Chapter 254: Looking at Angelica from afar, crying with sorrow (3)
Mo Qian's words were like thunder on the ground, blasting Qing Ling's mind blank for a moment.
Her eyes widened slightly, her lips pursed several times, but she didn't know what to say or ask.
Mo Qian sighed again and continued: "Not long after your mother married into Chaoyan, she found out that she was actually pregnant. She was remorseful and thought of fleeing again, but I persuaded her to stay, and promised to do whatever it took to save you......"
If at that time, he could predict what would happen in the future, would he change his mind and agree to her request to help her and Luo Heng leave the Eastern Continent?
Or will it still dissuade her from leaving, indirectly pushing her down a path of self-harm and self-destruction?
Qing Ling was stunned for a long time, and then shook his head mechanically, "Impossible, no, how can I ...... It's the devil's ......."
She swallowed the last two words that had not yet been spoken, and argued in a confused manner: "I am obviously the daughter of Emperor Hao!" Didn't you tell me, Master? If I weren't his daughter...... There's no way he's not knowing......"
Mo Qian was silent, waiting for Qing Ling's emotions to gradually calm down.
"In order to hide from Emperor Hao, your mother had to use a divine artifact called 'Reverse Birth' on you, so that your growth rate in her womb slowed down, or even retreated, so that the imperial doctor could not find out when she was pregnant. Coupled with the strong bloodline of the Heavenly Emperor clan of the Zhanggu clan, you may only look like your mother. If others don't know the truth, they will never be able to doubt your identity. ”
Qing Ling's mind was in a mess, and many intricate images flashed through it
"What do you like to do? What do you like to eat? ”
"I'm going to die, you...... Let me see you again......"
"Can you ...... Call me? ”
"Well, you won't recognize me...... Or not...... She didn't want to......"
"Why didn't I notice that you were actually very similar to me?"
The amber glazed pupils faded away from the cruelty and golden red demon light, and looked at her with a strange and complicated, almost gentle and loving gaze......
Qingling's aura was disordered, and he subconsciously raised his hand to cover his mouth, suppressing his emotions.
She couldn't figure it out, the moment the demon fight devoured the Zhangyao Palace, why did Luo Heng choose to give up Luo Yao and save herself instead?
He has always hated the Chaoyan royal family, and even killed the three princes' brother Hao Chong in such a cruel way, but why, he saved himself?
Qing Ling was puzzled.
But now, it seems that the question has finally been answered......
Mo Qian continued: "Reverse birth is extremely harmful to both you and your mother's body. In order to protect you, your mother did not hesitate to consume the Yuan Shen and make up for the impact of the reverse life on you, and after a long time, her cultivation and skill were not as good as before, so that later in the Cangli War, she was seriously injured by Luo Heng and ......
The corners of Qing Ling's eyes suddenly swelled with heat.
In the Cold Star Moon Valley, Luo Heng still couldn't let go until he came to the end of his life.
"I didn't want to kill her...... How could I possibly kill her...... Her cultivation has always been stronger than mine......"
Because the other party has always been stronger than himself, so under the jealousy and rage, he disregarded the heavy hand.
didn't know that the blow cost his lover's life, and he buried his life's happiness, hope, and reason.
For the rest of your life, madness.
"Why are they so stupid?"
Mo Qian's words were convincing, and Qing Ling couldn't help but continue to doubt.
But once they accept such a truth in their hearts, they can't help but choke.
"The two of them...... It's all fools......"
Born in the world, too much unsatisfactory, too much regret!
How many people can really do what they want and be free of stumbling?
If she was in the position of a mother, she might not be burdened with so many family lintel concerns, but the final outcome may not be different.
Just like today, she wants to escape from Mu Chen with all her heart, but every step she takes is extremely difficult!
Thinking of Mu Chen, Qing Ling's mind suddenly became sober for a moment.
She raised her eyes and looked at her master, "Mu Chen's ban on Chongwu, is it ......?"
Mo Qian understood that she had understood, and nodded faintly.
"He should have known about the 'rebirth' and therefore had doubts about your origins."
Soon after Yuxiu was born, Mu Chen found Chongwu and asked Mo Qian to verify Qingling's life experience.
"Probably because he desperately wants the speculation in his heart to come true, he is almost sure that you are not related to him, and just wants me to admit it myself."
At the beginning, Mo Qian insisted on denying Mu Chen's speculation, but Mu Chen was still calm and restrained. But after a long time, Mo Qian became more and more silent, and even avoided it, and Mu Chen slowly lost his patience, and finally ordered Chongwu to be banned, and Mo Qian and his disciples were imprisoned in the Tang Court.
"He has always been thoughtful and good at plotting," Mo Qian said: "If you want to force me to comply, I'm afraid you can come up with thousands of ways." But after all, he still took care of you and didn't do things too well. ”
Qing Ling couldn't suppress his anxiety, "What about my fifth senior brother?" Over the years, if it weren't for Master, you spent your divine power to renew his life, he would ...... But he's not with you now...... There are also senior brothers and third senior brothers, where are they all? Wiping away his tears, he approached Mo Qian's side and held his wrist, "Did Mu Chen do anything else to you?" Your body looks bad......"
Mo Qian looked at Qing Ling, who was full of worry, and gently pulled out his hand and stroked the top of her hair.
Leaving the blessing of the teacher, she has been at the center of the struggle for power for more than a hundred years, tempering the child's will, but it has not taken away her original sincerity at all.
She always felt that she had lost the simplicity of the past and could never go back to the past, but in the eyes of Mo Qian, who raised her, she was always just the little sixth child of Chongwu Mountain, the child he had solemnly promised that he would do whatever it took to save it......
Qing Ling tried her best to suppress her emotions and looked up at her master, her eyes becoming fierce.
"If he really hurts you, I will never, will never let him go!"
Mo Qian said slowly: "Back then, in Xianxia Pass, by chance, you summoned the Qingyun Sword sealed in your body. I knew I couldn't hide it from Emperor Hao, so I had to tell your mother's identity.
At that time, I thought that your mother was the queen of Chaoyan and the reputation of the Zhanggu family, and her children could only be the children of Emperor Hao, otherwise the people would criticize and the world would despise you, even if Emperor Hao was willing to let you go, you would not live a stable life in this life. ”
He looked down at Qing Ling, and when he saw that the corners of her eyes were faintly red and her expression was sad, he couldn't help but sigh.
"Master has always remembered that I told you that Emperor Hao was your father that day, and you were sad and sad, but it was for Chaoyan Muchen's ......"
Qing Ling recalled the past, his eyes were bright and dark, and he was speechless for a long time.
Mo Qian comforted her and continued: "Concealing your background and separating him and you is a last resort for me to do that day. I should have seen that the kid was too persistent and refused to let go of you after all. ”
After pondering and pausing, "Now your junior brother is gone...... If you want to ...... again"
Qing Ling raised his head suddenly, and said with a crying voice: "Don't! I don't want it! ”
In a moment of lightning, he suddenly realized that Mo Qian had already known about Luo Yao's death, and some of the emotions that he had secretly suppressed in his heart finally poured out completely and poured out in front of his master.
She raised her hand to cover her face, her breath was uneven, and her tone was sad and hateful, "I don't want anyone!" ”
Too many things come unexpectedly, and people suddenly become radical, only feeling resentment and injustice. Or, those inferiority complexes and hesitations that have been hidden deep in their hearts and unwilling to touch them, finally driven by anger, have the courage to say it:
"In this life, those who keep saying that they love me, those who think they care about me and are good to me, in the end, which one has not turned their backs on me?
My mother, who had just given birth to me, chose to commit suicide. Didn't she think about whether I would be lonely and unhappy if I lived in the world without a father and mother? Didn't she hesitate in the slightest?
You said Luo Heng was my father...... But how did he care about me and miss me? Before he died, he knew who I was, but he didn't say anything...... Let me watch him die in front of me, but I don't know that I am his daughter! ”
Qing Ling sobbed heavily, his teeth trembling, "And those people I once thought were friends, for the sake of power and hatred, they can ignore everything, and they can throw everything away!"
Do you think that Mu Chen can't let go of me because he really cares about me and can't bear me?
He's just used to my obedience, and he can't tolerate his caged bird changing owners! ”
She raised her head, her eyes were misty, and her expression was sad and desperate, "Even Xiao Qi ......
He said he would never leave me for the rest of his life, but in the end he left me behind.
He knew that leaving me alone would only be sad and unhappy for the rest of my life, but he still left.
No hesitation at all, no hesitation at all! ”
Mo Qian slowly hugged Qing Ling into her arms, and let her pull her sleeves like when she was a child, rolling down her nose and tears, and crying loudly.
But at this time, Qingling, in addition to being full of bitterness, was also full of resentment.
She sobbed and choked, intermittently, recounting the events of the years one by one.
How did Luo Yao die, and how was he saved by Luo Heng, and then fell asleep in Fuyang's Xiaoyue Pool for decades......
"Actually, I should have come back a long time ago."
Mu Chen's evasion when he mentioned Chongwu, he originally planned to send Xi'er to apprentice, but he switched to Fu Yu's disciple, and when she proposed to send Yuxiu to Chongwu, his opposition prevented him......
He wanted to speak again and again, and he was inexplicably confident in the future of the two......
She should have guessed, realized, that she should have come back to see......
Qing Ling buried her head in her master's arms, "I should have come back a long time ago...... I don't want to leave again...... The people in the world who are really good to me are here! It never mattered who my parents were. I don't ...... at all I don't know them! In my heart, Master is my Father! It's always been ......"
Mo Qian sighed gloomily, raised his hand to caress Qing Ling's forehead, rubbing her hairline like a child coaxing a baby.
In his heart, how could she not be his daughter?
It has always been a child who he tried his best to protect, but he never had a way......
In order to hide her identity, he closed Chongwu and set up the Xuantian Four Elephant Array, cutting off the possibility of outsiders entering the mountain.
But by chance, she exposed her identity under the nose of Emperor Hao.
So there was nothing to hide, so I had to send her to the Suzaku Palace, which was treacherous and strife......
All along, Mo Qian, like all worried fathers, has felt guilty about her past decisions and reflected on the shortcomings and shortcomings in the process of parenting.
When she was a child, she was worried that Qingling had inherited Luo Heng's arrogant temperament, and she was restrained a lot, so that this child was more in awe of him as a master than trust.
Li Zhong's family was in great trouble, and she would rather take risks herself than ask her master for help. The rebellion of Zhudingtai caused Yuan Qing to die and Li Zhong to be seriously injured. Over the years, only Mo Qian knew best in his heart what kind of mood he had, refining his divine power little by little, and extending his life for his apprentice......
knew that the road that Qingling embarked on was extremely difficult, but because he didn't like entanglements and disputes, he didn't bother to understand and study.
What kind of suffering she had suffered, what unbearable circumstances she had concealed, he had no idea of all this!
Perhaps in the first place, he was wrong.
She was the man's daughter, but he mistook her for his own.
Frustrate its edge, snatch its wings, and be bound by layers, and cannot be free.