Chapter 214: A dilemma
Yu Yin, who was in a dilemma at this time, couldn't think of any better way than to choose to sacrifice himself, thereby destroying his hopes and cutting off his back road.
However, death—to meet with one's body, to stop the war with one's life—in fact, Yu Yin didn't have to come to this point, or rather, he had thousands of chances to avoid coming to this point, but he still chose to turn back thousands of times, so that he finally came to this point.
As we all know, loyalty and filial piety cannot be both since ancient times; As everyone knows, what is the word "loyalty" and "filial piety" that cannot be fulfilled in this world? How can it be that this indistinguishable loyalty from the filial piety that distinguishes between right and wrong?
Therefore, when how many times Yu Yin could walk away, how many times could he freely roam the rivers and lakes with his eldest brother, and no longer ask about those worries that they could completely avoid, he still resolutely and naturally chose to come this step with his responsibility.
So, don't think that Yu Yin is a resourceful, shrewd and capable person; In fact, he is nothing more than a person who has the courage to change his fate in order to reap the praise. It's just that he doesn't know that his side of daring to challenge fate and fighting against fate to the end is another arrangement of fate.
The silent night came again silently as promised, and this promise was made at sunrise today; It's just that I don't know, when I make the promise again tomorrow night, will Yu Yin already hover on the verge of death? It's just that I don't know, when I fulfill the agreement again tomorrow and night, and quietly come, will Yu Yin no longer be in Zhong Daxuan's world?
At this moment, in the territory of the Celestial Empire, on the way to Suzaku Pass, Yu Yin, who was sitting on the ground in the camp tent where he was sleeping, was lying on the low table in the camp tent, staring directly at the envelope on the low table in front of him in a daze.
Suddenly, Yu Yin, who had a sour nose, waved his pen and neatly wrote four big characters on the envelope in front of him: Yu Yin's pen.
Immediately afterwards, Yu Yin pushed aside the envelope in front of him, and took the stack of letterheads that had been prepared on the side to his hand, and then mustered up the courage to write on the letterhead at hand while the iron was hot.
Brother Da Xu:
When I picked up the pen, I realized that I had so much to say to you, as if I could never finish it in my life. It's a pity that when you read this letter, my life was over.
As soon as Yu Yin wrote this sentence, his hands began to tremble involuntarily, and the emotions that he had tried so hard to suppress couldn't help but ripple at this moment; So much so that at this moment, the pen in Yu Yin's hand, which he had finally mustered up the courage to lift, was ruthlessly put aside by Yu Yin.
And at this moment, I could only hear Yu Yin hiding his face and crying, and said to himself repeatedly: "I haven't walked enough of this road!" Brother Da Xu; I haven't lived enough in this life! Brother Da Xu; I miss you so much! Brother Da Xu; I'm so sad! Brother Da Xu; I don't think I'll ever be able to get over this! Brother Da Xu......"
You know, why do people choose to die? That's because of despair!
But Yu Yin doesn't want to die yet, because he still has hope! But he still had to face death.
It can be seen from this that Yu Yin is so painful and helpless at this moment!
After a long time, Yu Yin calmed down a little, and when he mustered up the courage to pick up the pen again, there was an additional text written to Zhong Daxuan on the letterhead:
Ever since you and I were separated, I have always had a sentence that I want to say to you personally; But now it seems that this opportunity may not be available. No matter how life is tossing and turning, and no matter how difficult it is for us to intersect, my heart will always be with you, and of course, no matter where you are at this moment.
At this moment, Yu Yin, who had already realized that tomorrow was the Guyu Festival, couldn't help but recall the situation on the day of Gu Yu last year, and recalled the promise when the little fingers were hooked and pulled, and the thumbs were close together.
The past is vivid, and Yu Yin, who was bent on pouring out his apologies and expressing his heart to Zhong Daxuan, thought about it again and again, and wrote it on the letterhead at hand:
Forgive me for not being able to celebrate my birthday with you, forgive me for not being able to hold your arm to go all the way, and forgive me for not being able to fulfill my promise to be with you; But from now on, you don't have to feel embarrassed by me anymore, you can follow your heart and be your true self.
Find someone who won't tire you out and hold her arm! Live the free, carefree days you yearn for! No matter where I am, I'll be happy for you from the bottom of my heart.
The more Yu Yin didn't want to think about it, the more she thought about it; The more I think about it, the more reluctant I become.
In desperation, Yu Yin put pen to paper on the letterhead at hand and wrote the last words to Zhong Daxuan: I'm leaving, I really want to see you again, I really want to see you again.
At the end of the pen, Yu Yin signed himself as "Forever Yu Yin".
But how far away is eternity? Is it just a stone's throw away? Or is it between life and death? Or is it between truth and falsehood?
Thinking of this, Yu Yin cried again, crying even worse and sadder than Fang Cai.
On weekdays, Yu Yin fell asleep when she was tired of crying; And tonight, Yu Yin is destined to be sleepless all night. Even if he was tired of crying, he was reluctant to close his eyes. Because he wants to stay awake in every moment of his last time, even if he feels pain and helplessness, at least it proves that he is still alive.
At this moment, Zhong Daxuan, who was traveling on the road from Netherworld Mountain to Plaice Mountain, although he couldn't hear the sound of Yu Yin's throat trembling, he could sense Yu Yin's call from the bottom of his heart.
However, under this surprisingly silent night sky, Zhong Daxuan, who was on horseback and galloping on the mountain road, suddenly felt very cold, very cold, so cold that people felt almost desperate, although it was the end of spring, although Zhong Daxuan, who was strong and strong, had never been afraid of the cold, not afraid of the cold.
Perhaps, what Zhong Daxuan felt was not physical coldness, but inner loneliness and emotional desolation.
In the first year of Changming, March 12, Gu Yu.
The cuckoo cries at night, and it is another year of flying.
At dawn, when the morning dew was beginning to condense, in the territory of the Celestial Empire, on the way to the Suzaku Pass, Yu Yin, who was sitting on the ground and shed sad tears all night, got up and wanted to walk out of the tent to face his fate, and suddenly recalled the situation when he was still living in the palace of King Qi.
At that time, his identity was only the prince of the Qi Kingdom outside Suzaku Pass - Gu Liangyin; At that time, he was surrounded by relatives who were connected to him by blood, but no one would feel sorry for him, and no one would understand him. So he always hid alone in the dormitory of the Rujian Palace and cried secretly, and the more he cried, the more lonely he felt, and he originally thought that he would always be so lonely.
Until one day, when Yu Yin met Zhong Daxuan again at the foot of the Netherworld Mountain of the Celestial Empire, everything was no longer the same; That was the day when Yu Yin understood that no one will be lonely forever, as long as you believe in time, the person who understands you and cherishes you will appear sooner or later.
When Yu Yin thought of this, he couldn't help but think about it: If Brother Da Xuan saw my appearance at this moment and read the masterpiece I wrote by himself, he would not only be distressed, but maybe heartbroken!
Thinking of this, Yu Yin felt that even if he was allowed to die, it would be worth it after all.
So, Yu Yin had the same idea as when Zhong Daxuan recalled Gu Liangyin in the past, desperately wiped away the mottled tears on his face, and then resolutely walked out of the tent.
As for Zhong Daxuan at this moment, just after he wore the stars and the moon, day and night, fast horses, non-stop, and I don't know how many horses he changed halfway, he finally caught up with the dawn of this day, and rushed from the Heavenly Dynasty Netherworld Mountain to the area of the Heavenly Dynasty Plaice Mountain; He finally crossed the Plaice Mountain before the arrival of the Celestial Empire army led by Cheng Qilu, and arrived at this sad place that he once hated and still haunted him.
And at this moment, Zhong Daxuan, who was tired of traveling and driving, was carrying a white feather arrow and holding a Jinpeng bow, standing alone at the foot of the Plaice Mountain near the Vermilion Bird Pass, looking intently at the direction of the Vermilion Bird Pass, quietly, quietly, waiting for the upcoming army of the Qi Kingdom, waiting for the desperate fight that would eventually come.
Half an hour later, Gu Liangyuan, who was on the horse, carried the eagle feather arrows on his back as usual, and held the swallowtail bow in his arms, and led the vanguard of the Qi army majestically in all directions, and marched to the foot of the plaice mountain, in front of Zhong Daxuan.
When Gu Liangyuan, who was leaping on his horse, saw a person standing straight in front of him with a pestle standing in the way, so he hurriedly pulled the reins of his horse, and then fixed his eyes.
"Zhong Daxuan!" Gu Liangyuan shouted, and then questioned Zhong Daxuan again and again, "Haven't you already left?" How could they be here again at this moment? ”
"General Gu Liang, I should ask you this! You are not honestly guarding your Qi King City outside Suzaku Pass, why did you suddenly bring so many people to Suzaku Pass to show off your might? Zhong Daxuan asked Gu Liang Yuandao.
"What am I doing here in Suzaku Pass, and what does it have to do with you? Do I need to report back to you? Zhong Daxuan, you don't want to weigh yourself a few pounds and taels! Gu Liangyuan said contemptuously to Zhong Daxuan.
"This Plaice Mountain is my home, this Heavenly Dynasty is my home, and this world is my home! You kindled a war in my house, and what do you say has to do with me? Zhong Daxuan turned around and sharply questioned Gu Liangyuandao.
"Yo, Zhong Daxuan, when I was in King Qi's city before, why didn't I see you have such a big breath?" Gu Liangyuan deliberately uncovered Zhong Daxuan's scar.
"Before, I was under the roof and had to bow my head; And now, what your soldiers are stepping on and your horses' hooves are stepping on is the land of our Celestial Empire, so it should be your turn to bow your heads, General Gu Liang! Zhong Daxuan replied calmly.