In fact, Chen Pu did not have any urgent matters that needed to be rushed back to the Gyeonggi camp to deal with it. She didn't want to stay in the city at all, and she couldn't tell outsiders about her sorrow, so she told lies in front of her comrades.

Now, she's on her way to the North Gate. She sat on horseback, holding the reins loosely in her hands, burying her head slightly, her eyes falling on the Yingluo of the horsewhip in her hand, and she did not pay attention to the courtyards on the side of the road, the black doors, the long walls and the high-rise pavilions and open rooms behind the walls...... Her heart was troubled, and her thoughts were still stuck on what had just happened to her mother.

She came back this time to ask the military department to urge the Gyeonggi battalion to pay for the annual reward, and she just entered Beijing yesterday to go to the military department to prepare for the file, and before she could find a secretary to talk about something, she was immediately notified that she was going to attend a military meeting on the strategy of the southern expedition. The meeting lasted for a day, and it was not counted until the beginning of the meeting, so I didn't have time to enter the palace to say hello to my mother. She originally planned to go to see her mother early this morning, and said that she was going to congratulate Shangcheng on the joy of her housewarming, but who knew that she would meet the old lady of the Yiguo Mansion at her mother's house.

Unlike the meeting at the beginning of last month, this time, my aunt took her hand affectionately and said a lot of things. First, he asked her what she usually did in the Gyeonggi camp, how long it would take to go back to Beijing, and whether she should walk around more at her relatives' homes in Beijing when she had time, and said that nothing in the barracks could be compared with that in the capital, and that she must take care of her body on weekdays, and that she must be careful when she dances with knives and guns on weekdays...... In short, it's all gossip that doesn't go to the world and doesn't land. She could only hum and hum without saying a word. There was no way, her aunt just didn't let go of her hand, and she couldn't take the opportunity to pour tea and serve the cup to avoid it. Until now, there was still a soft and cold feeling on the back of her palms, as if her aunt's fleshy hands were still grasping her. Her aunt's appearance resurfaced before her eyes, and a smile of unpleasant satisfaction appeared on her chubby round face covered with powder and rouge......

She shuddered, and stumbled in the saddle, as if to avoid the embarrassing and pitiful gazes of the two paths.

My aunt also mentioned some things about her childhood. It's nothing, and who hasn't made it all the way since they were kids? But my aunt mentioned that once when several babies of about the same age were playing together, Wang Yi was the groom, and she was vying to be the new daughter-in-law, but in the end she cried for a long time before she finally fulfilled her wish.

Her face was hot and red. It's so embarrassing. She said she couldn't remember anything like that. But the mother testified on the side that this was indeed the case. Even if it's true, what can it be? Can you take the games you play as a child seriously? She's so angry. If it hadn't been for her mother's stern glances to warn her, she might have told her aunt bluntly that this was impossible!

However, even if she didn't have her mother by her side, she didn't think she would have the guts and courage to embarrass Mrs. Yiguo. She knows her own family affairs, she has been a soft character since she was a child, and it is difficult to blush with others, let alone disobey her elders. No matter how angry she is with her aunt, she can't say anything unpleasant, let alone do anything to make her aunt lose face. If her mother told her directly, she might still fight again, one by one, she didn't think she could fight over her mother; But since her mother didn't make the matter clear, she could only endure it first. She thought that if she came to her mother's place again in the future, she would say hello outside first, so as not to meet her aunt; If her aunt came while she was talking to her mother, she would find an excuse to get out of the way.

But she also knows that this will not solve the problem completely. She heard that the military order to transfer Wang Yi to the southwest had been issued for more than half a month, and it was estimated that Wang Yi would return to Beijing around Zhengdan. Her sixth brother, King Chengdu, will definitely find an opportunity to speak for Wang Yi in front of his father; The father has a good impression of Wang Yi, and it is very likely that he will agree. At that point, there was no chance for things to turn around.

This is where she suffers the most. On the one hand, she must not disobey her father's words, and on the other hand, she definitely does not want to marry Wang Yi. This is not to say that she dislikes Wang Yi. What can she dislike Wang Yi? Wang Yi is very handsome, well-read, born in a famous family, and has been well-trained since he was a child; He has been training in the military for many years, and he has a bookish taste with a heroic spirit, and he is even more outstanding. I don't know how many families want to marry their daughters to a good husband like him. But she is certainly not included in this. She doesn't dislike him, it doesn't mean that she likes him, and she doesn't want to entrust her life to him. But she couldn't go against her father's wishes, she didn't think about it like that......

She frowned, and depressedly let the green horse take her. This is a four-year-old horse, and he has been with her for two years, even without her care. Besides, this is Jingshi, where can the green horse run again? Just like her, even if she is reluctant to marry Wang Yi, what can she do? Even if she is lucky not to marry this time, she may not be able to marry again for the rest of her life? Even if she had this thought, it would be impossible for her father and mother to agree, and there would be criticism in the clan, so she would have to marry sooner or later. If you don't marry Wang Yi this time, you will have to marry Zhang Yi or Li Yi next time; In short, sooner or later, they will point out to her a man whose family background is worthy of her.

She sighed silently, her heart full of helpless sadness. Her first marriage was the master of her father's work. At that time, she was still young, just fifteen years old, and she didn't understand many things, so she married happily or in a mess. Her man's family background is also very good, and she is also a suave person, talented at a young age, and she is quite famous among the younger generation in the Xianmen family. The man is also good to her, so although the life after marriage is far from her imagination, it is not bad; It's never a happy thing, and this is something she slowly realized later. Later, the man died in Anzhou, and she also insisted on joining the army...... Eleven years have passed in a blink of an eye, and now in her heart, the appearance of men is not very clear, and many of the past events at the beginning have gradually faded with the passage of time, but in her memory, everything before and after her military service is as if it just happened yesterday.

It was the first and only time in her life that she fought for herself, although in the name of avenging the man, she knew in her heart that it was not for him, but for herself. She has longed to be a woman like Mulan since she was a child, and she also hopes that she can have a bold character like Mulan, and she also looks forward to the legendary experience of "the general died in a hundred battles and the strong man returns in ten years" and the dramatic effect of "going out to see her partners are terrified".

But the wish is beautiful, but the reality is cruel, and she did not become a praised heroine like Mulan in the end. Her life in the military camp was boring and monotonous, and her military career was lackluster for several years, if she hadn't gone out to the grassland with the army for nineteen years, perhaps she would have taken off this uniform long ago. That year, she finally understood what "a general died in a hundred battles" was, and how difficult it was for "a strong man to return in ten years". In those days and nights when she couldn't sleep and her sword didn't leave her, she always carried a few deadly herbs in her arms, watching her comrades fall down one after another and never get up, many people just knew each other and quietly disappeared before they had time to get acquainted, she was sad, cried, desperate, angry; Assaults, sneak attacks, ambushes, escapes, all these tragic scenes she has experienced, and she has personally participated in no less than ten bloody battles, several times with one foot on the edge of the cliff, but she survived. She even founded the country, as a daughter, she temporarily commanded a large-scale war in which tens of thousands of soldiers participated, and finally won the victory. This battle alone was enough to make her conceited. It is a pity that no one has credited her with this victory; Her name didn't even appear in the merit books presented to the imperial court after the war. She didn't fight for her share of the credit. At that time, she still adhered to the ridiculous princess reserve, treated the unfair treatment she suffered with a disdainful and arrogant attitude, and severely reprimanded the person who wanted to speak for her in private......

Looking back now, she was really stupid at that time. She didn't realize at all that she wasn't reserved or arrogant, but a sign of lack of courage.

Three years ago, she didn't have the courage to fight for her own honor. Now, she also doesn't have the courage to contend with her father and her own fate. After realizing this, she couldn't help but sadly admit that the persistence she showed when she was in the army, the bravery she showed on the grassland, and the decisiveness she showed when she was admiring Yanshan were actually all illusions. This also means that her desire to become brave and resilient through the tempering of the military has not been realized in the end.

She suddenly remembered what the person who was upset with her at that time said:

"You're not even as good as a rabbit! The rabbit is in a hurry and wants to bite! ”

It's strange that after so much time, she has long forgotten this thing to the point where she doesn't know where she remembers, but suddenly it appeared unusually clearly in front of her eyes. The man's hideous face was so vivid, as if he himself were standing in front of her, his eyes spewing with anger, indignation and incomprehension of her, staring at her deeply. She lowered her head, avoiding the two stares that had been projected from three years ago, and at the same time a very strange thought arose in her heart: Where did the blindfold that this guy usually wears go?

Yes, he has a point, and rabbits bite when they are in a hurry. But she is not a rabbit after all, and her father is ...... Cough! In short, she definitely didn't dare to bite her father.

She didn't dare to disobey her father. But she didn't want to follow her father's wishes and marry a man she didn't like, regardless of whether that man was Wang Yi or Zhang Yi. What the hell is she going to do?

She couldn't help but look back. Maybe she shouldn't have left the capital; Maybe she should have listened to him first......

She immediately banished the ridiculous thought from her mind. She can make up her mind whether to marry or not and who she should marry, her father and mother can also make decisions for her, and the close branch clan can also put their beaks in their beaks, so why let him be an outsider to interfere? I really want to beg him to help solve the situation, I don't know what the people outside will make up when they spread it...... Forget it, don't want this! Think about anyone who can help you with an idea.

However, there are not many people who can help her with ideas, except for him, there is only her sister.

She decided, so she went to her sister to help with an idea. Go now!

She looked around, discerned the road, and with a flick of the whip, the green horse leaped out. The young people who followed her hurriedly hit their horses and chased after her......