She stepped forward and pulled out a letter from the wooden box.

After opening the letter, she quickly glanced at the contents and immediately burst into tears.

Xiao Si, Zhan Xin is like seeing me.

I still remember the first time I met you, I thought you were an unusual girl. Different from the constraints of other daughters' families, you live a very wanton life, like a sun, which can bring warmth to the people around you at all times.

I'm like this, and I'm deeply attracted to you step by step. I just didn't expect that you would also notice me, the painter who was inconspicuous in the corner.

When I was with you, you said you were going to study abroad. Although I am not good enough, I slowly changed myself for the sake of you, and finally embarked on the road of studying abroad with you.

When you came back, you said you were going to introduce me to your family.

The first time I saw your father and mother, my inferiority complex instantly swelled up. After all these years, I don't know where my father and mother have gone, and the only relative is my eldest brother. But one day, he left home quietly, without even a text message.

I came to Guicheng from Yunshi alone.

I'm glad I met you, the most important person in my life.

Of course, I can tell that your parents don't really want us to get married anytime soon. Maybe in their eyes, I'm just a person who can only draw, and I can't bring you a happy life. I can understand all this, but I love you, and I don't dare to leave you like this.

If I were to smile and bless you, turn my head and leave in style, it would be more painful than killing me.

But in order to be worthy of you, I tried to find some decent work. At the very least, I can reassure your parents to leave you to me.

Xiao Si, what touched me the most was that you resolutely took my hand and walked into the marriage registry. You said to me that no one will marry in this life except me. It's a matter of time before we get married, so why care about formality.

I hesitated for a long time before I chose to join hands with you to fight the world.

But I have to say, you have a good parent. They didn't give me any look because you married me hastily.

After moving into the Qu family, each of them treated me like family, as if I was a real part of the Qu family, sharing glory and disgrace with you, advancing and retreating together.

The luckiest thing in this life is to have a home with the one I love the most, and a group of family members who love me. How can I, Luo Peng, have this honor?

Not long after the marriage, Xiaoyan was born.

His eyes are big, his eyelashes are crooked, and yours are carved out of the same mold. Treat him like a rare treasure, reluctant but want to hold it in my hands.

I thought that such a happy life could continue.

If it weren't for so many changes, Xiao Si, I would have gone to the end of the world with you.

But when I knew that my eldest brother was in danger and could die at any time, I couldn't continue to enjoy a happy life with you.

So I left.

I didn't leave any letters, because I hope that only then will you forget me.

Even if you hate me, it's better than you love me.

At least then you wouldn't expect much from me. Perhaps, you will also meet the next person who loves you more, and then join hands with him for the rest of your life.

It's just that, there will be no me in the future.

As I was leaving, you waved to me at the door with a smile on your face.

At that time, were you still thinking that when I came back, we would be able to live happily ever after?

But I've let you down.

I can't come back.

Xiao Si, when I knew that my eldest brother had passed away, I couldn't go back. I will take his place and fulfill his unfulfilled wishes.

Even for the rest of my life, I want to be bright.

I'm not a person who cares about the world, I only have our small family in my heart. But when I saw more of the people my eldest brother wanted to protect dying in front of me one by one, I couldn't help but be moved.

I'm going to pick up my bags and go out into the distance alone.

After leaving Pingzhen, my whereabouts were exposed, and I went into exile all the way to Xicheng.

I don't dare go back to you.

Once I set foot in Guicheng, those people will be able to find you through all kinds of means. I can't bring danger to you, so I have to stay away from you.

After coming to Xicheng for a while, I had a rare leisurely time.

With three or five friends, every afternoon, I sit in the yard, drawing, chatting, and drinking a few glasses of wine.

I thought it would be nice to go on like this.

Whenever I think of you, I paint your face with a hint of drunkenness.

I filled the hall with paintings of our memories, and I planted your favorite begonia flowers in the yard, but I will never see you again in this life.

Xiao Si, I know you won't forgive me.

I also know that I am extremely selfish. Even the last goodbye is not willing to have a good time with you.

But if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't have met you again.

It will not give you all the pain, memories and requests for the rest of your life, it will not make you upset and make you lose your soul.

I love you and I want to give you the best of everything.

But in the end, I gave you the most rare everything.

In the future, you will need to go down alone.

But I hesitated for a long time, but I still want to tell you. I didn't leave because I didn't love you, just because I was going to do something more worthwhile for me.

I want to protect a lot of people and take my responsibility.

Family and country and love are difficult to achieve both.

So I have to let go of the little love I have with you and go for more big love.

I'm sorry.

Treat me as if I failed you.

Maybe by the time you read this letter, I was gone. Maybe you won't see this letter I left for the rest of your life, and that's fine.

At least you won't think of me again and cry for me again.

Xiao Si, promise me, don't cry, okay?

I, Luo Peng, am already very content to be with you in this life. In those years, it was as if I stole it, and I cherished every minute and every second.

It's just that in the future, I can't go down with you.

If you still remember me and forgive me, tell Xiaoyan the story between us.

If you forget me, or find a better place to belong than me, bury this secret in your heart forever.

My only regret.

Didn't go with you to see a sunrise.

Xiao Si, every day in the future, you have to live well.

I love you, but in the future, I won't respond to your love.

I will take our love and bury this story in the ground.

There is no after.

Xiao Si, I want you to be favored by the whole world, even without me.

Bye.

My dear.