"The main reason for this kind of psychological trauma is the inability to face some past experiences, fear and avoidance, in fact, each of us has this psychology, but when this kind of problem is infinitely magnified to dozens of times hundreds of times, it will affect our normal work and life, just like you are now."

Seven hours in the morning, I arrived at the psychiatrist's clinic on time, and the middle-aged psychiatrist was already waiting for my visit.

After he finished saying these words to me at the table, he looked at the young man on the side and introduced to me: "This is my student, you can call him Xiao Feng, he has studied this aspect quite deeply, but don't worry, the price is still the price we negotiated." ”

"Hello, just call me Xiao Feng, I've heard my teacher tell me about your situation." This young man named Xiao Feng is wearing a suit, his demeanor is more elegant, he wears a pair of square-framed glasses, combs his spiritual back, and looks like a gentleman, and his whole temperament is not an ordinary person at a glance.

He stretched out his left hand, and I could only stretch out my left hand, which was full of scars, and shook it: "Hello." ”

I saw that he also noticed the scar on my hand, and his eyes flickered a few times.

"Oh! Then you start, I'll avoid it for now. After the middle-aged doctor finished speaking, he turned and walked to the back room.

"Brother Xiao didn't sleep much last night, did he?" After shaking hands, he motioned for me to lie down in a chair.

I walked over and lay down, not answering the question, in fact, I didn't want to come, but if I didn't come, I always felt a little unsure.

He was not upset that I didn't answer his question, and dragged a bench to sit next to me: "I came back from studying in the United States, and I have a strong knowledge of this research, so you can rest assured." ”

He paused, and then said, "Well, let's start hypnosis," he said, walking over to the curtain and closing it.

I looked at him curiously: "Just start?" ”

"yes, or not?" He said, seemingly surprised that I would ask.

"Don't you have to ask any questions?" I said, shouldn't you ask about the specific situation before the hypnosis starts?

He laughed and walked over: "The human brain can lie, and there is only one thing that does not lie, and that is the human subconscious." It's an ideology with very strong protection mechanisms, and I want to have a dialogue with it, and I need your cooperation. ”

As he spoke, he pressed the player on the side, and at that moment, a soft and elegant piece of music entered my ears.

"Man is a very complex creature, but it is also a very simple creature, and if you think about everything simply, life becomes simple, right?"

This sentence is simply plain language, and I don't bother to refute it.

"So, you have to relax now, don't think about anything, don't think about anything."

"Relax your limbs, relax your hands and feet, relax your every finger." As he spoke, I slowly closed my eyes.

Actually, I don't think that this will hypnotize me, and I even suspect that the last hypnosis was just a sleep.

I didn't sleep well last night, and I quickly fell asleep to the soft music.

Then I saw that I was in a primeval forest, surrounded by corpses, I looked everywhere in confusion, there were enemy corpses all around, and I was standing in the middle of the corpses, my hands were full of blood, I walked two steps, beside some corpses, I saw a familiar corpse lying on the ground, he, his face, it was Xiao Wu, and then I looked, Li Xiao, Ercheng, Yang Yuan, Magpie, and a face that I can see in the mirror every day, myself.

I took a few steps back in a panic, gasping for air, impossible, this kind of picture doesn't look like a dream! It was like it was happening right in front of my eyes.

"Is that a person, is that you?" A voice came.

I looked up around and asked aloud, "Who are you!" ”

"There's a door behind you." He didn't introduce himself, but said such a sentence without emotion.

I turned around in an instant, and sure enough, a wooden door appeared out of thin air behind me, and it appeared behind me so abruptly, without any support, as if standing in place out of thin air.

I walked over trembling and reached out to open it.

"You have to think about what you're going to face if you open it."

The voice came again.

I said, "It's a knot that has been with me for a long time, and I've been confronting, not bad about this." ”

This time the voice didn't come, and I gritted my teeth and pulled the door open with all my might.

I saw a scene of a soldier rushing towards the oncoming enemy with a pistol in his hand in a rage, covered in blood, tattered and scarred, and rushing towards the enemy without hesitation.

"Is this you?"

I nodded, "It's me." ”

Then the scene changes again, a soldier drags a simple raft made of wood, panting heavily, while shouting with all his strength and dragging the raft, on which are two bloody people.

He dragged the raft slowly and slowly through the jungle with difficulty, and then, after a few steps, he fell headlong to the ground.

"Is that you, too?"

I nodded: "This is me too." "I couldn't stop crying.

The picture changed again, in the hospital ward, a woman bent down and kissed a man lying on the hospital bed, and then the woman took out a small flower and handed it to him, this has become a specimen and is still incomplete The flower has no idea what kind of variety, but the man took the flower and threw it on the ground and pointed out the door as if to let her out, the woman said something, the man yelled for her to get out, the woman wiped her tears, and turned to leave.

"This person is you, too."

I nodded, kept nodding, nodding with tears on my face: "Yes, yes, it's me!" It's all me! ”

"So, can you tell me, what is all going on?"

I nodded, all this is not over yet.

--- I turned around and saw that Yang Yuan had already picked up the magpie and limped away, I laughed, this is right, this is right.

Next, it was my personal time, and the rain kept hitting me.

I estimated the route the enemy would take, and then used the cover of trees and weeds to quickly weave to the enemy's side.

“Go！ Go！ Go！ They're still on the run. ”

"Sir! They disappeared a person! ”

"Be careful around you!"

Cutting through the grass, we could clearly see that the enemy's pursuing force was approaching, about two squads, twelve or thirteen.

After observing the surrounding terrain conditions, a battle plan was generated in my mind, every step of the action, the consequences of the action, the number of bullets and the enemy's reaction after engaging the enemy, I quickly made an accurate deduction, the result of the deduction, I will die, but I can drag them alive to cripple before I die, I don't believe that there are only two or three people left, you will still pursue!

The enemy is close! I rushed straight out of the bushes, and as soon as one of my nearest enemies tried to shout, I turned my gun on him.

"Bang bang bang ~~~!!" I was the first to pull the trigger! After firing two shots, this enemy quickly turned the muzzle of the gun and shot at the next enemy, and before the enemy in front of me could react, I had already fired seven bullets.

In a second, four enemies fell to the ground, and then I saw that the enemy had already drawn their guns, and I quickly rolled on the spot.

"It's the enemy! Kill him!! ”

With five bullets left in the magazine, I rolled on a donkey and tumbled over to a small low-lying area, where the weeds were knee-high, and this low-lying area was a good cover for the enemy to quickly lose their target and not dare to find it.

I fired the last five shots at the location where I remembered the enemy, and I quickly changed my bullet when I heard an enemy scream.

"Damn it! Hurry up and be hidden!! Wooden!! Report the location! ”

Where will I give you this opportunity, quickly crawl forward on the ground for some distance and then retreat.

The weeds around me move with my creeping, and the enemy will surely notice that the grass here is moving.

"He's there!"

"Tutu Tutu Tu Tu !!" The place I had just crawled over was instantly covered with enemy bullets, and I retreated to the low-lying ground and waited for them to take the bait.

"There's no movement! You guys! Check it out! ”

I counted the time, and as they were about to arrive, I jumped up from the ground and fired several shots at the two enemies who had come to investigate.

They never expected me to play this trick, and I fell to the ground with several shots, and just as I was about to turn the muzzle of my gun and shoot at the other enemy, I heard that the enemy had already fired.

I rolled on the spot again, this time to a stout tree not far away, and I ducked behind it and fell silent.

"Behind the Tree! Behind the Tree! "According to my deduction, the enemy's formation has now been disorganized.

Being killed by an enemy in such a way is a quick and ruthless method, and any commander will be disorganized, and now they only have six or seven people left, and their morale has definitely been seriously hit.

That's what I'm going to do.

I just want to kill these people by all means before I die, and even if I die, they will be afraid of me, of our army, and I just want to tell them that on the battlefield, we are a group of deaths that harvest life.

"Damn bastards! Fire suppression! Don't give him a chance! Pull away from the left and right! ”

"Tutu Tu ~~~" Bullets of various types of weapons hit the trunk of the tree behind me, this tree is very thick, and the four people may not be able to hold it, I don't think they can penetrate this tree.

Under the suppression of the enemy troops, I couldn't probe for a while, I was waiting, waiting for them to change the bullets.

The gunfire of the six weapons quickly decreased by three, and they were changing bullets, and this was the chance!

I took off my helmet and threw it to the left, and the enemy's nervous eyes were immediately attracted by the helmet that was thrown out, and the muzzle of the gun also turned around, and I quickly flashed out from the right, and pulled the trigger again with my pistol on the enemy who had no cover.

"Bang bang bang~! Click! "The enemy fell two people with the gunshots, I was not going to hide, unloaded the magazine, drew the magazine, changed the bullets, and continued to shoot at the remaining enemies.

The other four men saw me dodge out and kill them again, and both of them roared angrily, raising their guns and shooting at me.

I had to go back more.

"Grenade throw!"

Then I saw a round object roll under my feet, I turned around and kicked it away, and the grenade exploded not far into the air.

Countless fragments flew at me, and shrapnel at this distance would not have done me much damage, while the enemy was silent.

I was secretly glad in my heart, for it had exceeded my expectations, and I thought I would be killed when there were only four or five of the enemy left.

I didn't expect that there were only three people left, but I didn't suffer any harm myself.

The enemy didn't suppress me anymore, and the three enemies seemed to be slowly approaching the tree where I was hiding.

I took a few deep breaths, and every step of his door made a noise on the leaves, and I knew they were approaching as I listened.

Now is the time! The enemy is close, and I decide to fight!

I rushed out from the right side of the tree! The nearest enemy had a hollow trigger, but the muzzle didn't keep up with the speed at which I rushed out, and I reached out and pushed his muzzle to the side.

"Tutu Tu Tu Tu ~~" He pulled the trigger but it was too late, and the bullet aimlessly didn't know where it hit.

Another enemy came at the muzzle of the gun, and I pulled this one and knocked him over, and the third enemy saw that we were in a mess and couldn't shoot at all.

The enemy in front of me reached down and wanted to pull out the pistol, I raised the pistol and fired two shots, so close that the two shots directly pierced his neck, and the blood splashed directly on my face and body.

The moment he fell, I lifted my foot and kicked the enemy behind me to the ground.

Then I fired four shots at the fallen enemy.

The last enemy, who hesitated to shoot us when we were in a group, now seemed to be a great opportunity, who knew that he pulled the trigger and the gun jammed.

So he quickly pulled out his pistol, and I quickly pointed the gun at him.

"Bang bang~~" The two of us kept backing away, shooting together at the same time, shooting at close range.

It was like I had been hit twice in the abdomen with a baseball bat, and I only shot him once.

"Click!" Our pistols were out of bullets at the same time.

I fell to the ground limp, and before I fell to the ground, I saw him covering his wound and changing the bullet of his pistol.

No way! I can't just plant it! I shouted, "Kill !!! ”

Then I pulled out my dagger and threw it hard!!

He was about to kill me when he changed his bullets, but I didn't expect me to do it suddenly, and before the knife flew over, he fired a shot that hit me in the upper part of the right chest, and he was also hit by the knife and fell to the ground.

His shot made me feel like it was getting dark in an instant.

Then I lay on the ground and was confused for a while, then I shook my head, morphine was very effective, I didn't feel much pain, I struggled to get up from the ground, the enemy had just been pierced through the eye socket by my throwing knife, and now it was completely motionless.

Looking at the corpses of the enemies around me, some of them were covering their wounds and wailing, some of them passed out, some of them struggled to turn over and pick up their guns to kill me, I walked over and kicked his guns away.

I laughed miserably, I lived, I lived, I lived.