Chapter 185: The Widow
"No, Second Master, you're right, there must be a lot of affairs to be dealt with in the Void and Reality Hall in front of me, and maybe it's like this every day! So if there is nothing particularly important, then I will not come to the backyard, anyway, I am no longer the housekeeper of Jinhong Shuixin Castle, and the affairs in the castle have already been handed over to Grandma Xie. Shu Yan said resolutely to Bai Liwei.
Shu Yan is like this, she doesn't want to let go, and she can't end it even if she dies; And if she wants to let go, she should break it, cut off the troubles, and never drag the mud and water. She is a person in the world, although she is not as always concerned and disconnected as Baili Wei, but she is by no means a ruthless person. In fact, it is hard to imagine that there will be a more dedicated woman in the world than Shu Yan? Affection is always throughout, meaning yin and yang.
In this way, Shu Yan resolutely moved away from the elegant and chic Wufu Zhai, and will never look back.
Coincidentally, in order to carry luggage, Shu Yan made the last trip between the front yard and the backyard Wushi Hall many times, when Shu Yan carried a few bags on his back and passed by Hetizhou, he was able to meet Xie Ruixiang who was leaning on the courtyard door in a daze.
Tossed back and forth a few times, so that Shu Yan, whose footsteps were obviously a little sluggish at this time, smiled politely at Xie Ruixiang who was staring at her, but she didn't know what to say for a while, and she didn't even know whether she should step forward to say hello to her former hostess and current eldest sister-in-law.
At this time, Shu Yan, who was facing Xie Ruixiang, was so cramped and embarrassed, not only because her identity and status had changed again, and she had been significantly improved again; is even more because Xie Ruixiang at this time is not only the grandmother of Jin Hongshuixin's Baili family, but also the widow of the late former head of the Xushi Hall.
At this moment, Shu Yan's luck and Xie Ruixiang's misfortune have formed a sharp contrast; And Shu Yan's firmness and Xie Ruixiang's helplessness have also formed a clear contrast; What's more, it is still mixed with the truth of sixteen years ago, so it is no wonder that Shu Yan is in a dilemma.
However, after a long stalemate, after hesitating again and again, Shu Yan, who was still with a large bag but still had a calm face, still chose to approach Xie Ruixiang, who looked close.
"What a coincidence, sister-in-law, I mentioned you to the second master!" Shu Yan still greeted Xie Ruixiang humbly and politely.
"Mention me? You can't be laughing at me, right? Xie Ruixiang still folded his arms on his chest, leaned on the doorrail, and asked Shu Yandao with a self-defeating, broken and broken face.
"Laughing?" Shu Yan suddenly said to Xie Ruixiang unhappily, "Sister-in-law, I'm not as unbearable as you think, I'm just telling the second master that I have now officially succeeded as the head of the Xushi Hall, and I have no time to take care of the affairs of Jinhong Water Heart Castle; Therefore, in the future, things in this castle, no matter how big or small, still need to worry about the eldest sister-in-law. ”
"Yan'er is benevolent and righteous, and she still calls me as an 'eldest sister-in-law', but this does not mean that I am qualified to continue to be the grandmother of this Jinhong Shuixin Baili family, and I will continue to be in charge of the affairs of this castle." Xie Ruixiang said to Shu Yan ashamedly.
"Dare to ask the eldest sister-in-law, why are you not qualified?" Shu Yan asked Xie Ruixiang directly.
"Yan'er, I just praised your benevolence and righteousness, why did you turn your face and ask knowingly, and force me not to get off the stage! I'm just an eyeliner, how can I be worthy of the identity of the grandmother of the Jinhong Water Heart Baili family? Xie Ruixiang asked Shu Yan contemptuously.
"The past is gone, life is still going on, although the truth is cruel, but the sooner you face it, the sooner you can let go; The sooner you let go, the sooner you can live a peaceful life. Shu Yan calmly comforted Xie Ruixiang and said.
"Down? It's easy to say, the people and things in the past, do you dare to say that you have let go? Xie Ruixiang asked Shu Yan disdainfully.
"Except for one person and everything about him in the past, I have let go of the rest of the people and things. As for that person and the bits and pieces about him, I haven't let go of it, and I've never thought of letting it go, but what I can't let go of and don't want to let go of is love and beauty; And the eldest sister-in-law wants to let go but can't let go, what you want to put is hatred and ugliness. Shu Yan replied awe-inspiringly.
Xie Ruixiang smelled it, and for a long time he was silent on the surface, his heart boiled for a long time.
In the sixteenth year of Kunqian, the fifteenth day of July, Zhongyuan.
In the middle of the night, it was even more quiet, in the Fuling City of the Heavenly Empire, on Jinhong Street, in the Fish Tears Pavilion of Shuixin Fort, Yu Yin and Zhong Daxuan, who were still sleepless, were sitting idly on the steps in front of the main room at this moment.
"Brother Da Xu, do you still remember, eleven years ago, when we first met at the foot of the Netherworld? You were so yellow and skinny at that time, I think anyone who looks at it will be hard to imagine that you can stand out so strong today. Yu Yin was the first to speak in the shadow of the starlight.
"And what about me, your weak little appearance at that time was not much stronger than me." Zhong Daxuan, who was sitting on the ground, also recalled.
"Who's to say it isn't? Brother Da Xu, don't look at your yellow muscles at the time, in fact, you are still very strong in your bones! It's just that you haven't eaten enough for a while, and if you eat a few full meals in a row, then your strength will be many times greater than mine! As for me, I was born like that, as you said - weak and can't help the wind. Yu Yin commented on himself disdainfully.
"Eating a few full meals in quick succession was such a luxury to me at the time! However, it was the bag of steamed buns you stuffed into my arms that turned my extravagant idea into reality; It was you who gave me the motivation to make a living alone, it was you who gave me the courage to fight alone, and it was you who gave me the hope to live alone. Zhong Daxuan confided in Yu Yin in one go.
"Brother Da Xu, I found that what you have said recently is as catchy and eloquent as a song; It's a little ethereal and not so real, but it touches me so much. Yu Yin said playfully to Zhong Daxuan.
"Yes, what is said is better than what is sung, where can there be a sense of reality?" Zhong Daxuan said to himself.
"Brother Da Xu, do you know, in fact, about this memory when you and I first met, I have long wanted to relive it with you; And the reason why I didn't mention it was because I didn't dare and couldn't. Because I was here with you before, I was just Yu Yin of Baili Ze Lacquer, and I couldn't risk losing you and remember the bits and pieces of Gu Liangyin with you. Forgive me for my selfishness, just to keep you around. Yu Yin lowered his head and said to Zhong Daxuan beside him without confidence.
However, the memories came to an abrupt end, even if it was beautiful, Yu Yin and Zhong Daxuan didn't dare to think too much, think too deeply. Because they both knew in their hearts that there was still a distance between them, and it was especially evident in their memories; So they prefer to pretend that they don't realize it, even though they know that self-deception will not last long.
"Brother Da Xuan, in your heart, compared to the me eleven years ago, has I changed now? But it's still that good? Yu Yin cautiously asked Zhong Daxuan.
"Yu Yin, in my heart, you are the best at all times, and you are the most admired by me." Zhong Daxuan said to Yu Yin sincerely.
Although Zhong Daxuan's words are indeed better than singing, there is indeed no lack of reality.
"Brother Da Xu, but in my own heart, only the me at the foot of the Netherworld Mountain eleven years ago is the best, and the self I admire the most. Because at that time, I was simple, pure, and I would cry bitterly when I was bitter, and I would cry when I was helpless. Unlike me now, I don't know if the crying is due to bitterness, and I don't know if the tears are due to helplessness; There are even many times, under the interweaving of multiple identities, I can't tell which one is the most real me. Yu Yin confided in Zhong Daxuan.
"Yu Yin, I firmly believe that you must also firmly believe that no matter how many identities you have, you are the most real you when you play music." Zhong Daxuan spoke earnestly for Yu Yin.
The topic of multiple identities reminded Yu Yin of one thing, so he hurriedly said to Zhong Daxuan: "Brother Daxuan, I must have told you before, I want to find the other side of Luopa embroidered by Grandma Xue." ”
"The people are gone, is there any point in looking for a Luo Pa again?" Zhong Daxuan asked Yu Yindao puzzled.
"Whether it makes sense or not, I'm going to find it; What's more, someone is still there, Ryazawa is still there, I mean the real Ilyazawa, and there's a good chance I know where he is. Yu Yin replied firmly.
"Yu Yin, what do you mean, do you know the real Baili Ze lacquer?" Zhong Daxuan asked Yu Yindao in surprise.
"It's not about acquaintance, it's just acquaintance." Yu Yin replied truthfully.
"When did you meet?" Zhong Daxuan asked Yu Yindao.
"On the seventh day of the seventh month of July last year, the day of the begging, that is, the day when you and I met again at the foot of the Netherworld Mountain after ten years." Yu Yin replied in detail.
"Where did you meet?" Zhong Daxuan continued to ask Yu Yindao.
"It's also on the realm of the Netherworld, but not under the Netherworld, but in the Fusheng Temple at the top of the Netherworld." Yu Yin continued to answer.
"Fusheng Temple? Where does he go and what does he do? Burn incense and worship the Buddha? Zhong Daxuan asked Yu Yin inexplicably.
"It is indeed burning incense and worshiping the Buddha, and it is the morning bell and dusk drum, burning incense day and night, and worshipping the Buddha at night." Yu Yin replied.
"Could it be that he is a monk?" Zhong Daxuan let himself guess boldly.
"Not bad." Yu Yin affirmed Zhong Daxuan's guess.
"What the hell is going on? Yu Yin, you should tell me in detail! Don't let me ask little by little, squeeze you little by little. Zhong Daxuan asked Yu Yin curiously.