell, it's retribution, isn't it? Fang Si was silent, her tiny teeth biting her lip, and her eyes stopped on Bai Peiwen's face with deep and research. Gao Lide extinguished the cigarette butt in his hand, looked at Fang Siying, and asked dizzily, "What happened later?" What made you return to China? ”

"After I finished college, I went to graduate school, specializing in children's education, and after I got my master's degree, I went to teach in a small city in the west, where I was the only Chinese, and I taught for five years. Whenever I look at those children, I think of Tingting, and I can't stop speculating about how tall she is, how she looks, what her life is, and this longing has increased over time. Moreover, at this time, an American named Ali was pursuing me with all his might, and finally, I finally agreed to Ali's marriage proposal. Bai Peiwen shook, his face looked a little pale, and his breathing was a little short. Since I came to the United States, I changed my Chinese name to Fang Siying, I hate Zhang Hanyan's name, and Zhang is not my real surname, it is my adoptive father's surname, he has long terminated my adoption, I changed my surname back to Siying. In fact, in the United States, I use English names. After I got engaged to Ali, I missed Tingting even more, so I decided to return to China.

"It just so happened that I had three weeks off at that time, and I told Yali that I had to go back to Taiwan to see, in my mind, I just had to find a way to take a look at Tingting, and if she was doing well, I could marry Yali with peace of mind. He only thought I was homesick, and he agreed to let me go back to China, and we agreed to get married when I returned to the United States, so in May, I returned to Taiwan.

"That's why I ended up in the ruins of Smoky Hills that May afternoon, I didn't know that the villa was in ruins, and I didn't know about Peiwen's blindness, I just wanted to wander around the villa and look for a chance to peek at the pavilions. When I got there, I ran into Pei Wen, and at the same time, I found that you were blind. In my hurry, I hid my true colors, and I believe that after such a long period of time, and so many years abroad, you will no longer recognize my voice. "You're wrong," said Perrien. While your voice does change a lot, it's still impossible for you to wish I didn't recognize it at all. It's just that at that time, I had already decided that Hanyan was dead, so I was only stunned for a moment, and you said that it was so impossible that it was Yanyan, so I thought it was my hallucination. ”

"Well, anyway, I actually saw Tingting that day!" Fang Siying continued: "You can't imagine my vibration, the first time I saw that child, I was completely devastated! All the motherly, strongest feelings were restored to my chest and to my veins! She was so thin, so immature, so beautiful, and so pitiful! I couldn't control myself anymore, I saw a child who had lost his mother and lacked care! In that moment, I decided, I was going to stay, I was going to stay with my child, to take care of her, to protect her!

"In the next few days, I inquired about many things about your house, and I knew that the old servants of your house were no longer there, and that there were even new people in the factory, and that I knew that Lide had also left, and I was no longer afraid that anyone in the neighborhood would recognize me, because I used to smoke and was kept at home all day, and no one in the town knew me. So, I boldly stayed and found a position as a teacher with a righteous heart. However, for fear that someone would see my photos, I still changed my clothes and groomed and put on a pair of glasses. "Actually, it's useless," Gao Lide said, "Clothing and time can't change you, you are still beautiful, but you seem firm, mature, and courageous!" "In fact, you know, I'm not a smoker anymore!" Fang Siying said, staring at Gao Lide fixedly. "That smoke has long since drowned! Because of this self-confidence, I dared to walk into the door of the Bai family and come to be Tingting's tutor! ”

"But the first night you came here to eat, I had that feeling," said Mr. Perrien, who seemed excited again. "I think you're like a cigarette, and I strongly feel that Smoke is back, that's why I'm so eager to fight for you! Arrange that room exactly like the original one, and come and spy on you! I have not planted roses since the burning of Smoky Hills, and I am afraid that the smell of the flowers will make me sad, but for your sake I have commanded them to prepare a bottle of yellow roses. You see, I'm not ignorant! However, you run away too quickly! Every time I'm going to spy on you, you're out of the way! Hey, Hanyan, you've made me grope in the dark for so long! "You've been suspicious for a long time?" "Yes! I deepened my doubts day by day, and I began to think that smoking is not necessarily dead! We never fished out the body, so on that basis can we conclude that she is dead? So, my confidence became stronger and stronger, and Lao You said......"

"Old You?" She was stunned. "Yes, Lao You! You don't know him, but he saw you ten years ago, he was a truck driver who drove tea for the factory, and he saw you when you were in the factory. However, in the end, it has been more than ten years, and he can't say for sure, but, according to his many accounts and descriptions, it makes me believe even more that you are smoke, so ......"

"Oh, it turns out that Lao You is your secret agent!" Fang Siying suddenly said: "No wonder he always looks at me with such strange eyes!" ”

"Don't blame him," said Perrique, "and he is very respectful to you!" He thinks you're the most perfect woman! In fact, as soon as you walk into the Bai family, you have already become a hostess, and Yazhu also worships you! ”

"Mistress!" Fang Siying sneered: "I'm not rare! ”

"I know," said Perrivian eagerly, and the anxious look came to his face again. "It's not that you're rare, it's me who is rare!"

"Yes?" She said coldly: "This is a common disease of human beings, what is lost is often the best, and if you get it, you don't know how to cherish it!" ”

"Try again, okay?" He asked urgently.

"I said so, no!" She stared at him, and suddenly remembered one more thing, "Tell me one more thing, did you know that you caught me in the ruins of Smoky Heights that night?" "Oh!" He was a little confused, a little confused. "I can't say for sure, but I hope it's you, and I hope you're smoky!"

"You've used a bit of a trick, I think. When will you be able to tell if I'm a smoker? "When I woke up from my coma and found you sleeping in a chaise longue, and Lao You told me that when you came back last night, you had dropped a rose, including a rose from Smoke Heights! At that time, I knew that all the before and after situations were chained, and I knew: Fang Siying is Zhang Hanyan! ”

"So, what else are you going to call Lide for?"

"Prevent you from escaping! You're going to run away, I know! And I'm not 100% sure! "Alright, now, you've debunked me." Fang Siying said in a firm, cold tone: "On the first day I lived here, I made a decision, I will not be recognized, if I am recognized one day, it will be the day I leave!" "Smoky!" Bai Peiwen's face turned pale again. "As I said, I don't dare to ask for your forgiveness, but for Tingting's sake!"

"Tingting?" She stood up and walked to the window. "You're going to take out the pavilion and make a weapon!" Her voice was filled with resentment. "You don't love her, you don't pity her, you forced me to stay here, and now, you want to use her as a weapon to tie me down!"

"No, smoke!" "I'm not smoking!" "Yes, Siying," he said, "I love that child, but she needs her mother even more!" Fang Siying closed her eyes, she felt dizzy again, Bai Peiwen's words hit her key point, and attacked her weakest link! Tingting! Tingting! Tingting! How could she bear to leave? How could you bear to leave that poor child? No matter how hard her mouth is, how weak her heart is! In fact, she was willing to trade the whole world for the right to be with that child! She couldn't tolerate being separated from that child, she couldn't tolerate it at all! Holding the frame of the floor-to-ceiling window with her hand, she leaned her forehead on the back of her hand, her eyes closed, full of angina, and cold sweat on her forehead. What will happen to her? What the hell is going to happen to her? A hand gently rested on her shoulder, she was startled, and turned around, it was Gao Lide. He looked at her with a pair of gentle and understanding eyes, and said in a low voice:

"Stay! Smoke! Whatever conditions you put forward, I think Pei Wen will agree to you. The main thing is, don't separate your mother and daughter again! ”

"Yes," said Pei Wen anxiously, and he also walked to the window, his face full of anxious pleading. "As long as you stay, you can put forward whatever conditions you want!"

"Really?" She groaned.

"Yes!" Bai Peiwen said resolutely.

"You won't go back? You won't break the agreement? ”

"Nope! You bring it up! ”

"Then, the first point, I'm Fang Siying, not Smoke, you are not allowed to call me Smoke! I'm still Tingting's tutor! ”

"Yes!" "Second, you must never violate me! Don't show love either! ”

"Smoke......" he shouted.

"How? Can't do it? She raised her voice.

"No, no!" He said immediately, gritting his teeth. "Good! I promise you, what more? ”

"The fact that I'm Smokey is just a secret between the three of us, and you must never leak it to anyone again! I want everything to stay the way it is! ”

"Yes!" "And," Smoke bit his lip.

"How?" Bai Peiwen asked.

"You must make peace with Erin!"

"What?" He was taken aback.

"You must make peace with Erin!" Fang Siying repeated. "She's your wife, and as long as you don't have a smoked ghost in your heart, you can get along well! In fact, she loves you very much! "You're a strong man!" He protested: "This is too much! Smoke! ”

"And voila! It's going to be taboo right away! ”

"Oh, Silk Linger," he said, anxious and irritated. "Except for this last one, I can promise you everything else!" "Can't get rid of it! You have to work hard to reconcile with her, I will watch you, otherwise, I will leave at any time! "Silk Linger, please ......" "No!" She's unequivocal.

"Oh!" He said hesitantly, with beads of sweat on his forehead, and finally, he crossed his heart, shook his head and said, "Okay! I'll promise you! ”

Fang Siying exhaled softly, and suddenly felt so tired and tired. There was silence in the room, and the conversation that night had been so long! She looked weakly out of the window, and in the distance, the first rays of dawn had already appeared.