Ganwu is dead.

The screams of the old city pierced the sky.

She panicked and ran back to the liquor store to wake up the others.

Ganwu was suicidal.

There was not a trace of pain on her face, her eyes were closed, and her hands were on her neck—strangled herself.

Everyone carried Ganwu's body to the lobby of the wine shop, and no one could react for a while.

"Ganwu her, dead?"

After a suffocating silence, Ruan Yuluo spoke in a trembling voice in some disbelief.

Haitang sighed: "Girl, you go to Ganwu's room to look for it." ”

Xiao Yue didn't say much when she heard this, and immediately got up and went upstairs.

Old Cheng looked at Haitang and Ruan Whale Luo, and said word by word: "She must have something on her mind that she didn't tell us." ”

Begonia looked at the old city, and the latter seemed to have a faint trace of chagrin.

"It's come to this, and there's nothing we can do." Begonia said slowly.

Ruan Whale Luo finally relented: "Then, have our efforts for so long been in vain?" Yesterday, I was still glad that Ganwu had finally escaped from the quagmire and could live a new life - but who knows...... I said hi to her before I went to bed last night......"

After Ruan Yuluo finished speaking, he sobbed lowly.

There was silence in the lobby for a moment.

"Brother, I found this." Xiao Yue broke the silence, she ran down the stairs with a note in her hand.

Ladies and gentlemen:

Thank you for taking care of me these days.

Maybe by the time you see this note, I'm dead.

That's right, after all I have been through, I still choose to die.

I don't want to pretend anymore.

Actually, I've always hated you.

I hate your lofty attitude; disgusted with Ruan Whale Luo, your pretense; Disgusted with begonias, your posture; I am even more disgusted with the bad habit of looking down on people in the old city.

You may pity me, but I'm sorry, I don't need anyone's pity.

If there really is someone in the world who can be redeemed because of the pity of others, then this person must be a naïve fool living in a fairy tale.

It's a pity I'm not.

Do you know what I went through on my way to Hangzhou?

I've seen too many cruel, bloody, heinous scenes.

I used to yearn for the world outside the village, because in the stories my father brought me, the outside world is always so wonderful, even if there is sadness, it is sweet.

In fact, I should have known that this world was not beautiful when Zhang Wan'er's house was burned down - but I didn't.

When I actually set foot on the road to Hangzhou, although I was sad and afraid of leaving my father and mother in my heart, I still vaguely retained an ignorant curiosity in my heart.

I didn't go far before I was met by robbers, who robbed me of my coils, and I had no money to hurry.

One woman told me that she could provide me with a way to earn money.

I didn't know what it was, but I naively chose to believe her.

So, I sold my body like this.

I tried to settle accounts with the woman, but I was punched and kicked by a group of people, I fainted, and when I woke up, I was sleeping in a mountain forest. I had a money bag and a note that said, "Do it yourself."

I knew it was the money the woman gave me to sell myself.

I went to the government, but no one paid attention to me, and I couldn't even enter the gate of the government. I had no choice but to keep going. Since then, I haven't trusted anyone.

The woman didn't give me much money, and I didn't know what to do.

I've been away from my hometown for two or three months, but I'm still a long way from Hangzhou.

My clothes were torn and dirty, and I hadn't bathed for a long time, and no one took me to work.

I went to the river to wash my body, and with what money I had left, I bought a dress, and in desperation, I had no choice but to sell my body again.

I could feel the men's heavy, sloppy breathing, and their disgusting smell.

I'm like a brute, a brute to be slaughtered.

As I was leaving, the man threw a handful of money tickets in my face, and I suddenly felt a wave of nausea.

I threw it up, then picked up the money ticket and continued on my way.

That's how I've come all the way.

I have seen so much of the dark side of human nature, many people who look glamorous and kind on the surface, but secretly they are a beast in clothes.

They treated me like a toy for their desires, and I saw some ugly scenes with some of them, and their shady habits and ways of doing things in private were disgusting. I loathe them.

finally arrived in Hangzhou, but the uncle no longer lived here.

My only hope was gone.

A lady who sold baked cakes saw that I was so pitiful, so she helped me build a straw hut on the outskirts of the city.

But after all I have experienced, I know that everything everyone does must have a purpose. No one is truly selfless in helping others.

I don't trust my aunt, but I'm overwhelmed, tired, tired.

I don't want to think about what I have or don't.

I just fell asleep.

I think my first amnesia was around this time. When I woke up, I forgot everything that happened in the past, I only remember that I came to Hangzhou to join my relatives and my relatives are no longer here, but fortunately a kind person helped me to build such a straw hut as my shelter.

I entered the city, and I met the lady again in the city.

In the days that followed, I followed my aunt to sell biscuits.

But the good times didn't last long, and he was knocked unconscious on the way home that day, and when he woke up again, he was already in the darkroom.

After escaping, I forgot about the darkroom again.

And you know what happened after that.

So, I don't trust you, because you can't help me just out of kindness.

When I see your coquettish behavior, the more plain and kind I behave towards you, the more disgusted I feel in my heart.

Maybe you really want to help me, but so what?

The people who are close to me have always had their own goals for me, so I can't accept the kindness of others.

And your actions are more like a charity to the lowly.

Didn't you say that this liquor shop can fulfill all the most pressing desires of anyone's heart?

My wish is simple.

I want to erase everything I hate.

But I am disgusted with my father and mother who forced me to come to Hangzhou, I am disgusted with everything I saw along the way, I am disgusted with my aunt, I am disgusted with the people who imprisoned me, I am disgusted with you - I should say, I am disgusted with everything.

How can you make my wish come true?

I tried to overcome it, but it was only at this moment that I realized that I hated myself the most.

Without your help, if it were to wipe out what I hated the most, I could do it myself.

By the way, the man who imprisoned me had a tall, thin man and a feminine voice.

Even at this point, I still can't force myself to write a "thank you" to you, so I'll use the above sentence......

I know that people like me can never feel true kindness - but you know, people like me are definitely far more than me, just like that Zhang Wan'er, she must be like me, that's why I dream of her.

So, so be it, I'm going to fulfill my most urgent desire.

After reading the last trace left by Ganwu in this world, the atmosphere in the lobby was a little depressing.

"Ganwu, she has always lived in such a world......" Ruan Whale Luo couldn't help crying again.

Xiao Yue hugged Ruan Whale Luo and comforted: "Actually, for her...... Rather than living with a disgust for the world, such a choice is also a relief, isn't it? ”

Old Cheng clutched the piece of paper tightly in his hand, gritted his teeth, and walked out of the lobby step by step.

"Let's build a home for Ganwu." Begonia sighed softly and said.

Following.

Ganwu was buried outside the courtyard wall of the backyard by Begonia and others, a location required by the old city, she said that she was the first person to know Ganwu, but for so long, she can be said to be the most obtuse one.

"If I had found out about Ganwu's strangeness earlier, she probably wouldn't have died." She said so.

The old city went to the store listlessly, and only the three Begonias were left in the wine store.

Ruan Whale Luo hid in his room and refused to come out, and the Begonia brothers and sisters sat in the empty lobby without saying a word.

After a while, Xiao Yue said:

"Brother, come with me."

"Hmm."

Haitang said, rubbing Xiaoyue's head, and the two walked out of the courtyard of the wine shop.

Today's weather is still very hot, the sun is high overhead, and there is hardly a cloudy blue sky as far as the eye can see.

The two of them walked aimlessly through the woods.

"Brother."

"Huh?"

"Nothing ......"

Haitang glanced at his sister, and he could see that Xiaoyue's mood was also very low.

"Obviously I was fine yesterday......" Xiao Yue muttered in a low voice, "Obviously I have already discovered the clue yesterday......"

"Don't blame yourself," Haitang stopped and pulled Xiaoyue to sit down in front of the stream in front of her, "None of us expected Ganwu to be so decisive." ”

Xiao Yue leaned on Begonia's shoulder, and looked at the bubbling stream with unfocused eyes: "Brother, you say, are there really many people like Ganwu?" ”

Haitang gently touched Xiaoyue's head, and he said helplessly: "The world is so big, how many desperate and painful people are not exaggerated, and as Gan Wu wrote, so many people who seem to be kind to their relatives, ordinary people, dignitaries, they all have their own other heart behind their backs, and that heart may be their self." Haitang sighed and hugged Xiaoyue in her arms.

Xiao Yue smiled bitterly: "Yes, besides, shouldn't we know more about such a thing than anyone else......"

Haitang looked at the trace of grief on the face of the person in her arms, and the strength in her hand became even greater: "Girl, at least we won't repeat the same mistakes again, will we?" ”

"Brother, do you have any thoughts about the person Gan Wu said imprisoned her?" Xiao Yue suddenly changed the topic stiffly.

Haitang looked at Xiao Yue, who forcibly calmed her face, sighed and said: "If that person is a person in a high position in the organization, I am afraid that the power in Hangzhou City is not small, thin and tall, and his voice is soft...... I do know such a person, but I have to contact Huang Yi to ask him to check. ”

Haitang paused, and said: "Actually, Ganwu has a good saying, no one around her is sincerely and actively approaching her, I received a message from Huang Yi not long ago, the lady who sells baked cakes is also a member of the organization, Ganwu can be targeted by this organization, and it is precisely because of the aunt." ”

"Brother," Xiao Yue said suddenly, "You are hiding something from us, can you tell us now?" ”

Haitang looked at Xiao Yue and said with a wry smile: "It turns out that I still haven't hidden it from you...... Yes, I have something to hide from you, Ganwu's past is not as simple as she said. ”

"Do you remember that Ganwu had a chain with you?"