Chapter 442: Heavy on the mind
But Wei Han's troubles for a few days didn't pay attention to him at all, and he didn't see anyone to talk to in the palace, but he still didn't give up at all, and still ran over every day to make trouble, until he got a satisfactory reply.
The prince was not in the mansion for several days, and on the day he came back, he ran into Wei Han coming to the mansion to make a fuss.
What kind of person is the prince, he hasn't seen anything before, and the prince is not a master to mess with, his temper has always been very stinky, seeing Wei Han coming to his territory like crazy to make trouble, without saying a word, he called someone to come and drive him out, Wei Han began to resist, but he was weak and couldn't beat a person in the palace at all, and was injured by the men in the palace, and finally left in a hurry, but still did not mean to give up.
Gao Qiuye happened to be injured by Wei Han when he was shopping on the street. Hurriedly walked up and helped him and asked, "What's wrong with you, why are you so seriously injured?" Wei Han shook his head and didn't say a word, but the hatred on his face was written on his face, and Gao Qiuye shut up when he realized something, and didn't ask anything.
So he helped Wei Han all the way into his home, and he saw that Wei Han was so seriously injured. While rubbing the medicine on him, he felt distressed, and he was also thinking that he should stop provoking the relationship between him and Su Zhenzhen, he really couldn't stand the man he liked living so painfully.
Su Zhenzhen's illness is very serious, not a physical injury, but a psychological trauma, like layers of wounds, gradually closed in the hollow numbness of the self, what kind of experience is that, it is like a dead heart, it may not have reached that point, but I feel that I want to lose a piece in my heart, but it is true.
Losing her child, Su Zhenzhen lost her own happiness and world, she regretted it, regretted that she didn't pay attention, at such a critical juncture, how could she let the child play by herself, I can't wait to go back to before the accident and stay with the child.
"Why!" Zhen Zhen asked in her heart, she silently held the child's favorite toy, and felt as if the innocent and lively child was still lying in the crook of her arm, but after all, something was missing, and the child could never come back, and left her forever.
As Su Zhenzhen fell into self-grief, the smallpox outside had a tendency to suppress, gradually stagnating within the control range and no longer spreading to the outside world.
Mournful cries are often heard on the streets, and those people are saddened by the death of their loved ones.
Even if they are reluctant to give up, but after all, that mood can only be replaced by sadness, in the face of the menacing smallpox, no one can be indifferent, not to mention that such a thing happened around them, and at the same time they have to be soberly aware that if smallpox is allowed to spread, I am afraid that the entire capital will fall into darkness.
Fortunately, smallpox has been controlled now, smallpox is no less than the plague, once it breaks out, many people will die, this time fortunately it was found in time, otherwise I am afraid that more than 100 people will die.
In view of the severity of smallpox, everyone has palpitations, in the face of such a severe epidemic, no one dares to take it lightly, for those who lost their lives, I can only say sorry, thinking that smallpox is extremely contagious, and can only burn the corpses to avoid the spread of the epidemic, and also to take medicine to the people involved in the burning of corpses to avoid being infected by smallpox.
During this period of time, because of the smallpox epidemic in the capital, although everyone was closed, but because of various sources of infection, smallpox began to spread from the source to the outside in various ways, and also led to the death of hundreds of people.
But even so, funeral processions can still be seen in the capital from time to time.
After all, smallpox spreads, and the number of dead people is too much, resulting in funerals that are often seen today, most of them are hung in front of the door, and the white lanterns emit bright light, which looks a little scary in the daytime, but that's the case, no one can escape from it, and the horror of smallpox has now risen a notch in people's hearts.
In short, it is such a sad thing, the funeral not only makes people sad, but also easily reminds of the body of a relative, and even the ashes have not been left.
Because of the fear of smallpox, after the deceased was incinerated, most of the burials were clothed mounds, but the clothes of the deceased before his death, and some things that were often touched at hand, so the people who sent the funeral along the way were wronged and sad for some reason, and at the same time, they also felt bad luck for their dead relatives, and finally they could not even leave the bones.
This cannot be blamed on anything else, only for the rapid spread of smallpox, and the lack of timely prevention, which is why such a sad thing happened, and in the end it can only be remembered.
After a period of conditioning, Su Zhenzhen's body has improved, but there is always a heart disease in her heart, is that regret or what, is she willing to do it, she can't say clearly, if you study carefully, maybe she regrets not spending more time with the child!
In the palace, the county lord also looked at Su Zhenzhen helplessly, she said that it was fake not to worry, how could she not worry, looking at Su Zhenzhen On the surface, it was just nothing, but everyone knew in their hearts that Su Zhenzhen was just forced to smile, and even never smiled again, everything was a certainty.
I'm worried that Su Zhenzhen won't be able to think about it, after all, her current situation is not optimistic, and it seems that her body has recovered, but the scar inside may become inflamed at some point.
In order to be able to take care of her by Su Zhenzhen's side, the county lord persuaded Su Zhenzhen, hoping that Su Zhenzhen could stay in the palace, even if it was better to stay for a while.
But Su Zhenzhen shook her head, looking a little stubborn to pack her luggage, "County Lord, thank you for your kindness, I know you are for my good, in fact, I have already thought about it, I'm fine, that's the child's life, I can't stop it, you don't have to worry about me, I want to go back first, now the smallpox has not spread anymore, and now the things in the store have to be dealt with by me, it is the time to start again, I definitely can't be absent!" ”
Su Zhenzhen seems to be a tact, but in fact it cannot be refused, the county lord knows her temperament very well, as long as she decides something, she will definitely not let go, even if she persuades her, it will not help.
So the county lord repeatedly told Su Zhenzhen that if she felt bored and panicked, she would come to talk to herself and distract herself.
In fact, the county lord is also very busy, and the reason why he persuaded Su Zhenzhen to stay was because he felt that he could watch Su Zhenzhen by his side, so that he would not be unaware of Su Zhenzhen's changes in heart.
However, if Su Zhenzhen returned to the county lord's mansion, she would not have much chance to find Su Zhenzhen at that time, so she had such a show.
That is, after the county lord told Su Zhenzhen, he nagged Su Zhenzhen's maid, hoping that she would fulfill her duties and take good care of Su Zhenzhen, especially in the end, if there was anything wrong with Su Zhenzhen, she must notify herself as soon as possible.
In this way, under the reluctance of the county lord, Su Zhenzhen bid farewell to the county lord and followed the servant maid towards the county lord's mansion.
Smallpox has no longer spread, but its horror, its influence still exists in the hearts of the people, on the streets, from time to time there is a faint cry in the houses, the voice is sad and mournful, people can't help but feel panicked, Su Zhenzhen listened to the faint cry, felt that her eyes gradually moistened, she couldn't stop crying.
This is touching the scene, maybe not, but the sadness in her heart can't be contained, because she is also a person in the bureau, knows what is going on in the bureau, as the mother of a dead child, her heart is traumatized without others, just like a knife accompanied by a cry, a knife cut in the heart.
Even sometimes she will fall into a dream-like vision, often see the child appear in front of her eyes, and stretch out the immature little hand, as if she still hopes to be able to hug herself, hug the dearest person in the world.
In the carriage, Su Zhenzhen's crying gradually became sad, and there was a kind of unstoppable sadness, which was the anger she vented in her heart to be unwilling to herself, hoping to make herself forget such an unforgettable pain by crying, why me?
She cried grief, crying uncontrollably, it was the kind of instinct that could not be stopped at all after being patient for a long time, and even the maid couldn't persuade her, so she could only carefully wipe her tears for Su Zhenzhen on the side.
After Su Zhenzhen, accompanied by the maidservant and a group of people, returned from the palace to the county lord's mansion, she didn't see anyone, didn't say anything, and as soon as she got home, she immediately rushed to her room, and then locked the door inside, and no one was allowed to enter.
The servants all knew that Su Zhenzhen had been crying all the way in the carriage, and the whole person seemed to have collapsed, and if she didn't eat something, she would definitely get sick again, so the maids prepared some food and drink to let Su Zhenzhen recover her strength, and several people knocked on the door together and shouted, shouting for a while, but Su Zhenzhen still didn't say a word inside, and didn't respond to a word.
It was not a solution to keep shouting outside like this, but they knew that according to Su Zhenzhen's current physical condition, people would definitely faint if they didn't eat a little, so they took the food away first, and then discussed together to see if there was any good way to let her open the door.
But what good way is there for the maidservants? Several of them gathered together, racking their brains and couldn't think of any good way to get Su Zhenzhen to open the door, the more they couldn't think of a way, the more anxious they were, and the more anxious they were, the more they couldn't think of it.
These maidservants are all servants who have been staying by Su Zhenzhen's side, and they also have a deep relationship with Su Zhenzhen, and they are also very sad to see their master become like this now, and they are really worried that she will faint if they don't eat all the time.
One person simply said, "There's really no way, let's kick the door open together!" Let's feed the food to the master's mouth, and we have to eat as much as we want! After thinking about it, everyone still felt that this method was unreliable, although the intention was good, but this behavior was too reckless and undesirable, so several people fell into confusion again.
What are you doing in the room at this time?
This room is full of too many memories of her and the child, she naturally can't stop thinking about the child, every time she sees something about the child, she naturally thinks of the child, and then silently weeps, and then wipes away the tears.
In this way, I had to reminisce about every place in the room, and I kept wiping my tears and wiping my tears, and in the end, my tears were basically dry, and I couldn't cry anymore.
Su Zhenzhen finally sat down on the edge of the bed, and began to recall what the county lord had been persuading her before, and she gradually tried to change herself, it was not a way to continue like this, she did not do a good job as a mother, she should do a good job of herself.
She silently said to herself in her heart: "You have to cheer up, you have to be brave, you can't be so decadent anymore, the child doesn't want to see his mother like this, you still have to live your own life." ”
Su Zhenzhen has been encouraging herself in her heart since then, cheering herself up, allowing herself to cheer herself up and do her own thing, and her emotions have slowly eased. So with the changed mood, she finally had a good night's sleep.