After a while, Zhong Daxuan, who came back to his senses in shock, said to Nian Lishu calmly and objectively: "Miss Nian, maybe everything is just your illusion, maybe I am not as good as you think." ”

"Excellent? No, that's not great enough; But it didn't matter anymore, because I had already decided to let go, and it didn't matter if I kept holding on to it, I would see hope. Nian Lishu said calmly to Zhong Daxuan.

When Zhong Daxuan heard this, he was able to breathe a sigh of relief, and Fang Cai's helplessness disappeared at this moment.

Zhong Daxuan, who was only relieved to hear it, thanked Nian Lishu again and again: "Miss Nian, I sincerely thank you for simply liking me, and even more sincerely thank you for deciding to give up on me at this moment." ”

"Zhong Gongzi, you don't have to thank me, no matter what decision I make, it won't be for you, I'm just for myself. Many people, many things, if they know that there is no result, but they still have to go to the trouble for it, then in the end it will not be others, but themselves; What's more, for feelings, my Nian Lishu has always been able to take it and let it go. Nian Lishu said to Zhong Daxuan freely.

"Miss Nian, I have to say that at this moment, you have completely changed my initial understanding of you, and you have completely broken through my imagination of you." Zhong Daxuan couldn't help but praise Nian Lishu from the bottom of his heart.

"Then do you want to keep me now? Zhong Gongzi. Nian Lishu asked Zhong Daxuan with a smile.

"No, it's not ......," Zhong Daxuan was so nervous that he denied it without hesitation.

"Forget it, I won't make fun of you, Zhong Gongzi, I'm going back, I hope that when we meet again, we have both lived a better life." Nian Lishu sincerely blessed Zhong Daxuan, and also sincerely blessed herself.

Nian Lishu said and turned to leave. I saw that when she left, she turned her back to Zhong Daxuan and waved her right arm gently.

has completely lost the cowardice of weekdays, and at this moment, Nian Lishu, who has broken through the shackles of etiquette, shows a sense of freedom and ease in her gestures.

Zhong Daxuan watched Nian Lishu's carriage gradually move away, and couldn't help but be confused in his heart, he thought: For feelings, Miss Nian, who is a woman, can be so free and easy; But as a dignified seven-foot man, why do I always take it, but I can't put it down, even though I can afford it? Why did you know that it would be fruitless from the beginning, but still go to the trouble without hesitation?

After a cup of tea, in the Fish Tears Pavilion of Jinhong Shuixin Fort, Zhong Daxuan hesitated to enter the door of the main room, and then stood crampedly at the door between the outer room and the inner room of the main house.

At this moment, Yu Yin, who was sitting on the bed beating his legs, saw Zhong Daxuan coming back, and involuntarily asked Zhong Daxuan: "Brother Daxuan, have you finished talking?" ”

"yes, we're done." Zhong Daxuan replied absent-mindedly and casually.

"Then you hurry up and rest, Brother Da Xuan, after a day of shopping with me, you must be very tired." Yu Yin said with concern to Zhong Daxuan, who was still at the door of the inner room.

Hearing this, Zhong Daxuan nodded, he was about to turn around and rest, but the moment he turned around, he suddenly mustered up the courage to ask Yu Yin: "Yu Yin, in your heart, what am I like?" ”

Zhong Daxuan's sudden question undoubtedly caught Yu Yin off guard, and Yu Yin subconsciously asked Zhong Daxuan: "Brother Daxuan, why did you suddenly remember to ask this question?" Did Miss Nian say something to you? ”

"This has nothing to do with Miss Nian, Yu Yin, please answer me truthfully." Zhong Daxuan said to Yu Yin seriously.

Yu Yin saw that Zhong Daxuan's attitude was so serious, so he reminded Zhong Daxuan: "Brother Daxuan, do you know that if you care too much about other people's opinions, it is easy to lose yourself. ”

"Even if I lose myself, I want to know your answer." Zhong Daxuan said firmly to Yu Yin.

"Standing in the sun, my chest is open - this is the big brother in my Yu Yin's heart." Yu Yin said to Zhong Daxuan without thinking.

It doesn't matter if it's higher or lower, as long as it's Yu Yin's evaluation, Zhong Daxuan is happy to accept it. However, just outside the gate of Jinhong Shuixin Castle, when Nian Lishu evaluated Zhong Daxuan, Zhong Daxuan was surprised to find that Yu Yin had never given him any evaluation from beginning to end.

Zhong Daxuan, who couldn't help but be haunted by this, finally mustered up the courage and asked Yu Yin for an evaluation that only belonged to him. However, it was this begging evaluation that made Zhong Daxuan feel again that in this world, only the Da Xuan brother in Yu Yin's heart is his Zhong Daxuan's favorite self, and it is also the self that Zhong Daxuan wants to live the most.

Standing in the sun, with a frank chest - this is the most appropriate evaluation of both form and spirit! This is the flesh-and-blood Zhong Daxuan who can be seen and touched!

Zhong Daxuan, who got the answer, did not turn around and go back to bed to rest, but leaned on the door frame of the inner room where Yu Yin was, and said to Yu Yin happily: "Yu Yin, do you know, I have made it clear to Miss Nian just outside the castle; No, no, no, it should be Miss Nian, she made it clear to me. ”

"Who told everyone? Brother Xu, what did you say again? Yu Yin asked Zhong Daxuan again and again in confusion.

"It doesn't matter who says it to whom, the important thing is that from this moment on, Miss Nian, she will never do everything possible to approach me, and I don't need to find a way to avoid her courtesy." Zhong Daxuan explained to Yu Yin.

"Brother Da Xuan, you are so anxious to leave Miss Nian alone, isn't Miss Nian a good person?" Yu Yin asked Zhong Daxuan.

"Who said she's bad? Miss Nian, she is pure-hearted, does not have the slightest opinion, and is a rare empathetic and reasonable person among the children of large families! Zhong Daxuan highly praised Nian Lishu and said.

"Then why do you hate her so much? Brother Da Xu. Yu Yin asked Zhong Daxuan.

"When did I say I hated Miss Nian?" Zhong Daxuan asked Yu Yin rhetorically.

"Brother Da Xu, if you don't hate her, why do you always try to avoid her?" Yu Yin said to Zhong Daxuan step by step.

"Because I don't want to give her even a glimmer of hope, because I have never been able to give her the life she wants, and I don't want to give it." Zhong Daxuan replied categorically.

"But isn't that the life everybody should have? Brother Da Xu. Yu Yinyan asked Zhong Daxuan insincerely.

"But 'should' doesn't mean 'inevitable'!" Zhong Daxuan immediately retorted to Yu Yindao.

"The mere word 'should' is already terrifying! Brother Xu, maybe one day, you will hope that 'should' will become 'inevitable'! Yu Yin said to Zhong Daxuan alarmistly.

"What about you? Yu Yin, maybe one day, you will also hope that 'should' will become 'inevitable'. Zhong Daxuan asked Yu Yin in turn.

"I may not be able to guarantee anything else, but in this matter, please rest assured, Brother Da Xu, I will never hope that 'should' will become 'inevitable'. Because I have always lived a willful and self-conscious life, people like me simply cannot adapt to the kind of life that requires painstaking management. Yu Yin swore to Zhong Daxuan.

"Although you can't adapt, it's hard to guarantee that others will have the heart to adapt to you!" Zhong Daxuan said to Yu Yin.

"How so? Brother Da Xu. Yu Yin questioned Zhong Daxuan.

"How could it not? Yu Yin. Zhong Daxuan asked Yu Yin rhetorically.

"Let's put it this way, I'm like a delicate vase, and when placed there, it's pleasing to the eye; Once you take me into your arms, you can't help but worry about me all day because of my fragility and fragility. Therefore, how can anyone be willing to live in fear in order to have me? On the contrary, it's you, Brother Da Xuan, you are empathetic by nature, and people like you who stand in the perspective of others in everything and consider others are the easiest people to fall in love with! Yu Yin explained to Zhong Daxuan.

"How can anyone be born empathetic? It's just honed through acquired experience. Since I was five years old, I have lived alone, and at that time, the only thing I had to consider was my own situation, and other people and things were not to worry; However, after meeting you, I always can't help but think about what you think, think about what you think, think about everything for you, and take you as the center everywhere. It's hard for me to do this, but when I think about it, it makes me feel like it's worth it. Zhong Daxuan confided in Yu Yin in one fell swoop.

"Brother Da Xu, thank you for being willing to change yourself for me; Even though I don't want to make your life too hard, I've always been willful and still inadvertently embarrassed you. Anyway, you're more comfortable than I am, the kind of life that everyone should have. When Yu Yin said this, there was a faint sadness in his heart inexplicably.

"To be honest, Yu Yin, in fact, I have thought more than once about compromising with that kind of 'should' life, and I have thought about simply marrying a wife and having children. But every time I stood on the edge of compromise again and again, I chose to retreat again and again. Zhong Daxuan took the opportunity to tell Yu Yin what was in his heart.

Yu Yin, who was afraid of getting an answer, couldn't help but ask Zhong Daxuan after all: "Brother Daxuan, then why don't you just take a step forward and choose to compromise?" ”

"Because I'm afraid that there will no longer be your place in my life after compromise, because I want to always give you a unique place, because a step-by-step, rule-based life is not necessarily the life I really want." Zhong Daxuan replied on the spot.

Yu Yin, who was afraid of getting an answer, finally got the answer. It's a pity that when he got the answer, he didn't know if this was the answer he really wanted?

In the sixteenth year of Kunqian, on the second day of the second month of February, the dragon raised its head.