By the time I left the palace, it was already dark.

Ren Zhen's heart was in a mess, many thoughts had not been sorted out, and he didn't know how to face it, so he simply didn't go home immediately, and walked aimlessly in the streets and alleys.

There is a Daohua Lane in the east of the city, where there are many wine shops, selling a kind of wine called Daohuaxiang, and you can smell the overflowing aroma of wine from a long distance, which is intoxicating.

Ren Zhen passed by the alley, smelled this rich aroma, his heart moved slightly, and he turned his head and walked into the alley.

He drank a lot of wine, but he usually didn't like to drink, so he sat in a secluded corner of the wine shop and ordered two large jars of aging, just to use wine to drown his sorrows and send the bitterness in his heart.

Or, he wants to get himself drunk, so that when he comes home, either he falls asleep and automatically puts certain topics aside, or, the wine is so strong that he can pour out all the feelings he wants to confess.

The empress's marriage is about to change his private life, and it will also break the delicate balance maintained between him and Begonia, and the original titular husband and wife can't do it.

Once Mu Qingmeng intervenes, the paper can no longer contain the fire, unless the two of them pretend to be husband and wife, otherwise Begonia will no longer be able to stay by her side as a wife.

Let her go, even if she wants to, will he be willing?

He knew in his heart that the matter had come to this, and that layer of window paper had to be pierced, and it could no longer be unclear. This is also the only way.

In terms of his own ruthless temperament, as long as he can succeed in revenge, he is willing to pay any price, endure humiliation and stay in the capital, and marry a little Mu Qingmeng, which is nothing at all, and it is a big deal to abandon it from the beginning.

However, what he cares about most is begonias. Would she not mind?

Ren Zhen took a sip of wine, and his mind was messy.

On the day of marriage, after returning from the expedition, there will be enough time for them to think about the long term and find a suitable situation to be frank and honest on the journey.

However, the empress made a killer move to detain Begonia in the capital and could not follow him to the front, which made time suddenly become very short.

If nothing else, tomorrow the court test will be over, and the day after tomorrow he will have to escort the grain and grass to set off. This means that tonight and tomorrow are his last chance to confess. When I returned to the capital, the overall situation had been decided, and it was too late to say anything.

Don't look at him, he is usually eloquent and knows everything, but when it comes to children's private affairs, he actually doesn't know anything. He was already nervous and timid, and he didn't know how to speak, but after such a toss by the empress, she drove the ducks to the shelves and forced him to act immediately, so it was strange that he was not flustered.

In desperation, he could only hide here and drink alcohol.

As for what to do later, four words - resigned to fate.

After the two jars of wine were down, his face was red and his ears were red, and when he got up, his steps were frivolous, and he was already staggering.

Walking out of the wine shop, I don't know what time it is, the street lights are dim, and the night sky is full of stars.

The early summer breeze is refreshing and gentle, brushing the cheeks of passers-by, like a girl's slender jade hands, and like the long black and soft hair, provocative and drunken redness.

Ren Zhenzhen was ape-like, drunk and hazy, and after drowning outside the house gate, he walked into the house with his trouser waistband in his hand.

The study is in the east and the bedroom is in the west.

Ren Zhen to the north.

After passing through the gloomy garden, the view is cheerful, and a small building is in front of you.

He rubbed his drunken eyes and slammed the door hard, the sound loud in the silence of the night.

The room was darkened, and no one answered.

After knocking for a moment, he smiled stupidly and shouted, "Sleeping? ”

"Hmm."

Ren Zhen scratched his head, sighed, stood stupidly outside the door for a while, and walked back with his head upside down.

Walking in the back garden, he suddenly stopped, his consciousness began to wake up, and he laughed at himself: "Isn't it stupid? What's the need to meet......"

The two of them have the same mind, she can sense what she is thinking, so why do you have to meet and find embarrassment?

Perhaps, she doesn't want to see her drunken ugliness, right?

He shook his head and smiled bitterly, and went back to his room, without turning on the light or undressing, and just lay on the bed.

The bed was soft, like in the arms of a plump woman.

His eyes were closed, and his mind was full of her face.

After drinking, he breathed a little heavily, owed a debt, and murmured: "Guan Guan Ju Dove, in the river island, fair lady, gentleman." ”

This is probably the classical version of sheep hypnosis?

He turned over, turned his back to the sky, opened his eyes and looked at the dark roof, "I can't ask for it, I can't think about it." Leisurely, tossing and turning. ”

The night was silent.

It's melancholy at the moment.

He patted his slightly swollen lower abdomen and slowly moved to his crotch, a hint of thought in his mind.

At this time, a cold voice sounded through my mind, "Can you stop being so disgusting?" ”

He woke up suddenly, quickly removed his hand, and reacted consciously, as long as he was thinking about her, even if it was ** (manual harmony), she could accurately perceive it.

"Didn't you sleep?"

"You're noisy."

"I didn't say a few words......"

"But you're thinking."

Ren Zhen was speechless.

Every time he thought about her, she received it. So it's noisy.

He blushed and said, "How to solve it?" I was so sick that I couldn't sleep. ”

"Perverted!"

"Why are you scolding me? It's you who want to be crooked. ”

"Die."

Ren Zhen's body trembled, and he closed his eyes and didn't want to be lewd anymore.

There was silence in my head.

"Don't pretend, I know you didn't sleep."

It was Begonia who said this.

Ren Zhen said lazily: "I'm going to sleep." ”

Haitang was silent for a while and said, "What did you say during the day?" ”

Ren Zhen didn't answer, and opened his eyes.

The eyes were bright, like stars in the sky, twinkling with a shimmer.

"Do you want to hear it?"

His heart was pounding.

I wonder if she sensed a heartbeat. I wonder if she's the same.

"Tell me about it."

Her tone was light, as always. But these three words are obviously an encouragement.

Ren Zhen took a deep breath, and suddenly felt that time was slowing down and about to freeze.

"I don't know what to say about it......"

Haitang snorted lightly, ready to answer, but he didn't expect that he still had a following.

"But I'm afraid, it's too late if I don't say anything."

"Maybe in the eyes of outsiders, I'm just a sixteen-year-old child, still at an age of ignorance and unknown. But getting along so far, you should know best that I am not only the owner of the house with hands and eyes, but also a man with flesh and blood and feelings. ”

He was a little incoherent, not only in his voice, but also in his body trembling uncontrollably.

"Some people say that to really fall in love with someone, it should start with appearance, talent, character, kindness, and loyalty."

"Looks? Who is more beautiful than you in the world? ”

"Talent? Please, you're the Sword Master, the idol of countless people. ”

"Character, well, I think, someone has to listen to someone when someone says, a combination of rigidity and softness, hot and cold, so it's a perfect match, right?"

"Kindness...... If you are not kind and don't go to Jinling, how can we meet? ”

"Character, your character is really not good, you know it very well in your heart, you have to force me to say it."

The corners of Ren Zhen's mouth were slightly raised, and after opening the chatterbox, his mood gradually calmed down.

He closed his eyes again and began to enjoy the heart-to-heart outpouring.

"I thought about it for a long time, and I realized that none of these qualities are lacking in you. But...... Seem...... These don't perfectly explain how I feel about you. ”

"So I began to think back on all the roads we have traveled from our meeting, parting, and reunion until now, and I realized that the so-called standards are actually nonsense."

"To fall in love with you, just the first sight is enough."

"It's providence."