Chapter 189: Who hasn't been sad yet
The little deer came back very late for a few days, and he didn't know who he was avoiding or simply didn't want to see anyone, so he simply didn't even leave the door, and climbed into the courtyard wall.
Under the moonlight in the night, the fawn in a dark blue coat was slightly pale, with a hint of tiredness, this point back, a little wash can go directly to sleep, he sighed faintly, there is a rustle of trees in front of him, covering it up. Returning home with a tired heart, like this sigh covered by the leaves, who hears and knows except himself.
What he didn't know was that in the corner, there was a pair of beautiful big eyes, staring at him lonely, the tired and pale face rolled in her eyes, stinging her heart slightly, she didn't know what this man was going through, she only knew that he had isolated her from his own world, and she couldn't get close.
Until the dark blue, disappearing around the corner at the end, the girl in the dark did not move, as if it were a thousand gold. She laughed to herself, what are you here for? Thinking that she is the most noble princess of the Cangyang Kingdom, there are many young talents who usually revolve around her in the palace, and she will not even look at it. It's probably too arrogant, God has sent someone to diagnose and treat her, and now, it's the turn of others not to look at themselves.
The wind passed by, and the sky in the distance was still gray, and there was no girl in the same place.
The little deer who walked in the easy way didn't know that he had bumped into the girl's contact lenses, and he didn't have time to reminisce about the sourness of the day, because a person appeared in front of him, standing far away, watching him.
The man lightly lifted his lips: "Bai Qitian!" โ
The call was very calm, but the name was like a burst of lightning that made him stand in place, and he fled for ten years.
The fawn looked away, and a wry smile appeared on his face: "You know...... The Lord of the Temple. โ
The hall master, indifferent and alienated, built a great wall of thousands of miles, isolating the people in front of him.
"You, don't you have anything to say to me?" Nian Xiaojiao stared straight at the person in front of her, the familiar young man fluttering, and the unfamiliar eyes were empty.
"Say what? Say that I am the dignified prince of Baiyan Kingdom, like a turtle with a shrunken head, and I have shrunk in the Senluo Hall for ten years without a name or surname? Say that I abandoned my former relatives and comrades-in-arms, and let them fall into a catastrophe from which I will never recover? What do you want to hear, Lord of the Temple? โ
"Little deer, did something happen to you? Speak up and we can work it out together. โ
Nian Xiaojiao looked at the always calm deer and became extremely irritable, he was not so much angry with Xiaojiao, but angry with himself, that sentence by sentence, it was not Nian Xiaojiao who was asking, but more like questioning himself and torturing himself......
"Don't call me a fawn, I'm not a fawn at all, I'm Bai Qi!"
The crown prince of Bai Yanguo, who has disappeared for ten years, is now, in this courtyard, like a trapped beast, angry when provoked, using his irascible body to cover his fragile and helpless heart.
"Bai Qi, no matter what happens, no matter what you're facing, it's not your fault. Things have their own trajectory, and sooner or later, it will happen. I know, you don't want to, take it easy, take it easy......"
Nian Xiaojiao's steps were light, moving forward little by little, her eyes were firm and gentle, vast as the sea of stars, crushing Bai Qi's last strength.
"She's dead~~She's dead~~"
During the day, Qi came out of nowhere, a tall and thin man, standing in Xiao Suo's courtyard, crying like a child.
"Who?"
"Mother, my mother...... Just this afternoon, in my arms......"
The air froze in an instant, like a golden tripod slamming her head and covering her face, Nian Xiaojiao gasped, she hadn't digested the earth-shattering news, so she began to try her best to organize words to comfort this big boy, life and death, she had experience, although it was tragic, she had survived.
"Bai Qi, is your queen mother walking peacefully? Isn't it ...... that she'll be able to wait for you to come back in her lifetime? My next words are a bit cruel, are they blind to death? โ
replied to Nian Xiaojiao, there was a long silence, so silent that Nian Xiaojiao once thought that she probably couldn't pry open this mouth tonight, but the future is long, as long as Xiaolu is still willing to go back to this courtyard.
In the courtyard, there were two people, but it seemed to be separated by two worlds, and in the end, Nian Xiaojiao compromised, looked back, and prepared to leave. After all, he didn't hold back before leaving, and turned around and said, "Do you know what I envy you?" Envy that you can call her mother, envy that you remember her voice and appearance, and even ...... Envy that you can carry her through the last journey of this world.
And it is even more difficult for me to know the slightest bit of news about my mother. For twenty years, I didn't know anything about her, what she looked like, what she liked, and what her personality was......
I can only imagine, imagine a gentle mother, she should kiss the wrinkled me when she was born, she should grab my chubby hand and shake it from side to side, she should look at me sleeping and smirk...... My mother's goodness can only be imagined.
Why did I walk out of the fortified fortress and out of the Senluo Temple? Because I want an answer, what does she look like, does she really love me, and how can she bear to leave me alone in this world......"
"Have you found the answer?" The fawn who has not opened his mouth for 10,000 years looked at the lonely Nian Xiaojiao, and finally opened the golden mouth, he who had just lost his mother, and she who had never received mother's love resonated. At the moment, she is not the eternal high-spirited hall master, she is a little girl, a confused and fragile little girl. Come to think of it, she's just a twenty-year-old girl.
Nian Xiaojiao nodded: "Now I know that she has friends, Shapo, and Hanyu Immortals; She had a face that resembled mine; She was more resolute than me, and she fled from the palace with her father and escaped from the pursuit of thousands of troops; She should also love me very much, don't want me to take revenge, let me grow up incognito, simple and peaceful.
Now, I am on a path that backfires with her, I am not an ordinary girl, I am stepping on the ladder and bearing the attention of the whole world. I accept all those kind support and malicious contention; The hatred she let me escape, I was deeply trapped in......
You say, am I very unobedient and stubborn? Will she hold a grudge against me? โ
The twilight was so heavy, pressing on Nian Xiaojiao's shoulders, and the sky was so vast that it blurred Nian Xiaojiao's existence.
During the day, Qi looked up at the darkness and forgot his sorrow, it turned out that Nian Xiaojiao, who loved to laugh, had so much sadness buried in her heart. It was dissected, and there were blood stains all over it.
"Xiaojiao, you are a whole zodiac sign younger than me, and I have a younger sister who is as old as you. In the future, you can treat me as an elder brother, and where you need me, you can smear my liver and brains. โ
During the day, Qi didn't know how to comfort girls, what he had was a body of strength and a desperate guard.
Nian Xiaojiao's hand hanging down at her side moved slightly, and a smile appeared in her eyes, over the years, I haven't learned anything else, my heart is hurting, my face is laughing, but I have practiced perfectly.
"What do I want you to do, in fact, I just want to tell you that since you chose it, you didn't disappoint yourself, no matter what the result, let it go."
After Nian Xiaojiao finished saying this, she didn't stay for half a minute, a conversation, she was tired, even more tired than fighting against the Netherworld Butcher.
During the day, Qi pondered and read Xiaojiao's last words, and what he chose lived up to himself. He has lived half his life, and he is not as transparent as a little girl. The hand touched the heart, and there seemed to be less heavy than at the beginning.
Who hasn't been sad yet, they have to continue to be not.
Early in the morning of the second day, the people of Wanqitang were like seeing ghosts, because the deer whose head and tail were seen by the dragon sat at the table and ate breakfast gracefully.
"This is even rarer than seeing ghosts in the daytime, Uncle Xiaolu, who has a lot of opportunities, has time to guide the work in Wanqitang today?" The ivory-filled blade shadow sat opposite the fawn with a bowl of noodles, showing a mouthful of large white teeth.
"I can't bear to see you, why don't you change the table?"
Ren Ying nodded secretly, he can still coax people, it seems that the dead fish deer is alive for the most part.
"Nod your head, agree and get out." The deer knocked on Ren Ying's chopsticks, causing Blade Shadow's hand to shake and almost pour a bowl of noodle soup all over his body.
"I said Xiaolu, although you are a few years older than me, if you really want to fight, you may not be my opponent."
"Dog skin plaster, you can fight for three days and three nights, and you can't get results, and no one is willing to fight you. Every time you are the enemy advancing and you retreating, the enemy retreating and you entering, endlessly, you can't admit defeat. Who would dare to compete with you? The fawn shook his head: "Oh no! Who would like to compete with you? โ
Blade Shadow rubbed his nose embarrassedly, and sneered: "Soldiers are not tired of cheating, soldiers are not tired of cheating......"
The fawn took a bite of the thick-skinned blade shadow and buried his head in eating his own noodles.
Nian Xiaojiao, who was leaning on the door, looked at the familiar scene, this is the daily dog-eat-dog between the two of them, what a warm and touching scene.
Nian Xiaojiao heard the sound of footsteps behind her, and looked back, it was Chun Dye that girl, the pestle was there, it was like a pine, silent and interesting, รท pavilion.
"Morning, come to breakfast? Let's go in together~~"
Reading Xiaojiao's words, the two people who attracted "dog eats dog" to express their love for each other looked sideways at the same time, and Chun Dye, who was pestled outside the door, saw the deer looking over, like a frightened white rabbit, turned around and ran.
Blade Shadow looked at the fawn skin and smiled, with some infiltrating treachery: "Little deer, what's wrong with you?" This little girl looks at you like you're touching a ghost, and even though I see you like you're touching a ghost today, it's different, you know. โ
"What do you know, dog skin plaster?" The fawn reminded Blade Shadow over and over again, he was famous in the rivers and lakes, and he thought that he was just a nickname for the soldiers.
However, as an outsider, Nian Xiaojiao also feels that there is a difference between stalking and not getting tired of cheating, and the difference is big, just like the lower riba and the mountains and rivers, there is an insurmountable gap.