Chapter 49 All I wish is in my dreams, and I look for her in my dreams
The next day, at dawn, a ray of sunlight shone on her body, and her whole person was like a spring breeze, glowing with brilliance.
She was stretching her waist and walking forward step by step. Sitting in front of the dresser, she looked at herself in the mirror, under a pair of willow eyebrows, there were a pair of eyes that were glowing with anger, the nose was delicately erect, and the lips were full at the moment, no longer pale, bloodless.
She reached out and took the eyebrow pencil on the table, compared her eyebrows and eyebrow peaks, and gently outlined the arc of the willow eyebrows.
She took the lipstick on the table, dipped it with her fingers, gently wiped it on her lips, went up and down, and then pursed her lips.
She caressed and touched her cheeks, with undisguised admiration in her eyes, she reached out and pinned the broken hair next to her forehead to both sides, and the smile on the corner of her mouth couldn't be stopped, she only secretly said in her heart: Beauty, very eye-catching!
"Knock-knock-" A knock interrupted her thoughts, and she gathered the smile on her face, straightened her appearance, folded her hands in front of her, and walked towards the door with a dignified demeanor.
Her slender hand gently took the deadbolt and set it aside, then quietly opened the door.
"Squeak-" The sound of opening the door came into her ears, and the woman in front of her, Lin Xi, was a little tired on her face, her eyes were dark, and her lips were bloodless, obviously looking like she hadn't had a good rest.
He Yan noticed that she looked at herself, her eyes seemed to light up, and for a moment she lost her mind, but it was only for a moment, and then asked her carefully: "How was your rest last night?" β
Lin Xi took her hands, her hands were cold and piercing at the moment, and the coldness penetrated into her body from the palms of her hands, He Yan paused slightly, took her hand and walked to the table, and did not forget to close the door when she left.
She held her down at the table, sat down beside her, wrapped her hands around hers, and rubbed them back and forth. Her hands were warming a little, but her heart was still cold.
"You're so good to me!" Lin Xi spoke softly, and what she said was sincere. Although she is a princess, she has never enjoyed any warmth, and even her husband has not given her half a point.
When He Yan heard this, she raised her eyes to look at her, her eyes were full of sincerity, and she could see that what she said was not a lie, but she also had some doubts in her heart, the princess was high, how could she be like this?
Lin Xi is a little like a child at the moment, maybe there is a little girl living in her heart all the time, just because in the palace, everything needs to be calculated, and she has already buried that innocence in her heart.
Maybe her innocence disappeared after marrying her beloved, and she had endless love, but she couldn't ask for it!
He Yan asked her seriously, always paying attention to her emotional changes, "What's wrong with you?" β
He ...... He's dying! She uttered the words in fits and starts, as if she had exhausted all her strength.
She chuckled in her heart, and naturally understood who she was talking about "he", and presumably only that gentle man could bring her endless sadness.
She was a little surprised, he was fine a long time ago, how did he become like this now? She also wanted to see what was going on in the man's head, and she always ignored her wife.
"To each his own life!" She could only use a comforting tone, trying to comfort her, and at the last moment of her life, her relatives could only fulfill his wishes, nothing more!
After thinking about it, she said seriously: "You can fulfill his wish!" β
Lin Xi's emotions seemed to be unable to hold back any longer, tears welled up in his eyes, ran down his cheeks, and fell to the ground drop by drop. She seemed to hear a ticking sound, heard her choked voice.
She could only stretch out her hand and gently pat her shoulder, and with the other hand took the handkerchief and wiped her tears, and soon the handkerchief was soaked, but her tears seemed to flow endlessly, little by little, and never stopped.
After a while, her tears gradually dried up, the tears had already dried up, her mood seemed to be better, and she no longer had a sad face, as if all the unhappiness in her heart had been vented.
But He Yan knew that she didn't, but she didn't want to meet people like this anymore.
He Yan hugged her gently, patted her shoulder with her hand, and comforted: "In front of me, it doesn't have to be like this!" β
"Hmm!"
Lin Xi relaxed a lot, and for many years, all her emotions had no one to confide in. Today, she experienced the feeling of being able to rely on, and the funny thing was that everything was given by someone who only had a few faces, and even the person she loved the most never gave her half a point.
Her mind was in a mess at the moment, thinking of the name that the man had dreamed of countless times in the middle of the night, the guilty eyes he had in his countless late nights, the love he had for his son, the dimness in his eyes in his last days, and the bitterness in the corners of his lips.
She knew why he didn't want to leave, he was afraid that the woman in the distance would not be willing to forgive him, what he was most afraid of was that he couldn't be with her even if he died, he only had her in his heart, but she didn't know.
"You said that people could replace each other, how nice it would be!"
"Then there will be no true love in the world!" He Yan somewhat understood her thoughts, everything was just because of love, and she was already infinitely humbled.
When she heard He Yan's words, she was also a little skeptical of her thoughts. She shouldn't be like this, so she changed her mind instead, "You're right, maybe everyone can be replaced that way, but then everyone loses their meaning!" β
"Yes!" She praised her, but she still seemed to be preoccupied, "Why are you distressed, can you talk to me?" β
As long as Lin Xi remembered that he was holding his eyes open, he didn't dare to let his eyelids droop, just to see if he could control himself at the last moment. He tried for a long time, sleepy and sleepless, just to have a little last hope in his heart, "He will leave soon, but he is holding on, I feel distressed when I look at it!" β
He Yan thought about it in her heart, she had never heard of someone who didn't want to die and practiced for a long time without closing her eyes, but in fact, death also didn't blink your eyes.
He may also know, but just to reduce the guilt in his heart, and he also hopes that she will see him tormenting himself like this when he is far away, and give him a chance to see her again.
She looked at the woman in front of her, she really felt sorry for her, the person he was thinking about was a bad move, giving him a good excuse, but making people feel sorry for him, "Take me to see him, the source of my here is also because of him, it's not good to come for nothing!" β
"Good!"
Lin Xi was a little surprised in her heart, in fact, although she called her over before on the grounds of illness, she didn't have hope, she also coveted someone to talk to, and she also knew her hardships alone, so she had that source.
She looked at the determined light in He Yan's eyes, she was even about to be deceived by her, where was her hardship at this time? It's just because the light on her body seems to be a little dazzling, but in fact, it's just the sense of light given by the heartbell!
He Yan naturally didn't know that she was radiating light, if she knew, she would definitely smile self-deprecatingly, and say again: the brilliance of motherhood?
"Let's go, take me to see what happened to make you feel sorry for being such a big bad guy!"
He Yan tried to change the topic, wanting her to be in a good mood, people can't always be endlessly sad, even if she is really sad in the end, she still has to think about her son.
Lin Xi laughed unconsciously, took her hand, and walked out the door, at this moment she felt full of strength, He Yan seemed to be her mother's family.
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"Ahemβ"
As soon as He Yan stood at the door, he heard a weak cough from inside the house, one after another, and Lin Xi gently pushed the door open.
She followed Lin Xi in and saw the man lying on the bed at a glance. His chest heaved slightly between coughing and breathing, as if he were using a defibrillator, but his amplitude was not large, but it was even more worrying.
She carefully examined the furnishings in the room, and on a small wooden spine was a stack of books. There is a painting hanging on the wall, and the figure in the painting seems to be Bai Mochen's, but it can be seen that it is not painted by him, and the person who painted it must be very delicate, maybe it is a woman, but it can be determined that it is not Lin Xi.
The man in the painting, with a jade face, a white coat, surrounded by a lively street, he looks very different, but fortunately, his eyes full of affection seem to come through the sea of people, just for the person in front of him.
"Let's go!" Lin Xi pulled her over, she came back to her senses and walked to the bed.
The closer she got, the air filled with a faint scent mixed with a faint smell of medicine.
"Husband, He Yan wants to see it for you!" Her words are full of care, and there is a glimmer of hope.
The man seemed to be awake from a long cough, but he could also hear the weakness of his body through his voice, "Ahemβshe has a heart!" β
Lin Xi stretched out his hand and pulled out the transparent bed curtain on the bed, the man's face was completely exposed, although he looked weak, but his warmth was like bringing it to his bones, and a look could bring warmth.
"I'll take your pulse!" She looked at him and spoke softly.
Lin Xi immediately stepped forward, took out the man's hand from the quilt, carefully placed it on the corner of the bed, and helped him tuck the quilt by the way, the action was smooth, as if repeated countless times.
He Yan probed his pulse, then reached out and lifted his eyelids, observed his pupils, and finally just shook his head, and then stood aside and thought.
In this process, the men were quiet, without saying a word, and let any Yan go for examination. But she could observe that his heart seemed to have accepted his result, as if he had already thought that there would be such a day, but his hand was in the shape of a fist a moment ago, and he still had an unfulfilled dream in his heart.
"You have a good rest!" She whispered to the man on the bed, but her hand went to the side, pulling Lin Xi and walking in the direction of the door, and she didn't stop until she was in front of the door.
"What's wrong?" Lin Xi looked puzzled, not understanding her actions this time, but following her footsteps in belief.
He Yan looked at the person in front of him, seemed to have made up his mind, and said in a firm tone: "I can't do anything, but he seems to have a knot in his heart, so he is reluctant to leave!" β
Lin Xi's heart was full of helplessness, where could his wish be fulfilled, so he could only muttered to himself in a low voice: "But how can I find a dead person?" β
He Yan understood that the person in front of him could understand what he meant, so he simply didn't go around in circles, and simply said it all in one go, "I can help him, but it's just a dream!" β
"A dream?"
"Hmm!"