"At that time, Captain Lu and Captain Zheng at the base also deliberately looked for someone. Find a relationship and ask the cadres and guards on duty in the barracks to pay more attention to not let people bully our orphans and widows. ”

Chen Ming took a sip of the boiled water in the water cup that had become warm.

"By the way, Captain Lu's lover also died on the Hongyuan at that time. It's a survey ship, but it's not even a ship. By now, I don't remember a lot of things. Captain Lu's lover seems to be surnamed Gao and is an engineer. ”

"I'm fine."

Chen Ming looked at Yuan Lang's hand patting his shoulder and smiled.

Later, Captain Lu went to sea, and Captain Zheng was always guilty. At that time, he was suspended from his job to check on him, and sometimes he didn't speak as well as he used to. I remember that at that time, he used to wander downstairs in my house with nothing to do, and my mother invited him to sit in the house, and he never agreed. According to him, he was the captain of the ship, and he should be more responsible for the accident than for this unwarranted disaster to my family. ”

Chen Ming turned the cup in his hand and continued to speak.

What is even more unexpected is that Captain Zheng may have been distracted by this matter, or he may have been negligent. Later, he also lost Captain Lu's newborn daughter. According to my mother, Captain Lu slapped Captain Zheng at that time, and I never saw Captain Zheng again. ”

"Creation makes people." Yuan Lang sighed, Zheng, Lu, and Chen were all victims of the accident.

Later, I heard that he seemed to be demobilized. I've been looking for Captain Lu's daughter. After being demobilized, they naturally couldn't live in the military family's house, and their family moved out. Captain Lu became busier and busier later, and in fact, my mother also blamed herself. ”

"She always thought that my father pointed out the route, and if there was an accident, my father would naturally be responsible. As a result, because of our family's affairs, Captain Zheng was distracted and lost Captain Lu's only daughter again. The loss of a wife and a child at once is the responsibility of our family. I'm sorry Captain Lu, and then moved away too. ”

"I rented a house with my father's pension from sacrificing the state, and found me a professional teacher at Xinghai Conservatory of Music. I eat pickles and steamed buns, and I have to leave the meat to me. ”

Chen Ming said, suddenly saw a box of cigarettes from Yuan Lang on the coffee table, took it out, took out one and put it in his mouth and lit it.

"Ahem~"

The first time I smoked, I was a little choked.

Yuan Lang stood up, walked to Chen Ming's side, and patted him on the back. Without reproaching him, he couldn't help but take away his cigarettes with permission. He knew that the big boy in front of him needed to talk, and he didn't know how long he had been carrying these words in his heart.

"The path of music, in fact, is quite expensive to learn. By the time I passed the exam at the Central Sound High School, there wasn't much left of my dad's pension. In this way, during the years I studied in the capital, I never had a short period of food and clothing. I told her, you don't have to be like this, I don't have to eat meat every day, and my classmates and teachers are very good and professional to me. But she wouldn't listen. ”

Chen Ming said as tears slowly appeared in his eyes.

"At that time, I thought about saving money. I also tried to write songs, and I wanted to sell them for some money and relieve them. But no one is optimistic about the song of a teenager. ”

"No one appreciates it, and I don't think anything else. I can only study hard and save money. Unexpectedly, now that inflation is so fast, the huge amount of money of about 1,000 yuan that she has saved for several years will only be equal to a month's income when she goes to the Naval Academy to pay it back to her. ”

"She wants me to live my life in peace and do something I love. Think what I think, love what I love. But I don't think people can live too selfishly, or maybe I'm selfish too. ”

"I can't forget when I was a child, when she was alone on a stool in the living room in the middle of the night, holding her head and sobbing silently. I swore I was going to do my dad's mission, or ideal. Conquer the Eighth Sea. ”

As he spoke, he extinguished the cigarette butt between his fingers in the ashtray. Chen Ming continued.

"It doesn't matter if it's the father's debt or the son's debt, or for the sake of ideals. There was always a voice in my heart telling me that if I didn't solve this problem, maybe my mother would live in pain for the rest of her life. ”

"I'm not like Xu Sanduo, he's honest, hardworking, and has the smell of being stunned, and he will carry out orders to the letter. It's not like becoming a talent, wanting to get ahead and gaining recognition from the people around you. is not like Wu Zhe, who has lofty ideals and ambitions. ”

"I feel like I'm just a very ordinary person, I just want the people around me to have a good time, be happy. When the No. 8 sea area is completed, I may make a demobilization report. Then go ahead and go down my musical path. Going to a talent show or something. ”

"In layman's terms, I'm afraid of death. I'm the only one in my family, and since my dad left, my mom has lived so much pain for so many years, and it's also for me alone. How could I let her down? ”

"Then why did you still come to the training camp at that time? And during the training, did you not offer to give up? Yuan Lang nodded understandingly, and then asked the question he was concerned about.

Afraid of death, Yuan Lang understands very well. No one is not afraid of death, and those who say they are not afraid of death just haven't experienced it. He was curious, obviously he didn't have the heart to join the special forces, so what made this big boy survive the ridiculously high elimination rate of the old A recruit training.

"First of all, I am a soldier, and it is a soldier's duty to obey orders."

While talking, he shyly reached out and fished his head.

"Secondly, although I am a little embarrassed, why miss this free opportunity for self-improvement. It's a secondment anyway, haha. ”

Chen Ming laughed dryly, feeling a little embarrassed about wasting the energy of the old A instructor and wasting training funds. After all, in the eyes of the special forces themselves, these trainings are inhumane. But think about it from another angle, how much money does the country need to throw into it to train a special soldier?

Not to mention these trainings, it is difficult for ordinary people to do it even if they have money. Self-improvement, self-enrichment, or free, these are all things that Chen Ming dreamed of in his previous life but couldn't ask for.

After three months of training, the food standard is as high as 63 yuan a day per person per day, all kinds of big fish and meat, as long as you don't waste it, you can be full. Each person consumes much more bullets than they would lose in three years in an ordinary company. Not to mention, if you are officially selected, you will receive training in the handling of various weapons and equipment.

"Besides, what guy doesn't love guns? I can't touch this 95 in the academy, let alone add these tactical accessories, it's handsome. ”

Maybe he felt that the atmosphere was a little depressing, Chen Ming said jokingly again.

"Moreover, Lao A's clothes are much more handsome than our big flower camouflage."

"Hey~"